Actor, Search for Hope

I don't know if it was supposed to be this free or this today, but in a large first-floor lounge, Sun Wu was sitting alone. A classic that flows still. It's Knockton of Chopin.

14 f # Forged Work No. 48 2.

A sweet song with sadness.

Sun Wu personally feels the most pathetic finger of Knockton. Or is it because it's a place to untie the threads that were tied in the past? When the piano's fingers fell in love with Sun Woo's heart and started to make tears. My father and sister began to be seen by Sunwoo.

“It's been a long time……. Father.”

Father in a dark navy suit and sister in a black suit. I noticed a difference in the jacket's closure. The road to the Blue Dragon Film Festival reminds me of the story I told you before.

For men's suits, it is usually the opposite for women's suits if they overlap from right to bottom and left to top. I can't believe I'm having an unpleasant conversation that doesn't fit the situation. I guess I was wrong to think I was nervous. Emotional fluctuations do not coexist to say that I have tightened my mind and stayed alert.

“Yes, it's hard to see your face. ”

“I've been very busy lately. There's a lot to sing around. But I didn't think you'd come to me first. I didn't even think about it. ”

That said, I called the staff with a smile that ignored my father who seemed to be somewhat ill.

“Where can I go on the second floor? ”

“I'll show you.”

Upon arriving in the prepared room, it is an honor to have you and your honored guest accompanied by a paper featuring the prepared meal course that day. "There was a card.

“The meal here is delicious. I hope you like it. ”

We should be as polite as possible. Or should I be rude? Humans sometimes transcend reason and logic, and, conversely, reason suppresses emotion. I still think we should act rationally today.

But I am not confident.

I had a lot of concerns until I got here, but I couldn't decide what to do. One thing I've decided. Be honest, be direct. Regardless of emotion and reason.

“Do you go to places like this often? ”

“Not exactly. It's my first time here. ”

It was uncomfortable for my father to keep silent, even though he didn't look back at what Sun Woo said. Doesn't look like it. When interpreted through the ability to feel the atmosphere, my sister's question seemed to be pure curiosity.

“But what about your mother? ”

“You're not feeling well. Tell her to shine a light on her face next time she's healthy. ”

It's probably true that you're not feeling well. But the next words did not seem to be true. It's been too long since I cared about my health. In middle school, I couldn't hear a word I was worried about, even if I was carried away with colitis. And I'm not the one who's going to tell you to come again next time.

If you recall anything you haven't heard since you died in the past, you're probably lying.

“Except you're sick. And then the words. Did your mother really say that? ”

Sunwoo's tone was calm. However, the content is so direct that it sounds aggressive in some ways. I wonder if it was because of the stranger. She looks awkward and doesn't open her mouth at the end of the question.

“You've changed a lot. ”

And Seong-woo's father, who was looking back at him, threw a word. Like a wind that doesn't blow through the back of the head. The feeling is cool, but not afraid, so the Sun Sun speaks with a quiet tone, as before.

“Yes, that's how it happened. ”

It's different from the past when I envied the seaside migratory birds. When I just stared at the migratory bird. Always obedient in front of my father, only good words, very polite. I didn't blame anyone, and I didn't show my heart. I also resented the change in the seasons when I was always trying to make things right. I feel like my past has gone too far.

“Tell me what happened. ”

And then...

“I don't know.”

In a word like that, I wrote as many words as I could to like my father. If my father sees a rotten apple and says it's not rotten, he looks surprised, "Is that right? ’to the point.

“Nothing happened, and I'm not sure why I should say it, even if I did. Since when have you been interested in me? ”

It was shortly after Sunwoo graduated from middle school that he fully accepted that Sunwoo's father did not have the talent to study. The day I lied about going to humanitarian high school despite going to unemployed high school. And Sunwoo's father did not hesitate to lie in order not to be ashamed of his standards. Since then, I have abandoned the sobbing refinement and started treating Seongwoo as a complete degenerate.

“Dinner's ready. ”

It was the restaurant staff who just broke the air in the room that was dominated by the silence. Japanese chicken breast salad, figs with cream cheese, and sugar cream. And tomatoes, mozzarella cheese, salad. There were many types, but not many of them to fit the appetizer name.

“It's delicious. Don't you want some? ”

The first move of the utensil was in the sinking air, which seemed to continue as if the employee was going out endlessly. Seeing that Seongwoo, when I saw the expression on his father's face, I felt cool as if it was ten years old.

In the past, the only thing that could make a face like that was when I woke up trying to kill myself. Memories of the past that have never happened in the world today. Right now, suicide attempts are all that remain of Sunwoo's memory. Subsequently, the actual euthanasia takes over my mind.

“Are you sure you won't tell me? ”

“I think I just told you that nothing happened and you won't tell me. ”

I wanted to be sarcastic, "Already dementia," but I swallowed it. I think we're too far out. Maybe it's just a sudden and sudden rebellion in his eyes. I haven't done that so far, but I think I'm going to go crazy.

“What do you want? ”

Strong expression.

What's on your mind?

If you're really angry, that's fine.

“Well, don't you eat? It's really good.”

Thinking about it, he continued to eat, but the two men in front of him were still holding no spoon. It was only sunscreen that ate the appetizer. And Seonwoo was the only one who touched the next dish.

“When I went to unemployed high school, why did you lie to your relatives and those around you about going to humanitarian high school? And was the tuition really about self-reliance? If you tell me, I'll tell you. ”

I asked a nagging question that I had been wondering but hadn't asked. The lie about going to humanitarian high school must be really embarrassing. He would not have admitted that the child in his bloodline was a fool. In this regard, I was confident. The only reason I asked this question was to double-check it, and I just wanted to hear it from a man named Dad.

I was really curious about the tuition. It was a very generous family. Come to think of it, I gave my sister not only tuition, but also living expenses and everything. Was it true that the reason for growing self-reliance was true?

“... are you trying to make a deal with me? ”

I feel ridiculous because I can't believe it. When I saw someone, I had to make a big mistake or look like I was betrayed. A man who used to be cautious of what he said in the past. He seemed like a really, really big guy. It doesn't seem like it.

“If that's what it sounds like, it's true. But as a child, I'll tell you first. ”

In my heart, I'm not better than everyone else. But it's still a rich relationship on the outside. One unfortunate thing is that we can no longer ask about the fact that it is only in Sunwoo's memory.

“I want you to disappear for the rest of my life. That's what I want. I really hope I don't see your face after today, is that okay? ”

I was reminded that I worked hard to clear my mind before meeting him, but what do I really like when I see him? I was a little afraid of what I saw until I heard Knockton in the lounge. I wonder if there's any love left. But I can see that for myself. That such emotions are not nearly as eye-catching.

“Yes, it would be nice to dig up my name in hostility. I'm afraid I can't do that right now. ”

The enemy is no more. So selling the enemy makes no sense. It was a real shame that there was no way to legally break up the rich relationship.

“Nothing in my life has ever helped. He kept me afloat and educated me. Seems to have helped. I'll pay you back if you want. ”

I wish I hadn't been born.

I wish.

I've thought about it so many times. Nothing in his life really acted as positive except a little bit. Chosun could be so convinced again at this moment.

“I want to live happily ever after, knowing myself very well. But in order to do that, I don't think I need to see my father in the future. ”

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“What are you going to do? ”

After Sunwoo's words, Lee Chang Myung's father got up from his seat. And before going after Lee Chang Nam, Lee Jin-ah asked Seon-woo with a strange glance.

“Really. I just want to disappear from my life, I mean it. ”

I felt a bit regretful that I had to say something I wanted to say more. I can't undo the time that's already passed. It would have sounded contextless to my father. Just as a few days ago, Lee Sung-min from Black and White City who had been tentatively discontinued was slapped on the cheek.

“Me too?"

I mean, maybe I should have said something so I could understand better. If there is something I have to tell you next time, I will organize it so that it can be connected back and forth. More emotional and rational than you are right now.

“No, that's not it. Not that far. ”

Lee Jina thought, exhaling relief from what Sun Woo said.

‘Thank goodness. ’

Yi Jina really wanted to do that if she thought that way about herself. As atonement in its own way.

“I'll be going now. I drove all the way here. ”

“I'll see you later. Be careful going in.”

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