I Favor the Villainess
15. That it is Lily
"Hey, Ray. What do you call a homosexual?
Lunch.
As I was grabbing lunch in the dining room, Misha made fun of me for making such a bomb statement.
Lady Claire and Laine can get away with it.
"Hey, Misha. I don't care how you touch it, it can only be a hassle..."
"Master Misha. I don't think these things really talk to the piss, do they?
Dear Claire and Lene, it seems to me that we should stop talking about this.
"I don't mind talking about it, but you want to hear it?
"As my best friend, I'm curious."
Even if you think I may be gay, it's a little touching to say so properly.
But when we talk about this, it's gonna be subtle air.
"Hmm...... Maybe, but I guess I am. I've never liked a man before."
……
Master Claire took a gentle distance from me when I said it was obvious.
Pack the distance for being separated.
Then, for that matter, I was separated again.
"Why are you taking a distance?
"Because I feel like I'm in danger."
He said, "I don't want to do anything."
What do you say?
Well, what a reaction to homosexuality.
In general, the existence of homosexuality tends to be highlighted by its sexual orientation part.
In previous life, homosexuals were often portrayed as if they saw all same-sex subjects as sexual objects.
As a result, just because you're gay, it's a "don't attack me" reaction.
The media is not so developed in this world, but homosexuals portrayed in plays and novels were still similar.
"Dear Claire. I know the reaction is too prejudicial because you're gay."
So Misha's reaction was unexpected.
"Where is it?
"For example, Master Claire is heterosexual, right?
"Of course."
"You like Master Sein, don't you?"
"Ray, can't you make some tea? Just keep your mouth shut."
They pissed me off.
I have no choice but to shut up.
"What would you think if Master Claire told a man not to attack you?
"I'm not such a crazy bitch!
"That's right. But that's exactly what Claire told Ray."
"... ah"
Lady Claire's face became stiff.
Misha's perception is very sound and correct.
Homosexuality is just that sexual orientation is different from normal people, and nothing else is different at all.
I don't always crave you, and I don't say or act sexually when I'm nagging you.
"As it were, well... You're just saying that the person you liked happened to be a woman, right? It doesn't have to do with gender."
"Hmm? That's not true, is it?
"Huh?"
"Gender has a proper relationship"
"Oh, really?
Lene's argument is this, again, a common assumption of homosexuality.
If the bias that Master Claire has is a negative assumption, it is also a bias that should be called a positive assumption.
It's another story if it's bisexual, but homosexuals don't like heterosexuality in a sexual sense.
That gender doesn't matter if you like it, or maybe you're right by reason, but at least I don't like men.
Gender has something to do with it.
"You are. I didn't know much about it either."
"Well, you won't have a chance to know, so I don't think you'll have a choice."
Homosexuality is still an overwhelming minority in this world.
Prejudice is strong, and understanding is low.
Homosexuals portrayed in plays and novels are either unscrupulous to their sexuality like Claire's assumptions, or extremely idealized beings like Lene's assumptions.
Diversity is another dream world.
"Do you want us to do more of this, or something like that?
"Hmm, I don't know. I'm just happy to love Claire every day."
"You, that's what you keep saying, so I feel like I'm in danger too, huh?
Yeah, I'm totally bad at that point.
Say, it's like I'm acting like an entertainer selling homosexuality, which was spreading homosexual prejudice in my previous life.
But...
"You have to tear it up, you have to do it."
Ha ha, and I laughed.
But no one responded to that laugh.
"Ray... you..."
Misha sends a carefree gaze.
Oh, because this is what happens, I didn't really want to talk about this.
"It's okay, it's okay. Because it's the usual thing that thoughts don't pay off."
Yes, it is.
It's sad, but as a strict fact, homosexuality is a minority.
Even if you like someone, that thought seldom comes true.
But that's something I can't help.
It's not anyone's fault.
If you insist, it was just bad luck.
More importantly, homosexuals are not the only ones who have hard feelings in love.
I caught a glimpse of Lene.
"Hmm? What, Ray?
"Yeah, anything"
We will soon be touching on this again.
"So Ray has given up on Master Claire?
"You're stepping in a lot today, Misha."
"I apologize if I offended you."
"That's not true. Right. When you ask me if I'm giving up, I can say yes or no."
"What do you mean, Ray?
Lene also asks.
"I don't expect Claire to accept my thoughts. Master Claire has someone she likes, and I'm here for that, and I'm just happy to be nearby. But..."
"But?"
Master Claire also asked.
"But that's why I can't give up on Claire altogether."
Haha, and I'll laugh and make it a little more brown again.
It didn't work out again this time.
Things are going crazy.
"Well, that's why Dear Claire, please stay as you've always been. 'Cause I'm happy for what I am."
"... yes..."
"You don't have to like me, do you?
"I won't."
"Death Yoney"
Thanks to Lady Claire's immediate denial, I went back just a little bit to the usual way.
Yeah, yeah, how's it going, how's it going.
"Yes, that's it for this story. Bye, Master Claire. Shall we flirt as usual?"
"I won't!? I mean, I never did!?
"Again. You're not a dick."
"You said your bedtime words after you went to bed!
"haha"
……
It's totally as usual now.
The serial feeling just now is foggy.
I mess with Lady Claire, Lady Claire gets annoyed, Lene forgives, and Misha watches over it.
Really as usual.
Yes, as usual.
As usual, I'm just a little... really just a little spicy.
In previous lives, often, intellectuals trying to eliminate prejudice against homosexuals criticized entertainers for selling homosexuality that appeared on television.
I'm sure that claim is not correct.
But I think so, too.
I'm not so sure if it's true or false, but I thought some people couldn't do it without tearing it up.
Of course, it's true that such an entertainer is spreading prejudice.
If you can, you should also eliminate prejudice.
But even homosexual people in reality have a certain number who deliberately behave the way such prejudice demands.
People will have their reasons, but I think they're in there.
People say it's hard to live if you don't tear it up.
Even if I like people, they rarely respond, and if I don't say anything, I can stay closer than the opposite sex, but farther than anyone from the moment I like them.
I wonder if there are any of those people who have had to laugh off before they know it, after repeating that over and over again.
I would never say that all homosexuals are.
But at least I was.
"Dear Claire,"
"What is it?"
"You hate me, don't you?
Even today I ask that of Lady Claire.
Do you like it, I don't ask.
I can't ask.
Because I know the answer.
"Of course."
"Death Yoney"
And keep going like this, as usual.
"But I like it."
Even if it doesn't arrive, if it doesn't pay off, I like Master Claire.
There is no future.
Still, I can't stop thinking.
"I hope you like the same homosexual people, hey"
But I think love is falling.
It's not like you can choose who you want.
Really, love is a bad thing.