Chapter 982 - 736: "Vent Your Anger"_2
Shen Tang paused in her movements but kept her head down and didn’t speak, continuing to treat his injuries.
Jin didn’t know what she was thinking, nor whether he should say these words, but they had been bottled up inside him for too long, and he wanted to voice them, "... There’s a trace of soul and memory left in that Crystal Core and that Memory Crystal Stone, I’ve looked at them all seriously..."
"Those memories, I remembered them all. I recalled past events, those days spent with you, so happy and joyful..."
"Tangtang, I wish to continue to stay by your side, is that alright?"
Shen Tang’s fingers trembled lightly, her emotions surged like tidal waves, drowning her heart.
Confusion, conflict, emotional stirrings, sadness... Too many emotions mixed together, leaving her at a loss.
Perhaps the man’s gaze was too intense and passionate, Shen Tang couldn’t resist such an aggressive gaze, she raised her head to meet his eyes and became a bit disoriented.
But in the end, she still resolutely shook her head, softly saying, "He’s not him."
Her previous mistake was due to her ignorance.
But now she couldn’t consider two people as one.
Shen Tang also didn’t want him to compromise and play another person just to stay by her side.
It’s unfair to Xiao Jin and to Shou Jin.
She would find it strange and feel sorry for Xiao Jin who died in battle for her.
Thinking to this point, Shen Tang’s previously chaotic thoughts became much clearer, her expression also cooled somewhat.
After treating the man’s injuries, she got up from the bed, "You should rest here, I’ll go to another room."
But as she was about to get up and leave, Jin suddenly grabbed her hand.
Shen Tang lost her balance and fell into his arms, tightly embraced by him, so forcefully as if he wanted to meld her into his bones and blood.
Jin said, "Then, if he comes back, will you still want him?"
Shen Tang’s heart trembled severely, she knew who he meant by "he".
Jin buried his head in the nook of her neck, took a deep breath, then relaxed his hold slightly, looking down at her, "Tangtang, there’s one thing you said wrong... Shou Jin is not Xiao Jin, but I am him."
What?
Shen Tang froze, not understanding what he meant.
"During the Star Gate battle, Xiao Jin’s body did indeed die."
"His Crystal Core was taken away by the Hand of Creation’s overseer, and that core contained his power and soul... Back then, when Shou Jin was hunted by Shou He, he had already fused a part of Xiao Jin’s soul."
"Later, when you gave him the remaining Crystal Core, the souls of the two completely merged."
Jin looked at her astonished expression, pursed his lips, and continued explaining, "Now, you can see me as any Jin! If I have to say, I’m the Xiao Jin you know best."
"At the moment of their complete fusion, Shou Jin actively gave up his consciousness, allowing more of ’Xiao Jin’s’ soul to occupy this body, becoming the person you love most."
Jin looked at her, his expression earnest, his eyes full of deep affection, "This choice was made because of you."
"Your love for Xiao Jin was so intense and dazzling, causing Shou Jin from within to yearn for, to envy, almost burning him... So in the end, he was willing to completely merge with Xiao Jin to become ’me’."
"He said to me—"
"Let me live for him, to love you well."
Shen Tang’s eyes widened even more, as if in disbelief, her chest heaving dramatically.
After he finished speaking, tears suddenly welled up red in her eyes, uncontrollably falling down.
She didn’t understand why she was crying, just felt her heart aching... Is that how it is...
Jin reached out to wipe the moisture from the corner of her eyes, his voice uncharacteristically tender, "Tangtang, don’t cry, no matter who it is, none of us wish for you to shed tears because of us."
"The souls and memories of Xiao Jin and Shou Jin have merged to become the present me. I am both of them, and neither of them, can be any Jin... But regardless, we all deeply love you, with an additional love, we love you even more."
When Jin said these words, a hint of conflict flashed in his eyes, his voice grew hoarser.
Actually, there was a period when he was very confused too, unsure of who he was, whether he was Xiao Jin or Shou Jin.
Because he possessed all the memories and feelings of both.
Rather than saying he is either, it’s better to say that both are him.
Who she wanted him to be, that’s who he would be.
He gazed deeply at the female in front of him, "Tangtang, whether for Xiao Jin or Shou Jin, the most important thing is you."
Seeing Shen Tang’s eyes grow redder and redder, Jin was at a loss, not knowing how to comfort her. He’s naturally straightforward, not the kind of person who is particularly good at coaxing.
He comforted her rather clumsily, "Don’t be sad, Tangtang, aren’t we fine now? If... if you truly dislike Shou Jin! I can forever seal off the memories related to ’him’! I am simply your Xiao Jin, the Xiao Jin you know and love the most, we can be just like we were before, alright?"
Shen Tang stabilized her emotions, raised her hand to hold his arm, shook her head, "Don’t... You don’t have to do that."
Shen Tang wasn’t a three-year-old child, she knew there were many regrets in reality. Some things have happened, and the pain of loss is destined to be endured.
Back then, she had accepted the fact of Xiao Jin dying in battle.
Later learning that there was still a Crystal Core of his was an unexpected joy.
However, having finally obtained the Crystal Core, fate made her make a choice again.
Ultimately, she chose to give half of the Crystal Core to Shou Jin.
At the moment she made the choice, she was already prepared to lose forever.
And now the situation is much better than she imagined.
At least, in a certain sense, they who should have died are alive.
Jin is the existence of both living.
"So, have you forgiven me?" Jin’s eyes shone brightly as he looked at her, both excited and anxious as he asked.
Shen Tang collected her emotions, looking at the man in front of her, still the familiar handsome appearance and expression, along with those deep, intense, and sincere golden eyes.
At this moment, she reflected him in her eyes, unable to hold anyone else.
She had actually forgiven him long ago... But, she couldn’t let him succeed so easily!
Shen Tang pursed her lips, turned her face away, deliberately said, "I can let you stay, but considering all the harsh words you said before, there must be some sort of punishment."
When Jin heard her first words, he was almost so excited he couldn’t help but transform into his beast form, break through the windows, run around the entire Floating Island for three hundred laps, then roar to the sky three hundred times!
But he quickly suppressed his impulse, grinning broadly and saying with joy and urgency, "Tangtang, punish me then! Take it out on me any way you like!"
"As long as you can forgive me and let me stay, you can do anything to me!"