Gate of Apocalypse

[This chapter is 7,000 words, two in one chapters ~]

Chapter 594 [Humanity, Unknown Premonitions]

Bang

Xia Xiaolei remembered a heavy punch and almost flew out the sandbag in front of him. Under inertia, Xia Xiaolei was ready when the sandbag flew back. After flying out, she heard a sound of boredom and the sandbag was kicked directly!

Sand grain noise flowed on the ground, Xia Xiaolei grabbed the sandbag and gasped.

This is the training room of the base, Xia Xiaolei is full of sweat, the original weak mountain teenager, after these days of grinding, and during this period of time, daily in the training room nearly masochistic suffering, plus some drug modification in the system, the muscles on the body plate have become very obvious, the streamlined muscle profile, has looked very beautiful.

He gasped for a while, picking up a bottle of physical beverage from the base and pouring it down.

This is one of several benefits currently available in the base, which is the base's output, much more powerful than those functional drinks in the outside world, drink them when tired, and recover faster than normal people.

Xia Xiaolei picked up the towel and wiped the sweat off her body after breathing down a whole bottle of a slightly sour physical beverage.

At this point, the training room door opened.

Xia Xiaolei walked in and saw Xia Xiaolei. At first, he stunned. After the two of them looked at each other, Xi sighed and lowered his head to leave.

“… please, wait.” Xia Xiaolei suddenly called her.

“Hmm?” A smile appeared on the west face of the flag: "What is it? ”

The smile on the western face of the flag cannot be said to be false, but it is a standard condom with a slightly guarded smile.

Xia Xiaolei walked over and stood in front of Qingmuxi: “We... can't go on like this all the time. ”

Xi Xiaolei looked at Xia Xiaolei and smiled. “I don't know what you mean. ”

“In a copy of Jerusalem, the two of us fell into a state of illusion, and then the clash broke out.” Xia Xiaolei spoke a bit harshly, but still chewed his teeth to say these words.

Flagwood's complexion changed!

Subconsciously, she remembers the tragic clash between the two in the copy, falling into the environment!

That demonic illusion, the deadliest evil consequence, is not the creation of the illusion that mesmerizes - the worst effect, is the worst, darkest, deepest negative emotions and thoughts in every person's mind that have been induced and erupted!

In that illusion, two people almost fought and killed each other, and a teammate of a team almost killed each other.

The copy of Jerusalem, now a taboo word in the Meteor Squad, appears to have come as if everyone was trying to avoid mentioning the experience of that copy.

Not just because of that copy, Jojo's death, the teammate's sacrifice.

More importantly, in that copy, every member of the team who fell into the illusion was induced to bury the deepest negative emotions in their hearts, and when it erupted, deep mustard and cracks were created between them.

The victory of that replica was the worst since the Meteorite Squad was founded and the most negatively impacted.

Xia Xiaolei and Qingmuxi, two young men, met in that copy, almost together, and more importantly, both exposed the darkest and most negative emotions in their hearts.

Although the copy is over, the cracks that have been created cannot disappear.

More than two people, even the oldest and heaviest tires in the team, became a little silent after the copy, the tire spare two brothers had the best feelings, but after the copy, bright-eyed people saw a little strange between the two.

“We can't keep doing this.” Xia Xiaolei bit his teeth and looked at the flag in the front: “We are a team. Before the Jerusalem replica, our team was intimate, everyone absolutely trusted their teammates, and when fighting, they were willing to give their backs to their teammates without reservation, or even to block the knife for their opponents... As the leader said, our team was still weak, but our breakthrough was strong enough enemies at a time to win the replica, in addition to strength and luck, the most important thing was that we were united enough. ”

The girl nibbles the lips and doesn't talk.

Xia Xiaolei's eyes flashed a slight discoloration. He suddenly stepped around the flag wood, walked to the door of the training room, closed the door and pressed the lock key.

“… what are you doing? ”

“Solve the problem, both of us, right here.” Xia Xiaolei shook his head: “I am a very stupid person, but I also understand the point. The problem between us is not solved, it's the hidden rift in the team… so right here, today, right now, we solve the problem between us! Not solved. Not out! ”

Flagwood subconsciously pinched his clothes.

“It's just the two of us, so there's nothing to talk about, buried in our hearts, and after that copy comes out, it gets in the way of what we're embarrassed to say - no matter how bad it sounds, we're here to say it! Say it all, say it hurts, and then we'll fix it!” Xia Xiaolei's tone is resolute and unquestionably determined.

The flag seemed weak. After a minute of silence, the girl raised her head and stared at Xia Xiaolei: “Okay! If that's what you're saying, let's do it. What do you want to hear from me? ”

“Whatever you think. All you can say is, in this room... say it hurts, we solve it together, when we get out of this door, we will never talk about it again, completely solve the problem! ”

“Yes!” always weak flag Muxi, at this moment the eyes also flashed a certain resoluteness.

She walked aside and looked at the functional beverage on the table, even though Xia Xiaolei had drank most of the beverage, she picked it up and poured it all into her mouth.

After drinking, the girl wiped her mouth hard and turned her head to look at Xia Xiaolei: “Well, let me get started. ”

Xia Xiaolei nodded.

“I… have been depressed in this team. Especially when it comes to you… to be precise, especially when it comes to you! Xia Xiaolei! ”

Xia Xiaolei does not speak.

“In that illusion, the bad guy turned into my brother, and then you killed him... I was emotional, but I didn't hate you afterwards. I'm not smart, but I'm not stupid. I know exactly what's right. You killed the bad guy who turned out to be my brother, and I won't remember you. But Xia Xiaolei, I... I still hate you. ”

“Why hate me. ”

Xia Xiaolei stared at Xia Xiaolei, and she took a deep breath: “Okay, now that you have said it, just say it hurts, who doesn't have a dark side in their heart? You want to hear it, Xia Xiaolei, then I'll tell you, I hate you because... before I came to this team you were one of the weakest, most useless and most rubbish in the team!! ”

Xia Xiaolei's body shocked.

“The leader will not say anything. He is the backbone of our team and my lifesaver. Even if I have an opinion of anyone, I can only admire and thank him. Brother Roddy is strong and his mechanical abilities are one of the pillar skills of the team. Tire spare tires The two big brothers are senior, have good strength and experience. I have nothing but respect for them. Sister Joe Jo doesn't have to say... she is the leader's lover, she is so beautiful, she is so kind, she is so powerful... even the youngest show has very powerful skills, every time she fights, the power of terror erupts. ”

Qiao Muxi spoke word for word, and finally looked at Xia Xiaolei: “And you, Xia Xiaolei, you are not listed here. ”

Xia Xiaolei snorted.

“They all say your skills are discounts on system purchases. Okay, but because of this, every copy you make is a protected target. Your positioning has become logistical. Auxiliary personnel… your own strength, little combat skills, you can only play soy sauce during intense combat. I think... Xia Xiaolei, you must be very grateful to me! ”

“Hmm?”

“You must be grateful to me! You were the weakest stalker in the Meteor Squad! But after I came to the team, your position changed. You're not the guy who dragged his legs off anymore! Even if your strength sucks, but with my arrival, you're no longer the weakest one! And me, Flagwood, instead of you, became the weakest piece of crap in the Meteor Squad! ”

Xia Xiaolei was stuck.

He didn't expect, always cowardly silence, like a kitten flag Muxi, to say such sharp words!

And... some of these heartfelt words let Xia Xiaolei ask herself, but she can't refute it!

Because maybe in my heart, I do have more or less, this idea.

“I'm weak, I'm not bold, I'm weak... but it doesn't mean I'm an idiot, and I'm not a naive ignorant girl who knows everything!” Flagwood's eyes flashed with a different color: “When I was a little girl, I had no home. My brother and I lived together, and it was a mess! We've been south, we've seen too many things in the world! Although my brother has been so desperate to protect me, I have also seen so many, many... evil, disgusting, sinful, dark things.

Xia Xiaolei, don't think of me as a blank piece of paper that doesn't understand anything. I'm just a coward, but that doesn't mean I don't understand anything. ”

Xia Xiaolei is stuck.

“I was fifteen years old. Ten years ago, when I was five, I understood that. My brother told me... we are all very young and very weak. When we encounter bullying, we do not have the ability to resist - we have not resisted. When the streets are ruined, even to pick up the wasteland, others will beat them away. My brother resisted and was beaten to death. My brother learned a reason. He taught me that since he had no ability to resist and no ability to defend himself, he could simply play the role of a weak person honestly. When someone bullies you, if you can't beat someone else, bow your head and get soft, don't resist. Try to be soft, try to be weak. Maybe if someone bullies you, they'll let you go. So, that's what I've been doing for 10 years! I'm a coward. I'm a coward, because I'm already weak!

Who, besides my brother, has helped and protected me over the years? When I meet the bad guys, I can't resist, I can only kneel down and beg for forgiveness. When I meet the bad guys, I can't defend myself, I can only try to escape. You can laugh at me for being weak and useless, but I don't have a home, I don't have protection, I'm so young, what else can I do? What can I do!! What can I do!!! You tell me what I can do? ”

Xia Xiaolei mumbled.

“Besides my brother, I am most grateful to the Commander.” There were tears in Muxi's eyes: "My brother died, but the captain protected me. No, it's not just protection. He also took me in, brought me back here, took me to meet everyone, and joined me on this team. I've always felt that the biggest, most precious thing the Commander gave me, it wasn't just protection, it wasn't just saving my life. More importantly, he gave me something that no one has given me in the last 15 years except my brother, which is...”

Flagwood took a deep breath: "Dignity! ”

After a pause, she continued: “I've never been like this before, I'm on a team, I've got company, I've got family, I've got friends... nobody bullies me, I see myself as a person, a decent person. What I want, what I get, I don't have to kneel down to pray, I don't have to play a weak man, a poor beggar! The captain taught me a lot, the tire spare brother taught me a lot, Roddy often joked about me, but I knew they had no malice. They don't look down on me, they really think of me as a companion… although I'm a very weak companion, they never mind that. They'll seriously teach me to learn something and teach me to be strong. But... they treat me with respect! For the first time in 15 years of my life, I felt a sense of dignity from someone other than my brother.

I finally feel like a human being! Instead of a stray cat, a stray dog, or a pathetic bugger who can be bullied casually.

You think I don't know anything? Xia Xiaolei! I even see more than you, I know more than you! I've been wandering around with my brother since I was a little girl. I've seen so many horrible bad people, you can't imagine!

When I started growing up in two years, there was something even more disgusting! There will be some bad guys pretending to be nice to you, but... greedy people want to get my body, to bully me, to do disgusting things.

Hmm, Xia Xiaolei, I distinguish who is a good person, who is genuinely good to me, and who truly sees me as a human being. ”

“So, what do you think of me?” Xia Xiaolei asked in a loud voice.

“... you?” Flagwood sighed: “At first, you seemed to behave like everyone else, but... soon I found your attitude towards me somewhat strange. Though apparently nothing, I always felt that you were in a lot of things, quietly targeting me. When I got here, you weren't the weakest kid on the team, but at the same time, I guess you weren't the little brother everyone protected anymore. And sometimes I can feel that you seem to despise me. You think I'm a piece of crap, a laggard.

Well, this, in the illusion, when the two of us clashed, when you strangled me, almost strangled me, you made it very clear, what you said at the time, I remember it very clearly. You said, 'You were a piece of crap on the team'! Yeah, that's what you said. ”

Xia Xiaolei stopped talking.

In fact, he himself remembered what he said that day.

Well, what else did you say besides “you were already a piece of crap in the team"?

Yeah, I said to myself, "Guys like you don't deserve to stay on our team. ”

Well, that's what I was saying!

“You also said, 'Guys like you don't deserve to stay on our team.’ Right, Xia Xiaolei?” Flagwood stared at the teenager in front of him.

“Yes, I did.” Xia Xiao Xiao Thunder whispered.

“The phrase actually has two meanings.” Flagwood smiled. “Look, I told you, I'm a coward, but I know everything. You say 'guys like you', which means I'm weak, a piece of crap, a laggard. You, are the bone that despises me. And you said" our team. "Well, yeah, you think this is your team, but it's not my team. In your heart, you never thought of me as a teammate, you always thought of me as an outsider, an outsider, a weak, worthless, useless... a thigh hugger! ”

Flagwood wept: “I have almost forgotten past days without dignity, I have almost forgotten those begging, begging, weeping, weakness, cowardice, being bullied, kneeling on the ground for forgiveness, living like a dog! I feel the dignity of being a human being in this team! However, just that day, in that copy, your words, that little bit of dignity that I had just created, again... tore it apart! ”

She didn't seem too angry, just a little sad in her tone: “Perhaps you would think that you were already weak, that you were a loser, that you just couldn't do it, can you?

But, Xia Xiaolei, you tell me, what can I do?

I'm weak! I'm only fifteen, and I've never had a good day. Most of the people I met were bad people. I've been bullied for the last 10 years. I'm not capable, I'm not capable. I get scared when I fight because I've been bullied for 10 years! I am weak because no one has ever given me respect and dignity!

I'm weak, that's because I'm caught up in this game world, and my luck is not as good as yours! Got the right skill to fight!! I'm a teenage, helpless little girl.

Xia Xiaolei, do you look down on me?

So tell me, what else can I do? What can I do?

Am I going to die? People like me are dying, right? Is that justice?

The weak have no right to live?!

If I had the skills of Brother Roddy, I would also like to contribute to the team!

If I had the strength of a commander, I would also like to block the wind and rain for all in front of everyone in battle!

But I didn't! What can I do? You say I'm a loser, yes, I'm a loser!

But as a piece of crap, should I die? Find a no-one in the corner, die, rot, don't get in your way?

Is that right?! ”

Speaking of this, Flagwood seemed to have finally exhausted all his courage, and then he squatted down and cried with a hug on his knee.

Xia Xiaolei stood in front of her and squatted in front of her for a moment. He seemed to reach out and try to help her, but he reached out half his hand and finally took it back.

After a while Xia Xiaolei whispered: “I'm sorry. ”

I'm sorry about that, but it didn't ease Flagwood's mood.

Xia Xiaolei sighed, he grabbed his hand back hard, as if he had been courageous enough to start talking.

“I admit that I do despise you… No, not despise, to be precise, but dislike. The leader and Sister Joe Joe are my most respected people, everyone on the team is my brother, my sister, my sister... even Xiu Xiu is better than me. I was never jealous of them, only grateful. They took me from a mountain village teenager, protected me from entering this game world, kept me alive. I actually, in my heart, think of them the same way you do, only with respect and gratitude. I admit, I was jealous of you when you first got here. Because you're weaker than me. It seems you've become the most protective of all. I... don't seem to be that big of a panda protected by everyone on the team anymore.

But, Flagwood, will you listen to me for a second? Today, I was brave enough to try to solve all these mustard cracks, all these contradictions with you. ”

Flagwood looked up and rubbed his eyes with his back: “You said. ”

“I disliked you, I admit it. You said I had something to do with you quietly... and I admit it. I deliberately like to target you and bully you on small things... but I'm not a bad person, I'm not really going to bully you, I'm not really going to crowd you out. Perhaps… there is some jealousy involved.

In the illusion of a copy, I said those awful things. That copy exposes the deepest negative dark side of our hearts, and, it seems, magnifies.

But Flagwood, there are also some good emotions that are not shown in that copy. It only magnifies the negative darkness, but hides some of the other emotions in my heart. I want to talk to you now. ”

“What do you want… what are you trying to say? ”

“What I'm trying to say is… I'm jealous of you, I'm kind of squeezing you out, and there are even a few little things that will deliberately bully you… these things, these things, I know, are stupid, very, very stupid.” Xia Xiao Ray stumbled: “Actually, before I told you this today, I spoke to Brother Roddy, and he has scolded me. He said that I was like a child who didn't grow up... he said that he did things and acts like me in kindergarten and often bullied a little girl... but only..."

“Just what? ”

Xia Xiaolei bit his teeth, closed his eyes, and looked like he was out loud, “Brother Roddy said:" A child like you doesn't understand anything. When you meet a girl you like, if you don't know how to express it, you will subconsciously bully each other to attract the attention of the girl. This is standard behavior for kids. ”

“..." Qingmuxi stayed and stared at Xia Xiaolei: “You, you, you, what are you talking about? ”

“I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I like you. ”

……

“Two little guys are solving their problems, don't go in there and disturb them. ”

In the lobby of the base, Rhodey watched as the tires seemed to go into the training room and quickly stopped.

The tire stunned for a moment, then suddenly looked at Roddy again: "Your idea? ”

“It has to be solved. You can't leave everything to Little Face alone. When fighting, because of strength, we can't help a lot of things, but things within the team, can be solved, try to help him solve them, don't let him work for these things anymore. ”

Rhodey held two cans of beer and threw it at a can of tires.

The tire took over, nodded and opened the beer for a sip.

“So, what about you?” Roddy stares at the tire: “When can you untie your heart? ”

The movement of the tire has stalled.

“Well, I'm not a meddler. Your problem shouldn't be too big, I can feel it.” Roddy smiled lightly: “The problem is not very serious. It's probably about your old privacy. You're the oldest, most mature of us all. The least I'm worried about is you, Tire. By contrast, the problem with the two little guys in there needs to be solved... Chen Xiaoliang's thing, root in Jojo's death. There is also a glimmer of hope. The only person I worry about the most is... show! ”

Tires frowned.

“The show is getting worse and worse. When I first met this little girl, she wasn't like this at all. She switches back and forth between two personalities. But these days… it seems that the dark personality has been around longer and longer, and the original innocent little girl's personality has not appeared for a long time. ”

Roddy frowned and smiled bitterly: “I always felt that there was an unclear feeling. ”

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[Um, seven thousand words in this chapter.

Chen Xiaoliang's line has some Kevin, turn the camera and write down the branch line ~]

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