Actor, Search for Hope

Lee Jin-ah, Sunwoo's sister, had a vivid memory since she was a child. She instinctively noticed that although she was the eldest, her expectations and interests were directed towards her brother. I had the same blood, thinking he was cute, but I didn't like it. So I worked really hard on everything.

I gave him all the support he needed. I began to learn everything I could once I learned, including the piano. Luckily, I was talented. The results came as well, but the gaze on his brother never returned to him.

Oggi has arrived.

After pulling and pulling, I still studied well, and when I achieved grades, I seemed to care a little more about other things. So at some point, I just hung up on studying. Fun and interest was the second problem.

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Because studying was the most important thing in the house. And if I studied well, most of what I wanted was in my hands. However, he did not study very well. Maybe it's a gift.

It'll get better over time.

It's because he's young.

Try harder.

Work harder.

He never said that to himself.

Can't you do better?

No, why can't you do that?

He's got blood on his hands.

I can't remember what I was thinking and what I was feeling. Remembering is his shadow exhaling a sigh of relief. As his condition didn't seem to improve over time, the balance of attention began to gradually reverse. And the freedom began to fade gradually, like painting a piece of paper. Even if I did, I still let it brake me.

I only knew it was an interest, a love. So I tried my best to do it, and I turned my eyes away from not doing it. It was fun to put on a cross or play a game. But I want to be loved.

I don't know if it's blocked somewhere because I don't have enough abilities. But there's something natural about studying. It wasn't fun, but it was more than time.

“Well done.”

I just wanted to hear one more word about it.

After plenty of time. The story of my parents who were one day trying to be regarded as a kind of inertia about love that was gradually pouring out.

“But I'm glad Jina's grades have been doing so well. ”

“If they had changed talents, the house would be at peace. Tsk.”

Are these people looking at a person named Jina?

If I hadn't studied, I would have been more miserable than my brother. I think it's more important than the existence of Me. I thought that no matter who was here, Mother and Father wouldn't care much if they studied well.

But despite that question, I longed for love. even though it was not a loving look. Believing that, even though I instinctively knew something was wrong at some point, I tried to look back, and I focused on studying that I didn't want to. That's how I lived.

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It's been a long time since she's been home. I didn't want to take a step in, but there was a reason. The house seemed to remain intact. The air is suffocating. The atmosphere of the past that seemed to last forever will come back to life.

“It's been a long time, Mom. How are you?”

“Something must have happened. ”

Although Lee Jin-ah is calling her mother, it is not a word that is affectionate with ordinary people. The love between Sunwoo and Lee Jina's mother was because Orlot was heading towards his father. I only gave birth because my husband wanted me to.

“What about you?”

“I'm sure he's in the study. ”

I'm so jealous of my husband's interest in her. He was like that. But when he was a very young boy, he gave a lot of love, but he had only a short time. From the time Sunwoo left kindergarten, he did at least everything.

Not as a parent, but as a person.

Just what you need.

At a young age, my parents are everything.

What made her like that?

“Here, I bought some strawberries. ”

She talks in mysterious ways, but it's just a habit of speaking. He doesn't speak of his father's monogamy, but he knew for sure that he knew. I wondered every time I remembered that. Out of common sense, I'd say crazy.

“It's okay if you don't buy it every time you come. ”

“You like strawberries. I'm going to say hello to my father. ”

When I was a kid, I had to ride on a rail that my father laid down for me. No, it doesn't make any difference now. Back then, I only knew that it was the right thing to do. It was the same for families and relatives and people I met. Of course I thought so.

There was no mother's love, but there was a father's love. Secondly, whether it's okay to say "love." When I thought the pressure on expectations was also a kind of love. Fortunately, thanks to my natural head, I was able to avoid my childhood when I was condemned.

“Father, this is Jina. ”

“The door is open. ”

Over time, I gradually found out. The hardships of my brother. He longed for love for his parents, but never came back. I could see that I needed someone's love. But I ran away because I was overwhelmed by my own work. I wanted to do something, but I didn't know what to do. There was not much will.

At some point, I forgot. Maybe he thought he was abandoned as a brother. As a loner, I don't know, but there was a comparison. And the difference in talent has led to discrimination. He seemed to have almost lost the compassion and self-esteem that a person deserves.

“How are you? ”

“I don't know.”

I knew and I turned away.

A brother with humiliation and disgust that comes from talent. A good child who looked full of emotional anxiety and skepticism but did not turn into anger. I was lost because I didn't know what to do, and I was comforted by seeing him without knowing it.

I'm not the only one.

Your brother is more miserable.

I'm better than that.

When did he realize that? The moment I realized that, I felt nauseous. For a long period of time, I did not stop after clearing everything at the end. It was the same with self-loathing. I thought it was rubbish, not man, or worse.

“What did Lee Sunwoo say? ”

Self-inflicted, including feeling sorry for yourself. A grudge against the existence of a parent suddenly arose. And all the hard feelings were mixed up. What to do. Can you be good to Sunwoo from now on?

Is my life just drifting away like this?

It's just up on a rail.

I want to get out, but how, where.

I'm not sure.

Oh, so is my life, but for my brother. I can't feel what to say. I want to wash away any guilt in my mind. I want to do something for you. But I don't know how to get close to it, or if it's too far away. So I'm still taking the same attitude as before.

“I think you should move in person if you want to meet. ”

“Hmm."

You don't even know how to live on your own. No, I think it's the same as the doll that was born to be impossible. Why was he born this way? Now I'm standing in front of a man called my father and I'm telling him a story. It's just, I don't know. Nowadays, that's all I can think about. You just don't know everything. Like a fly caught in a noose that can't escape.

Still, I'm glad my brother seems to have escaped this week.

“And I said I'd pay you back for all the money you've raised. ”

And that was his favorite extra-actor part time.

That's a little comforting, a little comforting.

“Money is a good thing. ”

“What are you going to do? ”

Even though he felt another aversion to feeling a kind of surrogate relief from that comfort. Luckily, I have a kind of envy and admiration, but that emotion soon subsides.

“Let's get a date. ”

What went wrong from where?

If these people weren't my parents, I'd be living a slightly different life.

Is he sad? Is he desperate? I don't think anything's working. I felt a lot of emotion in the sea for a while. I think if I reach out my hand, I can feel something. It looks so far away. Feelings swept away by the waves.

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“I have a car ad and a fan meeting, but would you be okay with that? ”

After the exercise, Chosun stopped by the office. And then the story begins. The Black and White Cities has been temporarily suspended. There's a lot of people's interests that are really complicated, so I can't grasp them. The LU Strategic Team found it faster to give up. I have a stake in Garrety, so I can't just take it off.

“Well, I'll just think about the fan meeting a little bit more. I'm not saying I don't. The movie is about to spill out, and I was wondering if it's a little bit like that right now. ”

“Okay, I'll reschedule the fan meeting a little bit further. ”

He told me to go ahead with the shoot, then asked me to wait for a while.

Like this, like that.

The words kept changing. The camera didn't actually turn, but Sun Woo continued to show his face. It was the least he could do for those who were desperately clinging to this film.

There was also a reason that the observations were getting slower. Like all love, Kim Sung-min's love preceded logic. Before he even realized it. Ever since I heard that song.

After the story.

Could there be a happy ending after that? Or a sad ending? Or maybe even me. Emotions are consuming. Burning the moment and burning it down. Like the sun on your shoulders. Love burns like a bubble when the waves are swallowed up by a huge storm.

So there is a saying in marriage.

Later on, it's a nice life.

Some couples don't.

Compared to the whole, they're a minority.

So it is easy to divorce without children, the debate is that.

Love doesn't last forever.

Most people marry with love, and by giving birth to children, they create responsibility for each other and new love.

The movie ends with two weddings. What Sunwoo wanted to know was the story behind it. The end of the story was beautiful. But the rest of the story. Was he happy? Where was the end of the emotion found by people who knew in their head that they were happy, that they loved, that they felt for someone they didn't feel?

Normally, marrying someone with a disability is a common way to experience destruction. If we're going to live together, we have to make a habit of caring for the blind. It will never be easy.

“Me, and the script from the next episode you mentioned. Not too fast? ”

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