Elizabeth's out of love.

later

Eliza what's going on?
What do you mean by that?
Why did you marry Master Victor and not have the same old smile?
'Your Highness Albert, I'd appreciate it if you'd stop calling my wife by her nickname.
"!　........oh, my apologies.
I've heard that it's almost decided that she's going to be a side princess.
I thought that if I were to take Alice, I would need someone to perform the duties of a queen instead. As I had originally predicted, that would be Lady Johanna, and I felt guilty when I actually saw her face to face with the aftermath of what I had planned to do in this way. It's a relief that she's truly happy about this marriage and enjoys being a queen, saying that she doesn't need romance, but enjoys being a queen and playing an arm's length role in diplomacy and charity.
Alice has insisted from the beginning that "receiving favors is what I am supposed to do," and Lady Johanna has done all the political work, diplomacy, and various tasks as the Crown Princess that she has deemed unpalatable.
She didn't want to be at a wedding in such a remote area. Had I known the bride's name, I might have attended, even if I had to pretend to be happy to show me the man I had robbed so long ago. Oh, but I'm now adopted by my grandparents and my family name and middle name have been changed, so my uninformed half-sister might not have recognized me when she saw me.
Nowadays, the nobles know the real story of how Alice became Albert's legitimate queen by whatever means she used, and why she decided to welcome such a criminal to the royal family in the face of the neighboring country.
The actual Alice had played the role of "Prince Albert's favorite woman" so enthusiastically under my guidance, but it seems that her true nature, which she can no longer mend, can no longer be hidden. At that time, you said "I want to marry His Royal Highness Prince Albert no matter what," but now you are living in tears because of the loveless marriage that you got, "It wasn't supposed to be like this.
The daughter that was conceived and born after that one time is said to be useless and does not even try to take care of her from the moment she realized that Albert's feelings are not for her. Stupid woman, she may not be the love of her life, but she could have been a family one day.
Still, would it be better than the gentle abuse and reproduction of a tyrant like my mother-in-law and her family, who would do whatever she wanted and continue to dote on her like a pet?
''Well the Countess of the Frontier Nix has changed a lot since she was my fiancée........''
It's selfish and self-serving to be called that in a resentful way, and I almost get angry. I was forced to live in poverty because of you. Now, as much as I loved you, I've turned it into hatred.
I've put up with enough. I put up with a lot of things I wanted to do, and a lot of things I loved to do. In my personal life, I lived a cramped life where the way I carried my fingers and even the smallest of words was watched. All for the sole purpose of becoming His Royal Highness Albert's fiancée.
I have nothing against him. Nor do I believe that His Royal Highness Prince Albert should live a life as inconvenient as mine. I didn't expect an apology for my efforts, nor did I want his thanks. ...because I liked Al. I was willing and able to make the effort to stand next to him.
I knew you didn't like my behavior based on my queenly upbringing. I liked it. It's just that they made fun of me without understanding cause and effect, and the thread that held up the love for Al in me was snapped at that moment.
Some people might call me a heartless person. You can say what you want, and then you can continue to love the person you love, no matter how they treat you or what position they put you in.　I couldn't do it, that's all.
I have nothing to put up with now. Sometimes I'm allowed to stand at the front of the store, doing a business that I couldn't do for fear of being accused of not being a lady in a frontier aunt's house. The last time I was there, I even ran around in the garden with Master Victor's dog, getting dirty like when I was a kid. No one here denies the original me. Do you know how free the previous frontier count and his wife would be if I told you that they are now two adventurers who want to enjoy the rest of their lives?
That life was nothing but cramped, but I had the responsibility of being the next queen, so I acted perfectly as His Highness Albert's fiancée.

If only she had stuck to the words I had repeatedly warned her about, she wouldn't have been drugged by Alice and dragged into a private room. I wonder if she thought that because she had a maid of honor and an escort, we wouldn't be alone?
But Alice's fine arms can't make her take off Prince Albert's clothes, and the noblewoman's corset isn't made to be put on and off by herself. My mother-in-law's breathtaking bodyguard and maid of honor would have been the executor. You should have known this would happen, since you entered the predator's waiting nest all by yourself.

Eliza what's going on?

What do you mean by that?

I don't know why you married Lady Victor and didn't you have the same old smile.

'Your Highness Albert, I'd appreciate it if you'd stop calling my wife by her nickname.

"!　........oh, my apologies.

I've heard that it's almost decided that she's going to be a side princess.

I knew that if I had to take Alice, I would need someone to perform my duties as queen instead. As I had originally expected, it became Lady Johanna, and I felt guilty when I actually came face to face with her in the aftermath of what I had planned to do in this way. It's a relief that she's truly happy about this marriage and enjoys being a queen, saying that she doesn't need romance, but enjoys being able to use her skills in diplomacy and charity work.

From the beginning, Alice insists that "receiving favors is what I do," and Lady Johanna does all the political work, diplomacy, and various tasks as the Crown Princess that she decides she doesn't want to do.

He didn't want to be at a wedding in this remote area. If I had known the bride's name, though, I would have attended, even if I had to pretend to be happy to show me the man I stole from so long ago. Oh, but I'm now adopted by my grandparents and my family name and middle name have changed, so my uninformed half-sister probably wouldn't have recognized me when she saw me.

Nowadays, the aristocrats know the real story of how Alice became Albert's consort, and why she decided to welcome such a criminal to the royal family in the face of the neighboring country.

Alice, who had played the role of "His Royal Highness Prince Albert's Favorite Woman" so enthusiastically under my guidance, could no longer hide her true nature, which she could no longer mend. At the time, she said she wanted to marry His Royal Highness Prince Albert no matter what, but now she seems to be living in tears because of the loveless marriage she has obtained, saying, "It wasn't supposed to be like this.

The daughter who was conceived and born after that one time is said to be useless and won't even take care of her from the moment she realizes that Albert's feelings are not for her. Stupid woman, she may not have been the love of her life, but she could have been a family one day.

Still, is it better than my mother-in-law and her parents' family, who get everything they want and continue to dote on them like pets, gently abusing them and reproducing tyrants?

'Well the Countess of the Frontier Nix has changed a lot since she was my fiancée.......'

It's selfish and self-serving to be called that in a resentful manner, and I almost feel angry. I was forced to live a cramped life because of you. Now, as much as I loved you, I've turned it into hatred.

I had been patient enough. I put up with a lot of things I wanted to do, and a lot of things I loved to do. In my personal life, I was living a cramped life where the way I carried my fingers and even the smallest of words was watched. All for the sole purpose of becoming His Royal Highness Albert's fiancée.

I don't hold a grudge against you. Nor do I believe that His Highness Albert should be as inconvenienced as I am. I didn't expect an apology for my efforts, nor did I want his thanks. ...because I liked Al. I was willing and able to make the effort to stand next to him.

I knew he didn't like my behavior based on the queen's education. It was still good. It's just that they made fun of me without understanding cause and effect, and the thread that held up the love for Al in me was snapped at that moment.

Some people may call me a thin-skinned person. You can say what you want, and then you can continue to love the person you love no matter how they treat you or what position they put you in, right?　I couldn't do it, that's all.

There is nothing to put up with now. Sometimes I'm allowed to stand in front of the shop, doing a business that I couldn't do for fear of being accused of not being a lady in a frontier aunt's house. The other day I even ran around in the garden, dirty as a child, with Master Victor's dog. No one here denies the original me. Do you know how much more freedom I would have if I told you that the previous frontier count and his wife are now two adventurers who want to enjoy the rest of their lives?

That life was nothing but cramped, but I had the responsibility of being the next queen, so I behaved perfectly as His Royal Highness Prince Albert's fiancée.

If only I had kept my words of advice, which I had warned you about many times, Alice wouldn't have drugged me and dragged me into a private room. Did she think that because she had a maid of honor and a bodyguard, we wouldn't be alone?

But Alice's fine arms can't make her take off Prince Albert's clothes, and the noblewoman's corset isn't made to be put on and off by herself. My mother-in-law's breathless bodyguard and maid of honor would have been the executor. You should have known this would happen, since you entered the predator's waiting nest all by yourself.

He was shielded from diplomatic relations, and our king had no choice but to accept the gift offered by the king of the neighboring country as a wedding gift. Wouldn't that be nice?　This one produced a greater national interest.

And so, instead of Alice, I was annulled from my engagement and married off to Master Victor, who was seven years older than me.

But I didn't marry him out of necessity. I thought that Victor-sama, who never once spoke ill of his wife, who ran away from him for a man even though she married him for political reasons, would be able to build a relationship of trust with him, and I gladly took his hand.

........although I was very surprised to receive a letter from Victor-sama before I contacted him via your grandfather.

I met Victor-sama at my grandparents' in the estate. At that time, we called him Brother Victor, and His Highness Albert looked up to him like his own brother.

Naturally, he knew my tomboyishness. I was trying to keep my true self to myself and act like a lady, but he said I must have worked very hard to become a wonderful lady, and that he loved me just as much as I did then as I do now, and that I was just as pretty as I am now.

I hadn't been called pretty since I was a child by Prince Albert and his brother. I hadn't been treated like a girl in a long time, and at that time I couldn't help but feel my face heat up.

At first I was going to guess, but Victor-sama was too nice and I fell in love with him again, and I have no plans to have that kind of time in the future.

After greeting to excuse His Highness, I call out to Victor-sama in a position where His Highness Albert can hear me. I looked up at Victor-sama with a big smile that would be considered "trivial" in a queen's education. Out of the corner of my eye I saw His Royal Highness Albert gasp as he saw my expression, a remnant of the first love he loved, but I didn't care.

'The song is about to start, Master Victor, would you like to dance?'

Oh, my God, I can't wait to dance with my little Ellie.

To be asked to dance by a lady, in the days of her queen's education, she would have been made to write down the Lady's Manners Book from the beginning three times. Lady Johanna would have raised her eyebrows in surprise. But this is how I am by nature. In the frontier, this much is permissible, I want to enjoy this time in a way that doesn't violate my manners. Naturally, Victor and I acted exactly like ladies and gentlemen when we went to greet our parental guardians who united the frontier in the royal capital, but of course, Victor and I behaved wonderfully and exactly like ladies and gentlemen.

But this is my wedding day.

"Ellie.

Master Victor, what's wrong?

You want me to call you like always?

"...I'm so embarrassed to be here in public...

Ellie, I want to feel you in love with me now.

Oh, my God, Vee...

As I spun around, I smiled in the arms of Victor-sama's ... vee as I flipped on the bridal gown I had made for the day. Surrounded by guests congratulating us, he said, "Tomorrow we'll take it easy until noon and then we'll go for a picnic in the garden. I'll make light refreshments," she says with a sunny smile, and I laugh along with her.

After the party was over, Vee's brother, who was attending the party as a relative, came over to me and told me in a whisper so that Vee wouldn't hear him.

'Albert, you were crying,'

So what?　And. Thinking that, I moved away from my brother, who invited me to the balcony where His Highness seemed to be.

I'm sure His Highness Albert must have fallen for me because it was convenient for him. He just liked the special me, who was like a boy - a special girl who could think and play from the same perspective as His Highness Albert, who was a boy, and who was as carefree as a male friend, but a pretty girl.

The proof of this was that I was no longer desirable to His Highness Albert....I was no longer able to behave in a convenient manner, and I became marginalized. Even though nothing has changed inside me.

When will the man realize that, as the next king, "a vivacious and cheerful girl he knew from childhood" could not stand up to the woman standing next to him? Or if he wanted another one of Prince Albert's favorite and slightly more tomboyish girls by his side? She would be made to behave in a manner suitable for His Highness' service, and she would not be His Highness' favorite. As I did in the past.

It's over.

No apologies to Alice for using it. Because the girl missed His Highness Prince Albert so much that she was persistently harassing me as if I were a villain in a novel. You didn't fit into the cute little thing called "harassment" and wished I wasn't there. Not once or twice had I had an attempt on my life, and although it wasn't clear, perhaps even that was at the hands of a neighboring country.

I don't care if he resented me for having been born in exchange for your mother's life, or if he didn't protect me well. He avoided me because he thought it would be too painful to see me grow up to be just like his mother, and I don't even remember treating him as a family member.

Wedding Night. The little girl in me, trapped in Vee's arms, mourning her own first love. A small bouquet of wild flowers given to me by His Highness Albert for the first time.