Actor, Search for Hope

“Oh, that's enough. ”

Seongwoo stopped Tae Hyun Kang from bringing out other tools, including paint. All I need now is a pencil and a drawing.

‘How much did it cost? ’

Sunwoo suddenly smiled bitterly, looking at the pencil in his hand on the white drawing paper in front of his eyes. It seemed too prepared for Dylan's fall. I don't know how I knew, but I supported SHA and WL when I learned that Sunwoo was the protagonist of Hope Seen in Despair.

SHA, a company that handles the finest fireworks. And the other one is a little bit pushy, but it's the world's foremost recognizable WL for a single piece of paper. Everyone was happy to invest in Chongwoo.

They had only one condition. I want you to use your tools when you draw. Other than that, I didn't say anything else. Perhaps it would be as intangible as it would be if Sun Wu drew a brilliant picture.

It's an expensive painting to treat as a white paper, anyway. And an ugly pencil. Of course, the quality will be excellent, but it will be exponentially expensive with the value of the brand.

“Ameracano, please. ”

“I'll be ready in a moment. ”

Seongwoo decided to draw something related to Despair. Dylan and the other three. They all experience things that can't stop tragedy from happening in their dreams. Dylan can't stop Lucy's sister from dying soon enough to be photographed.

To lose all hope because there is nothing to look at. The feeling of being so unfamiliar with Sunwoo that it makes the world stand out.

But I could laugh now. It was not a self-imposing smile that all things seemed good. It was a big change. Especially when I realized how I felt about the person who has become a big part of my life these days.

‘Tree.’

Suddenly, Seo Eun Kim suddenly remembered the conversation I had with her a few days ago. I don't know if anyone's gonna say it's wrong, but it was her heart that looked so good on Sunwoo. Behind the silent smile of Sunwoo, her memories curled up and hid her face.

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After finishing the movie that I was filming. Kim Seo Eun was invited as a guest to visit her home. Home in a secluded countryside, it boasted the charm of fairy tales.

Particularly, the gardens that can be encountered as they enter are very neat, although they do not know who touched them. Big trees, of course. Even the little ones. Apparently, the landlord has a hobby in Bunjae.

It's sad to see trees like that.

How so?

Kim said, looking at the trees in the garden. Obviously, when I was on a plane in Germany, I had a similar conversation. Memories that come through time. At that time, the memory was scarce for Sunwoo.

The fog in the unknown forest last night fades as the sun rises. It's a story about trees that goes through your head. A tree is compared to a man, and a stranger suddenly approaches and cuts his hair. So I asked him if he was creepy.

because I think it's kind of like someone coercing the outside. If someone told me to wear a pink skirt and a white blouse for the rest of my life, So maybe I can scream beyond what I hate so much?

A small man planted a tree with a low height to reduce the characteristics and spirit of the large tree. When you look at it, people say it's beautiful. Or as you might admire the invitation and elegance. She was different.

I could remember her sad smile without even looking. Then she liked poisonous trees. I loved other nature, but I used to get more sparkly when I was talking about trees.

Of course, what I just said was my idea. It's not that bonsai is bad, and there's no way of knowing what the trees think. But, you know, it's too much to hope that trees have free will, right?

There would be no accident in the tree to think that, but Sun woo felt her heart was very warm. Simple words from Messenger. But there seemed to be some things that could not be extracted from the text. Maybe it's because her mind is fresher, prettier and softer than silkiness. That's why I thought it might be.

‘Is this a click-click on my eye? ’

I think I'll be able to move to the United States soon anyway!

I'll be waiting.

Her bright face, pictured beyond the screen, was pleasant to the eyes of the sunshine. It's like the OST coming out of a drama. Her silent voice lifts the heart of Seonwoo to its fullest extent.

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Sun Wu knew about poverty well, but did not know. It is because our childhood was materially enriched. The Sun Wu's childhood environment was suffocating and full of air, but he did not starve or eat.

But Dylan was different. It was very poor, because my father failed in his business, and he was in great debt. It was a common story. So the blackout or the gas was Dylan's usual routine.

One of the happiest memories of my childhood was that I was able to eat a full meal while entering elementary school. In fact, the lunch at my school looked really bad for Sunwoo. That's what Dylan agreed to. At this point, when I looked back, it was really ugly.

$2 per meal, barely more than KRW 2,000 in my country's money. It's just a bunch of food plans. Very poor I knew later, but I could eat with my mother's hard-earned money. For reference, the United States is a system where money is deducted as much as children have paid in advance.

However, there were times when the capital was cut off due to lack of money. So it was normal to wear the same clothes for a few days. There were also many days that could not be washed. It seemed good, but I couldn't help the smell. So I was bullied. It was a little, no, too hard.

But in the meantime, Dylan went to school. because there was a desire to succeed and make a lot of money. I'm sick of poverty. I thought I needed knowledge to make money.

It's a mandatory free education until high school. Luckily, the university can get a scholarship. Dylan thought it took knowledge to succeed, and school was the most important thing in his position. So I studied like a villain.

“I've been dreaming lately. But I think I've seen him somewhere. Bad things happen all the time. ”

“ ……. Really? "

One lonely thing was that I didn't have any friends until middle school. In front of her, Lucy was a friend I met in high school. He was the first heterosexual friend Dylan had ever had who endured with the temperament of an evil spirit. At first, I was face-to-face, and I didn't have much contact. There was definitely something going on.

Seonwoo was very curious, but he held on to his heart. I needed to get a little closer to look beyond time, because I needed to adjust my distance. But you have to be careful because it looks like it's close.

What do we do? Do you think it'll be okay just once? The moment when Sunwoo was worried a lot. Dylan's memories, which he seemed to be able to see, blur like a flash of light.

“It's too realistic to call it a debut. But the truth is, bad things happen. That's why I asked you to come to the cafe. ”

“ ……. ”

You have to make a lot of money when you grow up. I'm not gonna live in poverty. Dylan always insists on starving whenever he has a day. Three o'clock meats and lots of vegetables. Sometimes I have to eat with fruit.

when he tried to become a slave beyond his obsession with money and success. It was Lucy who caused Dylan to rethink his thoughts. Of course, the desire for money and success remained. But it made me realize that the formula, Money Success Happiness, is not perfect. Dylan told me that he and Lucy could see a lot of things that he didn't.

“Me, me. ”

“Me too?"

Chosun understands Dylan like that, but he doesn't. But what Sunwoo could once again realize here was that everyone has different values. At least you can see that money and success contribute a lot to Dylan's happiness.

Neither Sunwoo nor Dylan knew. Dylan will be happy if he succeeds and makes a lot of money, even if he's not perfectly happy. There may be words that don't match happiness like the word perfect. Perfect happiness. What a contradictory thing to say, Chosun thought so. Is there such a thing as happiness in this world?

“Me, too, I've been having dreams lately. And I had the worst nightmare last night. This is where my brother got hit by a car and died. ”

The conversation between Dylan and Lucy continues, as Sunwoo continues to drift apart. Lucy, who usually has to have a lively voice and a face, seems very anxious. You continue to move with your hands clasped.

Lucy continues to wriggle her hands if she doesn't like something or has something to think about. Dylan was well aware of that. I haven't stopped since we got to the cafe.

“Well, that's ridiculous, isn't it? ”

Is it because there are so many things that are seen through observation? Sunwoo can recall Dylan's past, not Dylan's. Fortunately, the person named Father and Mother seemed to be a decent parent who did everything.

Apart from the problem of poverty, it was a fairly peaceful family. However, it was a big problem that there was no money. Of course, there will be those who live upright for each other in such situations. But it's usually difficult. And Dylan's parents were ordinary. The quarrel has not ceased since the business failed. The arrow of grudge doesn't fly towards Dylan, but it's always pointed at each other. What would you have done in that situation?

‘But something's not right. ’

Sunwoo looks at Dylan's past and feels something is wrong. Obviously Dylan's life wasn't when he talked to John Twain. It was the same with the fact that his father had failed his business, but he had not been in poverty for as long as Dylan remembered. It was hard for a while, but that's all. And Dylan's not obsessed with success and money either.

“Cut!”