It was the fifth day I woke up from the day I was surrounded by adults.
A beautiful woman came in after her first knock.I've never heard a knock since I woke up in this creepy, pure white room.When she was surprised and unable to respond, a beautiful woman appeared.I could see that there was no soldier behind the woman, but I felt relieved to sigh.
"... oneesan... beautiful..."
What I thought leaked out of my mouth.
My first black hair is shiny and shiny.It seemed like a goddess that contrasted with white skin that had never been seen among civilians.
The woman smiled kindly after being a little surprised by my words.I've never woken up and been smiled at like this before.
I can see my mother smiling gently overlapping, and even though I should have cried so much that my tears would wither away, my tears would never stop overflowing.
The woman approached me gently and hugged me.It was the first time my mother had done such a thing since she died, so my body suddenly stretched.
Even after I woke up, I felt like I was alone and wandering through unseen despair.
My eyes are cold, and no one will look at me (Ellie).When you wake up asleep thinking this is a bad dream, there is a white space of despair that remains unchanged.I don't know how many times I wanted to disappear.
I found that the warmth conveyed by the woman and the good scent mixed with roses and sunshine calmed my heart.
"... is oneesan an angel?
Then I want you to get me out of this space as soon as possible... with your eyes filled with hope.After being a little surprised again, the woman had a kind of troubled smile.
"I'm not such a big deal.I'm Rachel.What's your name?
"--Ellie... I'm Ellie..."
That's what I've been saying since I woke up in this white room.Also, when I was thinking about whether I would be denied, the woman accepted my saying, "That's right... Ellie."
"... do you believe me?
When I look up at a woman I'm afraid of, she smiles and says, "Yeah."Even though there were no adults who could discern lies, the woman believed my words and smiled kindly.I'm glad about it and tears are pouring out again.
The woman held me in her arms for a while.Eventually, I watched my breathing calm down and said, "... will you listen to me?And then I started talking.
"... I'm Rachel, but I also have the name Ray.A while ago, when I woke up in the morning, I was Rachel.Thinking about it, I remembered that Ray was the name of the last life. "
When I woke up, Elaina Heim was wrong about me, and it didn't seem like my sister's story was just a strange story.
"I remember it as Rachel, and I remember it as Ray.I didn't tell anyone because I didn't think anyone would believe me when I said this.But Ellie seems to believe me... can you believe me?
Even if I was surprised that something like that really happened, I could swallow it if I looked at my current situation.
I nodded twice, stunned but deep.The woman grabbed my back and said, "Thank you."
"I'm Rachel, but I'm also Ray.But nobody knows Ray, so I'll call you Rachel.I don't feel that uncomfortable because I also remember Rachel.- Does Ellie know Elaina?
"I don't know!I really don't know!I think I've heard of it before, but I really did. "
Because I really wanted this woman to believe me, I heard a loud voice.
"Ellie... it's okay.I believe in you. "
A woman gently calmed me down to excuse me in a hurry.
"- I believe in Ellie.Would you listen to me with that in mind?
I sincerely felt that I could trust what this person said, and I nodded slowly and deeply to seal my anxiety.
"--The doctor said you were a memory loss, but I think you and Elena are different."
I am surprised at the story of a woman who is completely different from what I have heard so far and cannot speak.
"--My guess is that Ellie, 13 years old, had a different soul in her body.I think that's Elaina...Have you ever heard of Elaina?
"... he did something really bad... and if it's true... he executed me.- But he was merciful and alive. "
"... pussy... that muscle with a bad mouth."
"... eh?
"No, it's nothing...."
After the woman's smile hardened for a moment, she had a very scary atmosphere, but I was relieved because I coughed up and returned to a gentle smile so that I could recover my mind immediately.
"... yes... Elena did the wrong thing.And after I got caught, I tried to turn down my life in jail..... "
Speaking of which, I recall the military saying the same thing.
"I guess... that's when Elena disappeared.And I think Ellie's memory is back. "
Until Mr. Rachel arrived, he was forced to accept that he was not thirteen years old, as he touched his body and checked, recalling what the soldiers had told him.
"... wouldn't it be strange if Ellie's memory stopped at thirteen?I remember my last life as Ray, so I think this could happen. "
"... but... even memory loss..."
"-That's right. I think it is most reasonable and realistic to think so.But that doesn't mean it's the truth.--I know Elaina... and I saw you today and I was convinced of my thoughts.You... Ellie says that everything is different from Elena. "
Even if I swallowed the fact that my body was not thirteen years old, I couldn't swallow anything but the name Elena.The soldier was right. Even if I lost my memory, the name Elena didn't seem like me.But since I don't remember being thirteen, my mother's death, or anything but Julius, I was beginning to wonder if there was truth to what the soldiers said.But I couldn't accept the reality that I was Elaina, and that was what was tormenting me.
What a woman said was unimaginable and unexpected, but that kind of thinking came to mind.
"--I 'm Ray, but I still remember Rachel.But if Ray disappeared for any reason, I thought Rachel would be the only one left.So when I heard about you, I thought, "
I listened to Mr Rachel in silence.
"--I didn't get along with Elaina.And as a result, I took someone from Elena...That's why Elena hated me so much...I thought there was nothing she could do.It hurt so much to hear that she tried to kill herself... I thought it was my fault...But I'm glad Ellie's back.--I 'm sorry about Elena, but I'm glad to meet Ellie. "
Rachel said that and hugged me again.
"- Hey, Ellie... I trust you.But I think it will take time for people to believe in you.... "
I thought I had no choice.I can't believe my situation, so it's only natural that others don't believe me.
"But I believe in Ellie and I want to protect her.Can you believe me?
Even in a situation I can't believe, I can believe about Rachel.
Whoever I was, I was determined to believe him, and I nodded deeply to express my intentions to Rachel.
This was my encounter with Rachel, and it was the first step towards regaining my lost self.