About my hopeless brother and sister

"Let go of me, Wu Moxie, I told you you can't even visit right now."

I looked at the top of the stairs and said. I don't know why Wu Mo Xi is pulling me, even if I want to see my sister now I can't see, even if she comes over the situation won't change, there's absolutely no point for her to be here. So why does she need to be here, there's no point in being here, just leave like everyone else on the street isn't it? Why are you still pestering me and blocking me?

"Qin Feng... don't be like that..."

She came up like a hock, gripping me tightly and looking at me with a crying voice, she said. I looked into her eyes, at her expression, and took a deep breath, my chest somehow filled with angry feelings.

It was disgusting, looking at me with this expression, with this look that seemed to see through me, with this look that seemed to understand my feelings. Obviously nothing, obviously she has nothing to do with this, obviously she has nothing to do with me, obviously she has nothing to do with this fire. How can you just tell me not to how what! Obviously, I don't understand anything! And you're teaching me what to do and what not to do! Who are you to tell me what not to do!

"Get off me! This has nothing to do with you, I'm going up to be with my sister now!"

I shrugged her off and yelled, stop challenging my patience, okay? This matter itself has nothing to do with you, what I am going to do is my choice, no matter what and you have nothing to do with it, let me make up for my mistakes, don't act like you see through me in front of me telling me what I should do and what I shouldn't do anymore ah!

"Qin...wind..."

Wu Moxie looked at me dumbfoundedly, her eyes mixed with so many emotions that I couldn't see at all. However, I could see the heartache that penetrated into the marrow of my bones.

"We won't be a couple from now on so don't pester me ah! Don't you understand that? I thought you understood. We just want what we want! Not anymore, we don't have anything to do with it! Stop being around me as a girlfriend telling me what I should and shouldn't do! You have no idea how I feel! You have no idea what I'm going through! You want me to recover just so you can feel better!"

I pushed Wu Mo Xie away, and Wu Mo Xie stumbled back two steps and fell to the ground, she looked at me dumbfoundedly, letting the tears run down her face, desperate.

I turned around and ran up the stairs, running and stumbling down the stairs with all the strength I could muster.

That's it, that's it, that's it.

Well....

So, that's good....

Chapter 243 about my burned out future (III)

It doesn't rain every time I stand in front of a tombstone.

This time I stood in front of the tombstone, looking at the marble tombstone, surrounded by clumps of weeds and green. The birds chirped happily on the branches of the trees, calling out to their friends to continue their life, and after stepping over the green grass, there were insects running around, trying to survive. The rising temperature doesn't make you feel the austerity of death, and even though this is a cemetery, a place where death is buried, this place is filled with the same vitality as other places.

There was no rain, no shade, no snow from the last time I was here. It was all warmth and happiness with life, no difference.

I stood in front of the tombstone, looking at the familiar words. But it wasn't the people I knew that were buried inside. No, it must be that they died so young that I don't remember much of them. Is this considered our family's grave? Our parents are buried here. Is this supposed to be our future home?

Will my sister be buried next to her parents as well? I don't understand the etiquette of this area. Is it true that my sister is buried here? That means that there will be one less person to visit and one more to be visited. How am I going to live from now on? Why can't my family stay, why is my family leaving one by one, is there some kind of curse on me? Why, it's always my family that dies, the people around me, not me.

I looked at the tombstone and I didn't know what I was thinking, I didn't want to cry, I just looked at it, I didn't move for a long time. What was it that I was doing this for? I'm not sure, it's just that I suddenly wanted to come over here. If you must say that this is some kind of underworld call from your parents or something, I won't argue, but I just, suddenly came here today to look at my parents' tombstones.

I've never believed in the power of ghosts and spirits, and I've always been a firm materialist.

However, in my heart, I silently hoped that my parents would bless my sister. I don't know what's the point, but, still, I hope that my sister doesn't go to be with her parents after a few days as well. Although my parents also need company, but at this time, I am the one who needs company the most.

Eating alone, sleeping alone, going to school alone, being alone and doing everything alone, I've been through that before and I don't want to go through another desperate one.

I took a deep breath of this air that smelled of life and the pathos of death and bowed deeply to my parents' gravestones. When I had nothing to rely on, I would have to rely on this completely unreasonable and completely ethereal thing, I guess, and believe in some kind of parental underworld. Hope was supposed to be a completely nonsensical and completely ethereal thing, so I had no problem believing in this kind of thing to thirst for hope.

Turned around and left the cemetery. Next time, it would be better to come with my sister, no, I should say that next time I will definitely come with my sister, but it's not certain that she will be able to leave. I looked at the sky, the clear sky was not overcast, but such a clear sky couldn't dispel the hidden pain in my chest.

It's all my fault....

It's all my fault....

It's all my fault....

Walking to the bus stop, waiting for the only bus that came here, I picked up my phone and looked at the time, it was only noon, so I'd better go to my sister's next. Although the food at the hospital is a little bit worse, but I don't have any idea about going to restaurants and also cooking my own food right now, as long as it's by my sister's side.

"Beep...beep...hello."

I picked up the phone, waiting for the bus, and said.

"Hey, Qin Feng, what happened to my sister...well, I heard about it too. No, you shouldn't blame Mohee, Mohee was reluctant to tell me at first, I only found out about it through someone else..."

The voice over there was a little embarrassed, smiled, and said, "Well... I'm not asking you to come to school or anything... No, no, no... it's not the Student Council's side, I just wanted to ask if there's anything I can do to help... Qin Feng must be having a hard time taking care of his sister by himself, can I do anything... After all, I'm also concerned about my sister's affairs..."

Help? I don't need help, I'm enough for my sister, no one else can take care of her. I can't let anyone else take care of my sister, it's impossible, no one can take care of my sister except me, only I can take care of my sister, see, now my sister is the sister who is taken care of by others, others can never value my sister as much as I do, to others, my sister is just a good one, called "Qin Yun". Girl, my sister is only in my heart, the most important sister.

I absolutely can't hand my sister over again, I don't even know if my sister's life can be saved this time, and if I see her next time, I probably won't be able to see her.

"No, I'm good enough on my own. There's nothing I need to help you with, thank you for your concern, but it's better not to tell anyone about my sister's condition. Sister isn't able to be visited, and those who supposedly care about her coming are just causing trouble for me."

The voice over there was stunned, then laughed helplessly twice and said, "I think Qin Feng still needs help, it's still a bit difficult for one person to take care of an injured person, and if you're in the hospital, Qin Feng, who's going to cook for Sister ah... Besides, everyone really cares about Sister..."

"No need for you to worry about it, it's still one thing if my sister can pull through now. Don't let anyone else come over, if they really care about my sister then it's just best not to bother her."

I'm a little irritated, don't these people understand what I mean? There's always always always a group of people who think others need help but others don't need help at all, so don't help yourself if you think others need help! What are you, a justice partner? Then I'm really sorry I don't need controversy, no one bothering me is justice, sister just needs me to take care of it, no one else.

I should say, everyone else stay away from me, you can't do anything but hurt my sister. Don't pity me with a God's perspective, okay? I don't need pity or sympathy, and neither does my sister, she just needs to be taken care of by me, so the others should just stay away.

"That's... really... no problem?... no no no, I didn't think about how pitiful you guys are or anything... ...It's just that, just as a classmate and junior, it's still necessary to help out your seniors a bit, right? That...I won't bother you too much, just, when you have time, cook for you."

"No, I'll just call you if I need anything then. I'll hang up when the bus comes, bye."

I put my phone down, looked at the simply empty street, and pressed the hang up button viciously. One by one, one by one, coming over to approach me at this time with the look that they could save someone else, they meant nothing at all, my sister had nothing to do with them, I was enough for my sister, I didn't need pity or help on my own, no one could believe that I was the only one in the world who was truly protecting my sister.

Leaning against the bus stop sign that had been standing for I don't know how long, I looked at the sky above me and sighed. I touched my head and didn't know what I should say. Just looking at the sky, how on earth should I go on with my life now, or rather, I don't even need to think about it, I just need to, just see how my sister is doing.

Wait for the bus, take the bus, get off at the place, and walk into the hospital.

"Ah, Qin Feng right, yes, yes, I was just about to look for you."

Just out of the elevator, a doctor saw me and called out to me and said. I looked at this doctor, he seemed to deal with my sister's matter, I've seen him a few times, he said with a strong caution, never telling me how my sister is really doing, always "there's still hope, but I hope you're still prepared". This time, it should be to tell me about my future. It's supposed to be, I guess, about saying, my sister's future.

I looked there, I couldn't see what state my sister was in, I didn't know what my future with my sister was going to be, I didn't even know if she was going to die or not, but, I was very calm inside now, I looked up, looked at him, and calmly said, "Well, you said, I'm listening."

He took off his glasses and wiped them and said, "Well, it's good news, your sister is really stubborn, she has persevered with such severe burns, and now her condition has stabilized. In other words, as long as your sister doesn't have an accident, it shouldn't matter if she survives. But right now she's still very fragile, and we still need to treat her trachea and skin, well... but to survive is good news, smile."

He patted me heavily on the shoulder, but why, I didn't feel much joy in wanting to smile? Should I say that I'm not even in a joyful mood? I should be so happy right now, my sister was able to survive, my sister was able to recover, my sister didn't leave me, I should be beaming with joy at a time like this, with thousands of words to describe the change in me, something that has clearly changed the course of my life for the rest of my life, but why, I can't believe I'm so calm.

The doctor had put his glasses back on and looked like he was very pleased with this life-saving effort and I had some good feelings about him. I nodded and said, "Thank you doctor, it's just that I'd like your opinion on what my sister will be like from now on. No, you tell me, on my sister, what will be the aftermath."

The doctor was stunned, he looked at me dumbfoundedly and stammered and repeated, "After...after-effects?"

"Yes, that is to say, what will become of my sister, afterwards?"

I looked at the doctor, took a deep breath and clenched my fists. I know my sister survived, and I want to think about not what will happen to my sister, but what she will be like in the future, and I want to know how I will need to take care of her. If my sister can survive, then I have to work for her.

"Well...well...how do I put it...the patient has sixty percent burns all over her body...what are you going to say about the consequences...that is to say, your sister will be...better...um...just don't leave the house..." the doctor looked at me, and I could see the sweat on his forehead flowing again, he was trying to organize his words as much as possible, to make something like disfigurement as tactful as possible, but unfortunately, my brain had already automatically brainstormed the consequences.

"Half of her face has been burned...it's possible to have plastic surgery to fade the scars, but by the time her whole body is recovered and ready for surgery...plastic surgery will be the best it can be ...and you want to have the patient undergo another surgery on their entire body? And, most importantly, the patient, is already blind."

The doctor wiped the sweat from his own forehead, sighed, and said, "The left eye has been burned, and we can only place a false eyeball... The right eye may recover, but you know how hard it is to get an intact cornea... ...So...when the patient recovers, you must be well enlightened, and along with that, you must prepare the blind equipment. You're not quite old enough to know if she'll be taken care of while you're in school."

None of this was a problem when I stopped thinking about my future when I came here. If my sister needs someone to take care of her all the time, then that person is me, I just take care of my sister all the time, I don't care. It doesn't matter if you don't have something like school, it's just, the money....