After dinner at the lifeguard, I stood in front of the captain's office, a little nervous.
In retrospect, Rose seemed emotional then and then decided to be ready for something... there was a slightly different vibe.
When I visited the captain's office on the assumption that we would talk about something important, I put up my hand, which felt heavier than usual, and knocked on the door.
Slowly opening the door according to the voice 'In', Rose was sitting in the position as usual, holding hands together and looking out the window silently.
Has the paperwork already been cleared or the paperwork that was piled up during the day is clean and refreshing gone?
"Easy."
"Yes, excuse me"
Follow those words and lower your back to the pre-prepared chair.
Rose accidentally opened her mouth as she was feeling just a little uncomfortable with the temporary silence.
"Until just now, I remember when you came to this world"
"When you came, when you were caught in a brave summons?"
"Oh."
I think of Rose's words when I came to this world, too.
If you think about it, you can say that I started that day.
Well, there's a lot of emotional stuff though, because from the beginning, Rose forced me into the army and made me do things like all the seats in Hell.
"Now that I think about it, I guess it was a miracle I found you"
"Huh?"
I keep my gaze out of the window, and I'm taken aback by Rose's words that squealed so.
I'm surprised the word 'miracle' came from Rose's mouth, though it might be rude. Doesn't fit the image at all......
Rose finally turns to me.
"Usato, you are a genuine ordinary man. That you got caught up in a brave summons and came to this world was not supposed to be possible."
"Well, I don't have the qualities or talent to be a brave man. You can't be summoned normally."
Both his talent as a wizard and his sense of battle are overwhelmingly superior to his predecessors and Kazuki.
It's just a little more magic than normal.
All I've done to this day is work out my body.
"When I came to this world with my predecessors, if you hadn't taken me out of the castle, I would have taken a different path."
"I guess. You would have learned magic from around Welsey or Olga and become a true healing wizard."
I wouldn't have fought a flesh-bomb battle with something in my arm like I do now, or run in the middle of a battlefield.
Rose distorted the edge of her mouth as she was feeling a little emotional.
"What? Was that better?"
"No way, I like myself the most being here right now."
I reply with a bitter smile to Rose, who tells me to tease.
"Besides, some people were helped because they worked out here."
What floats behind my brain is the figure of the people I met in the kingdom I visited on my brief journey.
I was able to help at the end of the day, though I was sometimes in a pinch or something that couldn't be helped.
"In the original world, I was a really normal student. I wanted an incentive for me to change, and I hoped that my irreplaceable routine would change. But since I came to this world, I've changed my mind."
My thoughts gradually changed due to a major shift in my routine.
I believe the motivation lies with the seniors and Kazuki, the two brave men and the lifeguards.
"At first I wanted to be a help to my senior and Kazuki, and I was desperately trying to train them. I don't want to be a nuisance to both of you, and maybe you can help me with my healing magic."
At that time, I felt like I was pushing my way into Wushu Luo in conjunction with life-saving regiment training.
In other words, it could be said that he was trying to move forward for vague reasons.
"Then, in my battle with the Demon King's Army, I ran to the battlefield to save the lives of all the knights. The battlefield was... terribly scary, but I'm still glad they helped Kazuki with the seniors"
……
"So I thought. Me."
I was pushing my way to Wushu Luo, but when did I only find the path I was instructed to take?
Way as a lifeguard healing those who get hurt on the battlefield...
"Someone wants to laugh and keep to the routine where they can normally live. If there's someone to grieve, reach out and if there's someone to hurt, he wants to help."
To put it that way, Rose puts her hand on her forehead when she looks at this one and gets silent for a while.
What do you mean, the look on his face looked rude.
Could I have said something that bothered you? No, I think I told my cousin.
"Usato"
"Yes, sir"
"... Your thoughts must have been praised. I'd like to compliment myself on that idea... but you haven't spoken the truth yet"
"Huh? No, that's..."
I never thought you'd say that, so I'm gonna be a wolf.
"Usat, what did you see on the battlefield?"
……
I fall into the feeling that my heart has been eagled by that allegation.
This guy has the same role as me, so you can't tell.
I know that, but I've been so upset so far because I thought it was something I wouldn't point out anymore.
"Perhaps you've already gotten over it. No one tells me, but because there are answers in Temehe, I was able to transfer them to action with a strong will.... at a time when you didn't even make me realize it before now, it's pretty good. He's a really big guy, you know."
"Captain, I..."
"But spit it out when you can. There's not a single thing good about holding that. Fortunately, it's just me and you here."
I get silent for a while, but once I stare at my palm, I nod small.
"... right"
Sure, Rose was right, I hid the truth.
Of course, the ideal I spoke of was my heart.
I want to help someone hurt, and I want to keep a peaceful routine.
But my underlying sentiment of wanting to help people who are suffering came from somewhere else.
That sentiment sprouted...... maybe in the fight against the Demon King Army.
"When fighting the Demon King's Army, I'm talking."
Think about it, this may be the first time you've told someone about this.
Again, staring at his hands with that in mind, he speaks out to squeeze it out.
"I can still remember it vividly. The faces of those who have done all they can in front of me."
I didn't save all my lives in the first battle with the Demon King's Army.
Some people couldn't help.
Almost there, some didn't make it.
I grabbed it, I thought some people were already getting cold.
Sometimes the person who helped him fell and stopped moving the next time he saw him.
Still, I kept running on the battlefield. Still, there were people fighting, so I couldn't stop.
"Everyone wanted to live. And I couldn't help you."
I don't think I can save everyone. Still, there will remain irresistible regrets with no place to go.
A little, as early as possible, if I could reach out... and no matter how much I'm appreciated and praised, somewhere in my mind I've been thinking about that.
"I will continue to do unscrupulous things. Like what happened on previous journeys, you can stick your neck in trouble from yourself... but still..."
I'm sure it would make it easier if I cut it off.
"I can't help it"
"I did my best."
"I tried, but I couldn't"
If you think about it, you can erase the regrets in your heart... which I will never forgive.
I've decided to drag this regret all the way.
"- I don't want to regret not being able to help someone there again."
Grab a strong grip on the open palm and gaze at Rose.
When I heard my monologue, Rose unwrapped her arm.
"I'm sorry."
That, I uttered words of apology.
To my unexpected apology, I expose my agitation.
"Why is the captain apologizing?"
"No matter how extraordinary and strong your heart is, you were a seventeen-year-old who lived in a peaceful world. It wasn't me who made you go through such a hard time."
I did think it was hard.
But I didn't think that was why I resented Rose at the time.
More than that, because I got a lot from the lifeguard.
"I don't resent you, and I'm even glad you brought me here. Than that...... I was more surprised that the captain apologized to me. That's what I would never do. Huh!?"
"Ha, even though people are serious. The same guy who can't read the air."
A healing magic bullet released at Decopin's command on his forehead strikes directly and gently reverses.
As he grinned bitterly and moaned his forehead, Rose was grinning as well.
"Has the foreground been long? … it's time to get down to business."
"... Yes"
Rose elbowed her desk and put her hands together.
I'm just a little nervous, too, but wait for the conversation to begin.
"... Nero Argens. When we talk about him, we also need to talk about why we founded the lifeguard."
"The reason this place was made..."
"First let's talk about when I was captain of the kingdom of Ringle"
Captain, I don't know how much of a position you have, but I know you're in a high position.
In the first place, there can't be a single soldier stopping this guy who is way out of his physical abilities but even his ability to judge the situation.
"Before the life-saving regiment was founded, I was captain of the kingdom of Ringle, and I led a small unit."
"Are its constituents… the thongs?"
"No, they were my men before those guys. It's a unit of problematic children I've gathered from hand to hand. With the exception of me, there were only seven of them, but their strength was origami, and they were just as defenceless in a mass battle."
I kind of feel like a member of the life-saving corps right now.
Especially around that it was made up of problematic children.
Besides, Rose is guaranteeing strength, which means he's quite capable.
Having taken a considerable interest in my former men, I decided to ask them questions as soon as I was interested.
"What are they doing now?"
"He's dead. Before the battle against the Demon King starts."
"... eh?"
"Never mind. I dare you to keep your mouth shut. Of course you don't."
The people who used to be Rose's men.
Those people are no longer in the world. I could immediately guess what that meant. I embarrass myself with questions that were too inexplicable because I could observe them.
To my careless words, she goes on to utter words without looking particularly concerned.
"They don't always act decent. I had problems everywhere, so I dragged him from hand to hand and coached him."
"That's not different from the current life-saving regiment..."
"Not at all. Looking at you reminds me of those people who make it."
Why am I the only one...?
Somewhere, I feel like there's a part of me that goes by with the people who were Rose's men.
If those people were alive, they might have been willing to... If I could, I wanted to talk to you.
"... Fortunately, we have plenty of time. I'll tell you about them."
"Are you okay? It's a hard story for the captain..."
"I don't need weird care. Besides, telling you about them... is what I need to know."
One by one, Rose began to tell me stories about his men who had once led him on what he had in mind for me.
Rose's men are different now.
They spoke exactly of a mass of individuality.
Instead, the poorer I was, the stronger I thought they were, except for their appearance, the stronger they were.
I often wondered if these people were grouped into one unit, only for a moment, but I remembered that its captain was Rose, and that question was immediately dispelled.
But while I was surprised, Rose's expression about them seemed somewhere fun.
"Seventh person... right. This guy looks like you."
"What, to me?"
"Sex is a woman."
I feel more like I have emotions caged in Rose's words than I do without a heart or referrals from others.
Is he that memorable?
"His name is Aur, and he's my deputy."
"Mr. Aur, is it?"
"You were about the same age as you. He was bright as a fool, and he had no less mouth. He was a businessman."
Other than that, I feel like they say I'm busy because I can't keep my mouth down...
No, Rose. Though I'm aware that my opponent doesn't lose his mouth.
"I hated losing, and it was Aur who bit me no matter how much I was"
"Uh, you do look like me."
"Wouldn't you?"
I hate losing the only deal except for my healing magic.
I'm sure both Mr. Aur and Rose made it through the thought of 'Is it something I'll definitely give in to you' or 'Will I ever lose!' during their training.
"But on the other hand, he had the spiritual strength to keep looking forward without bracing at all times."
"At what time..."
"Even in situations where everyone breaks their heart, Aur can turn forward without bracing. It's also a dangerous part, but his spiritual strength, not desperate but even forward, energizes his people"
Just positive even.
Simply put, this is the case, but I think it's very amazing to be able to stay in any situation without a rash.
Not giving up is one force.
If only one person tries to move forward without stopping their legs, those around them who were desperate are also sensed and stand up to be thrust in motion.
A man named Aur must be someone who has the power to poke and move around like that.
"If we're gonna be honest, there were times when I superimposed you with Aur. That's what happened when I appointed him vice president."
"Uh, because Mr. Aur is the deputy captain and I'm the deputy captain..."
"It was pretty much the same thing we were doing. I don't care how many times you bust me, I don't care how many times you eat me and hang me up, or how much you talk to me and my people."
When I ask from the side, I sound like a strong and disrespectful person being hit...
Rose speaks like a pioneer, but she seems to miss it somewhere.
"These are the men I was leading."
"Somehow, that's awesome. You've been leading dark people in many ways since before the life-saving corps was created."
"That's still the same. And half of them are like you brought them here."
Uh, are you talking about Nack and the Ferms?
Sure, they're like I brought them here.
I can't talk about people either, so I laugh. [M]
"--So, yeah. I told my former men for a reason."
"Why?"
"Let's talk about it now. the cause with Nero Argens and why the Lifeguard Corps was to be created…"
I heard about Rose's former men, but still, I don't know much about this guy.
Understanding it again, I focused so that I didn't miss a word of her.