Faithful to Buddha, Faithful to You

Chapter 49 Breaking Up When It's Most Beautiful

“Ai Qing, how can there be women like you in the world when you are smart, happy, kind, and so many incredible things? Rosh has thought you were a fairy since he was 13. This time you showed up, when Rosh was forced to break the precept. Rosh thinks you were sent by the Buddha to help me with the robbery. So I'm hanging out with you day after day, even though it's a broken ring, but I'm still comforted. As you were sent by the Buddha, Rosh let go of all concerns and left no obstacles. ”

He still turned his back on me, his thin shoulders trembled slightly, paused for a long time before continuing: “But you told me that you were not a fairy. Everything's a mystery because you're from the future. You were an ordinary woman, not a Buddha disciple. Well, Rosh broke the precept for the first time, and there's nothing he can do. A later breaking of the precept was a breaking practice. For such sin, the Buddha will surely be angry, and Rosh will bow to * * and repent. ”

It was like being stung, all numb instantly. I can't believe he said that, staring at his long back and forgetting to cry. “Rosh, do you regret having the most intimate relationship with me? You hug me every night because you think I'm a fairy under the Buddha, so do you feel comfortable? Now that I've told you I'm an ordinary woman, don't you love me anymore? ”

“Roshburn turned to Buddha with all his heart and without desire. But he was blindfolded, and he had flesh with you. How can you let Rosh give up the Buddha? Rosh will not be left again, and the rest of his life will be full of Buddha, no longer bewitched by beauty. For this sin of breaking the precept, Rosh can only repent for the remainder of his life. So go, Rosh won't leave with you...”

He struggled to climb up, fell and crashed into his face, pulled his sleeve and looked into his hidden eyes. “I don't believe it! You said that just to let me go, didn't you? ”

“Axel, thank you for telling me about the future and Rosh's mission.” He closed his eyes and murmured, "All the causes of suffering are based on greed; if greed is extinguished, nothing can stop. For the sake of extinction, practice in the way; and be free from the bondage of affliction. Ai Qing, you too are out of the misery. If it's fate, why struggle? ”

“Rosh, I just want to hear you say," Do you love me? ”

He opened his eyes and filled his face with endless sorrow, slowly saying: "Once upon a time, someone sinned and fled, and Wang heard the news and sent drunken elephants to pursue him. When he encountered a dead well, he threw himself into the well. Halfway down, I was fortunate enough to catch a dead grass growing up in the well, half suspended from the well wall. And there was a dragon at the bottom of the well, spitting poison at him. And beside him were five vipers who tried to harm him. And one of the black and white mice, biting the life-saving grass, was about to break. The fugitive tried to get out of the well, afraid of elephants treading, falling into the bottom of the well, afraid of poisonous dragons, trying not to climb, afraid of black and white mice biting off the grass, and poisonous snakes were on the sidelines. It just so happens that there's a big tree up there, a nest of bees, and a drop of honey falls when you collect it and falls right into its mouth. At this point, the prisoner felt sweet honey and forgot the fear of elephants, dragons, snakes and mice. ”

Deep shallow grey eyes flowed out of the hole to see all: “Ai Qing, this sinner is us, elephants are like uncertainty, white mice are more than day, black mice are more than night, this bush is our life, the dragon beneath the well is evil, the five venomous snakes are like our five treasures, and the honey on the tree is the joy of the five desires. Because of our greed, uncertainty, life, five generations, day and night are blinded by desire, so that we forget everything. ”

He sat down on the floor with his legs closed and no longer looked at me: "All Rosh has to do in the years to come is feed and rejoice, and meditate far more than the joy of the world's five desires. ”

“Stop... I'm leaving...”

I stood up and had no enthusiasm at all: "Since you will not come with me in any way, I will only add to your burden if I stay here. I go, if I go, you can practise Buddha's enlightenment with all your heart. If I go, you will feel no more guilt, then I go. ”

I put on my backpack, changed my black nightgown from modern times, stood at the door and looked at him still sitting there reading the scriptures. It was the middle of the night and the surrounding lights were extinguished, and only the skylight penetrated into the moon to shine his lonely back. He kept reading the scriptures, his lips clasped together and his voice softened, but on such a quiet night he added more than a few sorrows. He wouldn't go to sleep, he wouldn't open his eyes, he wouldn't say a word to me.

When I changed my clothes, I made up my mind to get out of this palace wall and do what. Rosh, you think fate because you know destiny is inviolable, but I'm different. I am from the 21st century, and I will never give up on you and my feelings easily. If you don't let me stay with you, I'll sneak up on you and keep you from knowing. If you're in trouble, I can still help. When you really don't need me anymore, I'll go.

“Rosh, I'm leaving. You have to remember to eat on time, and if you are in the sky these days, you have to continue translating the Buddha.” Wanted to tell him more, but found his nose sore again. Stop and calm down and swallow the tears back. I can't cry anymore, crying won't solve any problems.

He kept his eyes closed, and the twitching in the corner of his mouth no longer sounded like scripture. He looked up and the moonlight spilled on his carved face, as lonely and as clear as it was. “Ai Qing...” He finally opened his mouth and spoke like a thousand trenches, “Go back to your own time and forget everything here. To you, Rosh is nothing but a dead ancient man. ”

I bite my lips dead, I must not weep, I must not shed meaningless tears: “Everything can be done, such as a dream bubble shadow, such as dew or electricity, should be watched as such.” Knowing that he is closing his eyes or revealing that he most often makes fun of my signature silly smile: “Rosh, this is my favorite phrase in your translation of The Vajra. This is how we spent the month, dreaming of bubbles like morning mists and lightning speeds. The Buddhist family says that everything is for good, everything is for good and good, and that's what I do with you. But anyway, these days, I'm happy, thank you. ”

Without waiting for him to answer anything, he turned around and was afraid that hearing his voice would not make that determination. Walk into the courtyard and bathe in the desolate night. Hear the whispering behind you as if the night breeze had swept by: "There is a way, such as a dream bubble, such as dew or electricity, to behold. ”

Frasativo and his wife looked at me in black in a jacket with amazement. At this moment, my costume is no different than the Nightmartress on TV, except that NORTHFACE bag behind me is a little bit of a jerk. In the middle of the night, there was silence around me, and I knew I could not fail to ask when I rang the main entrance of the national division. If it hadn't been for Fursati, I wouldn't have caused him any trouble in his quiet life. Speaking briefly about his escape experience, he asked, “Fursati, will you go with the king to the Bird Leaving the Temple the day after tomorrow? ”

He nodded and his eyes were a little complicated. I stood up and begged, "Whatever you do, take me. ”

“Irene!” He jumped up and spoke harshly, "since you escaped, Lu Guang may be searching everywhere. At this time, you are not hiding well, and you have to go into danger. This is insane. ”

“Versativo, because of my escape, Lu Guangguang had no idea that I would dare to follow him to the Bird Leaving the Temple. So, the most dangerous place is the safest place. Besides, in Lu Guangguang's eyes, I'm just a woman who makes Rosh break the ring, not an important character. He may wonder what method I used to get away with it, but he's definitely not going to do anything about searching for an unnamed little pawn. ”

“Lu Guang doesn't necessarily think you're a nobody.” He stamped his head, "he sent so many beautiful women to his brother, but for so many days, he didn't touch anyone except you. Lu Guangyi said that if he wanted to harm you, he would immediately kill himself. Lu Guang is not stupid, of course he can guess how important you are to his brother. If he finds out, you're throwing yourself on the net. Are you gonna make it hard for him? ”

“Fursati, since I have the ability to escape and naturally have a way to protect myself, Lu Guang can't catch me. Instead, let me stay here and wait for the distant future, and I'll go crazy. Please, take me. All I have to do is look at him in secret. I will never lose my mind and cause you trouble.” His eyes were hot, he held fast, he swore to himself, and he would never shed useless tears.

“Irene, I'm not afraid of trouble. Even if I take you, what can you do?” His tone softened and he reached out to me, folding back halfway.

“I don't know what I can do for him, but I can't trust him. I just wanted to sneak by and hopefully at least give him some psychological comfort.” I look to Fursati, full of hope, and plead bitterly, "What would you do if Dawn and the child were in trouble? I hope you understand my mood. ”

His eyes seemed a little flimsy. He seemed to recall something from the past. A little sadness appeared on his face and he looked at me silently. Half a mile later, she sighed in the shadows: "Ai Qing, why are you still like 11 years ago...”

“Aiqing has such courage, so admirable, and the concubine begs her husband to help Aiqing.” His wife, who had been silent beside him, made a sudden noise and spoke to us in Chinese.

“Xiaoxuan...” Fushati looked at her with a bitter smile and spoke in Chinese.

“The concubine has also tasted love without suffering, deeply feels the girl's true love, so the husband becomes her and uncle's pair of bitter lovers. ”

“It's not that I won't. But how? Lu Guang and his nephews have seen her. What if she shows up? ”

“The concubine heard of this gift of Buddha, the king with the concubine, so it wouldn't be strange if the husband had family. Perhaps you'd like to have Miss Axel as your concubine.” She pondered slightly, measured me carefully, and turned her head to her husband, "The concubine married herself to her husband, rarely appeared, but all outsiders were known to be Chinese. The husband can tell people that the concubine herself has wanted to burn incense in the temple ever since Tintin for her husband's family. All you have to do is lie about your concubine contracting the cold and wear a veil. Aiqing's eyes are similar to those of a concubine, and her figure is similar. It would be perfect to dress as a concubine. Grandpa is a teacher, but who dares to lift the veil to find out? ”

That's a brilliant idea! I grabbed her hand with joy and sincere gratitude: "Great, thank you madam! ”

“Miss Ai Qing and our family are so deeply rooted that calling my wife again would seem insensitive. Maybe our sisters deserve it. The concubine is supposed to be the sister. Call Qing's sister. Do you mind?” Her soft voice is sincere and I have always been very fond of her, watching her help me so much and liking her more.

“Of course I don't mind. It would be a great honor to have a lady so brilliant and embroidered as a sister. It's just that we don't know who to call sister.” I'll be honest, "I'm 25 years old. ”

“Xiaoxuan, when it comes to age, you really want to call her sister. She's a year older than you.” Fursati laughed beside her.

“This, but my sister looks like she's only eighteen or nine years old, which is unexpected.” She lifted my hand, her upper and lower ends were detailed, and she sighed.

“She's got a lot of unexpected places. ”

I glanced at Fursati, and he laughed and said softly to his wife, “It's late, take Ai Qing to rest. Tomorrow we prepare for the day and the day after. ”

I slept in my room that night. Unexpectedly, everything was as it was, even the copybook of the bedside Fursativa. It's just a long time ago, the copybook was long yellow, and the twisted writing became blurred. I was looking at the copybooks with emotion, and suddenly I heard Dawn humming behind me. The familiar melody, albeit with a certain tone, is definitely "Kiss My Baby". Rin, look back at her.

“My husband loves to sing this song to get two kids to sleep.” She smiled, a pair of bright eyes, looking at me without shying away, seemed to be exploring my reaction. “My husband once asked me if I had this song, but my concubine was lonely and unheard of. ”

Turns out she still has this knot in her heart. “Xiaoxuan, I did sing this song. Both of their brothers have heard it.” Let's admit it honestly. “Years apart, those are just thoughts, and the key is what matters now. ”

“You and your two children are his relatives, and he wants to protect them most.” I grabbed her hand gently and sincerely said, "I also have the person I want most to protect. Ten years ago I lost my chance, and now I will never let go.” Looking up at the dark, dark night outside, it was a dark wound. “Unless, indeed, there is no need for me to exist in his life...”

Xiaoxuan walked away with a smile on his face. She should be able to relax, right? Sitting dead in bed for a long time, every drop of memory in this room comes to mind. It's been more than a decade, blinking like smoke. The reckless young man who was squatting in front of my bed every morning now has a wrinkle on his forehead and acts calm and steady.

I can't help but think of what their father said to me, that Fursati was responsible for her work, and that she was a little cynical when she was younger, and that she would naturally flatten out in the future. And Rosh, too smart to ever suffer. You think too much, but you never say anything. Such a person would be miserable for the rest of his life.

Bitter smile. More than a decade had passed, and the words of Haut-Morolitis attested to his concern. Rosh, how much boredom do you have in mind that you don't say? What are you doing now? Do you sit in the night sky staring at the stars like I do? I don't want to look at you when I leave, I'm afraid I won't walk hard. I'd like to understand what you're saying to get rid of me. You never said a word of love to me, but I know you've been in love with me since you picked up the pen and painted me. Not because I'm a fairy, not because the Buddha sent me, just because I'm the first and only woman to walk into your heart.

She sighed heavily and sighed out her chest. Actually, that's the only reason why I have to work so hard to convince myself. Otherwise, what excuse do I have to follow him invisibly?