Zhao Xiaokui knew for the first time that it was so uncomfortable to swallow a whole soul.
She felt like she was spinning ten thousand times in the same place, and her mind seemed to be thrown out.
Countless memories and feelings are intertwined with her own.
She can't even tell which memory belongs to her and which one belongs to others.
For a while, she remembered that she was Zhao Xiaokui, a transcendent who had once passed through adult fish.
For a while, she felt that she was Ronald, an excellent Air Force pilot.
Grandma, Shen Zhifei...
Ronald's wife, daughter...
She burst into tears and kept calling Shen Zhifei's name.
"Shen Zhifei, Shen Zhifei..."
Shen Zhifei hugged her in his arms and stroked her long hair one after another.
She felt the helplessness in the deep-sea world again.
And this time even more.
She was obviously holding Zhao Xiaokui, but she could only watch her long hair wet with pain and sweat, and convulsions uncontrollably in her arms.
This powerlessness made her seem to have returned to her childhood, back to the day of her parents' plane crash.
She saw the plane on the TV crash into the ocean, setting up a fire on the sea, but could do nothing.
Zhao Xiaokui opened his eyes and happened to see her serious appearance. He didn't want her to blame herself, endured the pain, and smiled to herself: "Shen Zhifei, what are you doing with this expression, look... it looks so fierce. No, I don't know. Yes, I thought the person lying here was you."
Shen Zhifei said: "...I would rather be me."
Her expression is serious, her distress is serious.
It feels so good to be cared for and loved.
Okay, Zhao Xiaokui felt that his head didn't seem to hurt so much.
"Shen Zhifei, if you kiss me, it doesn't hurt that much."
As she spoke, her eyes flashed with a sly light.
Shen Zhifei knew that she was comforting herself, bowed her head and kissed her forehead, "Is that so?"
Zhao Xiaokui: "It's better."
She kissed her eye again.
Zhao Xiaokui: "It's better."
Shen Zhifei's kiss finally fell on her lips.
Zhao Xiaokui was so painful that she couldn't control herself, she refused to open her teeth, for fear of biting her, she tossed between Zhao Xiaokui's lips and teeth
I don't know if it was Zhao Xiaokui's illusion, she always felt that she didn't seem to hurt that much.
Her brows stretched slightly, and a drop of water suddenly fell on her eyelids. She opened her eyes, but she saw Shen Zhifei with her eyes closed, and her eyelashes were glittering.
She felt that the tears fell in her heart.
She raised her hand, trying to wipe away tears for Shen Zhifei. When she raised her hand to her eyes, she realized that she did not know when her nails turned golden, and the tip of her nails turned from a smooth and rounded arc to sharp, like a beast. Claws.
She even felt that this hand could pull out a human heart for her at any time as long as she wanted to.
Dark golden vertical pupils, scales behind the ears.
Protruding fangs, and...golden nails.
This is the fourth alienation related to the mermaid that has appeared in her.
Before she could think of anything, the complicated memories surged up like a tide again, and the pain drowned her.
The stairs of the old residential buildings are not wide. It can be seen that the green painted railings are embroidered with red embroidery, and there are traces of honeycomb coal on the walls, and children's random drawings.
Sunlight came in through the windows of the stairs and hit the ground brilliantly.
Such scenes reminded Shen Zhifei of the summer described in the movies.
She always felt that in the next moment there would be a girl in a blue and white school uniform, carrying a schoolbag, and running upstairs three steps at a time.
This is where?
Shen Zhifei's memory still remained at the moment when she closed her eyes and kissed Zhao Xiaokui.
But strangely, she didn't have the panic in her heart that she suddenly found herself in an unfamiliar place. She would have been in this place from the future, but she had an indescribable sense of familiarity and peace of mind.
Shen Zhifei thought of a place—Qingmu Community.
The place where Zhao Xiaokui grew up.
She walked up the stairs, and within a few steps, she saw two anti-theft doors standing opposite each other.
Shen Zhifei's gaze fell on the door with a 602 metal plate on top.
The security door is dark green, and the paint on the surface has been rusted a lot, and the iron plate inside can be seen.
The big red couplet has faded to yellow, and the inverted word "Fu" looks fresh. It's in the middle, with a hole in the middle, which looks a bit funny.
She put her hand on the door.
A cold feeling came from the palm of his hand.
Can be touched.
Knock, or not?
Shen Zhifei stood at the door, raised his hand, unable to get down for a long time.
Will there be anyone in the door?
Will Zhao Xiaokui be in the door?
When she hesitated, the door suddenly opened, scaring Shen Zhifei back two steps.
It was an old lady who opened the door.
When she saw Shen Zhifei, she said, "Are you here to find Xiaokui? That stinky girl didn't know where she went to play crazy. She hasn't come back yet. Come in and sit in, sit in, and wait for her with a glass of water."
Looking at the old man in front of him, Shen Zhifei's eyes widened.
One was surprised at how she could see herself, and the other was surprised at her identity——
Zhao Xiaokui's grandmother.
She is a person in her twenties, and she stutters when she speaks to the old lady, "Good morning, grandma."
Grandma squinted her eyes with a smile, and responded sharply, "Eh."
Facing the old man's kind gaze, Shen Zhifei always felt that she knew a lot of things.
She followed the old lady into the house in a daze.
"There is nothing good at home to entertain you. Come and eat some fruit. Would you like to drink tea or water?" Grandma entertained her warmly.
Shen Zhifei's ability to deal with people and things for more than 20 years is like feeding a dog in an instant. Sitting on the sofa, he doesn't know where to put his hands and feet. Seeing the old man busy, he said with embarrassment: "Grandma, no trouble no trouble."
"That stinky girl secretly bought Coke in the refrigerator again, thinking I didn't know if it was hidden, naive!" Grandma proudly took out a bottle of Coke from a black plastic bag and said to Shen, "Xiao Kui likes to drink it. These foods are not nutritious, and I drank too much without eating, saying that I wanted to lose weight."
Shen Zhifei stood up and took the drink, and said, "Thank you, grandma."
She was embarrassed to refuse the old man's kindness, and took a sip from the drink. Grandma sat down, wearing reading glasses, looking at her appearance, with a smile on her lips.
"What's the girl's name?"
Shen Zhifei hurriedly put down the water, "My name is Shen, and my name is Zhifei."
The grandmother smiled and said, "I have been acting in my life, and I have learned the wrong today. It is a good name."
Shen Zhifei said in a hurry, "Xiao Kui's name is also very nice."
"I took her name." Speaking of this, my grandmother's eyebrows read nostalgia. "Before she was born, I thought of many names. I wanted to listen to them well and have good meanings. If you want to be literate, it hurts to flip through the book. By the day she was born, the sunflower I planted had just opened, and I thought, what do you do with such a complicated name? I don’t expect her to make a big business. I hope she can live peacefully and happily, like a sunflower, leaving the darkness behind and chasing the sun forever. So when the doctor asked my child what’s the name, I said, it’s Xiao Xiao Kwai is ready."
Xiaokui.
Obviously it was a simple name, but Shen Zhifei felt a warmth slowly flowing through his heart.
"Speaking of this name, there is another funny thing. I don’t know if she told you that when she was in elementary school, didn’t she show a little sunflower mother class on TV? Those boys in their class chase after Calling Xiaokui to her mother, Xiaokuihua, guess what did she do?" Grandma asked playfully.
Shen Zhifei couldn't help laughing when he thought of the scene where Zhao Xiaokui, who was still a little loli, was chased by a group of little boys and called mother from behind.
She said, "I can't guess."
"She beat up a few boys alone, and when the parents came to the door, she said confidently," the grandmother straightened her back and pretended to be like Zhao Xiaokui, "I am their mother, mother beats the child. Isn’t it justified?"
Shen Zhifei: "Puff..."
"She's very bad."
Grandma said so, but the pride between her brows and eyes could not be concealed.
Shen Zhifei didn't know how long he talked with the old lady.
From when Zhao Xiaokui left the bedwetting to the stray cat on the balcony, to when the boy confessed to her but was treated as a challenge and took a fight.
Shen Zhifei smiled and wiped his tears.
Grandma was still saying: "She, it's interesting, she doesn't know what she is thinking all day long."
"Yes," Shen Zhifei agreed with the old lady, "she has always been so cute."
"I have said so many things about Xiaokui, I haven't talked about you yet."
Grandma looked at Shen Zhifei gently, and suddenly asked.
Shen Zhifei was surprised, "Me?"
After the doubt, he was restless and nervous, "I, I have nothing to say."
Her life is indeed universal.
She didn't go up the mountain to get honey, her stung face was full of bags, and she didn't make a bet with anyone. She blatantly ran into the men's bathroom and scared out a bunch of people who didn't mention her pants.
Compared with Zhao Xiaokui's life, for the first twenty-six years, she lived like a robot that could eat and drink Lazard.
Adults only need to set goals, and she will follow the procedures meticulously.
Many people think she is a very meaningless person.
She doesn't have anything that she particularly likes, and she doesn't have anything that she particularly likes. Apart from work, her life is studying.
"I don't know how to take care of others, and I don't know how to understand other people's emotions. I am often regarded as indifferent..."
Shen Zhifei became more bitter as he spoke.
"But she likes you very much."
Shen Zhifei looked up in astonishment.
Grandma repeated it with a smile, "But Xiao Kui likes you very much."
She said, "People she doesn't like can't come here."
Shen Zhifei took the unfinished drink and said goodbye to grandma at the door.
"She is after school every day and likes to sit for a while under the tree in Ginkgo Plaza. You are sure to find her."
Following the instructions of his grandmother, Shen Zhifei left Qingmu Community, crossed the road, and walked to the opposite Ginkgo Square.
The whole world, except for her, was empty, and the setting sun seemed to be frozen in the sky. From her entry to the present, the shadow on the ground has not changed much.
But Shen Zhifei did not feel fear.
She even felt that the beating heart in her chest was as warm as it was soaked in warm water.
She found Zhao Xiaokui under the ginkgo tree.
The old ginkgo trees are very large and thick, and it takes about three or four people to embrace them.
A girl in a blue and white school uniform lay on the edge of the flowerbed.