Actor, Search for Hope

Knowing is not always a good thing. In the old saying, "Don't know is medicine. There is a proverb: It is a common phrase that can be found in all ages and places. Sometimes knowing is looking at the lighthouse of despair.

In the past, there was a family member.

Crosswalks in front of Sunwoo are always red.

In front of a broken signal light that will never change.

Will there ever be a day when it turns green?

I already know in my heart.

I was under the impression it was completely broken.

I know someone can't fix it.

Still,

Just in case I had hoped for nothing.

Time to say it was a long time ago.

William James (1842-1910) said about the time of collapse:

When people are young, they can always have a completely new experience, subjectively or objectively. Anxiety is vivid and memory is intense. …… but as the year goes on, some of these experiences become autonomous and people become very unconscious, and what happens during a day or a week blends into their memories without being blinded. So the memories become more and more empty and collapse.

It was a long time at first because it was painful and full of pain.

However, that time became routine for Sun Woo from some point on.

And the end became empty.

I said it collapsed.

Suicide.

“ ……. ”

Dawn stars whisper towards the city surrounded by a pale fog. I came back with memories of my past, when my nightmares had faded for days after I left the medicine. Thought I'd settled down emotionally. Is there still a sense of belonging that the family hasn't dropped something? I don't think so. It's like a test paper that already knows the correct answer.

I'm not sure what the problem is yet. The situation is not so bad now, given the delay in getting better and better. Do I need more time? I heard dreams are called unconscious feet. Even the first unpleasant and painful dream is just too difficult to sleep in now.

‘What should I do? ’

For Sun Woo, the time was a hazy time to go back to sleep. It took about 30 minutes to an hour or so to go to sleep once. Right before the sun hits the sky. Consider the remaining time before eating breakfast and going out for exercise, you should probably get up again as soon as you fall asleep. The time for waking up like this has always been painful. It seemed too long for Sun Woo to be objectively short.

Rather, the time it takes to pre-record a few days ago is subjectively closer. Bondi's perception of the present and the time in his memory is different. The more fun, fun and curious the current time is, the faster it flows, the more bored and distressed it gets, the slower it is.

‘Maybe I should play the piano. ’

A night alone.

After drinking a sip of cold water, he wakes up and enters the room where the piano is placed and sits on the piano chair. Then I started pedaling as soon as my hand reached for it.

Piano loves it.

No, I got to like it.

Not only can it contain emotions, but it also follows a sense of accomplishment.

So I've been a little neglectful in sports these days.

When I exercise, I just forget about the moment, but the piano doesn't.

You can only see yourself running away.

And talents other than the ideas that are discovered.

Absolute tone.

Typically, the ability to listen to musical instruments and determine their unique pitch immediately.

‘At first I thought it was a mistake. ’

That's it. That's it.

I haven't had much talent so far.

Maybe it just comes from observation. However, if it comes from the observation phenomenon, the ‘sensual’ aspect soon vanishes. Unless it's a ritual, a past, a habit.

For example, the memories and knowledge that originated from Men B created a trigger for German language and quickly gained knowledge. But the sensual side didn't last long. So, when I saw the pronunciation, my speaking skills, which were initially similar to the locals, were significantly lower. I am still good at it, but not as good as‘ local '.

That's why I'm being surprised. I still get German lessons, which is why it's so much more awkward than the first time. I've been beaten up enough, and you're more real than fiction. ‘Well, maybe.’ I did not care much about it, but it is still awkward for me.

So the past is fortunate to see it like this.

Because I'm good at answering vague questions thanks to my hours with my family.

Because I have lived to overcome the situation without hurting someone or getting caught for nothing. That's why the truth I wanted to convey was always in the vortex.

Even though I'm being a little more honest now. But the observation is still the case. The source of your talents. And against death. I want to tell someone, but I can't. So just like back then, this is still a fuzzy stand.

Therefore, the absolute tonality was also thought to have originated from Kim Su-il. The feeling of disappearing after a while. But what distinguished and felt was sharper. The times that I felt was a little strange to derive from the absolute sound of Kim Su Il acquired naturally.

In that case...

Maybe it's his gift.

But it can't be.

Ever since I was a kid, I've always thought about looking in the mirror.

I can't possibly have a gift.

No, if there is, I can try.

If it's a gift to be able to make an effort.

If you say so, isn't that all there is to it?

But it has nothing to do with the results.

Efforts don't always pay off.

Hopefully, coming here is hopeless.

So it was an empty time that I was in the moment of trying.

But if you don't at least try.

I'm lucky now compared to the past.

I was able to steal the talent that would result in more than a certain amount of results.

Other people's experiences, knowledge, senses, memories, consciousness.

Bring me an incentive to bring more than a certain reward.

That's why I couldn't neglect my piano practice. It's different from the past, even if it's not your original gift. So I had no choice but to doubt it. The gift of absolute sound. But over time, it becomes sharper and sharper, unlike German.

One blow, one blow.

On the other hand, it is said that a person with perfect absolute tone can immediately determine all the sound heights, but very few people possess these abilities. I think it's close to the perfection I'm talking about here. Recently, what I felt was simply because of my mood has changed to almost certain.

If it was a house of music, not studying.

Maybe it's a little different.

Anyway, I'm borrowing Kim Soo-il's life to make a result of pressing the piano. And there's a talent for self that helps.

That's good.

That's the end of it.

Otherwise, you wouldn't be able to reveal feelings and memories that you wouldn't be able to say.

I want to talk to you.

If you can't.

I can't do this.

There was no reason to be a piano.

Maybe if it wasn't an instrument, it would have done something similar. Like rhythm gymnastics, ballet. I liked the way it looked. But the beginning was the piano, and I realized my talents.... His talents helped him play the piano.

And when I did, I became attached.

It's just that Sunwoo is so passionate about the piano.

It's just...

Suddenly,

When I woke up, I just woke up at dawn and pressed the piano.

.

The daily life that had been busy flowing for Sunwoo was quiet again. The crowded schedule is over, and all that's left is to attend live appearances and film awards in the near future. The next one has not yet been decided.

“Sunwoo. ”

Maybe it's because I woke up early and played the piano in the morning and exercised a little overface in the morning. Sunwoo was dozing off while reviewing the script for his next move on the couch. Everyone did their job quietly because they were sleeping so hard, but it was lunchtime soon. Basically, we want to eat and live, but we have to eat.

“Tae Hyun? ”

It's a short time, but it's still too deep. I must have slipped away when I was looking at scripts for my next book. I feel like I slept very well even though it was not a good time to sleep well.

“Yes, it's almost lunchtime. What would you do?”

“Let's go to the in-house restaurant. What about Yuri?”

Last night.

Suddenly, I think of college because I think useless thoughts. The past is always running out of time. The amount of time it took to solve most things, except for tuition. I was caught up in time and didn't have a chance or time to make friends. I always felt lonely when I wanted someone to be there for me. But I had never been like that, and sometimes the romance novel I read was a friend that made me feel lonely.

“Come with me. Is she a lunchbox?”

“Yes, we should go on a diet. Eat well. ”

But I'm used to it.

So it's okay.

We're gonna have to try harder.

But it's full of dark fog that's completely out of sight. There was a time when loneliness came like a wave. When I wanted someone to be there for me.

“It's been a long time this time, hasn't it? ”

“The clothes I bought last year were too tight. It's a little dangerous, really. ”

Like a person who likes to make friends and always wants to be alone with people around him. People who are used to being lonely sometimes miss people's skin. The heart is like a day when it rains on the street.

It must be hard for someone who's good at walking wet roads in the rain, but he can live well on his own, and someone who's not, probably, suffering beyond the hard roads. Maybe I'll get depressed.

‘Cause I did. ’

Being aware of it was so severe that you could see it through someone else's eyes.

“So don't stress out by eating. ”

That's why this trivial life feels precious.

I'm still afraid of closing the streets.

I can learn a little bit.

Dinner with someone who's never been there before.

It was just awkward dining time.

It's very natural now.

“But it's going to take you a long time to make this next choice. ”

“I have a lot on my mind. ”

The signal light that was always shown in red now seems to be turning green sometimes.

It seems like the waiting time that felt so long has been worth the wait.

I feel like my cold heart is somewhat warm.

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