His Royal Highness's cats are very hairy.

Episode 45: Disengagement

When I went back to the room, I lost more strength and came to the spot.

"Lady!"

Supported by a rushing millet, he managed to get to the chair, but Adaline didn't feel he could walk another step.

"What the hell happened!?

Your Highness was attacked by a thief.

Deo explains to Millet that it was a bow club.

"Well, I don't know... But I'm glad your Highness is safe."

"The lady seems terribly surprised… please come back later. If you need anything, I'll be outside."

"Yeah. Thanks, Deo"

Even when Deo left the room, Adaline couldn't even drop him off.

In my head, I see Bianca with a sword and Rutvias' "Bibi! 'The cry is swirling in its place.

From now on, why didn't you notice?

I guess what Bianca was talking about was Rutvias, a lover from Rud Saxseed, and there was Bianca near Shiva's stables, waiting for Rutvias.

Remembering Bianca's fluent tone, tears seeped into Adeline's eyes.

"Ma'am? What's up?

……

I can't even respond to Millet I'm worried about.

The reason Bianca was able to manipulate Rude Succeed's words by the time she was acting as an interpreter was because Rutvias taught them. Rutvias wondered with what thoughts he taught Bianca the words. I must have taught her to be queen, to take her back to her native land one day.

Adeline desperately felt the urge to scream. But I can't help overflowing tears.

"Ma'am. You were so horrible. Don't worry about it."

"Millet... about that..."

"Huh?"

"Looking for people... that's enough."

"... Are you sure?

"Yeah, 'cause they found me"

Millet's complexion changed.

"... what did you say?

Don't worry about it.

"Lady!"

Concon and the door rang, and Deo's voice sounded.

"Your Highness is in sight."

"No!!

Millet wolfed at Adeline, who shouted unexpectedly.

"Lady? But..."

"Don't come in!

When he shouted again and stood up, Adaline jumped into the next room where he continued with the door.

"Lady!?

Adeline closes the door of that room, which is the bedroom, full of strength from the inside.

"Ma'am! What's wrong!

"Don't come in! Leave me alone!

I can't stop crying. If I see Rutvias now, I don't know what I'm going to say.

"Millet, will you take it off"

Adeline froze to the voice she heard across the door. Right there, separated by a door, is Rutvias.

"Yes, sir..."

While Millet was bewildered, I felt signs of moving away.

"... no! Millet! Don't go!

Adeline's desperate screams were also murky, and the sound of Millet's shoes kept away, and the door closed. Millet seems to have left.

-... what shall we do...

While holding the door tight with both hands so that it doesn't open, Adeline searches for a grate and escape route, but of course she can't find anything like it anywhere.

"... open it"

To a quiet voice, Adaline shrugged and shook her head.

"... Yikes, no!

"Adeline."

"Please... eh"

I need some more time. Then I can calm down, calm down and behave like a queen.

But now Adeline is just a jealous crazy woman. I'm sure I'm going to say something outrageous. It demeans Bianca and blames Rutvias.

-... calm down, calm down.

Trying to get your breathing done doesn't work. My throat is so bitter, my tears flood me.

"Adeline? Are you crying?

"..."

How many times have you heard this word of Rutvias...

I wonder how many times I'll repeat it in the future. How many times do I have to repeat the thought of such a crushed chest?

-... no more, no...

I hate to suffer. Above all, I hate myself so much that I can't wish Rutvias happiness that I want to kill him.

"I..."

My lips, they trembled. I feel like I'm trying to say something irrevocable. But I couldn't think of swallowing the words that made me sound with my throat.

"I can't marry you."

Tears stopped.

-... oh, me...

This is what I've always wanted to say, Adeline realized. I think I got a heavy load off my shoulder. All the time, it was heavy and heavy and I couldn't wait. But for the sake of being beside Rutvias, Adeline was finally ready to unload the obligation she had to marry, even though she was not loved. And once I put it down, I can't hold it up again,

"... what do you mean?

Rutvias' voice felt lower. It feels floating, like it's not real. blurry, Adeline replied.

"dissolve your engagement"

It was strange. I can't wait to hear Rutvias say that word, but it's Adeline who's talking to Rutvias now.

"... why?

Rutvias' voice asking felt faintly trembling, but Adeline didn't care. The wedding is in a few days. It is now obvious that there will be a fuss, such as the dissolution of the engagement. I guess Rutvias is terrified of that.

"... Reason...?

"Why are you saying that all of a sudden? You'd have a reason, wouldn't you?

……

There is a reason. Because it's hard not to be loved by Rutvias. Because I can't stand to marry without being loved and keep watching Rutvias, who loves Bianca more beside me than anyone else.

-... that... I can't tell you.

With that said, it would be misleading to say that Adeline is in love with Rutvias. If Adeline's feelings were known to Rutvias, I'm sure he would keep Bianca away. Take pity on your fiancée, who has been given a disproportionate position and status for a minute, and try to prioritize Adaline's feelings over her own happiness. I can't afford such pity anymore. If you don't have love, I don't want you to be nice to Adeline. I don't want you to hug me. I don't want you laughing anymore.

"... is it Bianca's fault?

"Huh?"

"You've already noticed, haven't you? Bianca was my... lover."

"... eh"

A new blood erupted from Adaline's crushed chest into the poked truth. Even though I knew it, the pain swells beyond analogy just to be said directly from Rutvias' mouth.

"Is that why you said you were disengaged? You think I'm gonna mess with you?

I've never been worried about that. I'm sure he will treat even his unloved wife as dearly as he does his beloved side room. How can I tell Rutvias that I don't like that?

-... but I don't need to tell you anymore...

Because the engagement is dissolved.

"... listen"

From the voice I could hear from across the door, I felt frustrated. Rutvias is diligently suppressing his emotions.

"What I didn't tell you right away... was bad. I'm sorry, but Bianca and I are nothing anymore. If you still care about Bianca..."

"Ruto, that's enough."

"... Adeline?

Don't force yourself to curb your frustration with Adeline. You don't have to bite down your feelings for Bianca. That's all right. I want Rutvias to hold hands with those he loves as he pleases. I can't bless that from the bottom of my heart. I should disappear.

-... oh, those flowers...

Rutvias must have known the flower words of Kim Young-hwa.

That's why I gave it to Adeline.

I'll never forget Bianca... I want Adeline to understand that because I can't get rid of that thought.

"Ask my father... to adopt Bianca as the Marcelio family's..."

"... what?

"It's okay. I'll make sure we get the process done by the wedding..."

That way, Rutvias and the daughter of the Marcelio family will get married in shape. The wedding will be held as planned, as will the political equilibrium within Rude Saxonyd. My father will surely go mad and disagree greatly, but if Adeline rubs her forehead into the dirt and asks for it, he will surely understand.

-... all I can do for you... because that's all I can do anymore...

"... that much more..."

To Rutvias' voice, Adeline raised her face. I wonder why you have such a dark voice

"... rut?

"... that much... you don't like marrying me?

The words rippled into Adaline's heart, like stones thrown on the lake. Tears that should have stopped fall from the polarity and the eyeballs.

-... I don't like it, it can't be...

There's no way I don't like it. Being Rutvias' bride was Adeline's dream from an early age. But that just doesn't mean I want to laugh next to Rutvias, in a pure white costume.

-... I just wanted to be loved...

I don't need the status of queen or anything, as long as Rutvias loves me. People's blessings, they don't even need their lives.

Swallow the tears, Adeline squeezes the words.

"... dislike... nothing..."

Adeline's emotions dripping from her jaw create a small build-up of water on the floor.

"... we're not politically married."

There's no need for love. Yet the Adeline I sought is bad. This is all Adeline deserves. If I hadn't even fallen in love with Rutvias, everything would have worked out. If I hadn't even fallen in love, I would have been beside you.

"... open it"

The door rang.

"Yes, no..."

Adeline shakes her head. It was horrible to see Rutvias' face. I don't want to like him any more.

"Open it!"

Dong, and stronger, the door is slammed.

"... no. Please, don't come..."

"Just open it!!

Bang!

Adaline accidentally let go of her hand to the shock of knocking on the door. The door, which eliminates restraint, loosens a slight gap as it shrugs, and a beautiful finger is inserted into that gap.

"Le..."

At the next moment, the door opened all at once. A dirty coat sways in dust and blood, and Rutvias steps out against Adeline. That step took the accumulation of water made of Adaline's tears.

-... blood?

Did Bianca and the knights get wounded somewhere when they thought they were protecting Rutvias?

"... injure...?

"Well, for you, I'm the only one in a political marriage."

He didn't seem to hear Rutvias, such as Adeline's inquiry.

"Le... t?

"... you're useless... no matter how much I think..."

Adeline didn't know what Rutvias was talking about.

Rutvias approached Adeline early enough, and grabbed Adeline's arm, which lagged behind. Its power is strong, and Adeline frowns.

"Eh..."

Adeline, who was turned up trying to shake, was deprived of her lips without having time to close her eyes.

-... to...?

Rutvias went away once, but he changes his angle and immediately mouths deeper.

"Yah..."

Adeline resisted, but her arms were much stronger and thicker than Adeline's just to look thin.

"... ugh..."

I try to shake my hand off, but Rutvias' fingers are just powered and eaten into Adeline's arms. They grabbed the back of my neck at some point and I can't even turn my head against it.

"... deline..."

"..."

He was called by name with a plundered voice between his breaths, and his spine crept sweetly and paralyzed. A thick tongue sweeps through Adeline's dentition. The drunkenness begins to turn to the body and Adeline's knees lose strength.

"Shh..."

I thought I was going to fall on the floor, and what I felt on my back was the feel of a soft cloth. As soon as possible, Adaline's consciousness awakens. I wondered what Rutvias was up to.

"Stop!

I try to get up but my wrists are fixed next to my ears each and I don't even get my shoulders up.

"Rut!"

"... don't"

"No favors... eh"

"Something to let go of... Huh!

Adeline is stunned by the look on Rutvias's face she looks up to.

-... why?

I've seen it many times. A crying, lonely look.

As Adeline says, if we make Bianca the adopted daughter of the Marcelio family, Rutvias can marry Bianca. Why do you look like this when you can make a wife a woman you can love and burn?

Rutvias' tongue crawled through Adeline's neck.

"... urt..."

"... you haven't disappeared yet"

When she heard Rutvias tell her to relieve herself, Adeline remembered that she had been traced to the place last night. A thin lip sucks there, and Adeline speaks out for a pain similar to paralysis.

"... ah"

I couldn't stop trembling. Adeline's fingers tangled with long fingers like artwork.

"... don't... don't l..."

Even the plea gets swallowed up by the mouthpiece.

As it is, it will put new heavy shackles on Rutvias again. He is trying to shackle himself for Adeline. I can't let that happen.

"... ugh... no..."

Adeline waves her arm and bumps her leg. But I can't shake Rutvias' body covering Adeline, even though he won't be wearing his whole weight. He told his eyes and tears wet his ears.

"Please... eh"

Rutvias can be freed from Adeline by now. We should be liberated. Adeline finally let go, so I want you to fly wherever you want and be happy. I want you to be happy. I want you to be happy. That's all, because I mean it.

"... stop... stop rut!

In a sad cry, Rutvias' hand stopped.

Bi's eyes shake peeking from his long forehead, and the maddening heat that dwelt there cools all at once.

"... rut..."

"... I..."

Phew, and Rutvias shivers his lips. He seemed to be crying.

"I... just made you cry..."

Like holding his head, Rutvias covers his face with one hand. It's the usual, example habit.

"... I don't want to make you cry..."

Adeline reached out to him aggressively to a fine voice that was really crying. But the hand empties. Just before Adeline's fingers stroked Rutvias' hair, he got up on his knees.

"... sorry"

Apologizing with a blur, leaving Adeline lying on the bedside intact, Rutvias went out of the bedroom and out of Adeline's room. There is no stopping hiccups, no dropping them off, and Adeline stares at the blurry ceiling.

I wanted it that way myself, but my heart was overwhelmed when Rutvias left.

-... as it is... if it becomes Ruto's...

In the form of taking responsibility, Rutvias would have welcomed Adeline as his bride. Adaline was able to marry him. But what's the point? I turned to pity and just got married with the intention of making amends, isn't it sympathy in the end? What Adeline wants, she still doesn't.

"... ugh..."

Tears abound. Now we say goodbye. Rutvias and I will surely never see each other again. When the crying rose up his throat. I heard crouching and turning the keyhole.

"... Huh?

Adeline gets up. I knocked through the bedroom door that was left open, crossed the room, and put my hand on the handle of the door that leads to the hallway -...

"... rut!?

The handle doesn't move. It's locked from the hallway.

"Are you a rut!? What do you mean!?

"Please don't let Adeline out of the room without my permission."

I heard Rutvias' cat. But it was not sent out against Adeline.

"But Your Highness... what are your daughter's plans for this afternoon's official business..."

Rutvias' voice is so cold and calm as to tremble against Millet's wolf voice.

"The Chancellor's Lady is ill and asleep. You can give me my name if you need me."

"Your Highness... but I can't believe I locked you in..."

Rutvias doesn't seem willing to listen to Millet's desperate appeal. A familiar shoe noise keeps the marble hallway away.

"Oh, not really! Your Highness!"

"Rut! Rut! Wait!"

On top of Millet's voice chasing him, Adaline screamed as well.

"Rut! Wait! Get me out of here!

Even knocking on the door with a bang and complaining, Rutvias' footsteps eventually became inaudible.

"... lying..."

Rutvias' "Sorry" earlier was about this.

"Lady..."

"Millet? Millet, please. Open up here!

"So, but..."

Millet should be able to procure the key, but it still seems daunting to defy the prince's orders. She has had Rutvias deceived once before.

"I ask Your Highness to forgive me again."

Patterns and footsteps keep away.

With her hands on the door, Adeline sat back as she drifted onto the spot.

-... how could you... do this...?

Put your hands on your neck. I can't see it, but there's a mark on Rutvias' mouth. My eyelids get hot and Adeline grates her eyelids.

"I... just made you cry..."

In darkened vision, Rutvias' grunt fell.

'... I don't want to make you cry...'

I wonder what the hell I did wrong. Even Adeline didn't want Rutvias to look like that.

The overflowing tears also created a reservoir of water on the floor.