"I can't seem to concentrate today."
Start meditation in just a few minutes. That's how Iris called me, and Almark calmed down and opened his eyes.
It's hard to study for the exam.
Instead of scolding Almark, Iris asks.
"Yes, it's my first experience....."
Almark answered. Ilumis nodded, huh.
"That's not the only reason I can't concentrate."
Almark circled over the words of Ilumis that seemed to see through his heart. That's Miss Ilmis. Almark thinks he can't hide anything from this teacher.
"The teacher is looking forward to everything. Actually...."
Almark honestly told Illmis about Wendy. Wendy watches her studies every day, but she has nothing to return for her kindness. But I want to do something for you, and when I think about it, my chest hurts.
Ilumis raised her eyebrows a little unexpectedly at first, but then she kept quiet.
When I finished listening, I roared and breathed.
"That kind of talk is out of my field of expertise... I see. Sure, you always act calm like an adult, so I forgot, but you're still an 11-year-old boy."
"... yes"
"In short, you like Wendy."
"... do you like...?"
Almark looked up at Illmis anxiously.
"Sensei, I don't really know if I like or dislike you... well, I've never been in such a world before."
"If you don't know, you should know."
Illmis continued, saying it's the same thing with magic and everything.
"Within you, take a closer look at the true nature of your feelings without fear. It's also a conversation with myself. And it's as important as meditation."
Ilumis continued calmly, saying that your chest would hurt. [M]
"Take care of that feeling. Remember that feeling very well. It would be very important for you to know how you feel about living as a magician."
"... is that so?"
The look on Almark's face is that he doesn't know.
"We don't need to know yet. And don't forget..."
Illmis continued to raise his index finger.
"Wendy's feelings. You say you're bothering Wendy, but she doesn't think it's bothering her. Don't forget that Wendy wants you to do it herself."
"Wendy wanted to do it herself...."
"Would you be happy to help Wendy if she could help her when she was in trouble?
"Yes, of course."
"Do you think Wendy's bothered you with that?
No, I don't think so.
"Why don't you think Wendy feels the same way now?
……
Almark lay face to face and thought. Looking at it, Ilmis smiles bitterly.
"As I said earlier, I don't specialize in this kind of consultation. I think I'm talking about something that doesn't suit me. Now, let's get this over with. A good magician can disengage negative emotions when using magic, regardless of his mental state."
"Yes"
Inspired by Illmis, Almark stopped thinking for a moment and immersed himself in meditation.