Now, I get it.
Why have I been upset lately? That was anger at the irrationality of the world that I didn't think it would be.
But I have no choice. I'm special. The intruder comes from the other side. So there's no need to get upset. All the interrupters have to kick and step down.
It is beyond that that there is freedom.
Yes, this is a process. To make me the freest adventurer in the world. If you turn off all the people who interfere with my freedom, you can be nature and me the freest adventurer in the world.
If you think about it, there will be no wonder and anger about Kraken, about yesterday, about this cow.
"Lord Ray, you're brilliant!
Look, I knew I was awesome. If you're an adventurer, it's not weird if you're S-rank certified. Mr. Lena recognizes my prowess.
Besides, I've been special since before I was born. Nord brought me to this world many times, and he also made me reincarnate. Likewise, Arsh, who was reincarnated, did not deal with him.
I'm the most special person in the world.
"Pi" (Haku wanted to do it too)
"Ha, bad bad. I'll let Haku do it next time."
Haku seemed dissatisfied with what I had done alone. The next time a demon comes out, let Haku deal with him.
"Ray, it's too unscrupulous. I didn't have to bother to get attacked with it..."
"This is faster and easier, okay? There's no way I'm gonna lose every S-level."
"What...?
Charstena kept her mouth small and solidified as she was surprised.
…… Hey, what's up?
"Ugh, yeah, it's nothing..."
Charstena with a gradual drop of voice.
Is something wrong? Did I say something strange?
No, I shouldn't have said anything weird...
"Ray, Saila fell asleep, so we're going to the next city soon? Because I'd like to give you a break at the inn if I could."
"What? You've already fallen asleep? I wonder if you stayed up late last night."
It's only morning...
Sleep twice?
"Well, yeah. Mr. Lena, I'm sorry, but we're in a hurry, so I'm gonna go."
"Really? Take care. I hope he helps."
That's how we broke up with Mr. Lena. The bull's demon stone and material were given to Mr. Lena. You'll need proof of your crusade, and I'm in trouble with the money, but it's not enough, so I reluctantly left it at Mr. Lena's feet not to receive it. I wouldn't leave it like that.
"Mr. Lena, you were aware of Sarah's illness."
"Isn't that because you said yesterday you wanted the Shizuku of the World Tree?
"Oh, I see."
Me and Charstena exchanged mouths from time to time and went for the city, as Haku and I started sleeping on my head when I was stuck with Big Sarah.
A month was about to pass since I came to this continent. There has been a really peaceful day since the case of the genus cow. Wake up in the morning and go for the world tree. If there is a city or village, we rest in the inn, and when Charstena's opinion makes us camp, we magically make a simple house and sleep there.
I left all the demons to Haku and Saira, and I didn't get my hands on them. You don't have to bother with the mutton fish.
It was us who kept traveling smoothly that way, but Saila's sleeping aids have been terrible lately. You spoiled it too much, you started sleeping almost all day, just like Haku. Maybe there are some negative effects of haku.
Shut up because Shurstena doesn't say anything loud about lifestyles and stuff around there, but maybe it's time to stop spoiling it.
"You've been getting hot lately."
"Well, I guess it's because summer is near. Is it time for the rainy season?
Walking recently made me sweat. Walking close to the basic meadows would be one reason why the sunlight falls straight down, but I feel the temperature itself is rising.
The season is about to change. The rainy season is approaching.
"Rainy days are tough, aren't they? You can't get Saila wet..."
Yes, it is. If Sarah catches a cold, it's important. In order not to do so, we have to magically avoid rain alternating with Charstena. You're exhausted.
"When the rainy season breaks, we'll have to pay attention to the sunlight this time."
"Right. I don't want to go too black."
He was walking around the city at dusk searching for suitable accommodation while having an unreserved conversation like that.
Then suddenly, a man popped out in front of me. I almost bumped into him, but the man fell like he was stuck in something. And I held my shoulder down and hurt myself purposefully and aloud.
"Hey, hey."
"Hey, are you okay? ⁉"
The gentle Charstena immediately worried about the man and ran over. Meanwhile, I was staring at the man with cold eyes.
Do you have a sore shoulder that you didn't even hit before you fell to the ground?
"Hey, come to Cora! My partner got hurt because of you! How do you put it on? I have cancer.
A man followed by a badly gutted man who came out of the alley stared at me as he drowned his cancer.
"You just let the guy there roll on his own. I didn't do anything because I avoided it."
I thought it would be futile anyway, but I tried to tell you the facts for once.
"That's not happening! Your partner's hurt because of you! That's the truth! What I'm asking you is, how can you drop it? ⁉"
It was pointless as I thought. But now it's clear.
These guys are enemies who get in my way. The enemy...
"Tell me what you want."
That's what I said. The man who's been grabbing his chest up. Look at that. Charstena tries to get in the stop.
"Stop! Ray didn't do anything! If this guy got hurt, I'll fix it, so stop it!
"Ah? The woman shuts up..."
Look at Charstena in the stop. The man lifts his lid and laughs niggly. It was an inferior grin. It was a sneering grin about what the man was thinking, but the man stuck it in Charstena without breaking it down.
"Well, it seems like you stay here and leave your partner injured and not drop me. I'll have you drop it."
That's what I say, a man tries to reach out to Charstena dirty. I glanced at the man with a cold gaze and grabbed his hand.
"Ah ⁉ Temeh, I'm interrupting." Cocksucker. "
I heard a dull noise. The man suppresses the hand that was grabbed by me and screams. In the meantime, a man who was suppressing his shoulders and pretending to be injured stood up in anger.
Temeh, what the hell?
With that said, I take bash with one hand the fist of a man who's been beating me up in the hair all the time.
"Has the injury healed? See?"
"Ulse, Temeh, shut up and leave the money and the woman alone." That would have left me without a painful look. Oh, come on! 'Cockroach' on that body for hurting my partner. Guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu; "
I had already used it on a man who whispered his soul and guts out loud, and I snapped that arm. You're wasting your mouth.
Because you don't have much strength, but you slap such a waste of your mouth. These people don't add up to my freedom.
... No, it's not.
This is fine. Garbage is garbage. But these guys are resource garbage. I'll still let you live like I used it.
"Here, I'll give it to you. Millions of ruts."
I won't let Charstena get her hands on me, but if you want so much money, I'll give it to you.
"Grr."
Each of the men reaches for the gold I gave them, while keeping their broken arms in check. I put it in a bag. I threw it at the men's feet. And
"But don't be too expensive as a consolation. Do a million. You guys don't have any more complaints about playing with your bodies, do you?
"Hi, hi, no."
"No, please don't."
The two pulled in their outstretched hands and lowered their heads to beg for their lives as they trembled. But that's no reason for me to stop it.
I walked deliberately to make a noise, and as I moved to the front of the men's heads, I raised my legs wide to show off.
- Show me.
"Ray, Ray ⁉"
Seeing it, Charstena raised her voice like she was in a panic. But I ignored it and stepped on the man's head as much as I could.
"... ahh"
"Hih!"
One man's head plunges into the ground and groans. Look at that, the other guy screams small and tugs his hips back.
"No, no, no, no, no."
He reached out to stop me. He kicked up a man's belly before Charstena could reach him. The man clashes against the walls of the private house with a curved hand, spitting blood and falling.
We're both freaking out and cramped, and we're not sure if we're still conscious.
Miscellaneous fish.
That was a terribly cold voice. The eyes that looked at the two chimps were also cold as they looked at the garbage.
I look back and tell Charstena nothing happened.
"Let's go, Shall"
"Ma, wait! Take those two..."
"You don't have to. They tried to threaten the money by pretending to be injured. It's just that I got really hurt and got paid. You can leave me alone."
I did the money. After that, you can treat it with that money or whatever. I didn't kill him.
"Ho, are you serious...?
"Seriously. They're not busy anyway. These guys have decided to do the same thing besides us and threaten the money. You don't have to be sympathetic because they did it the other way around."
Then I can't get through. If we're going to do it, we should be prepared to be hit back. Above all, you got in my way. You deserve to be rewarded.
"... right. I guess what Ray's saying isn't wrong. But I can't do it. At least let me treat you."
Charstena seemed to convince me of my point. But still, she can't let these two go.
"Charles is so sweet. Fine. You can do what you want."
"... thanks"
I don't know what to do.
I always do. I can't keep picking the right path like that guy. Always lost, lost, lost, chosen.
That's why it's too late. Always...
I'm still lost.
I don't know what to do best for him. I'm afraid I'll choose the wrong path.
But we have to do something.
That's all I know. Something's wrong.
I wouldn't have done this before. I would have threatened not to do that again.
But I never raised my hand against a frightened opponent. I've hurt people so thoroughly so far, I wasn't the kind of person who didn't think anything of it.
Ray is weird. Like someone else.
I think something Ray's trying to go in the wrong direction.
In retrospect, there were many discomforts. Lately, that time Ray said it was every S grade. Ray would have seen it up there before. So I felt uncomfortable. But I reconsidered and convinced myself that this might already be the case for Ray.
Right before that, Ray was more prone to anger. I thought it was a period of rebellion, and I didn't think deeply about it, but maybe that was a precursor. It would be regrettable to think that I might have been able to prevent it if I had thought deeper then.
What's wrong, Ray...
Ray's rampage can't stop.
In this world, where security became so insecure that it moved away from the basic large cities, security deteriorated to the point where it approached the world tree, also known as the secret border.
More and more people get tangled up in bad galas for that matter, and every time Ray does too much.
I don't mind opponents like the two men in the meantime. But when you're a little strong or a group, it's a big deal.
Bandits attacked me before. One mountain disappeared as a result. Demons and flora and fauna burned everything down just because the bandits were turning it into a root castle.
Ray cut off his opponent's hand when he was tangled up by some other slightly stronger gala bad guys in the city, relentlessly bumping his opponent crying out of pain.
That's when Ray has very cold eyes. He has those eyes that only see them as trash, like he sees a bug.
I'm totally different now. I don't know how this happened to Ray.
Usually nothing changes. You treat us as kindly as you did before, and you rarely feel strange when you're having a conversation.
But once someone gets stuck in front of Ray, it gets cold as soon as possible. To be honest, Ray is scared then.
I tried many times to stop it. I gave Ray my opinion that it was too much. But every time, Ray insists on legitimacy.
Surely what Ray is saying is not a mistake. Wrong is the other guy, and Ray and we are both victims.
But I didn't want Ray to have those cold eyes.
I wanted him to look like he was having fun as usual.
I wanted you to laugh as you fought like before.
We have to stop it.
If Ray went the wrong way, I'd have to pull him back the way he came.
Like he did to me, now I lead Ray. That's what you decided.
Even if they don't like it, they definitely need to stop.
"Ray, please! No more!
Before the man who suppresses and extinguishes my stomach, I decided to be ready and stuck.
"Shull, get out of the way"
"I'm not going anywhere. This is too much. You don't have to go this far."
No more wars, no more malice against them. All there is is is fear.
There's nowhere else I need to do this.
But Ray won't stop. Use your powers as if to show off. He also seems to remember something pleasant about it.
"Will Shull get in my way, too?
Those Ray's eyes were cold and seemed sad.
"Well, I don't want to interrupt. I just don't want you to overdo it. If we stay like this, one day Ray will kill people."
This is the world. One day Ray will kill people too. But I don't want you to kill me without darkness. If we do that, we'll just be murderers.
I didn't want you to be like that.
But Ray doesn't change his cold gaze...
"What's wrong with killing the guy who interrupts you?
I was stunned. I don't think that's the word out of Ray's mouth. I was surprised that I had changed my mind so much.
"... I don't want you to kill me."
It was pitiful and regrettable that I had no other means of convincing Ray than to appeal to such psychology. I didn't know how to stop Ray anymore.
"Ugh... is that it? You got to the city?
Saila woke up sleeping on Huck's back looking worried about me and Ray. And he looked around to make sure it wasn't outside the city.
"Hmm? Did you wake up, Saila? You slept a lot today."
"Yeah. Sleepy. Ray, what's Brother and Sister Charles doing?
"Kind of. There were bad guys and they were punishing me."
Ray was receiving Saila's words without thinking deeply.
Saila's health gets worse every day. Ray said he was just a sleeping assistant or something, but that's not true. It's hard for Sarah to just be awake normally already.
In Ray's story, life expectancy ranges from one to two years from the day she met Saila. So Ray's trying to get to the World Tree within a year. But I haven't felt like I could make it with that lately.
One more year means he dies in a year. So by then, the body is approaching death over time. Yet it is more suspicious to let him travel and not have a shorter life expectancy.
Sarah is desperately trying to hide it as a child. If you look at her properly, you'll notice. Yet Ray doesn't notice at all. It's like I haven't seen her.
The truth is, if you haven't noticed, I know you should. But I didn't know at this time if I could tell Ray that right now.
In the end I couldn't help but feel sorry for myself that I couldn't do as well as he did.
Then the day a week went by. At last my worries became a reality.
That day we were finishing our itinerary today and eating in the city. It wasn't an extra beautiful store, but the food was very tasty. There was always a ray there, enjoying a lively meal, cooking with Huck and me stopping it and splitting my share.
I may have lost a bit of my mind when I got to the world tree just a few moments away. This past month I've been worried about Saila getting pale day by day and I've been thinking about how to stop Ray's rampage beside her.
So maybe I was losing my mind as I approached the world tree.
I didn't realize that day that Sarah was in the worst shape ever.
Batang!
"Se, saila ⁉"
Suddenly, I fell to the floor making sure that Saila collapsed out of her chair. Too suddenly, my reaction was delayed, as did Ray and Huck.
"Whoa, what's up, Saila? ⁉R"
"Let me see it!
Ray woke up holding Saila in a hurry. From the side of it I magically examined Saila's body.
This is...
"Ray, get Saila to the inn quickly!
"Okay!
Ray carries Saila, and we hurry back to the inn. And if I put him to bed in the inn's cot right away, I magically do first aid.
But it would hardly make sense. Disease is not like injury. Saila's body had been invaded to a deep place that could not be treated by magic.
"Charles, what do you think? Are you all right now?
"... yeah. It's the limit. If you're going to judge me as a healer... it's dangerous to move me out of this bet anymore"
"Wait a minute, Shall. Dragon God said you have a month to live, right? It must be a mistake."
Ray knows nothing. Injury and sickness are completely separate things.
Let's talk.
Now, if we don't talk, I'm sure Ray won't notice a mistake. They don't try to notice me.
"... people don't die suddenly because they're sick. We're getting closer to death. Besides, I've made it impossible for Saila to travel this far. You could have a shorter life span."
".................. that can't be right. The dragon god was lying. You're such a lousy liar."
Even though there's no point in lying like that anywhere else, Ray hits the wall eight times, just like Dragon God says it's all bad.
"No, I'm not. Ray made a mistake."
Ray wasn't the only one who made a mistake. Me too, no. Haku and the Gilks are bad.
Ray's decision to lighten the blame for taking her out tormented her. That's not a mistake.
But none of us could stop Ray. Maybe I was hoping somewhere that Ray would come up with a way to help her without any clapping.
No one could say it strongly.
Indeed, Ray's contemplated journey was much faster and more efficient than normal. So I could have been here less than six months ago.
But that was it.
If I had listened to Ray's thoughts earlier, I could have said it strongly. They might have figured out another way.
But that's too late.
None of us could stop it. So this is also our fault.
But I know that. Reflect, then let it live.
... I have to say it. If you think I'm wrong, you have to say it strongly.
That's what I learned. So I won't pull any more. Even if they don't like it, if they find it scarier than anything else, if they don't say it clearly, it won't tell them halfway through.
"Me? That's not true. If I hadn't moved, Sarah wouldn't have helped. I couldn't have gotten to a point where I could have been more helpful."
But that's not all Ray understood. Have you not received my voice, or just claim my own legitimacy?
I was both sad and anxious about it.
"Surely Ray was right, without Ray, there was no way Sayla could have gotten this far. But if Ray had stopped competing in the militant tournament, Saila would have been saved without so much suffering. This was Ray's decision."
"... it could indeed be. But Saila will definitely help. I don't care about this degree of failure. There's no way Saila can't help you with me."
I felt my feelings arrive just a little bit. But that was really just a little bit, something like that that didn't get to the deep end.
"All right, let's evolve Sarah here and now"
The color of reflection was not dusty from Ray, who moved lightly to the next measure. I only got a little angry with Ray like that.
"... how can you do that?"
But I didn't put that on the table, and I denied Ray's proposal. There's no way she can fight demons any more. And yet if you're trying to make me impotent, I seriously scold Ray.
I was going to.
But Ray spoke of a worse and worst proposal than that.
Raise the corner of your mouth and start bragging about it somewhere, Ray. It was as if I was intoxicated by myself for coming up with the proposal.
"I can do it. Use the Evil God crystal I have."
I thought my ears went crazy. But what was going crazy was Ray moving his mouth without even thinking deeply about what it was like in front of him.
"So give Sera the protection of the evil god..." "Batin '"
I would have slapped Ray in the face if I had noticed. Gin and palms have heat.
"... Huh?
Ray putting his hand on the reddish cheek. I look back at you like I just can't believe it.
The hand that slapped Ray to leave the anger to him was trembling in small pieces. He clenched his hand in a good way to hide it and spoke out to squeeze it out.
"You suck... you suck, Ray"
That's all, the only way, I couldn't forgive. I couldn't stand it enough to get my hands on it...
Because I knew what would happen. Even a mild joke was an unforgivable word.
The most unforgivable thing was that Ray, the rebirth of that man, spoke of it.
He said he gave his life to stop that tragedy...