Another Arcadia Online
Misaki's Recap ⑤
I was coming to Pearl State's house.
"Ugh, I took off the hoard three times!
"Come here! First of all, I'm a gunner, so I'm not defensive."
I play games with Pearl State.
I was playing because when I was alone in my class, Pearl State had been calling me to play for the first time in a long time. I'm shooting enemies with a bowgun.
"Misaki, have you made friends?
"There's no way I can, and I'm not gonna make it."
"Right. I don't believe in Misaki."
Human disbelief.
I don't think it's the first thing I can do to tell you that I can believe people from high school because of that. I know I shouldn't stay like this. But scary things are scary.
They'll betray you, they'll just use you like they do. I can't reach out with that in mind.
"Oh, do it, I'm dying"
"I'll drink dust..."
I concentrate on the screen in front of me.
Because I want to attack and forget the spiciness of school only at this time. I was so passionate about something that I felt like running away from reality.
"But, Misaki. I don't think you're going to move on if you're scared all the time."
"... I know. That's not true."
"If you betray me again, you can cry to me. So why don't you try?
"... do good"
You can't believe it all the time. Running away remains a child. I have to grow up.
But... I'm still scared. Scary things are scary. Kids my age are the scariest. No, I'm afraid of humans themselves. Teachers in the bullying class, who pretend not to see it. It was just scum.
Despair in middle school is still in my mind. That was my stopper.
"" Fear nothing more than to challenge and fear failure. ""
……
"I've heard something about it, but Misaki would like this."
"... what a fine thing to say about Soichiro Honda... You were so smart."
"If I'd been fishing online, I'd have done something."
Pearl State laughs.
He said to be afraid to do nothing... I don't live that positively. I'm not trying to commit suicide if that's what life looks like.
"I don't have that positive personality. I am. Scary things are scary."
"... well."
"... but I have to grow up"
"Misaki......!
Zhuzhou smiled.
But I'm just gonna grow up. I'm not going to get along. I'll just have a conversation for once. If we never dated that deep, even if we were betrayed, it would take shallow damage.
Maybe it's a lie that something changes when you get into high school.
The only thing that changes is the surroundings. I can't change as much as I did in high school. That's why I'm gonna change you.
I was so determined to erase my childish self.