About my hopeless brother and sister

"Well, looking at Qin Feng like this, it's really enviable, I confessed once before, and then, I was dumped."

Qin Zhe laughed bitterly, then touched his own head.

Ah, got dumped ah, don't feel bad don't feel bad, this kind of thing is something that happens often, have you forgotten the three major human delusions? There are times when you think they like you and you like them, yet in reality they don't like you at all, even if you end up preferring to sacrifice yourself for her, you'll just get a good guy card or brother card, and then she'll live happily ever after with another person, and they might even be a fish....

And even if you like it, both parties don't necessarily stay together. I'm a person who values results over process, and for me, the process of liking someone doesn't matter, as long as we can end up growing old together to complete the genetic transfer.

But if that's all I really think, then why would I reject Lin Yiran? All of the above are words that I lie to myself at times like this. Although many times I value the outcome over the process, there are just too many things I have to think about, or that I let myself think about, in matters like this.

It's just a matter of not mentioning it, we're still friends.

"Which of these girls do you like, Qin Feng?"

Qin Zhe asked me with a smile.

I pondered for a moment, then said, "They all like it."

"I'm going to my country is monogamous what do you want to do, no no no, before considering this matter, you should also consider whether these girls around you agree or not ah."

Qin Zhe looked at me stunned, and I looked at him for no reason, then said, "What's wrong? And I didn't say which way I liked it. I'm just saying that I can get along with these girls. I like these girls."

"Well, for a guy like Qin Feng, if he's willing to get along with someone, then he really likes that person."

Xiang Zhe said with a "I understand you" expression on his face, "Hey, I didn't contact you because I like you, I don't like you, but because I had to get to know you, I played with you until now.

Qin Zhe laughed and then said, "Then, if Qin Feng you were to choose one of these people to marry, who would you choose?"

"Only among these people?"

"Hey, these girls are good okay, what are you not satisfied ah, I told you you do not have a heart deficit ah, you still want more after picking?"

I'm just thinking about the possibility that there will be a girl more suitable for me afterwards, and if you want me to choose one of them, that's fine.

Well, let me think about it... if I'm choosing for the purpose of marriage.

"Well, it would probably be... Song Yixin. Wu Moxie could also be..."

I actually wanted Lin Yiran too, but I've turned her down, it's too cheap to say I want to marry Lin Yiran at this time, even if I do regret it, it's too early at this time, I'll be looked down upon by Lin Yiran.

"Eh? Don't you like Qin Lan?"

Xiang Zhe looked surprised at my question and I sharply covered his mouth and said, "Shut up! Don't say that out loud! That was all a long time ago..."

"What a long time ago... Woo! Whew! Ming...Ming is...school..."

As Xiang Zhe struggled against my desperate attempts to stop him, Qin Zhe looked at me with a very strange look and said, "Song Yixin and Wu Mo Xi? Well, I do have some impressions of Wu Mo Xi, but I really don't have any feelings about Song Yixin, so why did you choose Song Yixin?"

"Well, Song Yixin's tutoring is very good, she's well-informed and gentle, she's actually still athletic and quite energetic, I guess. Moreover, she's also very good at housework, and I really like the food she cooks. If I get married, I'll have less things to worry about, so this kind of girl should be the first choice for marriage. Well, if you say Wu Mo Xi, Wu Mo Xi is because she is more obedient, and Wu Mo Xi also has the attitude of learning household chores, if you say that if you marry Wu Mo Xi, Wu Mo Xi should also be able to become a good wife who can teach her children soon."

Qin Zhe tilted his head in puzzlement and asked, "Then, what are your thoughts on her?"

"Ideas? Thoughts I just said."

"No, I mean, what's the difference between your feelings for her and for the other girls?"

I tilted my head up and pondered, am I different to Song Yixin than I am to other girls? Do you? If there is, it can only be because I have more respect for Song Yixin, after all, Song Yixin's good upbringing makes me have to be more serious in front of her, other than that, if I'm talking about favoritism or something like that, I don't think so.

To put it another way, a little bit of favoritism is a feeling I don't have for every girl. If I were to bring some souvenirs back from this trip, I'd probably buy a few souvenirs that are exactly the same, I really don't have any feelings that I particularly care about a certain girl, even if I did before, I don't have them now.

After all, it wasn't just Qin Lan that I had to consider now, there were too many girls in my world.

"It's no different, I guess."

I said honestly.

"So that means that in terms of a relationship like romance, you don't have a soft spot for Song Yixin?"

"Right."

Chin Chul looked at my face, then sighed and said, "Then why are you marrying her. You don't even have the feelings of being in love with her, so how can you marry her."

"Huh? Why, I think, marriage and love are two different things, I guess. After all, marriage is not something that can be solved by liking everything. If I had to go through with marriage, I would definitely choose a girl like Song Yixin."

This is logical, right, even if I like Qin Lan, and then I'm faced with having to have a wife at this time, can I choose Qin Lan? The words...well...coming home at night, having to clean the house...cooking, and occasionally dealing with the occasional madness.... ...

Forget it, I'd rather choose Song Yixin or Wu Mo Xi, Wu Mo Xi may be stupid but at least he won't be irregularly twitching!

"Qin Feng, why are you so realistic... When you were little, didn't you ever hear any stories like the princess and the prince living happily ever after in the end?"

I can't communicate with you," Qin Zhe said with a long sigh. The chairman didn't have much time to tell me stories, and I could have listened to many stories on one hand at that time, such as the story of the wolf.

Besides, if defeating a dragon or a witch was all it took to marry a beautiful princess and live happily ever after, then life was too easy. Or maybe it's because they're a princess and a prince that they can live happily ever after. Life is never poetic and happy-go-lucky, it's not like an I like you is going to solve all your problems, and a real life is going to be far scarier than a dragon or a witch.

"If only life were really that simple, so-called romance and liking wouldn't solve all the problems, rather, it would lead to a lot of problems. Like doesn't have to be together, like doesn't determine life, and there are countless possibilities that can make this like just like forever. So, this kind of relationship is not reliable."

I said with a sigh.

"Life without feelings is hell, and it's only if you like it that you have the motivation to overcome life's difficulties. If you're afraid of the things that stand in the way of your feelings, then it can only mean that you don't like her at all."

"It would be a loss if you're head over heels just for the sake of liking it."

"Well, everyone has a different opinion on such issues."

Xiang Chul saw that we were both silent for a bit, looking at each other with a "are you an idiot?" expression, smiling helplessly and starting to make rounds. Chun Chul twisted his body and lowered his head to open his phone, and I noticed that the wallpaper on his phone was his sister. But it was only for a split second, he quickly snapped his phone shut and said, "My sister will come to find me out later, I'm going back to my room."

"Yeah."

I nodded and watched him walk out of the room. The silence was a little frightening as only Xiang Zhe and I were left in the room.

After a while, maybe because I couldn't stand the awkwardness, Xiang Zhe stood up, said hello, and went back to his room, and after a while, a window popped up in the bottom right corner of the computer I had on, your friend is playing dota2.

Well, I wasn't angry or thinking about anything, rather, I just didn't want to talk.

I looked at the time, I guess, if Wu Moxie came looking for me, this is the time to come over. I got up, gathered up the rest of my food, and threw it into the trash can on the side. Then I prepared my clothes and sat on the edge of the bed, looking at my phone, ready to go.

Well, it didn't feel like I could talk to Chun Chul. I don't know how he feels about it, but I lost my parents at an early age, which leaves me with little time and energy to frolic with them, and I only have one sister, and I spent the time I used to pamper myself growing up, so that's why I'm such a worldly person, I guess.

I admit that dreams are a good thing, but they are also a bad thing. I think that hope is something that is a paralyzing thing that makes a person think that they have not wasted their life, but in reality the person is no different from a normal person, but is only paralyzing themselves to constantly have satisfaction and happiness.

Hopes and dreams, for me, have no meaning, I don't have any idea of pursuing the so-called "real life", nor am I willing to work on things that are misty or even necessarily unsuccessful, my eyes, always stop at what I can do.

"Da-da-da... Qin Feng? Are you packed?"

The door was knocked lightly by someone, Wu Mo Xi's weak voice, sounded outside the door.

I promised, well, for me, I will only go to think about the shopping tonight. As for this shopping will happen, will it affect my life afterwards or whatever, I won't think about it.

Chapter 115 about my exhausting journey (III)