About my hopeless brother and sister

"No, it always felt a bit strange that Qin Feng, who consistently didn't study late, suddenly started studying late. Hmm...but I think I know why."

The corner of Song Yixin's mouth squeezed out an ugly smile. I couldn't understand the significance of this smile, just like her eyes, what is this? Is that a sorry smile, or a pathetic smile, or an embarrassed smile? I didn't really understand it, but I knew it was definitely an awkward smile.

"It's no surprise, I guess, even if I'm going home now there's no point in going home, it's just a simple meal and game by myself. I've had enough of this for a few days, might as well have a place where I have something to do."

I shrugged, I wouldn't even fire if there wasn't anyone at home. A home, no matter what, is only a home if you have a family, and a home fire would be too much trouble if it was only for me to move. On the one hand, it's somewhat not easy to prepare a meal for just one person, on the other hand, it's really too troublesome to clean up the kitchen afterwards, so it's better to just buy a covered rice back and throw the lunch box away once the table is wiped after eating it.

In that case, I'd be just like Qin Lan. There's no one in the house, not even a need to talk. Don't even need to turn on the lights, just turn on the lights in your own room, look at the computer screen, run around on a virtual battlefield with a bunch of people you don't know, working for each other's relics and our relics, and don't even need to move the chair except to go to the bathroom. The house was much the same as no one else's, no sound, no warmth, no nothing.

It seemed as if I was the only one left in the whole world. If it was before, I would feel that this world is so beautiful, no one has to care, and I don't have to worry about others caring about me, I just need to be paralyzed on the chair. But now, I actually feel a strange sense of irritation, and a fearful impatience, I want to talk to someone, I want to see the people around me, I want to have someone around me to talk to, I don't want to, I'm the only one.

That kind of life then, I might as well go to evening study, even if those classmates and I didn't particularly know each other well, but, at the very least, I could still see Wu Mo Xi's face, I could still quietly watch Wu Mo Xi seriously lift up his hair to study during class.

"Qin Feng is actually, very afraid of loneliness, right. There's no one at home, it must be, like, very lonely."

Song Yixin laughed bitterly and looked at me, gently lowering her head as if looking at her shoes, in her voice, there was some vague fear and guilt, she whispered, "All of this, it's because of me, isn't it. I'm sorry, Qin Feng, I'm so sorry for making you feel so bad right now..."

"No, it's not your fault Song Yixin, you didn't do anything. It's all my own fault, both past and present. I've gotten used to it, or rather, resigned myself to it. After all, I'm the one who was too weak, I was the one who started and ended things and didn't last, and by now, I'm just glad that I still have you guys by my side."

I nodded my head, speaking the truth, that's what I wanted to say. I wasn't blaming anyone, nor did I want to. It's all my own fault, betraying my sister, hurting Yiran and Qin Lan, and now the loneliness and the pain I'm feeling is all I should have to bear.

Song Yixin raised her head, her mouth twitched twice, she reached out and wiped the corners of her own eyes, took a deep breath, then smiled and said, "There's really nothing I can do about it, it's Qin Feng after all... However, Qin Feng you don't have to be afraid of loneliness, if you want to eat dinner later, I'll make it for you and bring it to the Here come the good ones. Anyway, we're the only ones here besides the meeting. You're welcome, Qin Feng."

I sighed helplessly and said, "Why does it feel like, I'm just like Qin Lan now... I need someone to take care of me..."

"Of course." Song Yixin walked up to me and gently held my face and looked into my eyes, and I looked inside her black eyes, which were full of heartache, and didn't say anything. Song Yixin just looked at me and said, "No matter who it is, they all need someone else to care about them. A person can't live on no matter what. Qin Feng, even if you only have me and Mo Xi by your side, we will still take care of you. There is no need to continue to be strong Qin Feng, if you want to cry, cry out, if you are tired, just say it. We, we all understand..."

Chapter 225 - About Me... (IV)

"Qin Feng...that...um...um...it's the weekend tomorrow...what are your plans?"

Wu Moxie sits next to me, kicking her legs as she quietly glances at me and asks.

I bit my spoon and looked at the snow topped coffee in front of me and said, "There."

It was indeed there, although I would have loved to go out with Wu Mo Xi on the weekend, and even if I didn't, I could still play two games online. Unfortunately, I promised Song Yixin earlier that I would help Song Yixin review the show this Saturday. But it's not that it's not impossible to bring Wu Mo Xi with me for this activity, it's just that I'm a little unbearable to have Wu Mo Xi get up early just because of this boring job, after all, it's better to get more sleep on a good weekend.

"Ah... so ah."

Wu Moxie lowered her head somewhat disappointedly, looked at her kicking legs, propped her head up and looked at the sky outside, then said, "That, can I know, what and who is it tomorrow?"

"And...um, go review the program for the graduation party."

It's better not to say Song Yixin, after all, I'm not sure if Song Yixin will be there tomorrow. Besides, if I said Song Yixin, Wu Mo Xi would definitely come over, and that would be different from what I had in mind. No, no, I definitely didn't hide it from Wu Mo Xi for anything and Song Yixin's duo.

Wu Moxie turned her head sharply and looked at me, puffing up her face a bit and looking at the side of my face, she said angrily, "You just said there was someone else, right."

"No."

Why are girls always so sensitive about this kind of thing... I just casually said just a sentence and purposely skipped the key place, Wu Moxi actually managed to find out.

The first thing you need to do is to get a good idea of what you're looking at, and what you're looking at. I looked at Wu Mo Xi's somewhat angry black eyes and actually felt a sense of guilt, but I couldn't avert my eyes at this time....

"Who you're going out with!"

Wu Moxie looked at me and asked menacingly.

"No."

Hang in there hang in there, just get through it, don't look anywhere else, look her in the eye. You didn't do anything wrong, you did it for her. Believe yourself that you're not doing it for Song Yixin, you don't like Song Yixin, you really don't like Song Yixin, you don't have any thoughts of being with her.

You didn't betray your girlfriend, you really didn't betray your girlfriend.

"No really? Really?"

"No no! I swear."

"Oh, so."

"Yes, that's right, you have to trust me."

"So you're going to audit the show tomorrow, right."

"Yes."

"Then I've got Yixin out shopping tomorrow ah."

"She doesn't have time, she has to review shows or go play tennis matches."

My calf took an even more vicious blow than the first, and I was in tears, Maiden ah you're wearing boots now, a kick is painful. Of course what really hurts me is not the calf, but I've been trapped, I've been trapped by this once simple and kind girl! Why do I even get excited when I'm not even fighting yet. Did my IQ get washed away by a snow top?!

"Qin Feng! You actually lied to me!"

Wu Mo Xi viciously continued to kick me, I backed up and apologized, "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry... no no no... can you stop kicking me for a while... ...No, no it's not, it's not what you think..."

"You're my boyfriend and you still want to be with Yixin and go behind my back! How do you expect me to trust you! What's more, you're trying to hide it from me!!!"

Wu Moxie was really pissed off and was kicking and screaming at me, and I could see several pairs of students nearby looking at me with strange eyes. Probably, it's the same eyes that look at scum. Well I know I'm sure I'm a scum from what Wu Moxie said unilaterally, but I'm not lying, I'm really not intentionally trying to hide it.

"I was wrong I was wrong, really, really, Mo Xi I was wrong. That, I really didn't think about being alone with Song Yixin or anything. It's not like it's just the two of us since tomorrow is the auditing show... It's just that I don't think you'd like something that boring... So I didn't want you to waste a weekend."

I tried my best to explain, but Wu Moxie finally stopped her leg, then snorted and looked me in the eyes and said angrily, "Qin Feng this is your fault! Why did you hide it from me! I wouldn't be angry even if you were to go with Yixin to audit the program tomorrow, I know that's something you have to do, but I'd be angry if you hid it from me, and you and Yixin have to hide it from everyone else, how can I trust you? And how did you know I wouldn't want to go? Do you think I like playing games? Didn't I tell you that it's because you're here that I like it. It's just because you're there."

I sighed and touched my head. So much for thinking it was indeed my fault....

"Okay I was wrong, Mohee, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kept it from you. That...I'm going to audit the show tomorrow, do you want to go? It's at school, but very boring. Come see me tomorrow if you want."

I looked into Wu Moxie's eyes and said as much as I could in my gentle voice. Well I can't tell the difference between my gentle voice and my normal voice, rather I think all my voices are the same. It's just that it's very nasal now because of the cold.

Wu Moxi looked at me, the anger on her face was still there, but she wasn't going to continue to be angry, she snorted, then sighed and said: "Really, before I didn't notice that Qin Feng's EQ was so low... I'm your current girlfriend! ...Can you not always be so silent and considerate of me, I do think that you might as well tell me everything as you did before..."

Okay okay this is really wrong of me, but it's not my fault, it's also my first time dating someone else, but I'm inexperienced as a boyfriend.

But I feel a little uncomfortable with Wu Mo Xi's words, Wu Mo Xi said "I'm your current girlfriend". She did not say "I'm your girlfriend now", although the two are just slightly different, but the meaning is completely different. In the latter case, Wu Mo Xi is trying to emphasize the fact that she is my girlfriend, while in the former case, it means that Wu Mo Xi is emphasizing "now".

In other words, she was already ready to break up with me. I don't know what I've done wrong that would make Wu Mo Xi ready to break up. Does Wu Moxie not like me that much, or is it just a strange human psychology that only what you can't have is good, and now Wu Moxie understands the fact that I'm an idiot with no emotional intelligence and no flirtation?

Thinking about it like this makes me feel a little bad. I only have Wu Moxie left, so what am I going to do if Wu Moxie is gone too? Am I only allowed to play games with Hyung-chul?

Wu Moxie looked at me, sighed softly, gently took my arm, leaned on my shoulder, and said, "Qin Feng... I'm happy that you're thinking of me, but I also want to let know what's going on around you. Qin Feng, as long as it's you, I'll like everything, and as long as you're there, I'll do my best. I like you, Qin Feng, so, if you have anything in the future, happy or unhappy, good or bad, irritable or happy, I want you to tell me about it all...don't make me guess so painful okay...I don't want, to be rejected by you! ...really..."

"Moxie...you like me don't you?"

"Yes."

Wu Moxie's face flushed red, looked around, made a small sound, then embarrassedly rubbed her head against my shoulder and said, "Don't make me say it in a place with so many people ah... it's shy ah... ...It was supposed to be me drunk the first time..."

"Well..."