Actor, Search for Hope

Now that I think about it, it's ridiculous.

It was then.

Suicide is often more impulsive than a careful decision based on deep thoughts, agony, and regret. But Sunwoo thought about it for a long time. As the seasons passed, many thoughts came and went like a flower changing clothes, but they became increasingly firm as the thought of dying.

When was it?

The interview. Yes, the interview reminded me suddenly. A few days ago. Several attempts at suicide said in an interview that spoke of hope. The world is always a crucible. But you said it was just a temporary rain storm.

In addition, statistics show that the number of people coming to the hospital emergency room after attempting suicide (including self-harm) increased from more than 20,000 in 2011 to 26,000 in 2015. He said it has been increasing steadily ever since.

Every man has his reasons. And for some, it would have been a rainstorm. However, no matter how hard I looked back now, I could borrow Deehan's cold-eyed vision and see that Sunwoo had all the rain. if it's a passing rain cloud. That moment was the world of Sunwoo at that time, and that was all.

One last thing, please.

Just before that. I think I've had a few chances to rethink it. I never really thought about it at the end. Over time, I can see a little from a distance. If there had been something, I would have tried to live a little more.

Please help me live a little in a harsh world. I sincerely hope.

The courage and effort needed to live in the world. Life is often said to be a journey. One of the many pieces you can encounter on that road. So a little luck. May his self-satisfaction be the end of the road to avoid showers even for a short while for those in need.

If such luck had found its way into the distant past, it would not have committed suicide. Maybe the result was the same around the last minute. However, even with the luck that came at the end, I could smile a little. If only his actions could give him such a smile. Then the money won't be a waste. Sunwoo thought so.

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Time flows differently from person to person. For some, it will be like an arrow shot, and for others it will be slower than a child's movement. But what's fair to everyone is that it doesn't stop.

“Have you reviewed the next one? ”

“Catch it when you get a chance. before I ran out of pills. At least a gravitational margin. If we're lucky, maybe we can get a shot at it. ”

Since I had been to China, I felt that time was going too fast for Sunwoo. What to do, what I want to do, why I want to do so many things. I had to draw webtoons. I had to write songs and songs constantly. And a new hobby this time.

Zhongwoo has also been studying general IT matters, based on his knowledge lately. Especially when it comes to programs. Information and knowledge, but building a program was fun. It tasted different from paintings and songs. It was quite difficult to study the subject of programming.

It is because of the futures that are mixed with those that have been quite flustered compared to other knowledge and the discomfort of the present times. Of course, what I thought was possible was blocked up everywhere. She says her thoughts and memories are very easy. But I didn't know exactly what to do. It's like looking into a cloud. Clearly, there is a solution: clouds. I can see the cloud. But there was not much ambiguity in it.

When the stock price is raised to "It feels like rain", it should be stamped on the contract. ”

“Yes, I understand. It's not going to pour in like a country, but there's going to be plenty of temptations. ”

You're not a professional. You're a hobby. Gradually, something will happen. The process itself is fun, even if there are no results. That alone was enough for Sunwoo.

“Please hurry. The manuscript does not need to be translated. ”

When the time has passed since Sunwoo applied a new hobby in addition to the existing ones. I made a request for the next script. Only in Hollywood. Opportunity gained by IT FEELS LIKE RAIN. Perhaps in just a little while, his value will be the best. If that were the case, I could play a crucial role in Hollywood, even if it was a rookie who finished a piece.

Of course, LU knew that. There are no red flowers for ten days, so if you want to take advantage of this opportunity, now is the time. However, it's not that long since I finished my work that I couldn't tell Sunwoo the story, but I know that if I look at it from Sunwoo's point of view, that's it. And now I know LU is a matter of time. If we don't save this chance, we'll leave one day. I tried not to hurry because I was so sure.

“But are you sure you want to do this? You said it was less, but I think you should rest a bit more... ”

“If I say we're going to do this, it's going to take a while before we can put a stamp on the contract and actually film it, right? That's at least three or four months. That's enough. ”

There was no reason for Sunwoo to try to get into the next one quickly. I'd say a little sore. Especially, the role of Dehan Krauss was short, so there was little absolute time for Sun Woo to look at his life and the past and feel it.

I wanted to take a closer look at other people's lives.

Perhaps if you miss this opportunity, it will take you quite a while to get a starring role in Hollywood. Chosun didn't want to do that. For a while, I caught the route by focusing on Hollywood. Of course, short appearances are not so bad. The reverse interpretation increases as you look at it briefly.

But this time.

And when you can, it's different from what you can't do. Chosun wanted to increase his options this time.

“Yes, I understand. ”

“It's never overkill. Don't worry about it. ”

What I heard the first time I acted. An actor used to say it was a job to experience other people's lives indirectly. And I didn't think much of it at the time. Even after the observation phenomenon, it won't be a waste to lose this ability for a while.

But it's different now. Now it's as if an observation has suddenly come to pass. Well, then I'm sorry to hear that. Various forms of love. Unknown thoughts and emotions on the outside. A single story. and the ability to learn each time you play a role. As time goes by, emotions and ideas change. Now I'd be very disappointed if the observation wore off. When I looked at myself thinking about it, I felt a little awkward.

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The timing was not right for each other. We might have had a chance to meet once. Honestly, I wasn't that busy until Sunwoo crossed over to America. And then I saw it. When Sunwoo was free, she was busy. And when she got a little free, Sun Woo started to get busy. And since then, the time spent in the country has been drastically reduced. So let's skip it a few times.

“How are you? ”

However, since Sunwoo returned to Korea. And before that, in the United States. Even when you're crossing over to China. Not without trying, but occasionally and constantly having conversations. Although it wasn't seeing each other's faces, it wasn't memory and emotional writing like before, it was a conversation of letters and letters through a monitor. So it must have been because the meeting today felt awkward and familiar.

“Yes, Seo Eun, how are you? ”

From some point on, the first conversation was always the same. One of them asks how you're doing. And the answer to that is, is everything okay? It was both a formal question and a genuine statement. Gesture asks me to tell you if something happens. Luckily, none of that matters to each other. It was a conversation every time, but I was a little more nervous than usual because I saw my face in person.

“Except this first shot was a little hard. It was a little harder to get emotional than I thought. ”

She opens her pouch of stories, one by one. And the various emotions that had not been conveyed by the letter began to be conveyed to Sunwoo one by one. I didn't tell her directly about the recent film, but I really wanted to see it.

“I didn't really understand what it was like to only see you as a woman in the first place. If it had been because of a woman, I would have understood it sincerely. ”

This time it was the Queer Cinema. Topics that may be uncomfortable for someone. There may be many people who are more objectionable in general than other countries, especially because of the rich Buddhist culture. They say it's been better for generations.

But even in my country, queer movies have been made regularly. Long before Sun Woo or Seo Eun was born. The film Abstinence, which deals with the love of women and women, was released to the public in 1976. Since then, many works of gay code have appeared in secret.

“Stories like that are common and easy to understand. It was only homosexuals who came to love.

“The role I played this time was that I couldn't see men as a couple, even though they were women. I've actually met someone like that and talked to them, and they know it in their head, but do I have to say it's only in their head? ”

Emotionally, it still makes sense. Perhaps not. Pic laughs as she tilts her head, feeling that way. And at the same time, I was worried. I was so obsessed with the role that I still felt like I was obsessed with it. Her ability to feel the atmosphere makes her feel overwhelmed.

“And the director says thank you to Sunwoo. I'd like to say thank you in person later if that's okay. ”