Actor, Search for Hope

It was also the intended buyer by the LU Strategy team that Sun Wu did not deliberately show his face at the airport. He respected his doctor, but recommended that he just come back. It was good if Sunwoo came back quietly, and it was good to walk between the fans and the reporters and tell their faces. Anything was fine. I had a personalized response ready. Zhongwoo was very valuable. The LU Strategy team has a multifaceted strategy.

And with the effort put into the LU Strategic Team to meet its value, it was a so-called hot material thanks to the news from the jungle's principle.

A trailer for throwing a dagger at a rabbit. I had never caught anything with a dagger in the principle of the jungle before. And if you think about domestic craftsmanship, this is a scene with no color whatsoever.

The second dagger thrower was still saving his life, but he had to smile brightly at the LU. Be strong, and not just change your mind, but exceed your hope of coming back. Even if it wasn't intentional, the result was.

And the bottom was that the process was still good if the results were good.

“Hospital?”

Sunwoo came back safely, and he didn't seem too reluctant about his craft. No, it's no exaggeration to think of Kang Tae-hyun's expansion when he insisted that he didn't like it. Plus, the results are good. I was a little anxious because only good things happened in a row. Kang Tae-hyeon was surprised by the sudden words of Seon-woo.

“Yes, I'm a little depressed. ”

A space of sunshine for the company. Coming back from Mongolia soon, he said he'd have to write a next book and asked for interesting manuscripts, so he handed over manuscripts like this. After more time, I felt like I might have to take a poisonous medicine, so I couldn't help but tell Kang Tae Hyun.

“How bad is it? ”

“It's not that bad, but it could get worse if you let it go. ”

Depression. It was a serious disease in some ways, but not in others. However, it is common in my country to not find a hospital because of depression unless it is' very, very, very serious’.

“You're really not that bad, are you? ”

Therefore, Kang Taehyun was heartbroken. I wonder how serious it would be to tell Sunwoo to go to the hospital even if he said that. I was more confident as my usual appearance flashed past me.

“So far, so good. Why would I lie to you? ”

But if it continues to deteriorate in proportion to the flow of time, I don't think there will be any time to use my hands. That's why Seongwoo brought it up after thinking about it. When I first tried to kill myself. If I got that close, there was really no answer. It's not an easy situation to work hard with the will of treatment. I didn't want to be like that.

“That's right. ”

“Isn't there a contracted hospital in LU? It's common for celebrities to experience depression, so there must be a specialized hospital. ”

It's a disease that is commonly found in normal people, but celebrities are worse and more common. As long as it's a job. And that's why it was common for entertainment with more than a certain size to have a separately contracted hospital. Compared to the past, this welfare has progressed positively. I was in a hurry to stop him from going to psych just a few years ago. Society has changed a lot. It's not the most emotional glare in the country, but it could be these days, if it's hard enough. Most of the reactions are:

“That's right. ”

“Please.”

Even though what I used to treat as madness disappeared when I went to psychiatry, these secrets are easily leaked if I go wrong. And it's still not a good thing to find out.

“Okay, I'll let you know as soon as I have a date. ”

As soon as the jungle principle ends, we decided to take CF shots, and we did our next review. There are bad things that happen when you live. But a psychiatrist. Kang Tae-hyun sighed deeply. I was still in my 30s, and I always thought I'd have a few lines on my forehead.

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Thankfully, unlike Kang Tae-hyeon's growing wrinkles, the psychological counseling results of Choongwoo were not bad. I don't know if it's going to get worse, but I sighed of relief in the heart of the doctor who said that I haven't taken the medicine yet.

“But you have to be careful from now on. You're a good learner, aren't you? ”

“Yeah, I don't know if it's going well. ”

Obviously more popular than at first. The first thing I realized was the voice that found me at the airport. And secondly, there are now quite a few people on the streets who recognize themselves.

“You were in the news and you weren't kidding. ”

What kind of news is that?

It's not news on TV, it's an article on the Internet. The latest news is the principle of the jungle. But when I turn around, I sigh. It's been a while since I've been back, but I can't control myself. So I acted really freely towards Mongolia without any measures. I still regret that. But I shouldn't have bothered anyone in my life, but I think I did, a little, a little.

“Anyway, the more popular you are as an actor and exposed to people's eyes, the more things you will do. I know every time I say this as a doctor, but I'm going to tell you one thing you need to do as much as possible. ”

The doctor's words were obvious, as he said.

Don't be stressed.

“It's impossible to be stress-free when people and people bump into each other. In my case, I would encourage moderate drinking or cigarettes to relieve stress. Of course, you can't overpay. ”

Over time, the moment of intense intensity becomes blurry. The embarrassment I felt when I first opened my eyes after I died. Of course, the impact was still vivid, but over time, the strong and strong feeling decreased a little.

“And you seem to be obsessed with things like happiness and love. You said so yourself, didn't you? Happiness measures differ from person to person. Why don't you also look at the other criteria? It's very common to discover unexpected clues in unexpected places. And of course, I think love is an easy criterion for happiness, but often it's not. One of my acquaintances saw money and honor as a measure of happiness. And one of the people I talked to, besides Sunwoo, was popular. ”

The man who pursued money and honor said that he was happy despite the family disagreement. The celebrity who wanted to be popular said he was really happy after achieving what he wanted.

“Humans are more complicated than I thought. And everyone has a different set of values, no story told. Common sense may be common sense for others, and reality is dramatic beyond fiction or drama. ”

I remembered the night in the desert when the doctor said things to me in front of me. I told Noah to find happiness in love.

I should also try to find happiness in popularity once. Then will you know something else?

“And some of you were really careful to say this, but happy to be dead. ”

Lockedin syndrome.

Lactin syndrome (incarceration syndrome) is a state of consciousness but is not responsive to external stimuli due to systemic paralysis. The patient's apparent coma may be misjudged due to involuntary movements and inability to speak, but his consciousness is intact in lactic syndrome, unlike coma. I just can't move.

“He communicated with the world with his eyes. ”

There are also several types of locking syndrome. While conscious, sometimes one finger cannot move, the other eye can move.

“In my country, euthanasia was illegal, so it was done in Switzerland, and I was there to help with that overall process. I won't forget my last goodbye. ”

A name with a past flows from a place I never thought of.

“I was happy to be free of the prison called the flesh, thank you. Well, one of the most intense examples I remember of this was that someone wrote a book. He also said that only one eye could move. ”

The therapist comes up with an alphabetical plate to spell it out in order, and the patient blinks as soon as he or she comes up with the spelling he or she thinks. A book made by putting words together and making sentences to express the patient's own intentions. It took a year and three months. A book that is completed in about 200,000 blinks, six hours a day.

The book is called Diving Bell and Butterfly (JeanDominique Bauby, 1952-1997)

“Amazing, isn't it? But I think this case is an exception. There are exceptions everywhere. ”

The one who sings hope with one eye.

After the song ended, the writer died three days after it became known to the world.

He took off his wetsuit called the flesh and flew away into a butterfly.

“This is normal. ”

A few years ago, a man in Britain who wanted to euthanize from a locked syndrome petitioned the court not to have a doctor put him on death row. However, the court rejected the request at the end of a five-month hearing. We cannot allow anyone to punish someone for suicide unless Congress eliminates it.

As a result, the British man said with his eyes:

M I S E, Miserable. (Miserable.) "

“There is a similar case in my country, Lee Seung Il, who has been in the military because of Lou Gehrig's disease, although it is not a lock-in syndrome. He's an exception case worker. ”

If the locking syndrome usually occurs at short intervals, the disease progresses slowly in a relatively slow time. But in the end, when the flower of despair blooms,

The moveable body has a few eyes or fingers.

I wrote down hope with my eyes. Thanks to the development of science, I was able to borrow the technology of science in contrast to foreign cases that were done by hand.

The cursor moves when the focus is focused by looking at the center of the ocular mouse lens with one eye. Then select the vowel and vowel on the keyboard via the special keyboard, then blink your eyes and click on the letter.

Through this process, there is a book with eyes of hope, just like Jean Dominique Bobbi.

“But I know there are no two of them. But if you look it up, there are a few patients with ALS and LOCK syndrome. Isn't death happy for these people? ”

The only way out of a prison called the flesh is death.

One eyeball, a few fingers. or executive officer. A situation where you can say you're lucky if you're unconscious.

Death will be the wings of hope for them.

What would I have done?

Will I be happy if I die?

Happiness is hard.

It seems more difficult than when I had no idea. The more you know, the more you wander around the maze with no way out.

Even though they say love is a luxury, I don't think I have anything to say.

My death and happiness were so far, they were so close to symmetry.

They seem to be too close to happiness.

“Death means something different for everyone. Isn't happiness the same thing? ”

Beyond the mountains in the sky

Saying you're happy.

I went with a friend.

Came back with nothing but tears.

Beyond the mountains. Beyond that.

He said there was happiness. "

Excerpt from "Over the Mountain" by Busse Karl (1872 ~ 1918).