"I wonder how long I can keep you waiting. Isn't it too much of a hassle just to put a sinner to death?

Elenia-Diphone sarcastically said it was the first time in days that Gandia Intelligence agents had represented themselves before her.

If there was hope for her, who was aware of the fact that she had committed a crime worthy of capital punishment for this country and who was losing sight of the meaning of being alive, it was only about her life ending. Her heart was not saved when she stabbed the blade for revenge that took away one of her beloved. Without joy being born, the soul just sank in darkness. Hatred and vengeance faded, but the mental state is arguably worse than it was before the incident.

I began to think only of dying.

Even if he's alive, it doesn't mean anything.

Even if he survives and is blessed with an opportunity for revenge again, I guess Elenia's heart will still not be saved. I still remember the feeling of the moment the dagger pierced the boy's flank. A clearer memory than the first time you slaughtered and killed an enemy. The certainty of being able to kill, however, did not bring any emotion to her.

Meath-Siren and the two men looked sinister as they entered the room. No, you must have had that look before you went indoors. I don't know what you're unhappy with, but it didn't matter to Elenia. She's just waiting to execute her sentence.

I can't believe you're waiting for death.

I never even thought about it, but it would be natural to come to the conclusion that one of my beloved has no choice but to live beyond not being in this world and making no sense of vengeance.

That's why I've waited these past few days for a maximum sentence.

"We have a situation here, too."

"The Royal Palace is tough, too. My newly appointed uncle was about to be assassinated. Maybe there was something wrong with the security system."

"You're the one who tried to kill Master Setuna."

"Right. But that must be because there were my collaborators inside."

He said, "I don't know who that collaborator is, but I'm gonna throw up."

One of the men from the intelligence department went. He reminded Elenia of Grad-Clyde with a tough face and a flair like how he had been walking through the training grounds. Red Knight Grad did not look down on Wayne away from the year, but, as a colleague, was honest and reciprocal, and was also a preferred figure as Elenia. The grad works as Gandia's Legion Leader, but that's why he has nothing to resent. Likewise, I don't resent Astar.

What she hated was Setuna, who killed Wayne, and after the war, the people of the House of Teulos, the House of Diffon, who were just thinking about how to shake themselves. I know there's no choice. Still, I had feelings closer to hostility towards the people who turn their consciousness to all about the house than to mourn Wayne's death.

"I don't know. You said it. I just acted on the plan."

The fact that the security system for the dinner party was out of line with the Alliance for the Liberation of Logners is a loose story between us, but both that and this would mean that someone involved in the centre of Gandia is cooperating with the Alliance for the Liberation. The interrogation of the Meath-Sirens ended with the involvement of Gandhian nobles, or military personnel, behind the Alliance for Liberation.

They were taking a leap forward in examining the relationship behind this attempted assassination of their collar uncle. The Rogner Liberation Alliance, something other than the Rogner family is definitely involved, the Meath and the others see. Elenia agrees, but that's why she didn't even have the information to cooperate without reason to cooperate with them.

Elenia simply followed the instructions of Mark-Wallon, who was a liaison to the Liberation Alliance and a servant of the Logner family.

As a result, I did something bad to Cyril-Logner. Cyril had no fallout, but he had to die. To protect the Logner family. Died in the honor of the house. When Meath told me that the Logner family had been protected by his death, Elenia was also shocked. This is the man I once spoke to as my master. Cyril's masculinity, once seen, had the appearance of Yingjie. The figure since Zalwarn's defeat was both invisible and innocuous, but still, the face of the hero was never completely lost.

Cyril had become a Gandhian nobleman with his family after losing the war against Gandhia. Though the lucidity as if the possession had fallen made Elenia willing to kill. He had no special grudges against himself. Most of all, his death did not give rise to dust.

If the spirit becomes rigid, the emotions will die as they naturally are.

Elenia was aware as a reality that something called herself was going to be necrosis. Three times a day, I don't feel like getting my hands on the meal offered. Out of the question, wouldn't he die sooner than the death penalty would be executed? I even feel that way.

"... that you were nothing but a disposable pawn."

"Right."

Looks like Meath was going to curse Elenia, but she didn't remember any itching. Used as a throwaway pawn is woven. I didn't think of anything but retaliating against Setuna. I didn't care who was behind it. Kill the man who killed Wayne. Just for that, Elenia grabbed the blade.

"... so did you schedule the execution?

"It's settled. Elenia-Diphone. Your sentence."

"Sentencing, nothing. Extreme sentence, right?

Elenia cared how Meath said it. More than being the perpetrator of the attempted assassination of the collar, it should be an immediate death sentence. Rather, it was worth the surprise that it was kept alive until today, albeit to elicit information. I don't even have the staggering strength.

"... Lady Setuna Lars-Enjour was awakened safely and no sequelae were confirmed. And this is important, but Master Setsuna said he would forgive you."

"What?"

"The Alliance for Liberation and what you have served is not to be forgiven, and that sin will continue to be questioned. But it is near impossible to condemn you to a maximum sentence than Master Setuna has forgiven you. Though, of course, the judgment of one Setuna alone did not determine your sentence."

"... wait a minute. I don't know what that means. How can I be forgiven? In the first place, forgive me. I don't want to be forgiven."

"You don't seem to be punished any more for wanting to die."

Meath warped her mouth sarcastically. Her words and actions must have been best enjoyed so far because she was a star to Elenia. And Meath has continued to be even more sarcastic.

"You will be sentenced to exile. The exile destination is Enjour. Good for you, I can't believe you can atone for your sins in your hometown of Logner."

"Enjour......"

Elenia, shruggedly, mouthed the place name. Shortly afterwards, hopeless emotions gush, flooding and sweeping consciousness. Despair. There will only be despair. Enjour is a place name in the southern part of Logner's city of Bakhlia, but at the same time, it was the land that Setuna was given as a territory. Setsuna Lars-Enjour means Enjour Uncle Setsuna, and being banished to Enjour means having to live in Setsuna territory.

I have to think of it as a more brutal punishment than the death penalty, and Elenia stared at Meath. Meath looked at this one with the kind of face she was proud of, but it also disappeared quickly.

"It's a lingering consequence of our dissatisfaction, but I suppose I'll be satisfied because I could see your face like that. Plus, putting you to death would definitely make Logner noisy."

"What will happen if I die alone..."

"The Alliance for the Liberation of Logners will take advantage of your death. It's as simple as making the most of your death for them as it is for Cyril Logner's death."

"There's no such thing as value for money..."

"If you had been executed, you would have been greatly hustled as a martyr of the Alliance for the Liberation of Logners"

"I don't..."

"You know so much about the Liberation Alliance that that's impossible?

Today was the first time that Meath-Siren's face looked so hateful.

"The life I got because of you, you take care of it. Needless to say, they're under constant surveillance at the exile. Remember that I and my people are watching over you."

"... why not. Why won't you let me die!

"If you want to die, you can die on your own in exile."

……

Ha, face up. There was that hand, and while I thought it, I realized that Meath's bluff was somehow serious. No, she was serious at all times, but the degree of seriousness was different.

"But in that case, what will happen to your belly?"

"Huh...?

"Didn't you notice?

"What..."

"You, you're pregnant. Let's say three months. That's why I've been eating properly... I can't believe I didn't know."

"Lying..."

That was the best I could do.

I never thought I was pregnant. If the cause of your ill health here is pregnancy, I'd also like to laugh at you for being ridiculous. There was confusion. I also thought Mies-Silene might be mocking herself, but I also find it hard to think of someone who would do that. No matter what curse or sarcasm she had, she never lied. In the first place, there is no reason to say a lie that doesn't have the thump of being pregnant, etc.

Elenia had her hands on her stomach without my knowledge. Sure, it's subtly swollen. No, it wasn't the subtleties, my body shape was changing so strangely that I didn't notice it myself. I guess this is the result of losing Wayne and everything that's happened to me.

"I'm not lying. It was Gandhia who did your physical exam. Well, as a military doctor, I mean,"

"Pregnancy..."

Elenia looked down at her own stomach as she listened to Mis. The somewhat swollen stomach did not seem to belong to the former knight and owner of the forged flesh. Why didn't you even notice so far? Were you pretending to be in your eyes but unconscious? Because if you realize that, if you know that you are living your life, if you know that a crystal of thought with him is born in this, you will be dull in your determination to avenge it. Because I can't hold the blade of retribution anymore. Because you will no longer be able to die.

Elenia felt her eyeballs fever and something transmit her cheeks.

"Is that...?

Unstoppable spills were undisputed tears. There was hope ahead of despair, and she didn't know what to do. Should I be sad that I didn't die, or happy that I was kept alive?

Should I honestly accept that I was hosting his child?

"If you think of children, you must live."

It wasn't until they left the room that I realized that there was a strong feeling in Meath-Siren's words. Remembering the story of the loss of Meath's family, Elenia embraced her own body. Gentle, strong, as embracing the life that dwells in one's womb.

"Alive, I wonder"

Ask no one. There can't be an answer. No one is here. The sound floated in the void can spread without meaning, disappear and be lost. I know that. Still, there were circumstances that she couldn't help but have.

It was such a shock to her that heaven and earth flipped over that she had reason to have to live, thinking all about dying. There was a new life in my body, and that life was proof of love with one of my loved ones.

"Wayne......"

Elenia closed her eyelids, just saying the name of the man she loved. Floating behind his lid are memories with him, memories of the days he lived with. The time full of happiness stopped, but it wasn't over. His living proof, the proof of love, is breathing in this body.

'If you were to put it on your own child, have you ever thought about what kind of name it would be?

"Talk about the future? You're always so fast. '

Long ago, that's what I remember talking about when I was a kid. Wayne was laughing at Elenia because of her, but if she tried Elenia, she was just making a conversation with Wayne because she wanted to have a few words.

'But you are. If I were to name my own child, Rayne, I guess.'

"Rain?"

'Yes. Rain. It would work for men and women, wouldn't it?

'Is that all this is about? I feel sorry for my child. "

When Elenia complained, he had interpreted it like he was in a panic.

"Rain is an important name for the Teulos family. Rain-Teulos is the man who laid the foundations of the Teulos family. '

I looked it up later, and there was no mistake in his explanation. Rain-Teulos said he was a man dedicated to the founding of Logner and the only one appointed a knight by the first King Logner. I didn't know so many names of people, partly because Elenia was only a child, but I guess it's also a big deal that as a Diffon family home style, she didn't teach a woman the history of the house.

Elenia remembered the name because, after the story, she was interested in the history of the Teulos and Diffon families. Rain-Teulos was also the person who laid the foundations of the Diffon family, a division of the Teulos family. I mean, it was a great name for her, too.

(Rain... you want to be born, don't you?

Elenia asked in her heart as she put her hand on her stomach. It's a life that breathes in me.

I felt it would be better to reach my mind than to put it into words.