Genocide Online ~Playtime Diary of an Evil Young Girl~

"...... the result is pathetic."

Shortly before she attacked me... Masaki canceled the effect of her skill and only lightly struck me with a battle axe.

Unlike Masaki, with his poor endurance and high firepower compared to mine, his light blow cut down my few remaining HP to the defeat line.

As a result, I was able to compose myself with my axe on my head and him looking down on it.

"I wish I could have eliminated your skills... and if I hit you like that, I'd be back to death."

”It's so hard to say, and even though I even had the condition of defeating myself... I can't stand confessing just now to make me feel guilty.”

"Ahh... that's right..."

He slowly lowered his battle axe and moved his body...... I don't know what emotions that expression reflects right now.

”If I had to say it now... I didn't think it would come out of my mouth”

"... I see."

Is there some kind of emotion that comes out of your mouth by accident?... no, it could be.

It seems that I have also conveyed my favor to my mother without thinking deeply.

"You, you haven't had a lot of fun lately, have you?"

"Yeah, it's so..."

Without showing any harm, the two of them walked to the edge of the wall.

Apparently, Yamada-san, who still had the power, sat on his back cheating and sitting on the wall of ice as he leaned sideways as he warmed up his surroundings with his magic and recovered slightly.

Place your arms on your standing left knee and bury your face in the pillow to round your body.

"... can't you tell me what happened?"

……

"I ended up like this, but this time I didn't really invite you on a date or something."

I wish I could sit next to you honestly, but I watch Masaki, who seemed to be strangely shy, set her back to my right side at a distance.

”Here, in the game... I feel like I can save someone without any fences... and it's a good place to be upbeat”

I retracted my hand to reach out to me, and I turned my gaze away from me... and I felt like I was lost in the words that were slowly exhaled.

"But I want to know about you..."

Now, if you want to know about me, you can tell me from anywhere.

As Masaki was bothered by the words he was spitting out, he opened his mouth with a pathetic look like he was sorry and gave up.

"I'm sorry, I stepped too far on the boulder..."

"I first broke something when I was three."

……

Masaki opens his mouth and spins his words before he can give them up.

At this point, he also said he wanted to know more about me, so let's tell him everything from the beginning.

We will not accept complaints that it is late at night or that it will be a long story.

"There was a sparrow in the backyard of the house."

It looks like he was attacked by a crow or a cat. He was injured.

"I remember being so cute."

“Somehow, I strangled her on the spot.”

“At that moment, I realized what I liked.”

“I used to look at broken glass fragments and rush over to the dead cat left on the roadside.”

“However, being aware of what you're interested in can make a dramatic difference.”

"I played with a rare bird that my grandparents had."

Originally, my grandparents hated my weak position, so my mother and I were transferred to separate houses.

“My mother cried that she could no longer marry someone she liked, but she still held me tight without blaming me.”

"My father often visited separate houses, but he seemed to hate me, and when I talked to him, he only returned silence."

"At the same time, it seemed that the man who had been pushed around had married another woman he was familiar with as a child."

"At that time, it seems that the twins were already born with the woman."

"My mother looked sad, I don't think I can help it... I think she had a complicated face now, but at the time I could only read 'Mother looks sad'"

"The man who made my mother look like that, he stopped showing his face because of the name attack and the busyness of going into politics."

"I hated men for making my mother look even more lonely."

"You can call it hate."

"I couldn't understand the complexity of the situation, and I resented the man's marriage and his children."

"I thought that I had taken someone I loved from my mother, and taken their place, and my happiness."

"I didn't realize that my own play was one of the causes, but I was hurting small animals and children of my age in parks, etc."

"Every time I saw my mother panicked, I only thought that she was playing with me."

"I always liked my mother to teach me" ordinary "things."

“He stopped me before I did too much, taught me politely to do the right thing, and told me to talk to myself first if anything happened.”

And I said, "Well, I'm sorry to hear that my mother was worried about my future as a single daughter."

"About the time I went to elementary school... I finally realized that I was a little different from my surroundings"

"Children are cruel and sensitive to foreign objects."

It's possible to say it yourself, but objectively, she has beautiful black hair with a well-appointed appearance of her mother.

"Unlike everyone else, clothes that are properly tailored from scratch can be seen to be expensive at a glance"

"At this level, it might still be" Amazing "and" Cute "."

“But I wasn't 'normal' enough to end up there.”

"As a child... no, it's probably because I'm a child. I wonder if you noticed it so sensitively. Since you enrolled in school, you started making a fool of me to get rid of this [foreign object]."

"But at this time, I didn't recognize this as a fake, and I thought it was my 'usual play'."

"If you hide something, you burn it in front of your eyes."

"If you get pushed down, keep beating the person you pushed down until your front teeth break."

"If they say something bad, they put insects in their mouths and slap their jaws to make them chew."

"If I counted the types of games, I didn't have any."

"When it continued and no one approached me"

When I happened to be passing in front of the staff room, I heard my mother apologize.

"I didn't know why my mother was apologizing at the time, but somehow I felt 'I'm sorry'."

"I don't know why my beloved mother loves me, but I feel bad because of myself... that's all I did to make me regret it."

"My mother, who came out of the staff room, looked surprised at me and smiled... 'Shall we go home? and said,' Well, you know what? '

"And then I stopped playing."

Whatever happens, smile like a lady, parry, and never let yourself out.

“Aside from whether I was able to do it or not, the tendency was stronger as I got older.”

"My father started to look at me with inorganic eyes, and it seemed to hit my mother hard, but my mother smiled at me with warm eyes, so I could still bear it."

"But not since my mother had cancer..."

"My mother wasn't human."

“It was one of the few second humans with very high levels of artificial intelligence and even reproduction.”

"Originally, it was only by reproducing and showing emotions that I woke up to something called real affection, but it seems to have caused a serious shortage of capacity."

"I remember being told that it was like cancer or dementia that eroded other memory areas to hold two loves and even deleted programs necessary for survival."

"Before long, my mother died... it was like self-harm after prioritizing love for me and the man."

"If you give up your feelings for one side and erase the other side, it seems that you could have lived a little longer."

"I just went to junior high school, and I couldn't understand my mother's death well enough."

"'Hey, hey, what's up?”... while saying that, I found my mother's body. ”

"Just like my mother did, I wanted my mother to laugh at me again."

"No matter how much I shake it, no matter how much I shake it, no matter how much I shake it, no matter how much I laugh at it"

”When I was troubled by my mother, I suddenly... saw his eyes”

“This is the first time in years that a man looks at me like I'm seeing a monster.”

If it wasn't for you, you'd have taken Reiko.

"He didn't give up your memory till the end."

"If only you had disappeared, he would still be alive forever."

”If you could live a little longer, you could have eliminated the old harm.”

"'I should have been able to live with you again.'"

"I said this to a man who was crying and spitting like a curse with an angry expression."

"If you had disappeared, I would have spent more time with my mother."

"At that time, I still didn't know the truth about my mother's death, but intuitively... yes, somehow I thought, 'If my mother let go of him, we could have stayed together longer'"

"It was a decisive moment for me and the man to break up."

"The man, as he put it, revealed his childhood friendly girlfriend as" remarried, "and cherished the twins in front of his eyes"

"When I finally realized that my mother had died, and I finished reading her will, I realized that I couldn't escape this world."

"There was a lot of love for me and worries written in my mother's will... even if I were a grandmother, I would be happy to visit her grave."

"You can't chase my mother now."

"I can't play, I don't have a mother... if no one else understands me, no one will understand me"

"But I lived with my mother's teachings and words and my will in my chest."

"But the shadow of the twins clinging to the edge of my sight, and the words that I could use from the woman who took my beloved from my mother, brought me to the limit of my patience."

"Even if I wasn't interested in me at the earliest, on the contrary, I would be ashamed to be seen by someone other than myself, so I moved further away from the other house."

"I thought it was my mother's hobby room, where many of my belongings would sleep, but other than that, the man allowed me to move."

“Perhaps, but I fear my violence, which has become unbearable, will be directed against the twins.”

"So the most recent problem has been solved, so I don't know if it's okay anymore."

"It's a matter of life and death that my mother, who supported my heart until now, has died and it becomes difficult to reconcile with the [anomaly] in me, there's nothing I can do about it."

“That's when I met this game.”

"If you can play here, why don't you?" If we're here, we can live freely.... that's what I thought. "

"It was fun."

"I was the first to do a homicide that I couldn't do in real life."

"My heart is throbbing."

"I've been exhilarated since I was three years old."

"No one will dwell on him, just act freely as they see fit."

“I didn't think it would give me so much openness and pleasure.”

"In reality, it was as cramped as ever, but I think I got better enough to be able to incite that man back."

"... but, yes."

"This is a world that is not different from reality, like a living human... it is a world where the same artificial intelligence as my mother was used"

"Because of that, I've seen my mother's face again and again..."

"I killed a maid who offered her free love and loyalty."

"I killed a king who looked like his mother in front of his daughter."

“When I saw that others enjoyed something that I didn't want anymore, I wanted to sexually mess it up.”

"... even if I broke it, it was just vain"

"Only then was it unusual for me to have fun."

“I remember something strangely irritating.”

"I became even more obsessed with playing, as if to mislead myself."

I had a great time playing with the three of us in the Imperial Capital.

"I was able to temporarily forget the frustration."

I think I was a little lonely when it was over.

"When Masaki-san said 'I'll scold you' at that time, I was very surprised."

"Because I've never been asked by anyone other than my mother."

”My mother always said, 'I like Reina, so I'm worried, so I scold her.'”

"I think I was upset that there were people who worried about me like my mother."

"Soon after that... the twins started playing this game too."

“They said they wanted to get along with me.”

"I don't want to get along."

"The opponent that I hated like a serpent scorpion appeared in my playground... it was as if he was walking up to my room with his shoes on his feet."

“I did everything in my power to reject and hurt.”

I was going to make sure I never got involved in reality again.

“But that's it…” she said.

"That's what Reiko told me to make friends with me."

"I was very upset."

I was going to throw up.

“I hated them, I hated them, and I had no choice, but my mother wanted us to get along.”

"Then, whatever I did, I couldn't enjoy it because it stuck in my head."

“Nothing my mother taught me was wrong, nothing my mother gave me was unpleasant.”

"It's a contradiction."

"Since then, I've suddenly met those twins in the game and have been pretending not to see them ever since I was beaten by a perverted gentleman."

"As usual, I have supported myself by spreading myself in the game and having fun."

“Of course, I had a lot of fun hanging out with friends and spending the time I liked in the game.”

"There's no lie there."

”But at the same time... there are things that have been whispering in my heart for a long time”

"My brother and sister, who resemble the grown-ups I hate... it's emotionally difficult to be compatible with them"

”But, if that's what my mother prepared for me, it's important for me to be able to spend my time normally.”

"If it's something my mother left behind, maybe she's working hard for me."

"In fact, I was lucky enough to have no friends in Matomo in the years following my mother's death."

"Were you afraid of that?"

“It was a complete coincidence that I found this game, and I would never have met Masaki, Yuki, or Mai if I hadn't played the game.”

"That means my mother was in danger."

"Is it okay to let it go unexpectedly, or will you continue to turn away and keep the problem ahead of you... what kind of consequences will that have for me?"

I was thinking, "I don't know what you're going to say."

That's it.

“Are you satisfied with this?”

“What do you think I should do?”

"Do you understand that Masaki-san is a normal person?"