Avoid the Protagonist!

Time passed unconsciously.

In the huge living room, there was nothing but Shen Junxing sitting on the gray sofa with his arms folded.

The warm water in the two glasses on the table has already cooled down.

He sat upright, his eyes were out of focus, and he didn't know where he was looking.Only after a long time, he raised his head and glanced in the direction of the study, the door closed tightly.She is still inside.

A slight smile appeared at the corner of his mouth. Is she missing or mourning the love and love she lost?

Xin Siyue in the study wiped away the tears that had been flowing for a long time. She closed the book again and glanced at the letter embedded between the last two pages. The envelope read: Shen Junxing.

She looked blankly for a long time, and finally picked up the book and the letter, and went downstairs.

In the living room, the light is bright, and he is sitting on the sofa not knowing what to think of.

Xin Siyue walked up to him and handed the letter in her hand, with a strong nasal voice after crying, and said, "Letter to you."

Hearing the sound, Shen Junxing looked up, his attention was first attracted by her red and swollen eyes, "Are you crying again?"

Seeing that he was looking seriously, Xin Siyue turned her head in embarrassment. Seeing that he had been staring at herself, she had to tell the truth: "It's just that I didn't hold it back for a while, and I felt emotional."

Shen Junxing tugged at the corner of his mouth, and couldn't find a word to respond to her, so he turned to ask: "Your letter to me?"

"No. It's the author of this book. When we first met, I was asking your grandma about her."

Shen Junxing glanced at the letter twice, and didn't seem to have accepted it.

Xin Siyue said, "You should take a look."

Before receiving the letter, Shen Junxing gave her a meaningful look before opening the envelope.

The slightly yellowed paper has elegant fonts.

Xin Siyue only saw the title at the beginning. The person wrote: Shen Junxing, the only one I ever loved in my life...

Shen Junxing's eyes sank after reading the first line.

"The only Shen Junxing who has ever secretly loved in my life:

Hello there.I know you don't even know my name.Here, I am not going to tell you my name.As long as you know, there was a very humble and timid girl who liked you quietly, that's enough.

The first time I saw you was in the evening when it rained heavily.It rained heavily all afternoon and the weather was terrible.I knew there were very few pedestrians outside at this moment, so I dared to go to the supermarket before it was dark.At the checkout, I suddenly turned around and saw you who came to the supermarket to buy an umbrella in the rain.I looked at your handsome face and forgot to react for a while, but you didn't seem to notice my existence at all.I know that I have always been weak and unremarkable.

At that time, there were too many things in your hand, the bag couldn't bear the weight, and it broke. When something was scattered on the ground, you bent down and helped me pick it up.I blushed and I said thank you to you in the future. I still remember the phrase "no thanks" you said back to me. It is the best voice I have ever heard.

Shen Junxing, I fell in love with you at first sight.

But I know I have no merit, I am not worthy of you.

A few days later, early in the morning, I saw you walking with your grandma.

I lowered my head and passed you by.

At that moment, I could feel the frenzy of my heartbeat.

Shen Junxing, you make me feel love.

I am afraid to see you, and I look forward to seeing you every day.

Once, I secretly heard a gossip old man in the community talk about it, saying that you are a child of a wealthy family, that your father is in a high position, that you have been excellent since childhood, that you are young, have a successful career, and become famous. .

Shen Junxing, I was really proud and inferior at that moment.

You see, how good the person I love!How good my vision!

However, I am deeply inferior.

You are so good, how can I be with you.

Even if I strike up a conversation with you, I don't have the courage.

Shen Junxing, I'm used to it, looking at you from a distance through the window before my eyes.

Even if I can't stand upright in front of you and tell me I like you.

At least, I have to let you know that there was once a person in this world who liked you so much.

My favorite Shen Junxing, thank you for being in my life.

In this life, I am satisfied to fall in love with a good person like you.

I wish you happiness.--I love you."

Xin Siyue kept looking at the expression on his face, trying to see a trace of his inner feelings from the subtle changes in his expression.

However, after reading the letter, Shen Junxing put it back on the table and asked her, "Where did it come from?"

Xin Siyue pointed to the book on the desk near her, "The last two pages of the book are stuck, and this letter is hidden in the middle."

"So, this letter was written by the person who sent my grandma book?"

Xin Siyue: "The person who gave the book is also the person who wrote the book."

Shen Junxing was silent for a while and asked her: "Do you know each other?"

Xin Siyue shook her head and nodded.

"So Xin Siyue in the book was written based on you?" Shen Junxing asked.

Xin Siyue smiled bitterly, "She hates me too much, so she also included me. However, she loves you very much, because she loves you, so Shen Sinan was born."

"That... Shen Sinan, does it really exist?"

"He's always there."

Shen Junxing stared at her, "So, after reading this book, what are your plans?"

"I want to go back to find him."

"That's just an illusory story world created by a person deliberately. Even if you know that it's not the real world, do you have to do it?"

"I know that it is the world in the book. I knew it from the beginning. But I still fell in love with Shen Sinan like that. I love him. We still have a child I only have time to take a look at. He and the child are still waiting for me to go back."

"How to go back? How do you want to go back?"

"I don't know! But I will find a way. If I can go in, there must be a way to go in again."

"any solution?"

"Dead once."

Shen Junxing heard her say these three words so calmly, and reflexively replied: "Are you crazy!"

"I also wish I was crazy. But I am so clear now. Shen Junxing, the content of this book is not the one I read at the beginning. I don't know why she knows all the changes that have occurred since I put it in, and It was written down. I don’t know if she finished writing this book and gave the book to your grandma before passing it in, or she could travel back and forth between the two worlds before she died, but this book’s Existence, it at least proves that everything I have experienced is real. Even in another unknown world." Xin Siyue said, facing him and said: "Thank you for telling me this tonight. The existence of the book. Thank you for letting me discover that I still have someone who loves me waiting for me to return."

Shen Junxing remained silent for a long time.

Xin Siyue could feel the depression in his mood.

After being quiet for a long time, he asked, "What about me?"

You have discovered this world and the one you love is waiting for you.

what about me?Have you never found out that I am waiting for you?

"what?"

"I don't want you to go back to him. If you use death in such an extreme way, I will stop you. Xin Siyue, you are sure that the person who created this book is dead, that world will still exist? , Are you sure you will see Sinan and your children after you die?"

Seeing that she had nothing to refute, he continued: "Don't do stupid things, don't think about those absurd things, can you live well? Even if it's...for me."

"Huh?" The moment Xin Siyue raised her eyes to look at him, her eyebrows were furrowed.

"You are a very special person to me."

So, can you stay for me?

What Shen Junxing didn't know was that he didn't have a chance to say the words in his heart that she could not hear.

Xin Siyue died of all his unspoken confession words with a "sorry" and a "thank you".

Shen Junxing could not remember what she said in the end.

He only knew that when she finally left, she asked for his opinion: "Can I take this book?"

Even if he didn't want it in his heart, he looked at her earnest gaze and nodded.

At the end, she thanked her and left with the book.

Half a month later, he learned that she had gone to the small town where an eighth magnitude earthquake occurred for the first live interview.Everyone in the magazine turned down the job, so she volunteered to go.

However, after the earthquake, people have rescued the victims.Unexpectedly, the aftershocks were raging, with numerous casualties.

Shen Junxing silently watched the news reports, the disaster areas that were in ruins, the injured victims, the people who were crying and crying away from their loved ones, and the familiar "Xin Si" on the distress list. With the word "month", his eyes gradually turned red, and tears dripped quietly.

He used all his contacts and wanted to get a chance. He even went to the disaster area by himself despite Father Shen's firm opposition, but when he saw it with his own eyes...all the tiny hopes were all shattered.

She is dead.

When she died, she was still holding the book tightly in her hand, which was full of her blood.

However, her expression is so peaceful.

When Shen Junxing cremated her together with the book, he looked at the gloomy horizon and thought: Did she return to that person as she wished?

Maybe he will never find the answer.

He only knew that for the first time he had someone who wanted to stay with him and left.

Forever, and never come back.