Actor, Search for Hope

A glow-in-the-dark sunset. Lee Sang-a and Man B. It is a fate we must never meet again. It's like a summer night's dream of a firefly.

“Memories are enough to keep a person alive. ”

Leaving Lee Sang-a behind, Male B spits out lightly.

It is said that a person who knows ideally can live only by memories, but not by people. And love alone is hard to live with. The last thing she said to Man B made Man B even more suffocated.

“Someone has told me that travel takes place internally, but in the end, that's the only time in our lives that the peacock can flap his wings. ”

And "someone" is a reel. In a sense, her life, after Lille's life as a motif, was mocking this.

This encounter with Guy B was only moments when her journey took place inside. A brief moment. A long time in life is a very fleeting moment.

It's a little sad to think about what Rilke said that love also deserves.

In Rilke's "Letter to a Young Poet", it says:

We must be obsessed with the difficult. Everything in nature has to overcome the difficult to be unique. Loneliness is good because it's hard. It's good because it's hard for one person to love another. It's probably the hardest thing I know, and everything else is just a preparation process. Young people are beginners in everything, so they don't know how to love you. But you have to learn. You must devote all your being to learning love with your lonely, shy, pompous heart. In the early stages, love is not unity and harmony with other people. Love is to first mature alone and then become a world for yourself and for others.

What Rilke means is that eventually you need to be qualified to love. That is, we have to build a mature world on our own first. However, each of them knew that neither Male B nor the other was capable of creating a mature world for himself. I am also not confident that I can reach that mature world. So it's a sad encounter, even though the two of them were beautiful.

Rilke also says: Man is lonely, not good, not strong, not wise. That's why you look miserable all over. No matter how great misery and absurdity may be, and even if it is the fate of man, we must not have the will to overcome loneliness and find a new path forward.

That's what Rilke said and proved with his own life. Alone in his life, despair swept through him and he was in a lot of pain and obstacles, but he didn't give up on his resolve. And Rilke himself lived through so much suffering and suffering. However, the life of the idealist only seems plausible. But how many of us can keep that kind of commitment? It is a lie to say that even Rilke never thought of despair and frustration. Especially on the verge of visiting Duino Castle.

In Men B's hands is a letter from her. A letter to read someday. Even though he said that to Lee Sang-a, he was not confident that he would read this letter. I think I can survive the rest of my life just by imagining what content and what words will be written.

“Cut!”

The film was finished in Germany by looking at the letter in his hand. And at the same time as the director shouted, I could feel the consciousness of Male B slowly fading away. How many times did Seongwoo feel a little used to this feeling already, and he lost heart about himself.

If he deliberately injured his consciousness, Male B's consciousness would soon disappear. So I was slowly immersed in his life and his awareness of love. It was the first attempt to put consciousness into the flow and explore the deep inside. It was because I suddenly thought that it might be possible to do the opposite to injure consciousness.

The opposite was also possible, as Choongwoo thought. If I feel the soul of Man B slowly disappearing, it may not be that long, but compared to when I was unconscious, it was slow. It was not a short time that did not make me feel inadequate, but unfortunately it was enough time.

Such a figure seemed to be immersed in the smoke like before. And the people who saw it stopped trying to boast about the joy that filming in Germany had been successfully completed and were considerate of the election.

If you are that good at acting, you can accept it with a smile even if you overdo a good body. However, there were no such arrogance or ovaries, and always greeted politely. Also, the image remained very good because I was quite active when I had something to help. So everyone was careful to keep the site organized and as quiet as possible.

What Sunwoo could still see in such a noisy but quiet space was the life of Man B. The sad thing is that the last part is now. This is the moment at the forefront of filming. When I was born, I wandered around school at a young age. All the other times, and right now, The end of Man B's life painted in the work and the end of Man B's life flowing to Sun Woo are the same moment.

After that, what kind of life did he have in the future?

I wonder if I spent time like that in the movies. Emotional changes beyond human beings are inevitable. I wonder if I've surpassed this inevitability. The determination and enthusiasm for love is exactly what Rilke said.

I was very curious about how much Male B's love would last. Because until now, what Sunwoo could see and feel. The question of whether it would have been good to be able to know the future clearly, or whether it would have been beautiful just because I imagined it like this.

Chosun wished that his love would continue, and wished that until he died. And beyond this idea of Sunwoo, on the other side of the soul, Man B was still thinking of the idealist. By reciting the poem of Browning to the deaf idealist, towards his inner self, fearing who is not a poet.

How do I love you?

Let's take a look at how to do that.

The depth and breadth and height of my soul.

I love you.

To the end of existence and rationality.

The quietest needs of everyday life.

I love you generously beside the sunlight and candles.

Like people fighting for freedom and rights.

I love you freely.

I love you as pure as when people are praised.

With the rage I used to pour into my old grief,

I love you with my childhood faith.

I love you with love for what I've lost.

I love you with a lost saint.

I love you with a smile and tears for the rest of my life.

Even if you were called by God,

I will love you even more when I die.

Sonnets from Portuguese Elizabeth Barret Browning (1806-1861) ...

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The filming in Germany was finished and each of them was given free time. Days because of the weather, days because of actors. After that time, the filming went smoothly, so I had some time left. I couldn't give you all that time, of course. Each person has three days. Director Kangjin told me to ignore him several times because he thought he needed to rest.

For everyone, three days was literally free time. It's a hard place to come by, so you can enjoy the sightseeing and relax. In particular, foreign exotic emotions are a place that inspires excitement just by looking at it.

Samoa and the right people were separated in pairs. People who go on sightseeing, people who go to painting alone. There were even people on trains. It was possible because they were all adults, and the supervisor allowed them to do so under the condition that they must be careful with time.

It seemed like everyone was doing what they wanted to do and so was Chosun. Sunwoo was planning to go around here. Moderately, depending on the wind and memory.

Because I wanted to check something out. Memories left in Men B. I didn't think the people he was born with actually existed. If the characters were real, everyone in the movie was living somewhere, which was a completely ridiculous story. So what is the location? Are the places in Men B's memories real or not? What I'm going through right now is just a fantastic experience. Chosun wanted to check this out.

It is remembered that nearby Man B has been staying for quite some time. After the shoot, I asked the director and writer, but they said there were no settings or lines related to it.

I think and I feel that everything I've been through is real. Where are the realities and the odds? If the places that really existed in Men B's memories really appeared to me, that would be good, and maybe it wouldn't be bad.

It was a little after 11: 00 a.m. when Sun Wu woke up. I was able to sleep well because no one woke me up because it was free time. Only a few foreigners were seen in the hotel lobby after lightly washing. Lunch was outside, and there was a cheap restaurant near where Man B used to visit often. I don't know if it's real or if it's in my memory. If it's there, if it's not there, go around reasonably cheap stuff. I casually had a cup of coffee prepared at the hotel while making plans.

As soon as I came out with the coffee, Kim Seo Eun faced me. When I asked him where he was going to eat lunch, he listened to me and followed me without saying anything. Since I couldn't say I would go alone, Seong-woo turned around and asked.

“Are there any other plans for today? ”

Nod. Nod.

“... not yet? ”

“Yes, umm. I'm very hungry.”

After all, she's always taken three meals. Though the sheep themselves seemed small. And it appeared that he rarely weaponized.

“What's for breakfast? ”

“Looking up at the sky. I think it's similar to Korea, but it seems different...”

“So you slept through the sky, and you woke up late? ”

Seongwoo said so, feeling that he is now used to this type of answer. There was a moment when Sunwoo continued to talk with her. Most of the reason she feels wrong or difficult to understand is because she has no words to say in the middle. Or you can go around and say it not once, but twice or three times, or the metaphor goes far beyond common sense. So after all, if I just rolled my head a little bit, most of the time I could make a analogy. It wasn't a problem. That was the story of the fox and grapes I told you last night.

“Lunch, why don't you join us? ”

Since he said he would buy Meron from Korea, he couldn't say that he wanted to go around separately because he was quite fond of the way he looked at Sunwoo. I don't think it was until the beginning of filming on an airplane. If it was like that, he would have said, "I'm sorry, but let's just go separately."

It was hard to feel right now, but I was confident about that look because I was very sensitive to the atmosphere of the person for a certain period of time shortly after experiencing such a strange phenomenon in the filming.

Artwork Reviews

It seems that the autumn season is coming to an end.

If the wind doesn't blow, it'll be fine... but if it gets any closer, it feels very cold during the day.

As I said before, be really careful with your health.

Especially the flu.

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I edited it with Hated Kid. Best regards,