I don't know how long I've been asleep since then...
When I woke up again, the scenery was as white as ever.
There are only bedding in this room that I sleep in, a simple sink, a glassy, round shower room, and a small toilet in the back, and there are no other windows.
As I checked the room, the soldiers came in and left the room as soon as they saw me.
I was a little relieved that some of the pain was getting rough and rough, but I started to make a voice, and the soldiers brought a lot of adults back.
There are also people wearing black robes, soldiers wearing military uniforms that are different from those of beautiful soldiers, and a few people who look like doctors.
For the first time, I was surrounded by about 10 adults at once, and I couldn't stop shaking because of the intimidation.
Never in my life have I met an adult who seemed great at first glance.
The first soldier I met opened his mouth as he was shaking.
"Elaina Heim, I will now begin your interrogation.Some here have the protection of discerning lies, so respond carefully.Answer me when you get it. "
I nodded in fear, feeling like an insect that was about to be killed.Besides, there's no dust in lying.However, for the first time in my life, my body was not going to stop shaking because of my experience and the tight gaze of the great adults.
"Do you know why you're here?
I shook my head sideways.
"I'm not lying."
After my reaction, the person in the black robe spoke.
"So, do you remember yourself?
I nodded with cockroach and the doctor checked if I could speak.When I answered "yes" with a spoiled voice, the soldier told me to tell him what I remember.
"--I 'm Ellie... a civilian, no family name, just Ellie... 13 years old this year... my mother passed away six months ago and now I'm with my brother Julius..."
"--I 'm not lying."
When an adult wearing a robe said so, the adults around him bothered.I was glad to have an adult in this robe, and when I thanked him unexpectedly, the adult in the robe trembled.
"... do you remember the Vicomte Heim?
"No... I've never met such a noble nobleman... because I'm a civilian... but I feel like I know somewhere..."
"--I 'm not lying."
As I watched the grown-ups who talked out loud, I came to the military to see what I really cared about.
"Ah, ahh... where is Julius?
"- I have no obligation to answer your questions.The interrogation's not over yet, so don't open your mouth lightly. "
She glanced at me with cold eyes and suddenly sweated cold.
Ice blue eyes that are close to silver are as cold as ice, yet sharp as an eagle, and I feel like I'm going to be preyed on.
"--Apparently you're not lying, but you've forgotten all the inconveniences, Elena Heim."
"Chi, no... I'm Ellie... I'm not such a big name!
"- Shut up, you answer only this question.Just keep your mouth shut.The next time you speak without permission, this interrogation will be over soon and you will be executed tomorrow.You got it?
I trembled at the noisy word "execution."I nodded trembling thinking that this soldier would kill me if I didn't do what he said.
"- You are undoubtedly Elaina Heim.You are eighteen, not thirteen.An adopted child of the Viscount Heim family, along with the Viscount Cedric and the Duchess of Soirtere, are under arrest for assaulting their daughter the other day.I can't get rid of my sins without my memory. "
I have no idea what the soldier in front of me is saying.You know the words, but you can't understand them.
"We may have managed to escape the carriage, but you attacked the Duchess at the graduation party and tried to harm His Highness Cedric.And yet you know why he's alive?
Tears are accumulating in my eyes.I don't understand everything you're saying.I was about to panic, but sharp eyes with military intent stopped my body from moving.
"Because His Highness listened to the discretionary wishes of the Duchess of Soirtere.The other day, the Duchess, who knew you were hanging yourself in prison, wanted a punishment after the interview, not just an execution.This is an interrogation for that.But if you don't remember, there's no way to ask.I will take this matter back to the report, so you should wait here until then.You got it?
I don't know... I don't want to know...
Why should I be detained for unspeakable crimes...
I didn't do anything...!
Why can't an adult who sees through lies see through the lies of the soldier in front of him...!
Louder, "No!I wanted to fight it by shouting, "I lied!", but the fear of being killed hardened my body.
None of the adults here see themselves (Ellie) … I see a person named Elaina Heim over and over again.
Even if there are adults who recognize lies, there are no adults who recognize the truth...
Nobody's looking at me, and nobody's protecting me...
The soldiers took the adults out of the room, nodding at me in fear.
I squeeze my fist and shed tears.
While weeping, I realized that the fist in my eyes was bigger than I remember.
If you stretch your arm tightly, it will be longer than you remember.There was a body that was much bigger than I remember when I rolled up the futon.
You're 18 years old.
The soldier's voice rises.That can't be true... when I checked my body for touches, my hands stopped on my unfamiliar chest, telling me it was impossible.
I don't know such breasts... I don't know such a body...!
Far from the desired reality, tears are constantly overflowing and wetting your cheeks.
Is it true what the soldier said... that I don't remember... or do I have to pay for my sins...?
Julius....? Did Julius grow up too?
I promised my mother I'd protect Julius...
In my memory, Julius cried as he called me.
--Julius... I'm sorry... Mom... it looks like I couldn't protect Julius...
I don't know, I don't want to believe it. I want to escape from reality... why I'm Elaina Heim, 13... why my body is different from my memory... why I woke up as a 13-year-old now... I don't want to think about anything anymore... I'm so scared that the next time I see that soldier, I can't stop shaking... I just want to disappear like this.
Tired of crying, I left my body in my bedding and fell asleep for the first time praying for the extinction of my existence.