About my hopeless brother and sister

"Ah, uncle!"

I stood up and called out to my uncle, who walked to the door, who turned to look at me impatiently and said, "What is it? I've already paid for the coffee."

"You're treating my mother...and just your sister, aren't you...?"

"Don't get too deep into adult things you kids."

My uncle pushed the door open and walked straight out, but, I swear I must have seen the panicked red of my uncle's ears. I grimaced helplessly, maybe the sister control thing was a genetic trait. But first, I have to feel sorry for my dad.

Chapter 245 about my burned out future (V)

"Excuse me excuse me, I'm going out to take a phone call."

Lin Yiran smiled apologetically and politely, the few people around him smiled and nodded, and Lin Yiran, in his professional attire, stood up and walked out of the conference room, sighing and staring at the phone screen.

This string of numbers was very familiar to himself, very, very familiar, so familiar that he could just close his eyes and casually write this string of numbers. This used to be the beginning of your own smile and dreams, this string of numbers is not a simple arrangement, this is your own past, your own humiliating and painful past.

And yet, it was such a happy past again.

The numbers don't matter, what matters is the meaning that comes after the numbers, this is the transmission of human civilization, this is the convenience that comes with human civilization, this string of numbers, it represents so much more.

I had clearly made up my mind to never come and go again, and since he didn't value himself, I shouldn't let him bother me. Just leave on your own. Obviously I gave up on myself before, obviously I gave him a chance before and he ran away, now why did I call. Why, why, if you don't like yourself, why are you pestering yourself again? Why contact yourself at this time when you obviously don't want to be there for him?

Why...why is it that you just can't escape...why...why...why do you want to be pulled back into the past when you've already planned to never contact each other, when you've already planned to leave your past self, when you've already started a new life with new friends and a new future?

Just don't answer it...just hang up...don't you think you're hurting yourself enough? I've been scarred and can't stand the pain and suffering, why still come to haunt myself, knowing that can only bring me pain and despair why can't I give myself the freedom of the future.......just ignore, just hang up the phone, just let him understand his own determination is good, just hang up, never have to see him again.

Never see the gentle, kind, painful, obviously nothing but still cherish everyone, never see the one you can rely on when you have nothing to rely on, never see the one who hugs and kisses you, never see... the one you have always loved....

Two tears gently hit the vibrating phone, Lin Yiran reacted sharply, looked to his left and right, wiped his tears, took a deep breath to suppress his cries, seemed to use all his strength, bit his lower lip, looked at the call that was about to end, and pressed the answer button.

"Hello, Daddy, where are you now?"

"At work, what's up Yatran, what's up? Are you going out or something?"

Uncle Lin looked to be in a good mood, but Lin Yiran sounded very anxious, and he listened to his daughter's rare anxious voice as he asked slowly and slowly.

"Neither, I wanted to tell you that I just went home to get my passport and bought a ticket back to China by the way. I'm on my way to the airport now, and I'll call you when I get there. Don't worry about me, it's just that I won't know when I'll be back this time, so if you're worried about me, go back too."

"What! You're going back to China, Yiran?!"

There was a heavy banging sound from Uncle Lin's side, and Lin Yiran was so startled by the sudden raised roar that she had to take the phone away some, but she also expected her father to be so angry. After all, it was herself who had cried to leave in the first place, and her father had wanted so much for her to start a new life rather than continue to be abandoned. But now, she belonged to go back to her own life again, abandoning everything she was ready to do.

"Yiran what are you doing?! Why go back! Don't you get it? Qin Feng doesn't even like you! He's abandoned you! You made a fool of yourself in front of all those people! You..." uncle Lin's voice carried an overwhelming anger, if it wasn't for the years of cultivation at this time uncle Lin would have cursed, right, Lin Yiran listened silently, "You... you also No?! Qin Feng doesn't even like you, so why do you have to go back! You don't even owe Qin Feng anymore!"

"That's different from what you told me before, dad."

Lin Yiran laughed bitterly and said.

"Because I was the one who felt sorry for Papa Qin Feng before, that's why I asked you to do that, before it was my fault that I forced my will on you. It's enough now, you don't owe anything anymore, you can have your own life now, you're free now ah! Yiran, Yiran you calm down, listen to daddy, daddy loves you, so, you have to have your own life ah, enjoy your own life, after that your life is your own, no need for others!"

Uncle Lin's voice was getting more and more urgent, Lin Yiran leaned against the glass and looked out and smiled bitterly, she could understand her father's affection for her, she knew that her father loved her, she had understood that, even if she had been strict at first.

"Nah dad."

Lin Yiran spoke up, watching the airport sign slide across the roof of the car, "Daddy, Qin Feng needs me."

"Qin Feng doesn't need you at all! Qin Feng just needed someone to love him! He doesn't even need you!"

"No, this time he needs me."

Lin Yiran sighed, smiled, and said, "I love you too, Dad, and I understand that you love me, and I understand that you want to protect me. I've never blamed you for that. It's just that this time, I must go back, my sister had an accident, I understand Qin Feng's helplessness and pain, this time Qin Feng really needs me. I must go back, you were the one who asked me to be by Qin Feng's side before, but this time, I made the decision... But I was also really stupid, when I pressed answer, I knew I couldn't escape again."

"Yiran..."

The voice on Uncle Lin's side was filled with frustration, and he sighed heavily and said after a moment of silence, "Forget it, when you get there, remember to give me a call. I'll just go back in a while as well, but when I see Qin Feng again, I'm going to beat that brat up."

"Ahahahaha..."

Lin Yiran laughed awkwardly and hung up the phone. She looked out at the airport lobby and pursed her lips spring. Himself, no matter what, can't escape ah. When liking someone becomes a habit after, it's really, too scary, I feel like I've made a brass wall, I've scolded him countless times in my heart, resented him countless times, vowed to never see him again. However, he came over with a phone call, and as soon as he opened his mouth, he discarded his armor and crumbled, and the defense he had built up so easily collapsed in an instant.

I just wanted to go back early and see him.

He needed himself. He needed himself.

"Wait for me, Qin Feng."

Even if he was far away, even if he was in pain, even if he was suffering, even if he was hurt again, as long as his voice came, he would carry his bag and return to his side. Reason can't stop action, this is your own love, you are really pitiful, you can only love one person to such pain.

Lin Yiran took a step, carrying a small suitcase, firmly into the airport, on the way, once did not look back.

After all, this wasn't your home.

A lover's embrace is home.

"Phew..."

Sitting slumped to one side, the hand holding the phone shook weakly. The other hand to support the head, eyes dumbfounded at their own lap, tightly grasp their forehead, myself, or call, myself, or again harassed her ah. I had rejected her in such a cruel way, and now I was begging for her to come back, I really was too bad.

But, I need her.

I don't want to admit it, but I really need her, I need Lin Yiran, and I need her later in my life. I promised my uncle that I would be with Lin Yiran in the future. I'm sorry Lin Yiran, I've hurt her too much, even wanting to be with her wasn't my choice, and marrying her wasn't my willingness, it was a realization. I have no choice, this is the only way I can go on, for the sake of my sister, I can only do this. I need to protect my sister, I need to take care of her later, I need Lin Yiran, without Lin Yiran, there is no later.

I sighed, I owed Lin Yiran so much, but I had no way to make up for it. If Lin Yiran thinks that me being with her is happiness, then I can only make it up to her with this kind of thing. I don't reject living with Lin Yiran, and in the future, it would be nice to make her smile more.

That's all I can do. I can only do this.

Although I'm sorry Lin Yiran, it's enough for me to pay back with my life.

A little bit of what I lost has come back, Lin Yiran has returned, but there's still someone who hasn't come back, I should say there's been no news. I miss her so much, even though I also let her go because of me, even though I hurt her badly, even though it was all my fault, but I miss her really, really badly.

"Arashi..."

I mumbled her name, she was my childhood friend, she was someone I...liked...did...I don't know... ...But, I really miss her now. Especially now, why, when I'm on the phone, all I can think of is Qin Lan's smile?

Do I really love my sister or Qin Lan? What exactly are my feelings for Qin Lan? She was my most precious childhood friend, she was the girl who was always there for me and left because of my mistake. I hurt this girl, and now, should I call her?

I didn't know if she had changed her phone number...I had no idea what she was doing now, I had no idea what she had done, where she was. I lifted my head and looked at the ceiling, which was now incredibly familiar, and sighed heavily.

I've been here myself for so long....

There's no time for decadence anymore, and the only time I can be sad is in the bathroom. When you go out, you still have to wait for your sister to wake up. My sister is still struggling, my sister hasn't woken up, my sister's danger hasn't been lifted. I'm in no position to be sentimental, and I'm in no position to discuss my future. In the future, all of my life will be about surviving for my sister, and all of my future events will be for my sister, Qin Lan, I don't know if there will be any chance to meet up in the future.

If there is, I really should say sorry to her. Say it myself, beg her forgiveness, I missed her, I missed my future with her, and after that, we'll never cross paths.

I put my phone in my pocket and walked down the hallway after washing my hands. The corridor was the same scene, unchanged, with the distinctive hospital smell of disinfectant. I was still alone in the entire hallway, my sister was still on that side, and there was nothing I could do, except wait.

I put my head down and sat on the plastic bench, how long had it been since I'd had a good night's rest? I have no recollection of it myself, was it a week, or more than a week? I can't remember, it was a long time ago for me to come home, my phone was on a borrowed charger, and I was still wearing the same clothes I was wearing before. However, I don't really have any thoughts about cleaning up after myself.