About my hopeless brother and sister

As I watched the fish being pressed against the chopping block by my uncle, I felt like I was the same. Being pushed down hard on the chopping block, struggling in the vain hope of avoiding that cut, but it was bound to come sooner or later.

I've gone to great lengths to keep everyone's relationships together, and in the end, I feel like it's going to fall apart. I'm just adding bricks to a house built on quicksand. I want my world to stay the same, a dream that is completely unrealistic, a dream that has no possibility of success has no need to exist, it can only keep hitting the wall and still feel no pain, so that you can't feel your own sorrow before you die, like, a prisoner dying by licking the feet of a sheep.

It's still laughing before you die, but in reality, it's just a poor condemned prisoner. To die laughing and still not know how pathetic your situation is, that's what makes a person pathetic.

Like this fish, reality will slice off your seemingly sturdy scales and give you a good stab to the head.

A dream without the possibility of success is poison.

I don't believe in this and I won't do it, this futile thing, but it's something I'm enjoying right now. I understand how embarrassed I am, how ridiculous I am, how powerless I am, and I even know exactly how this building is going to collapse, and yet, I am still reinforcing it.

There are some things that, even if you understand them, there is no solution.

There are some dreams that are just not meant to come true.

I was doing it, something I hated immensely.

Chapter 126 about my painful choice (I)

The matter with Qin Lan, it seems, didn't spread out.

I looked at Wu Mo Xie who was sitting opposite me stirring his juice in high spirits and thought so. Originally, when I came out today, I thought that the matter with Qin Lan a few days ago was told out and Wu Mo Xi came over to ask for an explanation, but when I came out, Wu Mo Xi didn't say anything about it, and, there was no strange reaction.

Wu Moxie's mind is really easy to guess, her face can be seen through at a glance, she's someone who can't hide secrets ah.

Song Yixin kept it a secret, but I don't know why, I didn't say that it was a secret, Song Yixin could have told it, even made a big deal about it. However, I think that Song Yixin has a good tutor, so she won't become a middle-aged woman carrying a basket of vegetables and chewing her tongue in front of a hutong, right?

However, I had the feeling that Song Yixin kept her secret not because of any politeness, and I had a vaguely bad feeling, but it was unfounded.

"Your cookie milk."

Beside me, the waiter carefully put the hot cookie milk in front of me and said, Wu Moxi seemed to suddenly react that she was the one who called me out today, embarrassedly looked at me squarely and said, "I'm really sorry, Qin Feng, I specially called you out today. Actually, there's something."

"Mm, you say."

I took a sip of crank milk, I actually felt that it was very dangerous to drink this kind of stuff in front of Wu Mo Xi. Because, to this day, I remember the huge trouble I got from drinking this stuff in front of her for the first time. Drinking this in front of Wu Mo Xi always gives me the feeling that what Wu Mo Xi is going to say next could be something very troublesome.

As Wu Mo Xi carefully sipped the juice, I watched as the liquid in the clear straw gradually rose, coloring the entire straw. I actually don't think there's anything careful about this glass of juice, maybe it's the hot drink? She noticed me watching her, moved away from the straw, swallowed the juice, spat, and maybe calmed herself down? What do you have to be so nervous about?

"Well, actually, Qin Feng, did you know that you'll have to re-elect the class president after the school year starts?"

Wu Moxie squeezed the straw and looked at me and asked.

"I don't know."

I shook my head, I hadn't paid attention to these things, and besides, the election of a class president wasn't news. I had no reason to care, I wouldn't run for office or be involved in such things, and I didn't have a penny to do with it, so I wouldn't care.

"Well, actually, I want to run for election..."

"Yeah."

I nodded, this wasn't a bad thing, and it wasn't easy for the always shy Wu Moxie to have the courage to do this. It's good for Wu Mo Xi to participate in this kind of event, although it's not like I don't participate or have the qualifications for Wu Mo Xi to participate, but the fact that she has this self-consciousness makes me think that Wu Mo Xi is really changing.

Wu Moxi hehehe smiled with embarrassment and a little pride, like a child who was praised for doing a good deed. Very cute, well, really. I nodded and took a sip of the milk in front of me, stirring. Well, I don't think there was anything more serious going on, if anything, Wu Moxie should have looked more serious, but it wasn't obvious right now.

Probably, just to talk to me about it? Well good, when we get back I'm going to work on the seasoning of the boiled fish, the last time I made it, it almost spiced me and Qin Lan to death. In the end, we threw that fish away and ordered take-out. It's pretty nostalgic to think about the two of us who were desperately grabbing water to drink....

What an ass! I didn't rob her, I almost got spicy!

Not only is it spicy, it always feels like, it doesn't taste as good as I thought it would, I'm going to have to go back and change the ratios of the spices.

"So, I hope, when the time comes to vote, Qin Feng, you'll be able to vote for me."

Wu Moxie looked at me and said with a shaky smile. I nodded, well this kind of thing is considered normal, friends, it's normal to vote for a friend. Although the current class president and I have a delicate relationship, I don't have any ill will towards him, and I don't really think that I should change the class president, if I say that I don't vote for the class president and continue to still be him, I don't have any problem with it, but since I'm going to re-elect him, then I'm definitely going to help my friend.

"It's just, I heard that Mashiro is also running for election... so, I... um..."

Wu Mo Xi sighed after taking a sip of juice and looked at me forlornly and said.

I understood, took a sip of milk, and said, "Is Qin Lan also going to participate? I didn't hear that."

"Yes, Elyssa is going to attend, and Elyssa doesn't seem to be joking, it's outrageous to suddenly say last night that I'm going to attend when I've already said so."

Wu Moxie was a little unhappy and could tell that her eyebrows were going to be screwed together. She took a hard sip of milk juice and spread her anger on the straw. I think it's a bit unreasonable, well, Qin Lan is also a student in this class, it's not like she can't run for election, it's just a matter of time, Qin Lan shouldn't be targeting Wu Moxie. However, I can understand, Qin Lan is a princess in the class, so being the class president is considered to be in line with her identity, of course, it's possible that her friends forced her to participate.

But in this matter, Qin Lan was not at fault whether she actively ran for the election or was forced to do so.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with this, except that after Qin Lan joins, your chances of winning are pretty much gone, Wu Mo Xi, so you might as well give up."

It was indeed true, Qin Lan's popularity was different from Wu Mo Xi's, Wu Mo Xi was almost non-existent in the class. And on the class, who would listen to your speech? It's not like you're running in some presidential election where no one cares what you promise because you have nothing to promise either. This election is simply about who is popular.

Not only is she popular among the boys, but also among the girls, you see Qin Lan is surrounded by a small circle every time she leaves class. As for Wu Moxi, if I didn't talk to her, it would only be the class representative who would talk to her when she collected her homework. There was no comparison between the two of them at all, there was no need for Wu Mo Xie to participate, and the moment Qin Lan ran for election, Wu Mo Xie was already doomed to lose.

But it was nothing, there was no shame in losing this kind of thing that was going to lose anyway.

"Why, no, I don't want to give up!"

Wu Moxie raised her eyebrows, which shocked me a bit, as far as I could remember, Wu Moxie never seemed to have made such a firm action. Normally, Wu Moxi should hold the cup, shrink his body, gently say "Oh" and then go to cancel the registration?

So can I say that the current Wu Moxie is abnormal? What Wu Mo Xi lacks is indeed confidence, but this Wu Mo Xi is really overconfident ah. Confidence to the point of doing things that are impossible for you to do, that's no longer confidence right, confidence is having an apt assessment of your own abilities, Wu Moxie you're arrogant now ah.

"Don't do the impossible."

I took a sip of milk and frowned, I didn't want to explain anything more than really, don't do the impossible. It's a rule, don't do the impossible.

Wu Moxie tilted her head and looked at me with obvious confusion and said, "Why is it just impossible? Is surpassing Barbra in the polls just impossible?"

"There's no way you can beat Qin Lan in this, Qin Lan is able to instantly blend in with the people around him, which you and I can't do. We're the ones who can make the people around us immediately ignore us, unlike Qin Lan. You couldn't win against Qin Lan in this kind of crowd pulling thing."

I couldn't imagine how Wu Mo Xi was going to be able to canvass for votes, just with Wu Mo Xi's communication skills? I'm worried that she's having problems speaking properly in front of outsiders. If Wu Moxi could communicate properly, the literary club wouldn't have the crisis of being understaffed. Rather, with Wu Moxi's cute appearance, she can attract many boys to come in.

We're not yet chameleons, chameleons can blend in with their surroundings, we can only dig a hole to get our heads into. Then the guy next to us would look at us and say "MDZZ" and walk away.

It doesn't matter, I'm just an ostrich la-la-la.

It seems that in reality ostriches don't hide themselves, I forgot, whatever. Who said that you don't need to consider science when giving examples? If no one else has said it then take it from me, it might even appear in some student's essay notes, right?

"But, I haven't tried it yet..."

"Is it necessary to try such things?"

I was helpless, it's obvious there's no point in trying something that's not possible, right? Because how could you try? There's no way you can beat Qin Lan. Qin Lan's friends, whether they're the best or average, are already more than half the class. If you were compared to Qin Lan, if I were me I would vote for Qin Lan too. There's no point in trying something like you.

"Why not, I have my dreams too! I want to be class president, too!"

Wu Moxie seemed a little angry, and she looked at me with some anger.

I took a mouthful of milk and ended up getting stuck on a cookie, so I helplessly put down the straw and said, "This dream of yours has no meaning of existence, because it's completely impossible to come true. If you have any complaints, you should complain about being in the same class as Qin Lan, you're in a different class, and when the time comes to show your face and sell a cute face or something, people will still vote, but Qin Lan will completely erase your advantage. Well, maybe I'm going a little overboard, let me put it another way, a dream with little hope and a dream without hope are the same, forget about it while you can Wu Mo Xi."