The first white ceiling I woke up without a trace of dirt was something I had never seen in my life before.The smell of chemicals spreading throughout the room, as well as the simple bedding you are sleeping in, are all things you can't remember, making you feel very anxious.Besides, I feel like I've been dreaming for a very long time.
"Are you awake, Elena Heim?"
You can't help but wake up suddenly with a strange man's voice.When I managed to speak with my eyes only, there was a man in a military uniform who looked luxurious.It didn't take long to realize that a man's gaze was cold.
Although the name Elena Heim sounded familiar to me, I felt a little relieved to realize that it wasn't me.
I'm sure he's wrong. That's why I'm not the only one with such cold eyes.--I felt a little light-hearted when I thought so.
When I tried to tell him that I was wrong, my throat hurt violently.
You cough at the same time as you stutter, and you can't breathe properly.After suffering for a while, another man was supporting me and rubbing his back.
I found out that I was a doctor because of the strong smell of chemicals from my body.
The smell of this medicine is packed with bitter memories.
The house was filled with this smell until the dancer's mother fell ill and took a breath.
A scene of the time occurred to my brain as I was rubbing my back.
After a while the cough subsided, the doctor made eye contact with me.Does it bother you that the doctor's eyes feel cold somewhere...?
When the doctor briefly checked my consciousness, he made a determined inquiry like a machine.
I can't talk, I'll answer with a moving neck.I nodded to the doctor's question if YES and shaken once if NO.When I finish answering most of the questions with NO, I realize that there is a big difference between me and the doctor.
The doctor asked me if I was eighteen, but I am thirteen.The name Elena Heim is not a big name, it's just Ellie.As a civilian, I have no family name.I can't remember where I was before I woke up.All I can remember is that my mother died six months ago and my brother Julius.
Every time I answer no to a question, wrinkles are engraved between the doctor's eyebrows.I was worried about everything, whether it was a mechanical tone or a suspicious attitude.
I knew Elaina Heim was wrong, so I tried to tell her, but I couldn't help it with a painful throat and an immobile body.
I am the daughter of my mother Sonia, who was a dancer.The name is Ellie, which is common among civilians, and Heim has no fine family name.
She is 13 this year and fundamentally different from Elaina Heim.
After a brief question, he grabbed the doctor's sleeve with his hard hand as he tried to leave with a suspicious face.
Because I thought something would go wrong if I didn't correct this mistake.I was beginning to think I was in trouble.
The doctor left the room with a suspicious look on his face as if nothing had happened to my hands.
I can still work my head tightly while remaining stunned.
The doctor said he knew what would happen if he lied on the way, but I'm not lying and I'm not gonna puke.
'Cause that doesn't do me any good.
Soon after the doctor left, the beautiful soldier back.
With a beautiful face and a military uniform that looks luxurious, I also realized that I couldn't learn to be anything but someone else.I am not the same civilian as I am, even if I am completely wrong.
The soldier gave me what he had in his left hand.
There was another woman there who wasn't me I was used to seeing.
I didn't realize that what a man had was a mirror because he wasn't too familiar with it.
"What do you think? This is still bullshit. Are you gonna go through with this?Elaina Heim "
The cold eyes of the soldier pierced me.
My name is Ellie...I don't know Elaina Heim!
I don't even know the woman in the mirror.
Julius... Julius will understand...!
The woman in the mirror looks very sad, painful and confused.--Just like me now.
(Don't forgive me! I won't forgive you, I won't forgive you!
Suddenly, a voice sounded in my head.
It's like the voice I heard in my dreams...
(Don't give up... be happy...)
When I unexpectedly meditated, I heard a different kind voice.
I lost consciousness as if I were called by my voice.