After my Ex-Boyfriend’s White Moonlight Proposed to Me

Zhuang Yan and Yanxi are approaching a café.

When Yanxi came, Zhuang Yan has waited. He didn't pay attention to Yanxi's arrival, quietly watching the coffee of the hand.

Until the opposite chair was opened by Yanxi, he looked up: "Is it?"

Yan Xi frowned, looked at the location of the empty, and then he looked at the table with only a cup of coffee, whispered: "Xie Ning?"

Zhuang Yan is coming out with Xie Ning's name, this will not see Xie Ning's people, Yanxi is obviously impatient.

However, Zhuang Yan also has no other law. He is a plane in this evening, does not leave Xie Ning's name, Yanxi does not necessarily go to the appointment.

"He didn't come." Zhuang Yan handed him to him, "I have something to talk to you."

Yanxi didn't pick menu, even standing up: "I don't think we need to talk about it."

Zhuang Yan said: "Xie Ning went out in the afternoon."

Yan Xi brows pick one.

Zhuang Yan also said: "If I have not guess, it should be to see the season."

Yanxi sat down: "What do you want to talk?"

He is willing to talk, Zhuang Yan has paused.

He drank a coffee, screwed slightly, like what kind of entry point is looking for.

During this time, he has been thinking about this matter, and I have thought about several ways to side attack, but when I see people, I feel that he is euphemistic. Yan Xi may be the same as before. Too long.

He didn't have much time to wait, so he asked Yanxi directly: "Xie Ning once committed suicide, is it?"

When the voice was dropped, he felt that the whole cafe was quiet.

Yanxi, who is sitting opposite him, also stunned, Zhuang Yan saw him holding his hand and holding his hand.

"How do you know?" He did not deny it.

"This is not a focus." Zhuang Yan said, "more, this is not difficult to guess, there is a bird's tattoo on the left hand of Xie Ning, isn't it?"

Yanxi, "Well".

Zhuang Yan: "But Xie Ning's personality is not like a person who will tattoo. He didn't think about this kind of rebellion. I have been thinking about it. It is a special meaning of birds. Xie Ning said that it is freedom. "

Yan Xi is tagged, did not speak.

Zhuang Yan also said: "Later I remembered, many people tattooed, not because of like, or to declare what, but used to cover the injury ... From this angle to think, the wound on the wrist, What else is it? "

"You guess it is also very reasonable." Yanxi did not nod without expression.

"Of course, not just because of this." Zhuang Yan looked at him, "I also said that this is not a focus."

Yan Xixi took a back to the chair and asked him: "What do you want to know from me?"

Zhuang Yan'an was quiet for a few seconds and then said: "I want to know - he is suicide."

Yanxi sat there, did not answer, "Why don't you ask Xie Ning?"

And Yanxi is different from the posture of the chair, Zhuang Yan sits quite, the look looks very solemn, he said slowly: "I don't want him to recall the past thing ... After all, isn't it beautiful? Memories, even called pain. Every time I mention it, it is like a scar, even if it is not hurt, but it seems to be . "

He said: "I hope he is always happy in front of me."

The opposite Yanxi is not very obvious, and it is very fast: "I have said before and you before, Xie Ning himself excludes psychotherapy. Do you know why?"

Zhuang Yanbou is light wrinkle: "He has also received psychotherapy before, but the psychological counselor found in Xia and Yu is not regular."

Yan Xi cold laughed: "He is accepted treatment, and it is extremely very mental treatment."

Zhuang Yantun has done, straightight against Yanxi, it seems not very clear: "... extreme spiritual treatment?"

Yanxi closed his eyes: "It is what you think, forced medicine, electric shock correction ... There are other disgust therapies."

"Electric shock?" Zhuang Yan is unbelievable to watch him, and didn't say it for a while.

At this time, the waiter is exactly, and what is needed in Yanxi.

Yanxi finally didn't pay attention, until the waiter left, he jehed a swear.

"I don't know." He whispered, "He has been checked, and I have not used what transmissions."

Yanxi laughed and smiled: "Of course not at that time, it is more early, should you not find it?"

Zhuang Yan shake his head: "I didn't quit too deep."

"That is the earliest, Xie Ning came to the parents." Yan Xi said, "That year's summer vacation, he was sent to the tube ... or summer camp? How to call me, I don't remember, in short, you are you I can imagine, punish the child who is not obedient, treating Internet addiction or other problems ... Of course, they also claim to treat homosexual love. "

It's a cold, and I haven't let myself swear.

Yanxi then said: "It is not a normal person to wait for the place, it is not a disease, you can take it out ... From then on, Xie Ning's personality has changed."

"Do you know how long Xie Ning is sent to stay?"

Zhuang Yan shook his head.

Yan Xi said: "Three months ... I have been more than a hundred days."

After a meal, he asked: "How did you know Xie Ning?"

He replied himself at this time, he replied: "It is because of an accident."

Maybe some is in the heart too long. Once you have opened a mouth, it is like a flood that opens the gate. You don't have to ask, he can talk all over.

"I was treated with Xie Ning, and another person is also gay ..."

"He is one day, maybe after being shocked, it is probably the spirit collapsed, in short, there is nothing to stay, jump out of the window of the corridor."

"It is the fourth floor, people are gone on the spot, saying is suicide."

"Because of the trouble, the tube has caused local attention to the local emphasis."

"Xie Ning ... At the time, he was at the scene."

Zhuang Yan looked at him.

"He saw it privately ..." Yanxi voice is a bit dumb, "I saw how the person jumped from him."

Zhuang Yan imagined that the picture was not coming.

He only felt that his chest was so powerful, and the whole person was sank to the bottom of the water, and he was difficult to breathe.

He was silent, and finally asked: "Xie Ning's terrorism ... is also because this?"

Yan Xi stunned, nodded: "It should be."

Zhen Yan did not open, and the coffee suddenly became very bitter. He got a bite, flowing into the stomach, a feeling of bitterness.

"You haven't mistaken before, he is committed." Yanxi's topic turned a bit fast, "almost succeeded ... If I didn't rise to him, I wanted to find him."

"The knife with cut fruits, when I arrived, he has lost awareness, the whole bathtub is bloody ..." Yan Xi swallowed, "the scene has become my dream for a long time, I later I always worry about him, others are ridiculed, I am like a mother, everything is worried about him, but I am really afraid ... Every time he loses contact, I will remind me of the scene you see that day. "

"Even if he has been stabilized, no longer have suicide, I always advise him to go out, more people with people, can't cover yourself. I am really, I am really afraid when he is everything in the week. It is no longer interested, and there is no nostalgia in this world. "

"I hope he can be more involved with this world, maybe I, maybe I am, or can take your lover."

Yanxi's voice is like a crying chamber: "You know, what is it sad?"

Zhen Yan: "What?"

"I know, the Xie Ning I originally met, I haven't come back."

Yan Si is very quiet: "Have you seen Xie Ning's photo?"

Zhuang Yan shook his head: "No."

Yanxi paused for a while, turning out a photo from the mezzanine of the wallet.

He has been turned over, he carefully put the color of the treasure at the table: "Then you are sure that Xie Ning, you can't imagine what is like."

"It's very cheerful, I am very loving, I am happy from morning to night. It seems that there is nothing to make him lose energy. When you stay around him, you can draw an energy." Yan Xi said, "Like a small sun."

Zhuang Yan low.

The two boys who took the shoulders and laughed with the lens. They laughed very bright. When they look, they could feel the thriving.

Shizhuang did not recognize one of them in Xie Ning.

"You said, how can he become now?"

His little sun, why is it going to go out?

Yanxi finally couldn't stand it out: "Sometimes I really hate ..."

"Xie Ning ..."

"What is wrong with him, will be placed in this look now."

......

"Sometimes I will think, I am doing something wrong, I have to bear these pain."

Xie Ning looked quietly, the voice said calmly: "Countless nights, I have a heart, is it, is it born, this world, it's a fault, it is wrong."

"You are not wrong." Quikin smiled.

"Well." Xie Ning sat quietly, and the voice was firmly repeated, "I am not wrong."

Qi Wenbin said: "You are now willing to tell me these things, maybe it is representative, you have already come out from the past."

Xie Ning: "I don't know."

"Just now, your voice is very calm, emotions are very stable." Qi Wenbin was gentle, "even if he recalls, you will not be swallowed by the pain, isn't it?"

Xie Ning quietly a few seconds, like thinking.

After a while, he smiled and said: "Probably, there have been more sweet things in life, let the past suffering, it has become insignificant."

"Maybe I will bear these pain, just to cherish this difficult happiness."

"Yes?" Qi Wenbin asked.

"Well." Xie Ning said, "the season doctor, I am getting married."

Qui Wenbin was slightly surprised to pick eyebrows, and then blessed: "Congratulations."

He said: "Your marriage object must love you very much."

"Yes, he loves me very much." Xie Ning's look was gentle, and the lips were slightly evoked.

He sat on the sofa, his face under soft lights, very white, but this white is not a morbid state, and the cheek has a bit healthy ruddy.

The intensive eyelashes vap into a shadow, covering him a slightly shy eyes.

"As long as he is around him, I feel very peaceful. He is like my light, I expelled pain and darkness."

Xie Ning said slowly: "I love him very much."

The author has something to say: The one of the suicide suicide ... 53 chapter has a concealed manner.

The end is also a control 53.

He is my light.