Bite Your Fingertips

The mobile phone software push said that a cold current has already moved rapidly from the north to the south, and the effect will be very significant. For example, the temperature will drop again in the middle of the night.

Chu Yu lay on the bed, listening to the wind rustling outside the window.

He remembered that when he was a child, he was very afraid of such a night.

All the light and shadow in his eyes will turn into the monster's bloody tentacles and sharp minions.All the rustling sounds of leaves are dangerous movements of monsters lurching and watching outside the window.

At that time, every night, he would tightly pull on the quilt, telling stories to himself and hypnotize himself, hoping that when he fell asleep, he would not be afraid.

With his elbows on the bed, Chu Yu half lifted up, reached for a game console, and confirmed that there was still electricity. He changed his posture and played with him on the bed.

Opening the newly downloaded puzzle game, the beginning is very simple, almost no brains are needed, Chu Yu connected through four or five levels, put his finger on the button, and couldn't help looking in the direction of the door.

His mother has never been able to stay at home for long. There are too many things to deal with and too many problems to be solved urgently.

I don't know if Shi Yaling is still there.

Thinking of what Shi Yaling had just said, and the stern expression, Chu Yu felt annoyed.But it didn't take long for the irritability to disappear again.

Lie on the soft pillow, Chu Yu thought, does this count, he is a little more mature?

No matter how Shi Yaling criticized and opposed, he knew exactly what he should insist on and what he could not give up.

In the past, he lived in a daze, and he regarded Shi Yaling very importantly, and even subconsciously tied many feelings and emotions to Shi Yaling.

So after realizing the truth, it takes such a long period of buffering.

But now, it seems different.

Thinking of this, Chu Yu put his hand to the tip of his nose and smelled it--this is probably the breath of a mature man?

At this moment, Chu Yu faintly felt something.He turned his head, stared at the floor-to-ceiling window for a few seconds, got up hesitantly, stepped barefoot on the carpet, walked to the window, and looked down.

The buildings in the South Island villa area are scattered, and only a long distance away can you see the lights of another household.

Correspondingly, in order to be beautiful and to protect privacy, every greening is done very well, although it is winter, all the branches and leaves are still dense.

Next to the bushes, beside the lamppost painted with dark green paint, Lu Shi wore a black coat, his long legs were stretched straight in jeans, and his hands were habitually inserted in his pockets.

Lu Shi raised his head as if feeling something at the same moment.

The facial features of the young man are not very clear in the night, and he is even trapped in the shadows, as if to blend with the background.

Chu Yu heard his heartbeat gradually become stronger, and knocked on the eardrum uninterruptedly.

Lu Shi was very patient, so he stood by the lamppost and looked at him quietly.

Chu Yu couldn't help it any more, forgot to wear his slippers, turned and ran outside the door.

Gently opened the bedroom door and went down the corridor. The downstairs was dark. It was estimated that Shi Yaling had already left. Aunt Lan slept early, and Chu Yu stepped barefoot on the ground, went downstairs silently, and left the door.

Panting and stopping in front of Lu Shi, Chu Yu's eyes seemed to contain a lingering amber.He wanted to restrain and calm down, but the corners of his mouth and the tails of his eyes couldn't be suppressed, and his voice was even more cheerful, "Lu Shi, why are you here?"

Lu Shi looked at the light-colored sweater that Chu Yu was wearing and the ankle that was exposed because he didn't wear socks. Before answering, he took off his black coat and put it on Chu Yu.

Surrounded by the familiar breath, Chu Yu realized that he was running too fast and even forgot his coat.

"Don't you miss me a little bit."

After reacting for two seconds, Chu Yu realized that this was Lu Shi's answer.

But is this impossible to get around?

Chu Yu found out that his boyfriend looked careless and indifferent to everything, but in fact, his eyes were small and terrifying.

He quickly said, "More than a little thought, I miss you very much!"

"How much is more than one point?"

My day, is it necessary for us to have this kind of elementary school-level discussion on the winter night?

Chu Yu racked his brains and gave the answer tentatively, "Probably, I think a little bit more than you think!"

Lu Shi was only satisfied, "Yeah."

Standing in place, Lu Shi cast his eyes down, looking at Chu Yu who was wrapped in his coat, and suddenly said, "Hug?"

Chu Yu originally thought that he had something to hug, and he would only see it in the afternoon!He is not such a hypocritical person!

But Lu Shi was like wearing a magnet, and he felt that he couldn't refuse it at all.

Without further entanglement, he took a step forward, and Chu Yu leaned over and put his chin on Lu Shi's shoulder.

Take the night bus and head towards Qingchuan Road.

It is late, and there are far fewer cars running on the road than during the day.

In the bus compartment, except for Lu Shi and Chu Yu who were sitting in the penultimate row, there were only two passengers in the front row.

When the light was dim, Chu Yu was holding his mobile phone and chatting in the class group. When he was about to scan Weibo, the screen was suddenly turned off by Lu Shi.

He was puzzled, and looked at Lu Shi sitting next to him, "What's the matter?"

The light from the street lamp came in from the window of the car and fell into Lu Shi's dark eyes, like a bright star.

His voice was low, "I want to kiss you."

Chu Yuting wanted to kiss, but it was on the bus, so he hesitated.When he was struggling to agree or refuse, Lu Shi had already kissed it first.

It's not soliciting his opinion at all, just telling.

Without struggling, Chu Yu grasped the plastic handrail and was soon softened by Lu Shi.

He quietly opened his eyes, watching the thin eyelids, small blue blood vessels, and the shadows falling from the eyelashes when he landed. The emotions that had been brought up by seeing Shi Yaling before slowly sank to the bottom of his heart.

This person always makes him settle down.

When Chu Yu tried to kiss Lu back, the noses of the two of them rubbed against each other, and their hot breath blended together.

Suddenly, Chu Yu sensed something was wrong.

He withdrew his lips and put his forehead against Lu Shi's forehead, frowning, "Lu Shi, you seem to have... a fever?"

After getting off the bus, the bus stop on Qingchuan Road is bright.Chu Yu looked around and found that all pharmacies and clinics had been closed.

Lu Shi put his hands in his pockets and followed behind him unhurriedly. Seeing that Chu Yu was anxious, he put his arms on Chu Yu's shoulders, put his arms close, and buried his face in Chu Yu's neck. "Not serious. ,go home."

It was determined that near Qingchuan Road, only Internet cafes and barbecue stalls were still open, so Chu Yu had to give up.

Walking on the road, he was close to Lu Shi again, worried, "If you are unsteady, please support me and I will lead you."

Lu Shi wanted to say that he wasn't so weak, but seeing Chu Yu's eyes were full of worry, he responded "OK" and said nothing else.

Chu Yu was still trying to analyze, "Why did I suddenly have a fever? Didn't it feel good when I left school in the afternoon? I didn't catch a cold... Wait, you go home to take a bath, and you can't wash it in cold water, right?

"No."

When Chu Yu looked directly at Lu, he asked, "Really?"

"...Warm water."

Chu Yu sighed and wanted to say something, but seeing Lu Shian quietly there, his eyes with a high fever were a little red and pitiful. He shook Lu Shi's hand and said, "Go, go back."

Lu Shi didn't have a fever-reducing medicine thermometer at home, and the refrigerator was empty, and there was no ice.Chu Yu had no choice but to guess that the temperature should not be low based on the feel.

After boiled the water unskillfully, and then cooled to the right temperature, Chu Yu brought it to the bed and supervised it to drink it when landing.

Confirming that there were no more drops left, Chu Yu was about to put the water glass, and just got up, the hand hanging by his side was held.

It was not the same as the cool touch in the past. Because of the fever, Lu Shi's palm was very hot and very dry.

"Lu Shi?"

Lu Shi was lying on the bed with a pillow. Because of the heat, the quilt only covered his waist.

He held Chu Yu's hand, half-closed his eyelids with no energy, and his voice was much dumber than before, "Don't go."

Chu Yu felt that the softest part of his heart was scratched.

He placed the water glass casually and sat down on the bed again, "Okay, don't go."

Kneading-squeezing Chu Yu's fingers, Lu Shi moved to a position against the wall and made room, "Come up."

Lu Shi at this time is completely different on weekdays.

Obviously ill, but because of the brutality that narrowed his eyebrows and the cold aura around him, it became harmless.

There are even some weaknesses that never show others.

Chu Yu felt that at this moment, even if he showed a ten-thousandth unwillingness, it would be cruel!

He didn't hesitate at all, lay down next to Lu Shi and hugged himself as if the other party was on a pillow.

Lu Shi hugged the person, got close first, and bit Chu Yu's earlobe.It was discovered that Chu Yumin breathed slightly disorderly before loosening his teeth.

He put his finger on Chu Yu's lips and traced it along the lip line, "Taste it, the blood is not hot."

Opening his mouth, holding Lu Shi's fingers, Chu Yu controlled his bite, only sucked a little blood, and then let go.

"It's hotter than usual."

"Ok."

Lu Shi's voice was lazy, less cold and softer than usual.

Chu Yu lowered his voice, "Do you want to sleep?"

"it is good."

Lu Shiying lowered and tightened his arms around Chu Yu, "Be with me."

"Okay, stay with you, don't leave."

After nearly half an hour, it was confirmed that Lu Shi's breathing had calmed down, and Chu Yu quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

He didn't dare to sleep, he carefully felt his body temperature when he landed, and thought, if the fever does not go away tomorrow morning, he must take the person to the hospital.

Also, the water heater has to be repaired.

Lu Shi paid no attention to these aspects.Chu Yu even suspected that if the water heater was not warm water but cold water, Lu Shi would still wash it correctly.

Some thoughts about it all, Chu Yu's eyes fell on Lu Shi's wrist on the bed sheet.

He always knew that Lu Shi was accustomed to wearing things on his left wrist, usually a black wideband watch, sometimes changed to a black wristband.

Because the wrists are thin and the lines are beautiful, it will look great no matter what you wear.

Wanting Lu Shi to sleep more comfortably, Chu Yu stretched out his hand, ready to take off his watch.

Lu Shi, who was originally asleep, moved his wrist subconsciously, and his eyebrows wrinkled slightly.But because it was too hot, I didn't wake up.

Chu Yu didn't notice Lu Shi's abnormality, he relaxed his movements and carefully untied the black strap.

But in the next second stunned.

Under the loosened watchband, there are cold white skin, blue blood vessels, and thin scars.

Some have healed with only shallow prints, and some are still new and glowing red.

Almost suddenly, Chu Yu figured out the origin of these scars.

He has tried countless times to replace Lu Shi and imagine Lu Shi's psychology.But I found that the hardest part is empathy.

He didn't know how Lu Shi came here after learning the truth for such a long period of time.How did it gradually become what it is now?

He also didn't know, in the seventeen years before that, what kind of environment Lu Shi was living in and what kind of harm he suffered.

How difficult and painful it would be for Lu Shi to cut the skin of his wrist with his own hands, wanting to use his physical pain to relieve the pain and sadness in his heart?

Chu Yu dare not think.

Dare not at all.

He held his breath, shaking his fingertips, and buckled the untied strap again until all the scars were hidden.

Turning around slowly, Chu Yu lay on his side on the bed, looking at Lu Shi who was sleeping.

He didn't know how to use words to describe how he was feeling right now.It just felt as if there was a sharp knife pierced into his heart, slicing and cutting inside, and it hurt that he couldn't help but want to curl up.

At this moment, all the fog that stood in front of him has disappeared.

In the past, he didn't know what he wanted or what he wanted to do.I don’t even know what kind of person I want to be and what kind of future I want to have.

Now he knows.

He wants to be strong enough, strong enough to support him and protect him.