About my hopeless brother and sister

Her words didn't have any temperature, she looked at the pot, the heat couldn't melt the coldness of her words. Song Yixin sighed, looked up at the ceiling where there was nothing and said, "Qin Feng, I never thought that you, who could comfort me, who could accompany me, who could save me from a bunch of thugs, would do something so stupid."

"Stupid...this thing, yes I know, I know it's very stupid, I said it at the beginning!"

"And do you still do that?!"

The sudden outburst of sound scared me, Song Yixin picked up one side of the kitchen knife and slashed it into the chopping board, she threw her head back with extreme anger in her eyes, as if she was going to eat me alive, she yelled at me, no, this wasn't a yell anymore, this was a growl, this wasn't the roar of a human being when they are angry, this was the growl of a beast when they are enraged.

"You know! Yes! You know everything! You understand everything! Then why are you doing this! Do you think it's possible? Do you think it's possible to have your stupid, stupid, stupid romance? Do you think there's a future between you? You won't have it! You'll have nothing! You should know that nothing is possible between you! You're just wishful thinking!"

She looked at me and reached out and fiercely grabbed my collar, her angry face twisted like a demon, it was the kind of anger that is unbearably humiliating after being played with, I don't know why, but I felt Song Yixin's anger was the feeling that she had been played with, that she had been played with by a cheap trick!

"How can you and your sister fall in love! Don't you know that very well? You have no future at all! Would you please make your relationship official! You think that being married together is as simple as two people being together! You think the rest of your life is going to be all about harmony and family happiness! There's no way you and your sister will ever be happy! You've got nothing! You have no family, no friends, and possibly no home at all! Don't you get it? You love your sister, but what can you give your sister! You're going to ruin the future and happiness of both of you because of one word you say right now?! You think you can solve everything with love! Are you living in a dream?!"

Song Yixin violently pushed me away, she looked at me, tears rolling out in a steady stream along her eyes, she rubbed her eyes roughly and continued to rant, "Why are you so stupid! Why are you so stupid? Why would you do this if you knew what you were doing! What do you want now? What more do you want now? Bringing your sister back? Or do you want to get your sister back? No way! Qin Feng! Absolutely not! Will you come back to reality?!"

I looked at her, Song Yixin's angry words were like a knife that was slicing my heart open one by one, Song Yixin's words weren't wrong, rather than Song Yixin's words, Song Yixin was saying all the things I was afraid of inside. That's right, Song Yixin is right, I can't promise anything to my sister, I can only promise that I will be able to like her in the future, but what's the use of liking her? I can't give you anything!

How can I give my sister what she wants when I don't know anything? Now all we have is what uncle gave us, we have nothing, what can I give my sister if we are together?

My hands are clenched in fists, I am so weak, I am so powerless. I have nothing yet I fantasize about the future, about the beauty of my life. I'm just a high school student, I'm no different from anyone else, who am I to rebel against the world and fight for everything I want?

I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything...I can't do anything.

If you can't even secure the life in front of you, you don't have the right to raise your head to look at the clouds in the sky.

The world is so cruel, and it has never gotten rid of what is called the law of the jungle. Without power, one can only pray powerlessly. But even God doesn't heed the pleas of the weak.

"Do you just want to ruin your sister's future like this? Not to mention your sister's future, and yours, too! Are you going to give up your own future like this? You're a freshman. You have a bright future ahead of you! You have a life after that! Do you just want to wipe out all possibility of yourself right now?! And your happiness? What about your future! Would you please treat yourself and your future right!"

Song Yixin's voice was choked with aggravation, her tears kept pouring out, making her cuffs wet, but they were still flowing out, and she looked at me, choking and shouting angrily, "Qin Feng! Will you please treat yourself! You're always abusing yourself, can you be kind to yourself and think about your future and your happiness. I...even if you dumped me, I want to see you happy, even if the person who gave you happiness is not me, I want to see you smile. Please! Please don't like your sister! Put this heart away...stop this...please...please be happy...please... Like the right person even if that person is not me...please...please...take care of your future.... ..."

Song Yixin seemed to be out of strength, she leaned against one side of the counter and crouched down, weeping noiselessly. She looked at me with pleading and hope, and even pleading.

She was doing it for my sake.

I know that, I can understand that. Song Yixin was saying this for my own good, Song Yixin wanted me to have a future as happy as a normal person could be.

However, she didn't know that I now, no longer had the right to choose my own future. I don't know if I had one in the past, but now, I don't have one anymore.

"I don't have a future now!!!"

I've got no future now!

I looked at Song Yixin and shouted, "Even if I'm not a sister, I don't have a future anymore! My sister left! Uncle wants me to get engaged to Lin Yiran! My future is only Lin Yiran's, and I'm not even allowed to choose it! I only have one future! I have only one choice! Why wouldn't I want to choose a normal future? That's because I don't have a choice at all!"

Song Yixin looked at me, held the stage, and slowly stood up and walked to me. I could see the moist sparkling eyes that were a little red and swollen from the tears. Song Yixin gently reached out her hand and wiped the corners of my eyes.

Why, would I feel a bitter coldness?

Did I cry?

"Does being with Lin Yiran make you that miserable?"

Song Yixin hugged me gently, Song Yixin was tall, Song Yixin was almost as tall as me, so it was just right that I was leaning on her shoulder. Song Yixin patted me on the back, soothing me. It's a little sad that Song Yixin is making Song Yixin act so boyfriendish when I'm obviously the only boy.

"No...yes..."

I shook my head, but then I nodded again.

"...What do you want to do? Do you want to like Lin Yi Ran as much as possible? There's nothing wrong with Lin Yiran, I think Qin Feng, you should be able to fall in love with her soon."

"Don't you want me to run away or something?"

"Does it work? Where can you escape to? You can't escape your fate, Qin Feng..."

Song Yixin let go of me and took my face up, she still had tears on her face but came over and reached out her hand and wiped the tears off my face, she grinned a hard, but warm smile, she held my face, looked at me, smiled as hard as she could and said.

"If you can't choose your own future, then let yourself, feel happy about the future... I'm sorry... Qin Feng... I can't help you ...But, you and your sister will never... I will never support you in this, and I will never help you, Qin Feng, stop this, okay? Even with Lin Yiran, you have to be happier than you are with your sister, treat it well, your future, as long as you're happy, I'll be able to, smile..."

She let go, took off her apron, looked at me, took two steps back, smiled, and said, "Well...I'll be off...though I don't know if I'm free or not.... ...But, the day you and Lin Yiran get engaged, I'll pass...Goodbye, Qin Feng."

We didn't seem to have said anything goodbye between us.

What did this goodbye mean?

The sound of the door closing softly sounded, and then, everything fell silent again.

This door between Song Yixin and me also closed.

Chapter 217 about my encouraging teenage girl.

I think I've lost Song Yixin.

No, it's not that Song Yixin has ignored me since then, or even avoided me or anything. Song Yixin didn't treat me that way, and I should say that Song Yixin's attitude towards me now isn't any different from the past. That's right, not now, but in the past. Song Yixin would greet me with a smile, say a few jokes with me, and work well with me in student council meetings. If one were to look at it from the outside, one shouldn't be able to tell that we had any conflicts.

However, Song Yixin was no longer willing to approach me.

Her contact with me was always limited to the "obligatory," that is, except for the occasions when she had to see me. Song Yixin would not contact me. It was just like the time when we first met, when she and I didn't have any interaction.

Every time I wanted to talk to Song Yixin, I didn't know what to say. Song Yixin's figure flashed in front of me every time, so I couldn't catch it at all.

It was just like my sister.

I tried to look for my sister, but every time she seemed to be avoiding me, I couldn't find her, and even when I blocked the entrance to their class, I couldn't see her. If once or twice is normal, but I can't always see her, then it means that my sister is avoiding me.

I don't know why my sister was avoiding me, maybe because I was so bad that night. I barely said a proper word, and didn't resist when confronted with my sister's attempt to leave. I suppose my sister was disappointed in me, and if that was the reason, I had nothing to say.

But I couldn't see my sister, even though I was waiting here as soon as I got out of school. My sister may have left early, and their class didn't tell me, but maybe she warned them about it. For three days in a row, I had no luck, and I stayed against the wall, watching the duty student inside pack up her supplies and walk past me.

The door to their classroom was locked in the locking column, the hallway was lonely and illuminated, and the last person to leave looked at me, then confirmed the lock and turned to go downstairs. The only sound left in the senior year old building was the footsteps of the person who had just left, which faded away with echoes in the hallway, and soon there was nothing.

I was left alone, staring dumbly at the overhead lights.

To say what I was thinking about now, or what I wasn't thinking about, I couldn't say myself. Because there's something strange about my brain, I feel blank, but then I feel like something is flickering. I feel very desperate for my life, but my brain is still encouraging me.

My uncle sent me a picture two days ago of Lin Yiran trying on a dress, or maybe it was just an engagement session and we don't use things like wedding dresses yet. But Lin Yiran in the red dress was still so beautiful, she was a little shy looking at the camera, but she was smiling a little happily.

I don't hate Lin Yiran, although it's not Lin Yiran's fault that his problems are forcing me to tie the knot around him. Lin Yiran didn't use it to threaten me and never mentioned it, although maybe Lin Yiran just wanted to use it to threaten me later, but that was something that didn't happen after all, and I couldn't speculate about Lin Yiran that way. Rather than saying that Lin Yiran was forcibly engaged to me, I felt that Lin Yiran was also a victim.

She became the tool my uncle used to keep me away from my sister, and she became the handcuffs that bound me.

I pressed out the phone, and Lin Yiran's smile on the phone disappeared with it. I straightened up, sighed, and prepared to leave. There's no point anymore, there's not much time left for me. There's nothing I can do, I've never been so helpless as I am now, I refused Qin Lan's request, Song Yixin left me, I've, there's nothing I can do.

"Qin Feng... are you finally leaving?"

Suddenly, in one corner, a figure stood up. It startled me, I didn't even notice that there was someone else there.

Wu Moxie patted her clothes, perhaps she had just gotten up from the ground, she looked at me and said, "Qin Feng, you're here, what are you doing? I see you've been staring at this place for a long time, why do you have to be here on your phone?"