Actor, Search for Hope

The bird flaps its wings with a brush in its hand. It hasn't been that long since I started painting, but I'm still as good as any veteran. In this way, a portrait containing memories and warmth was completed.

- The despair I drew last time... Where's the big picture going? Who's that?

⁄ It was completed long ago. Take another look. That painting is called an LU employee, and I've asked a few people to draw it, but this is the same painting.

Isn't Webtoon painting today??

I don't know, but I don't think I'd draw a webtoon today because I don't have a laptop or a tablet. Maybe???

Love that came to Yoon-sik Kim. It was like a lantern that suddenly came into my life. I can't control myself when I'm looking at her. It was as if the quiet heart had gone mad. I tried to deny it, but I turned my back on it. Especially after admitting it. Like a man who has traveled through the desert for a long time and has seen an oasis for the first time.

Unlike Sunwoo's style, this time it's Kim Yun-sik's taste. I started to draw darker, straighter lines than usual. More intuitive and realistic. So Kim Seo-yoon's painting might feel even more beautiful.

For reference, Seo-yoon Kim was the owner of the beauty commonly seen in novels.

Skin that is white and clean as snow. Black hair. Red lips like a parrot. Where is the beauty of the princess from the old tale? So it was typical but beautiful.

- But what are you drawing now?

I don't know...??

Kim Yun-sik has drawn dozens and hundreds of times. At first it was just a picture I had drawn for practice, but at some point it became everyday. The lines that you draw with your own emotions. The more I draw, the clearer the memories I shared with Yoon-sik Kim. And it's accelerating.

- Well, how fast...? I think we just started painting.

I don't think it's a person...

Ningen Death blah blah blah blah blah blah real blah blah

Memories together. Her image reminds me of cloudy rainwater as if she blocked it with an umbrella. but as familiar and rhythmic as I've drawn so many times. The exact appearance that I wanted to draw began to appear immediately. It was like Kim Yoon-sik's heart getting darker every time I drew her.

I envy paint and paintbrushes, but I envy the speed of paintings.

Heh heh heh heh heh heh heh heh heh people... Yes, even people, but the drawing speed... Hey...? Aliens... blah.

The backdrop is also unfamiliar with the unfamiliar officetel landscape. Every time she arrives, the house she made as neat as possible is placed in the paper. The landscape of the day when I thought I wanted my mind, emotions, and time to stop, like a stopwatch.

― Ladies and gentlemen, just now: [Breaking News] “Actor Lee Sunwoo's portrait is only 30 minutes away!”.................. blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah is an article blah blah blah blah blah blah

For this reason, it's called a giraffe, not a reporter nowadays... Breaking news... blah blah blah blah blah blah blah... But it's still just a cover... blah blah blah blah

Laugh at all you want.

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Kim Seo Yun seems to fully accept the fact that she doesn't have a mother. I used to sigh occasionally with depression in my eyes, but it was only for a short while. I didn't try to swallow tears with my face as shaded as before.

“Hiya.”

However, whenever I did, it was the same for Yoon-sik Kim. Like now, I always hugged Yoon-sik Kim because she hated it, or rather liked it. Every time, it always tickles with warmth.

“And you still haven't decided? ”

“Yeah, a little bit. ”

A few days ago, I got a call from home. I asked him if he could come down once. With Mother telling me that my father changed his mind quite a bit and that he would be okay. However, Kim Yun-sik started to wonder if it was really true.

As people get older, their values usually begin to solidify. Bit by bit, accepting new things. Slow and steady, but at some point you feel difficult. And after a while, it's not impossible, but the possibility converges to almost zero.

Kim Yun-sik's father looks at 60 soon. Today, 60 isn't a lot of age. It is still a very difficult time accepting things that were unacceptable to their values. That's because it's right and wrong.

“I think we talked about this for a while. Luckily, she understood me from the start. But he couldn't. I don't think it was necessary. Transgender was like a plague to my father. Something you want to deny. ”

Kim Yoon-sik confessed honestly because he couldn't come out without saying anything. My mother nodded without saying anything as expected. My father's reaction was more violent than I thought. What the hell is that supposed to mean? He denies it. Now, if you think about it, it was self-defense against unexpected shocks. Perhaps he reacted more stubbornly to overcome the confusion about reality.

“This, normally, is a transgene. Nowadays, he still looks a lot better than he used to. ‘Maybe. What's wrong with that?’ I said. They say it's good to find your identity. But it's not his story, so it's easy to say. ”

It's about someone else. I don't want it to be a big deal. But if that's the story of someone very close to you, things will be different. My son or daughter. Or if the brothers and sisters say so.

“Rarely do people like my older sister give me a discriminatory look. ”

“Is that it? ”

“Yes, it is. ”

Then Kim Seo-yoon did. When you say transgender, the reaction is really, "Whatever. He's not a monster. He's the same person. Instead, he asked me what the problem was. It wasn't because it wasn't about her, it was about her values.

Since we started living together, Kim Yun-sik has been confident. Perhaps Kim Yun-sik's love for her also worked quite well. The unconscious treatment of her tone or the discrimination in her eyes.

“Transgenders don't just wear colored glasses. At least not while you're around. ”

“Yeah? I really like it. ”

“I know.”

“Looks and gender are really good. Of course, it'd be nice. It'd be nice. And one more thing. To love, even more so. ”

The content was not at all calm compared to her voice, which continued to be as bold as usual. The subject of Kim Yoon-sik's struggle to put it in one corner. Suddenly, my heart started beating violently.

“I love you. I love Kim Yun-sik. Just leave that gender, that look, that kind of thing. Sometimes in a novel, this happens. She's clearly straight. If you love homosexuals, that's because you're him. ”

Sometimes that happens. Despite being straight, it's only about this guy. If the person surpasses gender. He's still sexually oriented, but as much as he is.

“I've been thinking a lot lately. It doesn't change over time. Say no if you don't want to. I don't think I'll be able to leave again after a while. ”

The reason Kim Seo-yoon confessed was not a big deal. Suddenly I feel like that. And as time went on like this, his heart seemed to grow thicker as well. If I continued this life a little longer, I would lose confidence to leave Kim Yun-sik and I would rather hang on.

But for now, I didn't think so. And I want to believe that.

I thought it would be the last time I could disappear quietly if I was rejected.

“Me, too."

Kim Yoon-sik suddenly did not become a judge of what he heard. From the moment I heard "I love you." I don't know what to say. What should I say? But over time, I could see it.

‘You were nervous, too. ’

A thin, trembling body. Fear of what to say if you say no. Kim Yoon-sik was always busy hiding his mind, so he might take it for granted. Nevertheless, the feeling of love leaked out. Quite a lot. That's why Seo-yoon was able to confess like this.

“I love you, too. More than anyone else in the world. ”

And the moment we looked into each other's eyes. Kim Yoon-sik looked like a star whose eyes looked like those of Kim Seo-yoon.

“Hey, sis? ”

“Me, me. Just in case.”

She was so nervous.

I'm so afraid that if I say no, I'll have to leave.

“I'm so happy and happy. ”

That's why they shed tears.

She began to cry very horribly for a moment.

“I told you then. I'd be happy to do it for the rest of my life, so I want you to suck on it for the rest of your life. ”

In the words of Kim Yoon-sik, Kim Seo-yoon dug a little deeper and gave more strength to the hand holding his back. And Yoon-sik Kim stroked her head more carefully. With love.

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After Kim Yun-sik and Kim Seo-yoon confirmed each other's love, the shooting was nothing. Like any other novel. Like a popular romance movie. I painted their everyday lives boldly, just as it was depicted in the drama.

Crying, laughing, rejoicing, loving nothing. It doesn't usually mean ideal love in a medium like a novel, it doesn't just draw conflict structures for fun. It was just a story of our relationship that is commonly seen. So, in some ways, it might not be fun, but it came to me completely differently from the point of view of the people who saw it. These are scenes that make me tingle, shy, and delightful.

“But Sunwoo, did you know how to cook? ”

“I just know how to do something simple. ”

It would probably be the force of choreography. What the director drew made me feel like I was peering at the love of two people I had no idea about.

“I don't think you're good at saying it's simple. ”

“I know it's really simple. But is this the end of filming? ”

I had just finished cooking the actual dishes in the scene of cooking in the scene. He was quite good at it as long as he had been following the trail from the beginning. Delicious dishes with minimal ingredients. It is a skill I have learned in the world of the past before death.

And Kim Yoon-sik was the same. However, Kim Yoon-sik's skills were more discouraging. Effort to eat something delicious in a harsh environment beyond the Sun Wu situation at the time. The direction of the effort was the same, but it was more pathetic, so I could learn quite a lot of things.

“Yeah, there's a lot of unpaved pastry and stuff to talk about. because I don't have time to be honest about it, rather than open endings. And that's what we live in. It's rare to clearly distinguish good from evil, and it's too common not to come to a clear conclusion about an event. ”

Meeting with Kim Yun-sik's parents. Future. Non-fixed income. Earnings from web toons are the future of Kim Yun-sik, which Orlot holds in his memory. However, the future is the possibility that existed on the time axis that was not connected with Seo-yoon Kim.

I wonder if I still drew a webtoon in the future that I fell in love with Kim Seo-yoon.

I don't know.

I don't know why, but all I could see when I was shooting a web movie was the past and the present. There was only a vague smile about the future. If there was only one thing I could know, it was that after a very long time, there was still Kim Seo-yoon next to Kim Yoon-sik. Zhongwoo was satisfied with that fact alone.