Chapter 485: Miscarriage
Every man has his pride. Being cuckolded, or knowing his wife has another man in her heart, is the most unbearable thing.
With his earlier suspicions confirmed, Su Dan’s mind simply exploded.
He had already admitted he was wrong, but Qin Shanshan was relentless. She kept hitting him. He tried his best to endure it, but she just kept pushing, and now she wanted a divorce!
’Divorce, divorce, divorce... Doesn’t she just want a divorce so she can go find Tang Yuanxiao?’
How could Su Dan tolerate that!
He grabbed Qin Shanshan’s hand, snatched the photo from her, and slapped her across the face.
"You slut! Still thinking about Tang Yuanxiao! I’ll teach you to think about him! I’ll teach you!"
Su Dan tore the photo to shreds, gritting his teeth.
Qin Shanshan saw stars from the slap. When she saw the look on Su Dan’s face, she was instantly reminded of how he looked when he got drunk and violent before.
Her body trembled. "No, Su Dan, listen to me, let me explain!"
"Explain? Explain what? You’ve got the photo right here! I knew you could never forget Tang Yuanxiao! I knew you were unfaithful! And now you want a divorce? You want a divorce so you can run to him, is that it!"
Su Dan kicked something out of his way and grabbed Qin Shanshan by the hair.
"Slut! You slut! I’m going to make you pay today!"
"No, I wasn’t! I wasn’t thinking about Tang Yuanxiao..."
As Qin Shanshan struggled and tried to explain, Su Dan yanked her head up by the hair and slapped her again.
"You think I’ll believe you just because you say so? I’ll beat you to death, you slut!"
Su Dan roared furiously. Then, over Miao Fenghua’s horrified shriek of "Don’t!", he lifted his leg without a second thought and kicked Qin Shanshan hard.
The kick landed squarely on Qin Shanshan’s swollen belly.
"Don’t, Dan Dan!" Miao Fenghua lunged forward, but she was too late.
The force of Su Dan’s kick sent Qin Shanshan stumbling into the foot of the bed. It had hurt terribly at first, but now she couldn’t even scream.
She sat on the floor with her mouth agape, clutching her stomach, her face a mask of terror.
In an instant, her face turned deathly pale, and she broke out in a cold sweat.
Beneath her, a shocking amount of blood slowly soaked through her pants and began to pool...
Seeing the blood, Miao Fenghua let out a piercing scream and collapsed to the floor.
Su Dan stared at Qin Shanshan lying in a pool of her own blood, completely stunned...
Fueled by rage, Su Dan had put all his strength into that kick. He was a grown man, after all; one could imagine the force behind it.
Qin Shanshan’s pregnancy had been unstable from the start. There was no way she could have been okay after a kick like that.
The kick had caused Qin Shanshan to miscarry.
By the time the village midwife arrived, Qin Shanshan had already lost half her life, her breaths shallow and infrequent.
"What a sin..." the midwife said the moment she saw the scene.
And a sin it was.
It was mid-January. The baby in Qin Shanshan’s belly was already five months old.
At five months, the fetus was already fully formed and had started moving.
His heartbeat was distinct, and his movements could be felt. His fingers and toes had grown nails, and he could even lick his own mouth and suck his thumb...
Though called a fetus, he was really already a little person.
But alas... he couldn’t be saved.
Qin Shanshan miscarried a fully formed baby boy.
The very same baby boy that Miao Fenghua and Su Dan had hoped and prayed for every single day.
When Miao Fenghua saw the baby boy, she wailed, her cries heart-wrenching.
"My grandson! My grandson..."
Miao Fenghua cried and screamed until she fainted.
Su Dan was completely catatonic.
He had been happy about the pregnancy before, but since the baby wasn’t in his belly, he hadn’t felt a deep connection.
Only now, in this moment, did the reality that Qin Shanshan had been carrying his child—that he was about to become a father—truly sink in.
But this realization came from a stillborn child...
For the first time, Su Dan felt a heart-shattering pain.
His legs gave way, and he collapsed to his knees. He wanted to cry, but no sound would come out.
He wanted to faint, too, but he was painfully, completely conscious. He couldn’t pass out.
On this day, the weather in Su Family Village was so gloomy it felt as if the entire sky was about to collapse.
Qin Shanshan’s health had been poor to begin with, and the doctor had already warned her. This traumatic miscarriage was, without a doubt, making a terrible situation even worse.
After the miscarriage, Qin Shanshan began to hemorrhage. If her maternal aunt hadn’t happened to be visiting and managed to stop the bleeding, Qin Shanshan might have died right then and there.
But even though her life was saved in the end, the physical trauma was too severe. Combined with the massive blood loss, it was just as the doctor had feared: she would likely never be able to have children again.
For a woman to be unable to bear children—what a devastating blow.
Qin Shanshan completely broke down, nearly driven mad.
Also on the verge of madness was Miao Fenghua, who was grieving the loss of her grandson.
Miao Fenghua didn’t dispose of the stillborn baby carelessly. He was, after all, the Su Family’s first grandson. She found a small box, placed the fetus inside, and then buried it.
Su Dan, for his part, was consumed with regret. Miao Fenghua, heartbroken over her grandson, hit Su Dan for the first time in his life.
But no matter what, the child was gone. Regret was useless.
When Qin Shanshan came to her senses, the first thing she wanted to do was kill Su Dan.
When they learned that Su Dan not only beat Qin Shanshan when drunk but had also caused the miscarriage with a kick, her family came for him. Her parents, along with the uncle and aunt who had doted on her for years and hoped to rely on her in their old age, confronted Su Dan.
They looked ready to kill him, and Su Dan knew how serious the situation was.
He was already full of regret. In the end, he chopped off his own pinky finger and swore an oath to quit drinking.
Only then did Qin Shanshan’s parents, uncle, aunt, and Qin Shanshan herself believe that he wouldn’t get drunk and beat her again. The act also made it clear to him that she had people backing her up.
Being unable to have children meant that no matter who she might marry in the future, she would have a difficult life. No one would want her.
Qin Shanshan’s entire outlook on life changed, as did her parents’. Her aunt promised to help her recuperate and nurse her body back to health, to try her best to get well enough to get pregnant again.
Even her aunt didn’t believe her own words, but it was the only thing they could do for now. Moreover, this matter could not be spread to outsiders.
But even though they kept it quiet, Miao Fenghua still found out, or rather, guessed the truth.
Miao Fenghua had never been satisfied with Qin Shanshan to begin with; everything had been for the sake of a grandson. Now that she knew Qin Shanshan was infertile, she became desperate for her to divorce Su Dan.
’What’s the use of keeping a daughter-in-law who can’t bear children? They should divorce as soon as possible so he can find one who can.’
Miao Fenghua was ready to let her go, but this time, Qin Shanshan had no intention of divorcing him.
’The Su Family has ruined my body. The Su Family has taken my money. They want to get rid of me? Dream on.’
’Even if I die, I’m taking Miao Fenghua and Su Dan down with me.’
Su Dan, however, still had feelings for Qin Shanshan. He genuinely liked her, so he didn’t want a divorce either, leaving him with nothing but remorse and guilt.
In January, a dark cloud completely enveloped the Su Family.
Qin Shanshan wasted away until she was nothing but skin and bones, and her personality changed drastically.
Before, she had been the epitome of a smart, sensible, and virtuous wife, always good at putting on an act. After being forced to marry Su Dan out of resentment and helplessness, her personality had already changed once.
She had adopted a "what’s the use" attitude, no longer hiding her emotions and letting her true nature show.
But after the blow of the miscarriage and learning she could no longer have children, Qin Shanshan’s personality underwent another major transformation.
A heavy aura of malice now clung to her. She became gloomy and sullen, as if nothing in the world pleased her, and her temper grew explosive.
And this volatile mix of malice and gloom would intensify whenever she saw children, especially little boys.
She couldn’t stand the sight of children. Whenever she saw them, she wanted to strangle them, to make them disappear—especially the little boys.
’If they weren’t born from me, then they should disappear, disappear, disappear! Disappear forever!’