About my hopeless brother and sister

"What why?"

"Why...to somehow, shout Qin Lan's name."

She turned back sharply, her long hair smacking my face like a whip, she reached out and gripped my shoulders hard, blue eyes, looked into my eyes, and asked forcefully.

"Ah...no why...just, thinking of Qin Lan."

There really wasn't anything ah, there really wasn't anything, I had nothing with Qin Lan...although that I was going to have something with her once...but I really didn't have time to think about Qin Lan right now, just a sudden memory of Qin Lan...I'd forgotten about that time, but there was still this scene.

It doesn't explain anything, it's just a meaningless scene.

"Why...why...why when you're with me...you think of other girls ah! "

The blue gems in Lin's eyes seemed to explode and crumble into tiny ember as he looked into mine.

"You kissed me, didn't you? Didn't you kiss me? I'll be the first, I guess! I'm the first girl you've ever kissed. Why? Why do you think of other girls when you're with me? Have you ever kissed them? Why...why are there so many girls around you...why! How many more of you...how many more of me...ah..."

Lin Yiran's head hit my chest hard, and his hands gripped my shirt hard. The eyes of the people around me were a bit strange, but I didn't pay attention to them.

Lin Yiran was probably a very strong girl, and she didn't shed a single tear.

"I'm sorry..."

I don't know what to say, this kind of unnatural reason for being angry shouldn't make any sense, to me Lin Yiran's anger towards me is the same as Wu Mo Xi's anger towards her, I should have a lot of things I can say to refute her.

However, there were so many thoughts in my brain that the only thing that came out of my mouth was this, an inexplicable apology.

Why did I need to apologize, and what was the point of my apology? If I apologize, does that mean I was wrong? So if I'm wrong, will I not be able to mention other girls in front of Lin Yiran in the future? Why can't I mention the other girls in front of Lin Yiran? Is it because you're worried about Lin Yiran being jealous? But why do I have to worry about whether Lin Yiran will be jealous? Would I not mention Wu Moxie in front of Qin Lan or not mention Qin Lan in front of Wu Moxie? What's the difference between Lin Yiran and them?

I froze.

These questions came one after another, and in the end, there was only one answer in front of me.

In my mind, or in my subconscious mind, Lin Yiran, was different from the other girls.

I was worried that she was jealous.

Because, she's my fiancée.

Why.

I should be the one to ask this question. Lin Yiran has only been back for a few days, why does my brain automatically define her as a "fiancée"? Is it because of Lin Yiran's brainwashing tactic of whispering "I'm your fiancée" in my ear for a long time? Or was it because of Uncle Lin's comment....

It's because even the chairman had a fight with me because of Lin Yi Ran?

The fact that the chairman and I would actually fight over a third person was simply impossible for us.

And Lin Yiran did it.

This girl, did she set this all up? Did she use all sorts of ways to get me to acknowledge her as my fiancée? In just a few days, I've cared more about her than all the other girls, and she planned it all? If so, this girl's mind is not at all inferior to the chairman ah.

After all, it was born to, manage others.

Lin Yiran was silent in my chest while I was thinking.

I couldn't see her expression, but, I felt that she wouldn't shed any tears.

"Really..."

Her voice broke the silence, she sniffled and lifted her head, her eyes a little red, but, there were no signs of tears. She reached out her hand, rubbed my face hard, and said with a bitter smile, "Honey... you really, let others, no way to be angry... is this your good or bad side... ...If you...I guess you can't even be angry afterwards, I guess."

"...It's late, let's get back."

I didn't know what to say, I just really wanted to end this topic quickly.

"Yeah."

She nodded softly, dropping her hand and taking mine again.

It wasn't that I hated routines, I'd told myself many times in my mind that I didn't reject the life that someone else had planned for me, and I even inwardly longed for someone else to set the path for me. But but I looked at Lin Yiran beside me, I always had an unacceptable sense of entanglement, Lin Yiran was great, perfect, an almost flawless girl, why should I be dissatisfied when such a girl was arranged to be my fiancée? Normally I wouldn't say no, but, but, but, but....

Is it because of the rebellious spirit of a teenager? Obviously this is the perfect setting, obviously this is the perfect life, and I'm a little conflicted because it's someone else's design?

I'm in, resisting something....

I don't want to just, like, be with her.

There's a voice inside me that's calling, and it's a voice that I can't suppress, no matter how hard I try with my rational mind, it lives tenaciously in my heart, gathering his anger his thoughts into every drop of my blood, pouring them into my brain, his voice vibrating back and forth in my brain, battering my self-professed impeccable rationality.

How to handle it.

I don't know.

I really, don't understand. How to suppress this voice, which shouldn't be there, but it's there, a virus that shouldn't even be in the computer's hard drive, spreading extremely fast and powerfully, shattering my perfect CPU all over, breaking my thoughts of life into shattered bits and pieces.

Leaving what I thought was my rationality and sanity, in smoke.

Chapter 83 on my increasingly crumbling relationship

"Sister, I haven't seen you for such a long time, you really have become so pretty."

"Oh, I'm very happy to be said by you Yiran, I didn't expect you to be so pretty now, it looks like I'll have to put on makeup to see you again."

"Sister don't joke around, you're such a pretty girl, if you wear makeup again, will you still let others go out to meet people ah."

Well, it looks like this picture is pretty sweet. Two very pretty girls sitting together eating hotpot, both with bright smiles on their faces. The president's behavior today was also quite good, a smile on his face peaceful and elegant demeanor, I sat next to the president, but I was not harassed.

I drank a Coke in front of me in silence, looking at the meat that was almost as soon as it was cooked. These two girls didn't care about the amount of food they ate, though. The only girl who seemed to be paying attention to how much she ate in front of me was Wu Moxie.

A clear sound of glass collision, hello hello hello these two people toast have not brought me ah, you are already forgetting me is it? Don't get carried away by complimenting each other. While it's true that you're all pretty, why do I think the Chairman is prettier....

"Sister is really not easy either, bringing Qin Feng up from a young age. It's also taking care of Qin Feng now, right, huh, sister is really great."

After taking a sip of juice, Lin Yiran's eyes swept over to my side and said to the chairman with a smile.

The chairman smiled without making any movements, she picked up a piece of tofu and then said, "Fine fine, it's quite a happy process to watch Qin Feng grow from so small to such a big one. Watching Qin Feng grow up a little bit is also what makes me the happiest as a sister."

The president's hand gently reached out to me... Hey hey hey you touched my head this time I can understand, what do you mean by touching towards the lower part of my abdomen? Stop! Stop! One centimeter further and I'll report you for sexual harassment!

I took a sip of my drink and didn't broach the subject. It was a rule of mine not to participate in topics that had anything to do with me.

"Sister is really having a hard time, she used all her past time on Qin Feng. But Qin Feng has also grown up, so sister should be a lot more lenient."

"Yes, although Qin Feng is very sensible, but Qin Feng's relationship with me won't be that good when he's older, it's really sad."

Hey hey hey being able to accept your sexual harassment isn't a sign of a good relationship ah, if you could stop being so perverted I'm sure I'd be stalking you like before alright. It's all because of your own sexual harassment, okay!

Lin Yiran's blue eyes turned slightly, looked at me, then at my sister, and didn't say anything. The president gently put down the chopsticks, looked at my side with a smile, and then said, "Well, when my parents just left, I was also quite confused, although on the spur of the moment... Don't... Brother, don't look at me like that! ...Ahhh, it can't be impulsive either... I don't know how to say it... I'm also quite confused after saying that I have to raise Qin Feng by myself. I don't know how to take care of Qin Feng, and I owe it to a lot of people for helping me. Qin Feng is also very sensible and has always been very obedient, and he is now growing up. I'm also very pleased to see Qin Feng like this. I don't have any regrets about my past time, and I don't have any plans for my future, so as long as I can take care of Qin Feng, I'm satisfied."