Tenji listened to Lily Mei and thought for a moment.
I lose some emotions instead of strength - because I know that's what 'missing' means.
I have always wondered whether something has been lost from the word "missing" or whether it is a human character problem in the first place.
However, the answer given by Lily Mei was accompanied by the pillow "instead of power".
"Is that just someone with zero rank talent?"
"If you answer strictly, it's a little different.However, it is commonly said that this "imbalance phenomenon" of emotions and desires is clearly manifested because you have more than second-class talent. "
"An imbalance? I've never heard of it."
"Yeah, that's what explorers often say.I forgot my full name.Well, I can't help but know Tenge.This is something that will only be dealt with after the third year of some of the high schools in the Explorer series.By the way, I can take this lecture at Majorca Escuela. "
"... may I ask you a little more?Maybe it's none of my business. "
"Yes, of course..."
Lily changed her gaze from a dark forest spread down to a beautiful sleeping moon rising over her.
Sleeping moon with a clear outline shines with joy somewhere.
Lily put one between them before continuing her words.
"Depending on the person, there is intense joy and sorrow, strong love, a strong desire for sleep, a strong appetite... that's each person, right?What kind of emotions does Tenge have?What kind of person has a strong desire? "
"Am I... appetite?Recently, I started eating much more than I used to.I think it's a recoil of poor living. "
"That's not true."
Lily shook her head to the side and denied the words from a straight line.
Keep talking with a sound like the tone of the piano.
"Instead of Tenge gaining power, there's a growing appetite.Conversely... do you have any feelings or desires that you've lost lately? "
"... that feeling you can't feel anymore?If you insist, you may not feel angry any more than you did a while ago.I don't know exactly. "
"You're surprisingly self-analyzing.Excellent. That's the imbalance.Which desire decreases as people increase their emotions?Or which desires grow and which emotions diminish... that's really different.And this is more prominent in the stronger grades. "
Here, Tenge finally understood.
I learned the meaning of the word "lose part of your emotions instead of strength."
Emotional and desire imbalances - I thought it was a very serious phenomenon.
Similar to the instincts of feelings, personalities, and desires that were formed by the genes and environmental factors that were born, they were imbalanced, that is, transformed, in proportion to becoming stronger as an explorer.
(Certainly... now that I think about it, I'm starting to eat it a long time ago.Besides, I feel that my emotions have been shaking less all the time)
Tenge had an idea.
Regardless of the truth, I felt that the imbalance was familiar to me.
"I think I understand what 'missing' means.Principal Li Mei said that it only applies to zero-rank talent holders... when you become a zero-rank Explorer, you're losing some of your emotions in an unbalanced way, right? "
"Correct. The word 'imbalance' will still suffice for a first-class Explorer.But in zero grade, the word "missing" is better than imbalance. "
Lily looked up at the sky slightly strangely.
Looking at Lily Mei's side, Tenji asked.
"Principal Lily..."
"I... I've forgotten what the four emotions were like.I've forgotten everything about joy, anger, sadness, and pleasure. "