Heibon na Watashi wa Tonikaku Hibon

Twenty days after I was allowed to stay in the castle, I am now on an admirable carriage trip.

The carriage rocks quite a bit.

My motivation is due to heavy damage to my buttocks and hips and finally getting lightly drunk. I can be falling back.

Well, they kicked me out of the castle. Where I'm headed now is where they say "Beast Fang Forest".

Lady Ray said, a very dangerous place.

Mr. Tonic said a place I don't want to go again.

Lady Kleehardt said, a place to play.

... Well, I know very well that horns on ravens and little girls like me (not even my age) are not places where I can live by being left alone.

Or so I said, there's no option to refuse it to me.

I had no choice but to give up and take the prepared carriage last night.

What the Kings brought with them was money, food, clothing, etc., to an unfortunate extent.

What Lady Ray brought me was a large piece of paper painted by the magic formation and a small knife that was easy to wear.

What Mr. Tonic brought to me was a skinny one-handed sword, bow and arrow shaped close to a knife.

I kept getting rocked by the carriage with too few items to go where I would have to spend my life if I were to be bad from now on.

"Here we are."

Yes, I was called out when the time shifted from evening to night.

The carriage stopped, so if you go down, the depressed forest spreads in front of you.

"Um, could this be...?

"There is land and cabins reserved for you before you proceed through this forest. That's all we can deliver, so please proceed alone later. Bye."

He did not answer any of my questions, and whoever came with him so far as an escort said that and turned back his heel.

"... can't help it, can you?"

I can't fit in, but I can't stand still here, so I step out in the direction that I was told there was a cabin addressed to me.

Begin walking for a few minutes.

I think so.

Couldn't you have given me as much as Matsuaki?

Already the sun sets, and the moonlight does not even reach in the woods where greenery grows.

In other words, it is dark in front of you.

I can't see anything enough to make me want to doubt if I'm really opening my eyes.

It's an unthinkable darkness from the world before it was flooded with artificial lights.

I'm experiencing the real "dark" thing right now.

"" Lights. ""

Stick your left hand forward and chant that palm upwards.

Then, a lump of light about the baseball ball position lit up around the left hand palm.

Primary magic of light attributes.

It also consumes little magic.

I was wondering where to use it, but I found it to be an extra magic useful.

Let's treasure it.

I walked out again, expressing three lights around me.

I think the Night Forest is the right environment to stir up fear.

But this is the Beast Fang Forest.

A place of order different from the realm of those where many demons live.

I can see many signs in the darkness.

I can see several sharp eyes observing and alerting me and aiming at me.

Touch the sword you are raising on your hips to confirm its existence and breathe.

Oh, I'm afraid.

Really, why do I have to fit in like this?

They're the ones who got me involved, and I'm the "victim," so to speak.

Why should I be treated so unfairly when I am?

Because I'm powerless?

Because you have mediocre looks, no abilities, no cuteness, and average magic power?

Aren't those their own reasons?

I will not be the reason for this treatment.

Oh, I don't know what I'm doing anymore, really.

You can't help but laugh at the fact that you only "give up" when you're old, and then you hold on desperately.

If you say you can't do it, rebellion boils down, and if you don't know "reality", say something that stinks blue and strive to talk about ideals.

Because I don't like experiencing the habit of "reality", I laugh and stop walking when I break it down somewhat and this is the limit.

I'm not young enough to run after my dreams and truly believe that I can do it, and I don't know "reality".

I'm not even a person who could give up everything, accept laughter, and flow.

In a very halfway position, still Soko is the fact that "reality" I grabbed after "dreams".

I had a dream.

I wanted to make it happen.

There was something I wanted to do.

So I lived, worked, saved money, studied, scratched my feet.

But they were all snatched away in an instant.

To the extra awful "reality" of being "caught up".

I had a dream.

I wanted to make it happen.

There was something I wanted to do.

I was working hard for it.

I dreamed of the future and lived it.

Yet...

The people who took it all didn't even apologize to me and threw me out of the way and abandoned me.

I gave up when they told me I couldn't go back to the original world, and I still didn't like my helplessness, and I didn't like being inferior to the people who abandoned me that way, so I made an effort to get power.

I embraced reality, but I tried again with dreams that I was told I couldn't.

And here's the "reality" of those results.

In the end, I'm here because I can't even fulfill the dream of "I'll make them regret it" that excited me.

In the first place, on average, I couldn't have gained enough strength to get out of the country's heavy towns for 20 days or so.

I apologize to Lady Ray and Mr. Tonic for their cooperation, but I may have given up from the beginning.

He might have given up and still made an effort to build himself up... only to admit that he had to live in this world.

Yeah, after all, I can't even make my own "dream" come true no matter where I go.

I guess I'll never see Master Ray or Mr. Tonic again.

I have to live in this forest, scared, frightened, shrinking, afraid of when this life will be taken by things that are clearly stronger than me.

That's the reality that's spreading in front of me right now.

"Haha, sounds like Bakka"

The squeaky voice sounded unexpected.

"I look stupid... I look stupid... stupid!!

The emotions that I've been holding back overflow.

It is remorse, sadness, fear, humiliation, bewilderment, anger.

"You're kidding!! What do you think people's lives are? Should we do it ourselves!? Don't get people involved!! Give my life back!! Give me my dream back!! Give back my future!! Don't you want it if you don't have the strength!? Wouldn't it hurt your conscience to abandon someone from another world!? Is it natural for us to save ourselves from the same different worlds as I do!? Are there only idiots in this world!!!!

End of screaming and exhale with your shoulders.

The magic of the "light" went out because of the remarkable disturbance of emotions and the area was stained with darkness again.

Signs of the demons approach.

Without the lights, it's their part of the night.

You'll be willing to attack me and eat me.

"Don't be ridiculous... will they eat you? Will he die? Look at that. I will definitely survive and build my strength and one day I will make you regret ever abandoning me!! You can think of demons as the same crazy wildlife in the original world. I can't beat an animal opponent. Trainer, don't lick it!!

I worked in a pet store in the original world, and I had the title "Dog Trainer".

It's no exaggeration to say that there were no days in 22 years of my life when I didn't meet animals, and I was with them without getting tired of them every day.

I have dealt not only with dogs and cats and other animals, but also with deer, birds and animals on cows, pigs, chickens and horses, and even fish on raccoons, foxes and snakes at the end.

Although there are no wild lions on boulders, I have dealt with them if they are bears or pigs.

Even in the original world, there was a bit of unusual contact with animals, but I learned a lot from that.

"Don't human lick me, you bastard!!

Pulling out the hips sword and lighting the "light" again, I confronted the demons that were in line today.