Eternal Log

Episode 194: Events in Pope Lars, Part 57

"Hey, Hal."

"Hmm?"

Roy and I spoke out on our way to Bishop Abram's body.

"Are you all right? You look like you've got a lot in mind..."

Apparently, Roy is worried about me.

I'm thinking... if you say so, you will.

Why didn't Mayfa, who had nothing to do with it, couldn't save Mayfa, and what I did wasn't wrong... thinking or thinking is not the answer.

If you think about it, you don't know if subsequent developments will carry it as you imagined, and vice versa, sometimes the worst.

I can't help thinking about it...

But I couldn't help thinking.

"Oh, well, hey... But I'm fine."

I answer honestly without denying.

"Right..."

Roy didn't hear deeply when he said that.

"Will's guy is amazing."

Instead, Roy said something about Will.

"Right. He's more solid than I thought."

I really do.

Will is a solid guy.

"Hey Hal, I can't tell you in front of him, but I honestly think he has less power to fight now than we do. But he's trying to be strong by accepting it"

"Right."

"I couldn't accept that reality when I lost last time (...). It's hard to accept that reality right away when something bad happens to me."

I do think so.

When the village was raided by a dragon and Ji Shanba died, so was when I found out about my past.

It was hard to accept right away.

"But Will isn't. Whatever hard is going on, we are moving forward in accepting the reality right in front of us.... he's really awesome."

That's right.

Will is moving forward in accepting the reality in front of Mayfa, both when she defeats us and when she dies.

"... Will's a really awesome guy"

"We can't lose, either. I don't know what lies ahead. But I need to feel strong about accepting it."

Roy is right.

I don't know what lies ahead.

Still, we have to move forward, and even if we just look behind us and look away from the reality in front of us, it will cause further damage.

"Right! Thanks, Roy!

"Not enough to thank you. Well, you owed me back, didn't you?

You owe me?

Oh, that was before.

"Plus, Will's been noticeable lately. We'll have to hold on to Will sometime, because he might start partitioning."

Roy shall raise his mouth angle and nibble.

I guess Roy is trying to cheer up my feelings.

"Right! We have to stick together!

"That's right. I mean, it's just as hard as it gets."

"Hey, what!?

"Look, we're all waiting, so let's go!

"Just say... hey!

I accept Mayfa's death and move forward.

I don't know what lies ahead but don't let this sad thing happen... I think Mayfa would like that too.

Mayfa......

I swore to her in my heart and followed Roy.