Chapter 217. Not a Weapon Tonight, Just Someone Allowed to Sit at the Table
William didn’t push. He knew better than to press a wounded animal.
"Well... I can’t very well stay in your quarters, obviously," she continued, her words tumbling out now, as if she were afraid he would cut her off. "And I understand I can’t ask you to stay in mine."
"I thought... perhaps Catherine’s house might be somewhere appropriate." William smiled. "And of course... if she wouldn’t mind."
She was asking for proximity without intrusion, seeking the comfort of a shared space without violating the rigid boundaries she had spent years constructing.
She wanted to be close enough to feel the presence of someone who didn’t want to use her as a weapon but far enough away to maintain the illusion of her own strength.
William stared at her, realizing that this was a monumental concession. This wasn’t just a request for shelter; it was a plea for connection.
She was offering him the most dangerous thing she possessed: her trust.
William studied her for a long moment, the fading sunlight casting sharp, angular shadows across Lia’s face, making her seem almost like a statue carved from grief.
He weighed the request against everything he now understood about her: the fractured psyche, the deep-seated need for control, and the terrifying vulnerability she had just laid bare.
To refuse would be to slam the door on the only lifeline she had dared to extend. And to accept was to enter a minefield of unspoken trauma.
But he couldn’t say no. Not to this.
Not to something this quietly, carefully, honestly.
"Let me ask her," he said, his voice dropping to a gentle register that seemed to cut through the evening chill. "I don’t think she’ll mind at all, Lia... I promise."
Lia didn’t thank him. She didn’t smile.
She simply nodded once, a sharp, military gesture that couldn’t quite hide the slight tremor in her hands, and turned to walk toward the barracks. William watched her go, her gait still precise and lethal even as she moved with the exhaustion of a wounded soldier.
...
When William found Catherine later that evening, the house was filled with the warm, amber glow of lamplight, a stark contrast to the cold stone of the training grounds. He explained the situation slowly, carefully choosing his words as if he were handling live explosives.
He told her about Lia’s request, about the raw honesty in her voice, and about the unspoken plea for safety that had hung between them in the courtyard.
Catherine didn’t hesitate. There was no moment of confusion, no questioning of propriety or logistics.
"Well, of course~!" she said immediately.
The word was decisive, cutting through William’s hesitation like a blade. Already, she was moving toward the kitchen with a visible, fierce purpose.
"Bring her over! Now!"
"Catherine, you don’t have to--"
"I said bring her over, William," She stopped at the threshold of the kitchen, turning to face him with an expression that brooked no argument. "I’ll put something together for dinner~!"
"Something proper, something warm... Not the culinary disaster Ellie and I usually manage when we’re alone."
"You don’t have to go to any trouble," William pressed, feeling a pang of guilt at the sudden burden placed on her. "She’s not expecting anything."
"She just needs... somewhere to be."
Catherine stepped closer to him, her eyes blazing with a sudden, protective fire that reminded him why she had been such a formidable presence in the academy.
"William, listen to me." Her voice was low, dangerous in its sincerity. "That girl has spent her entire life being treated like an asset, a weapon, and a tool!"
"I know enough about her history to know she’s spent more time being denied basic comforts as punishment than she has experiencing them as a right!"
"I am absolutely going to feed her properly tonight, and I am absolutely going to make sure it’s the best meal this house has produced since the day I moved into it!"
William felt something warm and achingly tender settle in his chest.
Watching Catherine pivot toward her pantry, pulling out ingredients with the same focused, lethal determination she once brought to her sword drills, he realized that Catherine understood Lia in a way he was still learning to.
Catherine didn’t see a problem to be solved; she saw a soul to be nourished.
"I love you, you know that?" William said softly, the words carrying an unexpected weight in the quiet of the house.
Catherine paused mid-motion, a bundle of herbs in one hand. She glanced back at him over her shoulder, a soft, startled smile breaking across her features.
Even after all this time, the directness of his affection seemed to catch her off guard, disarming her in a way no opponent ever could.
"I love you too," she replied, her voice softening.
Then, she pointed a wooden spoon at him threateningly, though her eyes were bright. "Now stop standing there looking sentimental and go get her before I start crying into the soup."
...
The evening that followed unfolded with a quiet, domestic warmth that William hadn’t anticipated, a fragile, golden bubble of normalcy suspended against the backdrop of everything that was wrong with their world.
For once, the kitchen wasn’t a battlefield of flour and failed expectations. Instead, he and Catherine moved in a synchronized dance of practiced motion, working together with far more coordination than their previous baking disaster had suggested either of them possessed.
The air in the house began to change, transforming from the sterile atmosphere of a dormitory into something alive and inviting. The savory, mouthwatering aroma of roasting meat mingled with the earthy sweetness of herbs while vegetables sizzled in butter, filling every corner of the room.
They prepared fresh bread that miraculously actually rose properly this time, its crust crackling faintly as it cooled. Even the setting of the table felt like a ritual; they laid out linen napkins and mismatched ceramic plates with more care and abundance than either of them typically bothered with for themselves.
’It feels like we’re preparing for something important,’ William thought as he chopped parsley, glancing at Catherine. ’Not a meal, but a sanctuary.’
"You’re doing that thing again," Catherine murmured, nudging his elbow with hers as she stirred a pot.
"What thing?"
"The ’I’m overthinking the implications of this dinner’ face." She smiled at him, her eyes warm. "Just focus on the carrots, William."
"Tonight isn’t about strategy. It’s just about food."
He smiled back, feeling the tension in his own jaw relax. "Right... Just food."
Then came the knock at the door.
Lia arrived precisely on time, as if her entire life had been measured in seconds and tactical intervals. She was dressed plainly, her dark hair pulled back with severe neatness.
Her usual composed expression was firmly in place—that impassive, soldierly mask that served as both armor and prison. But as she stepped through the doorway and into the warm, amber-lit space of the home, William caught the faint, involuntary tension in her shoulders.
She looked like someone who had walked into an unfamiliar territory expecting an ambush.
"Thank you for having me," she said.
Her voice was formal, almost stiffly polite, as if she were addressing a commanding officer rather than two friends. Her eyes darted around the room, taking in the steam rising from the stove, the soft glow of the candles, and the overwhelming sense of belonging that seemed to permeate every wall.
Catherine didn’t meet her formality with formality. Instead, she met it with a gentle, unshakable kindness.
"Don’t you worry about that, Lia~! You’re exactly where you’re supposed to be." With an easy, welcoming warmth that felt like a physical embrace, Catherine guided her toward the table.
"Please, sit... The bread is still warm," Catherine encouraged, pulling out a chair.
Lia sat, her movements precise and economical, but she didn’t immediately relax. She sat on the edge of the chair, spine straight as a blade, hands resting flat on the table.
But as the evening wore on, as the steam from the bowls rose between them and the conversation flowed in easy, unhurried waves, something began to shift.
William watched from across the table, his heart aching with a strange hope. He noticed the way Lia’s fingers gradually unclenched.
He saw her shoulders drop, inch by agonizing inch, losing that rigid, defensive set. When she took her first bite of the meal, genuine, nourishing food that hadn’t been rationed or offered as a reward, she closed her eyes for a fraction of a second too long, a small, almost imperceptible sound escaping her throat.
It wasn’t a breakthrough. It wasn’t a transformation.
But as she sat there, bathed in the soft light of the dining room, she didn’t look like a weapon. For the first time since he had known her, she simply looked like a person.