He Didn’t Want to Be the Center of Attention, Hence, after Defeating the Demon Lord, He Became Guild Master

After a little soup and light snack, the maid lady brought tea, both of which she spent time without saying anything.

The fairy birds on the balcony are beautiful. Miralka loved this clever little bird like a treasure.

Eventually Miralka takes a seat and tries to go to a separate room. I thought there was something I could do, but when she looked back, she was staring at me.

"... what's wrong?

"I'm a little tired sitting in my chair...."

I don't know whether it's time to go home or not. I'm not that dull either.

"Let's change places and talk a little. You don't mind if I stay?

"... I didn't say no."

I can see that Miralka is very nervous and choosing a word. I guess I can't be direct because she's aware that I'm in the room.

There is no need for extra words. I took a seat and followed Miralka - in the other room there was a bed like a princess with a canopy, and Miralka sat at the end of it and looked at me without saying anything.

Sitting next to Miralka, she moved her body with a little concern for me, but she didn't distance herself. Hold the right hand pointing to the bed with your left hand and hold your body - and insist that the soft, thin fabric chest protrudes.

I don't think I'm allowed to keep an eye on you for a long time, and I look away. I am conscious of the opposite sex, and even though it is not the case, I can't stay calm with the feeling that my feet won't get to the ground in this situation.

But when I remember what I came here for, I finally calm down. I came here to worry about Miralka - and to ask what she thinks now.

"... I think I'm feeling a little better. Dick had dinner for the first time in a while?

"Well, yeah. I've been eating a little....."

"I live with Verlaine and Rimserit, so there's nothing to worry about."

Miralka's voice is gentle, but it sounds to me like an indication of how hurt she is.

Nothing has changed yet. It's not healed - so what should I say?

"I've been thinking about it for the last three days. What we've been fighting for so long... was it really true what we've been doing?"

I don't know the answer anymore.

Is it the right thing to do to save people and lose what is important to them?

--Whatever you did, you shouldn't have protected it. The thoughts do not disappear, and the thoughts continue to circle around the same place.

"... did you tell your parents anything?

"Because my father only sees his work... my mother lives away from me, and I don't talk about being a Demon King Crusader. My mother has always opposed my participation... because it hasn't changed."

Miralka's parents had heard a little about his father, but had hardly heard of his mother. The portrait of Miralka, the way Miralka values it.

"Both of you are far from the battle. Speaking of family, I can't get involved... and I'm sure I'll be more worried about my mother."

"... it's not like you can think alone and come up with an answer. I haven't got an answer yet. As Sphere wanted, Alvinas was protected... but that's not what we wanted."

Without the power to defend without sacrificing anything, there is no other way to accept this result. Denying it doesn't change anything.

"We couldn't help but feel anxious at seeing you like that. You think about us well. But at the same time, I was worried. 'Cause you're the one who makes it easy to say you can die for someone else."

I've never spoken clearly. But what I'm doing, I can't help it - the idea that it's better than someone else getting hurt is always underlying me.

"... at first, I thought you were just like me."

"You said the same thing... is impossible?

"That's because... you didn't seem to be motivated to see it. I don't know if you're just showing me that you're not motivated."

Throughout his journey of demon king crusade, Miralka gradually recognized me as a party member and left me at a glance.

I have the knowledge necessary for my journey, such as camping and securing accommodation, and I have become dependent on other members. Compared to me, who lived alone in the wilderness for a long time, my friends lived with my family at the time, and there was a big difference in terms of hunger.

But traveling with the girls who had something I didn't have was a continuum of discoveries for me. Especially Miralka has lived a completely different life from mine, and everything she talked about felt like a Gentile.

That Miralka thought she was the same as me. She never made such a gesture.

"... being strong is because you'll be alone when you cross the line. You don't have to be understood by anyone, but you want to have yourself. I thought that thought was similar."

"I didn't think so much about it... but I just wanted to avoid being the object of fear of power. That's why I wanted to be a Demon King Crusader....."

"To make sure everyone is not afraid, use your power for everyone. Once we've done that, we can claim our rights... that's how we've been thinking about ourselves. I didn't know I was a child at the time...."

"Are you reflecting now or something?

Miralka laughs, looks me in the eye and answers - it's been a long time since Miralka stunned me with a smile and I can't turn away.

"The trouble is, I haven't reflected at all. I wasn't the only one who had a problem, so I was relieved in that sense."

"Eileen asked me to have a drink."

"I don't know what you're talking about... but you're probably the one who wanted the strangest thing. I couldn't imagine what you were thinking back then."

Why did I become the master of Silver Bottle Pavilion? I'm sure Miralka understands that now - but it's kind of embarrassing to try to be specific.

"... but becoming an Alliance Master means you're gone. Both I and everyone were relieved. Everyone told me that it was no wonder you weren't there after the demon king crusade."

That was certainly what I was thinking. But I made a promise to Verlaine that he would come and pick up the Demon King's Talisman in five years.

If only to keep the promise, I would have returned to King's Landing in five years. The simple reason why you didn't choose it is embarrassing and unspeakable.

"... for you, we were like... staying in King's Landing?

I've never seen Miralka need strength to say anything like that.

I was supposed to hear that at any time. That was five years ago, when I left the royal palace, Miralka could have asked me.

But could I have been asked and answered at that time? Don't cover anything up, just do what you want.

"If I had stayed for that, I would have disgusted myself. I thought it was pathetic to say that."

"... yes. Then we shouldn't have heard anything."

I spent the last five years in King's Landing. I never imagined I'd made a different choice at that time.

"Even if Sphere had embraced that fate. Nothing went wrong when we met and she was born....."

"... I don't think I was wrong. I met Sphere....."

Meet Sphere. Don't fill your regrets with what you were able to spend with her.

But I still can't say that I was happy, or that I was happy in the past.

"... I keep thinking about her. But I won't stop anymore. I couldn't stop time, and I was worried about you."

"Verlaine told me about Miralka. I wasn't thinking about everybody... even today, I thought I might not see Miralka."

It's good to talk to you today. Otherwise, I would still be unable to raise my face and face the flow of time.

Miralka is looking at me. Her long eyelashes tremble and her eyes moisturize - but she doesn't miss her eyes.

"Don't think I'm crying without you."

I thought it was a wish, not a strength.

It's not a rejection, it's just a word to reassure me.

"If you are troubled in my absence, tell me that. If you don't promise me, I'll destroy you."

"... okay. Whenever possible, do good."

"... this is an unsatisfactory reply, but I'll forgive you now. Your personality is not something that can be changed. I think Sphere's laughing too."

Maybe so. Speer might have told me that I should have answered honestly in that case.

Miralka's right hand poking into her bed moved. Put on my lap and she closes her eyes.

I can't hear Fairy Bird. The hustle and bustle of the distant city reaches only a short distance.

He touches his golden hair and reaches out to Miralka's cheeks-at that moment.

I hear a knock from behind. Miralka opens her eyes slightly and leans back modestly after looking at me in front of her - with her hands on my shoulders.

"Miss Miralka, are you sure? I got a seal from the university."

"Uh, yeah... just a minute."

Miralka stood up and received the seal before returning to her bedroom. From behind the entrance, I'll see how we're doing.

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"Well, what's the matter...?

I can't find a good word for what to say. Miralka looked at me for a while, but eventually came into the room and sat next to me again.

"... can you promise not to tell anyone else about this yet?

"Ah, ah. Of course, I promise, but...."

Miralka says something. My face is bright red, and I can see it's getting hot - I wonder what we're doing.

"... I want to thank you. I'm a polite person to do that. Did you know that?

"Thank you....?

Miralka pounded on her lap as she looked at me and smiled bitterly.

"I've been nagging you before... because you seem to like it on my lap."

When I participated in the banquet in the Tiger tribe - I had Miralka take a lap pillow because of the circumstances. Should I say it was done when I noticed it?

There is no such thing now, and Miralka still says she will give me a lap pillow.

"Don't compare it to Verlaine. Be my cat without thinking."

"See, cat...?

"It's okay. You're always black, so you're like a black cat."

The reasoning was compelling, but no further objections were allowed. I can be pulled in the middle of nowhere and put my head on Miralka's lap.

I knew it, but when I lay down on my lap, it was very difficult to see Miralka's face.

"You don't have to look at my face, keep your eyes closed... yes... that's it..."

"... oh, I'm not relaxed..."

"Patience until you get used to it. I'm not used to it either."

Miralka strokes my head as if she were really stroking a cat. It makes me sneeze, but I can't complain because it can be undone.

--It's been a long time since your consciousness sank naturally. As you close your eyes, you can't resist and fall into a slump.

"... you can sleep like that. You should rest a little."

It's never too long before nightfall that I can sleep here.

Still, I wanted to sleep like this now. Allow yourself to be relieved by the presence of Miralka.