A few days after Lord Cedric's acquittal, a meeting with Julius finally took place.
Six months after my mother died, on the day that I ceased to be me, Julius and I were taken separately to their relatives' homes.It is not particularly unusual among the civilian population because the financial burden is so great that there are few siblings and children to be taken back.
He continued to refuse offers from relatives to avoid being separated from young Julius, but there was a limit to living with two children aged 13 and 8 in the small house where his mother died.I think I've had it for half a year.
Our relatives were numb and taken back by force in the middle of the day, watching us grow thinner and thinner.
After that, we grew up separately even after being taken over by the former Vicomte Heim.
Ex-Viscount Heim only spent money on Elena, who could be a golden egg, and Julius only took care of him if he abused him, rather than the minimum he needed.For the former Viscount of Heim, it would have been the difference between heaven and earth between holding the emblem of a woman since the founding of the Heim family and holding the emblem of an ordinary man.
Ever since, Julius has lived secretly with a servant at a small distance.Elena didn't really care about her brother, so she left Julius for five years without seeing him.
I wonder how delicate Julius was when he was young, and his chest hurts.I would have been anxious to lose my mother and be separated from only one family.He may have resented his sister, who hasn't come to see him since he was taken over by the Heims.
I wanted to see Julius very much, but I was deeply afraid of what Julius thought.
The pleasure of finally meeting Julius, who was a longing wish, and the feeling that he might be hated or resented were chaotic and swirling.
After the acquittal, he was told to stay in the castle until the simple procedure was completed, and the room was moved from the pure white inorganic room he had spent to the luxurious room.That said, my personal belongings are empty, so I'm on my own.
In a room that was too luxurious for the civilian population, I felt uncomfortable unlike that inorganic white room.
Since I was officially treated as a guest, I followed the maid, and in the past few days I have been babysitting everything, and on the contrary I am exhausted.
Even though I became a guest, I had nothing to do but meet Rachel at the castle, so I spent the rest of my life reading a book I had rented from Rachel in my room.
Sometimes it will take a little longer to get home, and today Julius is invited to the castle because of Rachel's considerations.
Yesterday, when Rachel told me that she could see Julius, she was always sober and restless, both physically and mentally.
I barely slept in the morning, and even when I was ready, I couldn't help but calm down and wandered around the room, and a nearby guard came in with knock.
After moving to this luxurious guest room, the guards knocked too.
It's the first time we've met since we turned down a terrible relationship.When I bowed lightly with my morning greetings while sweating cold inside, they only said "ahh".I carefully observed that I might be quite angry if I refused the marriage in that way when I was a former civilian, the Vice Chancellor, but I was generally upset when I met him, and I felt that it was not much different from usual.
Because I kept watching it for a while, I told the guards, "What?"and I shook my head in a hurry and said nothing.
"... my brother is invited to a 3: 00 p.m. tea party with Miss Rachel."
It is now around ten o'clock, so it seems that there is still time.I think that I can postpone it for a long time without being too nervous, and the feeling of wanting to meet and be judged now is mixed up.
"... until then..."
I suddenly felt uncomfortable with the guards who suddenly put out their mouths and waited very long until I could hear what he wanted to say.
"... well... can you give me...?"
"... eh?
"So! Um... I was wondering if you could give me your time."
... you can give me time, right?I think I am quite familiar with this question.If I can give you anything, I'll rip it off, and I'll think about getting out of the room as soon as possible.
But in my head, I said, "Be kind to everyone.Remembering her habit of saying, "Don't forget kindness," she scolded herself lightly.
"... pussy... no, I need time to apologize to you..."
"... apologize...?I don't have such an idea.... "
"... does that mean you don't want to accept an apology?
Better wrinkles appeared between the guards' eyebrows, and the voice suddenly leaked.When he realized it, he placed one hand on the eyebrow to hide the wrinkles and apologized briefly, saying he was "sorry".The Guards in front of you are in an incomprehensible area of what they want to say and do.
"... no, I'm sorry about this... but I didn't realize I was going to ask Crisford to apologize for something..."
"... well... I want to apologize for my attitude towards you so far..."
"... your attitude towards me...?
The guards nodded and shot me through with silver eyes reminiscent of the cold of the ice.When I look at the color, I want to retreat like a conditional reflex and fly the white flag, but for some reason it feels a little warm.
"... I've touched you harder than necessary... and I know you're afraid of me because of that... so... I'm sorry..."
"--No... I know you were just doing your job... so you don't have to apologize..."
I didn't even think I could express my apology, so I was more confused than ever, but I felt that the reason was that I threw the word "scared" and reluctantly lacked consideration the other day.
"... well, I'm sorry that I've been rude to you."
"--I don't care... so..."
Waiting for the Guards to say something about flying and asking me to stay calm.
"... can I have your time?
"Ah... um... if it's an apology, I really don't think it's necessary..."
I can't say that I don't like it even if my mouth is ripped, but I really don't think it is necessary to apologize, so I will tell you that.However, the guards did not seem to want a response, and wrinkles appeared between his eyebrows again, but in an instant, he put one hand between his eyebrows, as he remembered again.
And somehow I decided to stick out the hand of someone who had been hiding behind me for a long time.I sewed my feet to the ground with mental strength that I could retreat without thinking.The bouquet of flowers was grasped when I looked at the hand offered.
"... I want you to take it..."
I checked the guard's face and hand again and again.I felt uncomfortable from the beginning, but I am even more confused by the attitude that I can't see anymore.
"... you know... maybe"
"... you said you liked it when it happened to happen to be in a shop..."
It was a bouquet of white margarions when I looked closely at the flowers held by the guards, who were supposed to have done nothing wrong but look terribly awkward.But much better than what I know.I've never seen such a good quality margarion.
Margarion should not be so popular with the nobles, as it is also a kind of flower native to the civilian city.Since nobles tend to love rare flowers, it would be unusual for shops to grow flowers native to civilian towns in such good quality.Is it a coincidence to hang such a store...?
"... can I have it?
"Of course! I went out of my way to do that... no... nothing... for now, I just want you to take this... even if I have it."
When I received the bouquet gently, the nostalgic and good smell tickled my nose.Margarion was a flower that her mother loved, and images of her happy days that Julius and I used to pick and present to her naturally filled her brain with laughter.
"... thank you."
"......!
As soon as I thanked him, I wondered why the guard had hardened and stopped moving, and after a while he flew his consciousness back to reality.
"... I'm getting lunch ready."
"... eh?
"... will you give me a chance to make up for all the apologies I've made?
"... to recover...?
"Ahh... I want to change who I am inside you... just like you did to me..."
What the hell does that mean, like I did...?
Looking back at this and thinking that I had never done anything to him, I felt that the part where the crest was once engraved had become hot, and I gently pressed it from the top of my clothes.
"... so first of all... will you give me time to spend with you..."
In retrospect, I've been looking at something he doesn't know for the last few days.Sharp silver eyes remain the same, but for some reason they are shaking with anxiety.There was only one response I had to give to the Guards, who showed the attitude that my life would be influenced by one word.
The colour of anxiety in his eyes is very prescient, and I am very vulnerable to it.
"----yes..."
Thus, I was to eat in the room of the royal castle while being seen again by the guards.
Unlike at that time, the guards sat down and ate together, and the contents of the meal were too lavish.
I feel dazzled by the unrealistic sight of eating so many lavish meals in a room of the royal castle with the guards alone.While thinking that Cedric might be involved, I felt a sigh that was about to leak.
In that short time, I felt that Rachel's obsession with him was a little excessive.I'm very worried that Rachel will not be able to breathe because the heterosexual flames of jealousy will still burn me.
But now I have to worry more about myself...
They keep watching the luxurious meals they bring into their mouths.When I look back at the nearby guards who couldn't stand their gaze, they ask me if it was "delicious" as if they were quickly distracted and distracted from the story.To be honest, I wanted to say that you didn't know the taste because you came to see it more than you needed, but if you replied peacefully, "Yes, it's delicious," you simply replied, "I see."
Until now, I was scared and I didn't know because I didn't confirm my expression unless I had anything to do with it, but the look of the guard who replied briefly to me was so gentle that I had never seen it before.
I didn't think you had such a look on your face, and I was terribly surprised and couldn't chew well.Dinner with him was over while I was in some trouble not knowing where to look.
As before, there was no tension that would make it impossible to know whether food was coming in from the mouth or even from the nose, but there was a bitter smile that it was not a calm and tasty meal.
Looking at the clock, I noticed that it was already around one o'clock and that it was almost time to meet Julius.I'm sure the maid will help us prepare for it from now on.
Though it was not a very pleasant meal, I thought it was more meaningful than spending a restless time thinking about Julius, and honestly thanked the guard, and somehow his cheeks were red stained.
Today, he brings me back to the room where he is staying, thinking he has seen a lot of unknown aspects of this guard.And when I was delivered and parted, for some reason, there was still redness on the guards' cheeks.