About my hopeless brother and sister

"There's no point in even saying that... Right now, just right now... If we can't be together later, then just be together right now isn't it. Qin Feng, don't blame yourself. You'll always be the one in my heart who can fix anything, you'll always be the boy with the smile who can end everything, you'll always be the one who can do everything, the hero in my heart."

She kissed my lips again, and this time, I kissed it to a bitterness. As unpleasant as the sea, but as overwhelming as the wine. The pain I've tasted lately is really too much, no matter where or who I am, I'm tasting the bitter wine I've brewed myself.

So bitter...so astringent...so salty....

But this is my now, this is my later, this is my future and present after one mistake. All I have left is this fleeting, fleeting warmth in my arms, and my beloved can only embrace it now. It was like a dream, and when I woke up, I would have to face an empty house with nothing around me, waiting for Lin Yiran to come from the airport to be with her forever in a few years and ten years later.

I had experienced the best love of my life, but I had let it go because of my cowardice. At the moment I look at the messy feathers of its escape and cry alone, this is life, I do not have the right to start again, there is no place for capricious pampering, this world is not gentle or cruel to me, it just puts the results of the choices I have made in front of me one by one, even if I suffer, even if I despair, it will not change all this, this is the fairest thing, this is the fairest trial, because this Everything, it was all because of me.

When she lifted her head, I saw her face full of tears and she looked at me. Sitting up, she took my hand and gently asked, "What have we... done... really... I... ...I...did something different from me...Anyway...this is as far as I can go. ...Qin Feng...Thank you...I got the result I most wanted, I heard the words I most wanted to hear... ...In the future, there's no need for you to stay with me, nor do I need your continued tenderness. Just take good care of your sister and treat Lin Yiran well..."

She stood up, and though her legs were still shaking, the direction she was moving in was indeed firm. She went to her clothes and she stepped away with her back to me, it was different from the last dream where I could get close to her, but now, she was stepping away.

Dreams really are the opposite of reality, aren't they?

"Qin Lan!"

I opened my mouth, I didn't know what I wanted to say, I didn't know what I should say at this point, should I keep her? No, I can't keep her, I've already decided my future, I don't have much chance to be with her anymore, all we have is now, our future is over.

She stayed where she was, not looking back, not speaking, her hands holding onto the couch, standing there waiting for me. I got up hastily from the couch and looked at her back, the small back of the person I had always loved. My mind went blank, not knowing what way to keep her, and understanding that I, couldn't keep her.

"If you have something to say, just say it quickly, who knows when Lin Yiran's plane will arrive."

Lan's voice was choked with sobs, but with her usual finality.

"That... Qin Lan, do you want to take a shower together?"

What did I say!!!! What the hell did my mouth say! What was I thinking! Why did that come out of my mouth what the hell was I thinking!!!! How could I say such a thing at a time like this! No, why, why would I suddenly, make such an invitation?

"Huh? Are you a pervert? This is sexual harassment, do you know that, Qin Feng? Although we are childhood sweethearts, this kind of request could not have been made ten years ago ah Qin Feng, you are harassing me by saying such things to me now ah! I'm going to, like, call the cops, really...I'll call oh..."

I was ready to be poured another can of Coke when she turned back. However, Qin Lan returned, caged in her own hair, covered with tears on her face, but with a warm smile, this smile is not arrogant, but with warmth and joy, sweet as honey, warmer than the red sun in the winter.

When she turned back, she looked at me, smiled and said, "Yes..."

After that, what happened after that... I don't want to say more, and I can't, except that after that short night, I started to look forward to, tomorrow's sun.

Chapter 248 about my burned out future (VIII)

I hated the burn ward.

Hate the smell there, the humidity, the location, the doctors, the nurses, the masks, the beds, the gauze....

The air always carries the smell of decay and the strong smell of disinfectant, even through the thick mask, still can not go around the tip of my nose, disgusting to make me want to vomit. There was only the slightest groan around me, looking past the burned dead skin and the naked darkness, walking down the road as if it were a walk to hell.

My sister woke up. After nearly ten days of struggle, my sister finally woke up. And I was finally able, to see the sister I now had. After such a long wait, I felt as if I had traveled a century to see my sister. The doctor stepped in front of me, pulled back the curtain, whispered a warning not to touch my sister's burns, not to talk too long, and then stepped back.

I saw my sister.

Sister really had been, burned. Like the others, my sister's shiny black hair was gone, her soulful eyes were now wrapped in bandages, and the face that had made so many girls jealous and so many boys desirable was now wrapped, leaving only a portion of the peeking, gaping scar. The entire left side of my sister's body was completely yellow, dark black, blood red from head to toe with wounds and potions that smelled strongly of disinfectant and the stench of decay.

The yellow drops were sinking into the plastic film, were these potions, or were they bodily fluids? I don't know, but it looked very disgusting. The thin layer of gauze was almost dissolved with my sister's body. The girl's once beautiful body has long since disappeared, leaving only a rugged, wrinkled patch of earth of different colors. The young girl's most precious body, but now had to show everyone to see, ah, but this body to be seen also does not matter, because, only make people feel disgusting.

I didn't know what expression to use to face it, I thought I was prepared enough for it, but when I actually faced my sister now, I was still shocked and frightened. Even though it was my sister who was there, I still instinctively wanted to run away now. My sister's body was split into two parts, the right half was still beautiful and smooth like a beautiful jade, while the left half, no longer visible alive.

The closer I got to my sister, the stronger the smell became, and my sister's eyes couldn't see, only the device on one side represented the information that she was alive. I took a look at the doctor standing to one side, is my sister really awake now? The doctor said my sister's trachea was cut open and she is now unable to speak. How can I tell if my sister is awake? He looked at me and nodded, indicating that I could speak, and I looked at my sister and hesitated, calling out softly.

"Sister..."

My sister's right hand suddenly moved, I was dumbfounded as she slowly moved her right hand on the bed as if she wanted to lift it up, I didn't know if I could touch my sister, even though my sister's right side didn't burn much, I didn't dare touch my sister who was as fragile as tofu at the moment.

"Sister...I'm here...you don't have to move...I'm...I'm right next to you."

My sister's right hand seemed to lift up with great effort, reaching towards me, her head gently tilted this way. She had no expression, no tears, and couldn't even turn her neck completely around, but she still looked like my side, turning her head slightly. Did she want to see me? Does she want to touch me? I didn't dare to touch her, I put my sister who was struggling so hard because of my carelessness in danger again.

"Sister...Sister don't have to move, I'm right here, it's good that you're awake. It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, cousin is okay, everyone is here. Don't worry about your injuries, sister, it's all going to be okay."

My sister was unable to lift her hand, and I watched sadly as her hand shuddered as it was lowered just less than 10 centimeters up. My sister had survived, but just like her body, she only half survived. My sister is now extremely weak and I don't even know how long it will take for her to recover.

My sister's hand is still trying to touch me, her hand shaking and moving on the bed, desperately trying to get closer to me, and closer.

I gently reached out and touched the back of my sister's right hand, touching the uninjured area, and the long-lost touch and warmth almost brought me to tears. My sister was startled for a moment, then calmed down and dropped her hand. I gently stroked the back of my sister's hand, but she didn't move, and just, lay still.

Suddenly, I was tapped on the shoulder and the doctor looked at me and pointed to the door. Being a sterile ward, I really should have left earlier. I hated everything about this place, it was damp and stuffy and filled with the strong smell of disinfectant, but my sister, she had to suffer here.

"I have to go now, sister, I will come back to see you soon. Don't be afraid, I'll come again soon."

I don't know when I'll come over next, but if it's possible I'll come over. I let go of my hand, and suddenly my sister moved violently, shaking all over, and trying desperately with her right hand in the direction I had left it. The nurse next to me rushed over to hold my sister down, looking at me with some grumbling, and it wasn't my fault! Didn't I say I'd be back! I didn't provoke my sister!

I immediately pressed my sister's right hand and she calmed down, her head turned slightly, her throat was shaking, I knew she wanted to speak but she couldn't say anything at all, the gas was running out of the small orifice of her trachea. I stroked her gently and said in a reassuring tone, "It's okay, don't worry sis, I'll come back to see you, I'll come back next time, I won't leave you behind."

My sister shook her head gently and I looked at her puzzled, what did my sister want to know, why didn't she let go of me? What does she want to know?

"That, my cousin is fine too, I told you, my cousin is only slightly injured, but she didn't come this time, she just still has a mental shadow, when my sister gets better, I'll let her come see you."

My sister still shook her head, she slowly raised her right hand, her index finger trembling, and pointed at me. She couldn't see, she could only hear me, but she was pointing incredibly precisely in my direction, and I looked at myself, and I came to a sudden realization. A sister, really a sister, even if it was to the end of the day.

"I'm fine, nothing's wrong...I can take care of myself, don't worry about it, Sister."

My sister dropped her hand and her mouth twitched a little, maybe trying to smile. I took two steps back, looked at my sister, then turned, and left the room.

My sister was still my sister, no matter what. Even if she almost died, even if she just woke up, all she cared about was how I was doing. I wiped my eyes, was I crying? Sister, really, it's always, always been sister. Until now, still, worried about me.

Obviously, I should be worried about my own....

Outside, the doctor took off his mask and glasses, wiped the sweat from his forehead, and said, "Your sister is very strong-willed and strong, and never screamed, no matter how much pain she was in."

"She can't make a sound."

I looked at the doctor, my sister's windpipe had not fully recovered, how could she scream. The doctor laughed and said, "It's not like that either, all the other patients, in the beginning, were in so much pain that they almost tore the sheets, but she was very calm. Well...that's beside the point, your sister's condition is still good, she survived the burns, and is conscious and awake. Well, the life threatening is nothing more, it will be fragile during the skin grafting and recovery process, you should be aware of that, the most important thing is later, I hope you are prepared."

To be honest, I'm also quite grateful to this doctor, after all, he's the one who saved my sister, in every sense of the word.

"Breeze, Breeze!"

I said goodbye to the doctor, and there was a sound hurriedly coming from behind me, and as soon as I turned back, my vision was violently wrapped in a darkness, and there came the long-lost softness and elasticity, and the seductive fragrance of the girl's body. Well I have to say that Lin Yiran's height would never be able to do what it takes to just come up and wrap my head around it, so please tell, Lin Yiran, what do you mean by jumping up and hugging me when you see me.

"I've heard all about it, and on the way over here I contacted a burn doctor I know, and he said that my sister is still recoverable. Also I've found a very experienced plastic surgery hospital as well as a doctor and have found someone very reliable and stable to take care of my sister, you can rest assured that I've already contacted all of them after that, as long as she's stable, we'll be able to take care of her after that."

"Well...yes, I'm touched but can you let go of me for a moment now..."

Lin Yiran let go of me and took two steps back with an apologetic blush on his face, smiled, and said, "I'm sorry I got a little excited...after all, I haven't seen my darling in so long...hmmm ...Sister too... it's unfortunate that this would happen to her, but it's okay Qin Feng, as long as I'm here, there's no need to worry about the rest!"

Lin Yiran took a look at the ward, then looked at me and said, "Qin Feng, did you just look at your sister?"

I nodded and said, "Yes, I was just there and I'm so sorry I didn't pick you up at the airport. I was also just notified this morning that I knew my sister was conscious, so I rushed over."

Lin Yiran shook his head and said, "It's okay Breeze, I know that, my sister is a little more important than me now, and I've been living here for a long time, so I don't need to be picked up. So how's sister now, I've just looked at her medical records down there, and well, all I can say is... well... sister is... so pitiful right now. "