Hero’s Redo ~ A Hero That Once Saved the World Reborn as a Girl ~

- Ciel point of view

It's been a whole day since I brought Lapis into my room. She doesn't wake up just to be done sometimes. I don't know if the wound hurts or if we're having a nightmare, but we sat back and watched. And the second morning, she finally opened her eyes.

"Mm.................."

"... Lapis!

We jumped out loud at Karin, who was taking turns to see her. Originally it was a room with no bed or anything, so she was put to sleep in a simple bed made from several layers of sleeping bags to make it easier to sleep. You weren't comfortable sleeping, Lapis was making wrinkles between her eyebrows. She moved her mouth small when she glanced at us surrounding her like that with emotionally unseemly eyes.

"... are you alive"

It was - like I couldn't think of from my regular girlfriend, a dark whine. Four people breathing unexpectedly. Let's apologize when we wake up. I'm sure you're angry, but I'll apologize more than once. The determination I had thought so was shattered and scattered with the atmosphere she unleashed.

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My mouth dries to a crisp. You have to say something, but no one can say anything. I don't even know what to say. Lapis closed her eyes again because we couldn't even grasp the cut of the story, just annoyed ourselves staring at ourselves with a blue face.

"Why did you help... I wish you'd let me die..."

When we heard the words, we thought of our sins. She was always bright, energetic, and even positive, so much that she wanted to die. At the edge of her meditated eyes is a slightly glowing object. When I saw it, I realized that my body was shaking fine.

"... sorry"

When Karin says that in a blushing voice, Lapis' eyes open up loudly.

"... why are you apologizing? I'm the one who was fooling everyone."

"I... we... don't care about that. I just want to apologize for hurting Lapis."

"Why...............!

Strong mouth rings tight. Looks like she tried to yell something when her eaten mouth was opened and she woke up reflexively, but when she exhaled deeply she lay down again.

"............... leave me alone because I'm tired"

Once she closed her eyes hard, saying so as to whine, she hid her face with an arm that was still only to her wrist. I couldn't resist, and we looked back and left the room behind. I've just come to this wide-open temple, and I'm not sure I'm going anywhere, but I wanted to do what she wanted for now. She walked into the room with nothing to say when she glanced at us, although she and Serene met face to face by mistake.

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After Karin and the others left, I was holding my head like a child, eating my teeth all together. Instead of desperately wanting to scream out, my voice leaked from the back of my throat. Self-loathing makes me want to die. I didn't know I was such a pitiful guy. The fact that I was lying, the regret that hit them eight, circles around my head. I escaped lying and tried to fight Tiamato in a depressing and clear mood, and I had no hands or legs, and died eating a brace that would have been avoided if it were normal for me to mention it. Half a man who cannot live or die.

I'm afraid to face them. I'm afraid they'll dispute me for throwing out my duties as a brave man. Why don't you take the lead and stand up to the Demon King - just thinking about being blamed for that makes me feel so sick that I'm going to throw up. I went out strong to prevent that, and I hurt them for worrying about the mention. Oh...... I don't like it! Why am I so weak! But I kind of know why. Even though I never felt this fear when I fought any demons or that demon king. This is like something different from the fear you feel in battle. People-to-person. It didn't have anything to do with the ability to fight, it just scared me more than anything about the friction that happens when I connect with people.

Come to think of it, I've had unusual training repeatedly since I was a kid, and I've never been close to other kids. I've never even been friends with anyone in the world. The people I traveled with were adults, for better or worse, and it was easier that way for me, but I wasn't treating them as friends. I didn't have the life experience of a normal person to say that at all. Stupid kid who pulled into the mountains in his late teens and wasted over three hundred years just getting old. That's me.

"That's right...... I've only been out of town since I worked properly... There is so much without the public knowing..."

"What are you talking about?

Surprised that he was suddenly spoken to, a severe pain ran all over his body where he was about to wake up reflexively.

"Gu...!

"Damn, I feel sorry for what would be a brave man. How long have you been guzzling?

When I looked at the Lord of my voice as I wept in pain, there was Serene sitting on a tray with a meal on it.

"... were you watching?

"Yeah. All of it."

Makes me want to hold my head in. I can't believe old acquaintances see this place...! She - Serene and I fought a little over 300 years ago. I was a man at the time, and I took to this temple for training, and I tried to fight Tiamato, the Dragon King. But it was this Serene who put the wait on it. Now it was time to calm down, but at the time she was bloody and stripped of her hostility to the unholy man who challenged their king to battle. So after fighting her with both arms trials, the battle ends with my overwhelming victory. She didn't get her hands or feet on the human flair and the beings she was looking down on. She seems to have been quite hurt, something that for a while had shrunk that giant small and depressed. After that, the person - no, Serene, grown up like a dragon changed, began to imitate the maid as if she were a person now. What's she doing that for...? She talks to me with the same voice that keeps her cold eyes and emotions from happening.

"If my guess is correct, Daiwa, I was worried the other way if I thought your lie would be disputed for being found out, and I just said I hit eight out of embarrassment and pity?

"Gu!"

As I've seen......! That's what you were looking at...

"That's right. Serene is right. You were supposed to lie and hurt me, but on the contrary, I'm more worried about you. To the point of hitting eight...... I don't know what to do...!

Even if you shake your hand free arm, Serene still hasn't changed her expression.

"Are you sure you don't understand?

"Ha... Serene can come up with a solution? Even though you're not human?

I tried to tell her to provoke me, but she doesn't look like she's coming on it. But instead, I got a voice back that sounded like I made a fool of myself.

"Shouldn't I apologize? I'm sorry I lied. He said he was sorry he hit eight. Sure, the lies you were lying about aren't mild, but they were still desperately trying to help you, weren't they? Worry about it. Do you throw away people who cry for you because you're scared?

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Serene stares at me with no words to give back.

"Once upon a time, you asked me about you when you brought me down. I was wondering why you're so strong. I wonder if you are not afraid of recklessness, death, such as challenging Dear Tiamato on your own. What did you say then?

Oh...... I remember. A huge, hurtful, fallen dragon was making you wonder when you heard my answer.

"... because you are a brave man. A brave man is a courageous man. It is the brave man who swallows every fear and still fights at the head of the people. So I get stronger. Let even the Dragon King go over it to gain the strength to beat any difficulties... that's what you said"

"That's right. But now you have... no shadow to see."

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I changed my name, I changed my appearance, I even changed my way of life. I lay face down unexpectedly with my contemptuous eyes pointed at me. No... no. She is as usual. I just feel that way because I'm being humble. She should be what she usually is. But I can't get my face up. I can't say anything anymore, Serene, and I'm not trying to talk about anything. Silence dominates the room. Eventually you lost interest, Serene turned her back with Tray on my side.

"Why don't you just chill your head a little? You can always fight Master Tiamato. You can hit the outside air and think about how you're going to shake yourself in the future."

That's all I said, Serene and I just left the room behind. Left alone, I just stare at the rising soup of hot air. I can't think together. Serene's right, it's best to apologize. I know that. I know, but... I still don't get the energy to move on to action. I reached for a meal unconsciously and for the first time realized I had no hands, so much so that I finally magically recovered my body.

I would carry a bite, two bites and soup to my mouth, but I didn't really feel the taste.

"... right. Shall we go outside for a moment..."

It would be better than being closed and caged in a small room. I thought so, and I turned my foot outside the temple.