Big Life

“…… what? ”

The fortune frowned deeply in both eyes like a dazzling man. Then he repeatedly said in a louder voice.

“I want to quit the company now. ”

“Are you……! Are you saying I spoke up?! ”

“It's not like that. We're increasingly not meeting your expectations. I can't hold on to my editor like this. ”

“Now, wait a minute. Hold still for a second. Have a seat.”

He shook his hand as if he were stuttering. He was deeply embarrassed. It's been nine years since we slept together. I couldn't have known it wasn't Tae-won who would make an impulsive remark.

He went to the water purifier behind his desk and drank cold water. I didn't have enough for one drink, so I drank two. Then he sighed and went to the window.

“Are you serious?"

After a while, he lost his fortune.

Even before Tae-won sat on the couch, he asked successively.

“Are you serious? Why are you quitting? What's the problem?"

It wasn't a question I was hoping for an answer. Evidence of that, the country turned and hurriedly sat across from Tae-won. Suddenly, his tears were cleared and his anxious expression became powerful, and he quickly spoke.

“I admit, I was harsh. The e-commerce team is not doing so well these days, and the daughter and daughter son-in-law are just trying to screw up the company. I trust my daughter's friend, and I put her in marketing, and she's completely delusional. Nothing's working. I don't know if I would have been so hell-bent on you. Obviously, I said too much. I'm sorry, really. ”

Tae-won was silent.

I knew the words of the Emperor were true. Angry and grumpy, but Bondi is not a bad person. If I had, I wouldn't have lasted nine years. I was able to work as a subordinate for a long time because I know how to take care of him clearly.

But…….

Apologies alone could not change Tae-won's mind.

“I've been very sensitive lately. Come home early today and have a drink with me. Let's have a nice, cool drink and unwind. ”

The ashes softened his shoulders as he calmed down. However, Tae-won immediately shook his head and held his position.

“I quit, Jules. ”

“What the hell! ”

He stood up and shouted, unable to endure the roughness of blood. I couldn't get my resignation like this.

It was not common for a competent editor like Tae-won. Taesoon was the one who emitted light from both sales and editing aspects and drew more than average power from all areas, from employees and writers' managerial abilities.

“I'll be 45 next year, Jules. ”

“I had a shindig four years ago! What excuse do you have for being under 50?!" ”

“You can't be editor for the rest of your life. You can't guarantee how long I'll be in my prime. That's right.”

“ ……! ”

While the fortune does not speak, it only breathes harshly.

Tae Won was reminiscing about why he decided to resign calmly.

A growing sense of crisis in the company that begins to return to the values ​ ​ of the country and its conflicts, families and relatives that only consider writers as money.

I was no longer able to endure the fatigue that accumulated every day. To do that, both my body and mind were already exhausted.

“I want to build a strong foundation to feed my family before I get older. I'm sorry to say this so suddenly. Please understand and accept.”

He stood up with a loud voice, his voice muttering. Standing at the window, he pulled a cigarette out of his pocket and asked. In an office that has long been smoke-free, he opens a window and lights a cigarette.

“Anyway, have a drink after. ”

About halfway through the burning of cigarettes, the country was jealous of him.

“It's been a long time since we've been together, and we can't be torn apart by words. Let's have at least a seat. ”

“I understand.”

“Uh, go to work. ”

Tae-won looks down and turns away. The fortune that stood firm toward the window did not look back to the end.

Tae Won went outside instead of the office. After entering the convenience store and buying a lighter, he sits in a blue chair under the umbrella. I bought it a long time ago and had not smoked a cigarette yet.

“Phew……. ”

I don't know if it's been a while.

I became dizzy by sucking three puffs.

Tae-won drops his eyes, avoiding the strangers. I was calling my wife on her cell phone when I took it out.

- What are you doing at this hour?

“It's just a matter of time. What are the kids doing?”

- He's not from school yet, man. What time is it?

“That's right."

- What's wrong with you? You don't sound so good.

The words, "Nothing," did not pierce Tae-won's neck. I didn't want to lie. My wife used to be an editor. After giving birth to the second child, my health deteriorated, so I took time off from work, and I have been living as a housewife ever since.

- I wanted to tell you this morning. You've been a little off lately. Come in early, I'll take care of you.

“You're going to be late. I have dinner with Jules. Anyway, I'll call you back. ”

She urgently said to Tae-won who wanted to hang up the phone.

- Honey, wait.

“Why.”

For the guy who caught me hanging on, my wife didn't talk for a while.

The wheezing of his breath is just digging into the eardrums of Thais irregularly.

Tae Won threw away the burned cigarettes and took out a new cigarette.

As I tried to light a fire with the lighter, my wife's warm voice came to my ears.

- Don't push it.

There was blood on Tae-won's face. An unexpected wife's words were catching up with his ears.

- If you're having a hard time, it's okay. You've been on your own for a long time, and you've been working your ass off to feed me and my kids for the last 10 years.

“Suddenly... What are you talking about? ”

- Do you know what it's like to be exhausted and asleep? I'd rather work on my nose or my golfing dreams. Writer, you like your manuscript. When did she start looking at her white hair like that? I can't even pull it out...... and see how I feel...... You...

My wife's voice, who was feeling more and more trembling, was becoming more and more crying.

Tae-won took off his glasses. The callused fingers pressed down on the wet eyes.

My wife can't win. I can always see right through my heart without speaking. His heart made me feel even more heartbroken now.

- Think about it. Don't bother. The management you mentioned this summer. Let's start together.

“Do you... remember that? ”

Writer Management was the business that Tae-won was planning to start after his resignation. I've already spoken to some professionals.

I only mentioned it for a moment as if I was passing by for a drink. My deep wife couldn't help but remember.

- Neither did you, but I didn't want to get excited before I was sure. I've looked into things. I think it's gonna be okay. Let's start together. I was the best editor. You admit that, right?

After crying, my wife laughed. A smile like the fresh spring wind was tickling Tae-won's ear.

“Then... I admit it. ”

Tae-won put back the cigarette he was about to smoke and dug his face full of palms. A tremor in my hands shook my entire limp body past my face. Fortunately, he was comforted by an invisible phone call.

......

“Look, Lika. It's a convenience store I worked at until last year. See that soup cooker sign over there in the alley? It's really cheap and delicious. You must have eaten 500 bowls. ”

The whole time I was driving, I talked to my assistant, Rica.

It was a car received from seamedia. I was driving Lika around as my first guest and conducting a ceremony. October's sunlight was breaking on the smooth surface of the black new car.

Lika remained calm from beginning to end, rather than making a scene. I was sitting relaxed, crouching, or looking out the window on my front foot, or enjoying a drive.

“Let's stop by for a bit. ”

The way home.

Reconstruction stopped in front of Seo Gun Woo's grave. After the first rebuilding opened the passenger seat door, Rica also stepped down lightly.

“Sir, we're here. ”

Reconstruction greets you in front of the tomb. Lika circles around the tomb to check on her condition, then comes back to the side of the reconstruction.

“It's autumn already. I've been writing with you, and my time has passed so quickly. ”

Reconstruction said, removing some dishes in front of the memorial stone, his books, and glasses. They came to worship during Thanksgiving.

After finishing cleaning, the reconstruction sits on the flat ground next to the tomb. The sun was setting. I was looking at the red bitten sky, so I sighed before I realized why.

“Sunbae, I don't know what to write these days. ”

Reconstruction opens its mouth in a dazzling fashion.

“I want to write what I want to write. as you said to me, caring for the readers. But I don't know what to write. I don't even have a life anymore. ”

Despite receiving preliminary tax from the Pegelon series published in seamedia, the top three trends in Starbooks were still coming in like monthly salaries.

At least until the beginning of next year, there is a steady rate of less than 12 million won each month. Once the paper books are finished, you can expect more than just e-books. For at least two to three years, we have a good situation where we can play as a country without being overwhelmed.

“I think I'm trying. It's difficult, sir. ”

Seo Gun-woo in the tomb had no answer.

Reconstruction sits there for a while longer, then gets up on his butt. Lika, who was waiting quietly, followed him.

Bloop-oop! Bloop-oop!

When I got home and washed her feet, the phone rang. As soon as I checked the name of my good friend, the reconstruction smiled and answered the phone.

“Jung-jin Park, are you off duty? ”

If you're not busy, come out for a drink.

The sincere voice was rough. The loud breathing sounds irritate the eardrums of reconstruction.

“I'm going to leave right now, but tell me in advance. Is something serious going on? ”

The reconstruction takes off his pants and asks with his phone tucked between his shoulders and his head. Jinjin sighed before answering.

- It's no big deal. Come on out. I want to see him. I want to see him.

“Okay, where do you see it? ”

- I'll see you in town. I'll take the subway. I'll be there in 20 minutes.

“Okay, I'll be right out. ”

Reconstruction hurriedly changed with anxiety. Sitting at the foot of the bed, wearing socks, he asked Rica for forgiveness.

“Maybe Jinjin will come home and sleep over today. I can't hear his voice. It's a big day for him. Just bear with me for one day."

“Meow.”

Lika is answering with her tail, shifting her left and right air.

The reconstruction was unbearable after meeting the two brilliant eyes. I knew it wouldn't bother me, but I grabbed her, rubbed my nose and nose, kissed her, and then I left the house in my shoes.

I walked to the subway station. The call came from Jinjin as soon as I arrived at the station, walking diligently.

“Well, I'm number one now. ”

- Turn around, son.

Reconstruction shocked me, and I turned around. Jinjin was lowering his phone, smiling bitterly in front of his nose.

“You're here so fast. Did you fly?”

“The subway was right there. What do you want? Have a drink. ”

“This goes in with each other from the beginning. What's going on? ”

“It's no big deal. Sit down and talk. Hey, there's a footstool. Let's just eat our feet off. ”

Reconstruction and resignation entered a nearby restaurant and settled down.

In front of the feet, Soju and the plate were placed on the table first. Jinjin opened his lid as if he had waited and poured liquor into his cup and reconstruction.

“Here, cheers. ”

“Hey, drink the meat when it comes out. You're broke, too. ”

“The bean sprouts came out. Let's toast."

“Anyway……. ”

I drank soju on an empty stomach, and suddenly my body was drawn up.

The reconstruction immediately snatched the bottle from the hand of the gin who was about to follow the liquor.

“Don't kid yourself. ”

“What's wrong with the bird? ”

“Looks like you and I have changed our lines. I think I saw this in a dream. ”

“It was a reunion. In the hippocampus. ”

“Oh, right. When I was rotting my face because of Myung Hun, we said this. ”

A smile spread over the mouth of Jinjin. He smiles slowly at the glass he poured.

“Tell me anything. If I can help..."

“This is not an area you can help. ”

“What the hell is that? ”

“Hyo-jin.”

I replied immediately without hesitation.

The reconstruction frowns and tilts its head.

“What?"

“It's because of Hyo-jin. ”

Jinjin takes in the drink in a heartbeat. A spoonful of bean sprouts with a frowny face, he said.

“I think I've got a thumb. ”

“How do you know that? ”

“That's the vibe on Twitter. Well, I hear good men worry when I see them. ”

“Isn't the picture up? ”

“Huh? Huh. There were no pictures.”

“Don't rush me, you're just saying that. ”

“ ……. ”

“Hey, is that what this is about? Excited?”

“Isn't this a serious problem? ”

“You didn't even confess to Hyo-jin? ”

“That's right."

“Hey, shut up and eat your feet. ”

“Are you sure you're just saying that? Don't you always pretend girls are on Twitter? That's what Hyo-jin did, right? ”

“This guy's not a psychopath. Oh, shut up. ”

Reconstruction was absurd, but serious. I understood that it was because I like Hyojin that much, but on the one hand, I couldn't help but reconstruct the frustrated heart.

“There was nothing I could do. ”

The second bottle of alcohol was poured out by Jinjin.

“I thought if I worked well with Hyojin, what could I do for you? Fuck, I thought romance was too expensive for me. Hyo-jin is a bit of a princess. ”

“You'll only see her in your eyes. I think Hyo-jin is dirty and hairy. Eat Sundae well. ”

“A bit of a feathery example, isn't it? Anyway, my heart is like that. Oh, I don't know. Hyo-jin looks like a man. Definitely. Definitely. It's a fact."

Reconstruction silently listened to the complaint of sincerity. There was no limit to everything from hard company life to work with Hyojin and family matters. Reconstruction did not give much advice, but listened quietly.

‘You've been through a lot, too. I'm sorry.'

After finishing the third bottle of alcohol and looking at the sobbing truth, the reconstruction apologized. A dear friend who helped me when I was in trouble. Now that the foundation is laid, the reconstruction has made its own commitment that I will reach out first.

“I can't end it like this. Let's go to Karaoke Secondary. ”

After I finished the calculation, I was serious about what I said.

Reconstruction finds a karaoke sign, finds one place around it, and points with your finger.

“Okay, let's go there. Exciting and stressful. ”

“Hey, wait. Stop.”

Jinjin pulls the reconstruction to the other side.

“That's the singing studio, asshole. ”

“What does it matter? ”

“He doesn't know the world like this. ”

Jinjin led to reconstruction in Karaoke on the third floor of the rear facing building. There was no way of knowing what the difference was between a singing studio and a karaoke studio, but the reconstruction took place in the elevator along the way.