Holding Onto My Man

Fu Junli slowly opened the book with the words Poems written on the outside, and there were beautiful ink marks on the snow-white paper.

The above are not stunning works, but simple records of mood, no rhyme, no writing, just some ordinary words.

"...Today I finally saw the young master. He is still as handsome and elegant as the rumored cold and terrifying side, but very gentle. He also hugged me, so warm embrace, so warm that I dare not speak. ..."

"He praised my eyes are beautiful, many people say that my eyes are beautiful, but I have never been so happy, he also asked me if I like orchids, I said yes... Actually I don't like orchids, I saw His yard is full of orchids. I guess he likes orchids to smoke them. I wanted to talk to him, but I never had a chance. I thought about it since the first day I saw him..."

"Young Master actually let me stay in his yard to recuperate. He even let me live in his yard. He said he asked me to call him Brother Junli. Why is he so gentle to me?... No, he was not treating me. , It should be someone named'Lianzhi', he seemed to be whispering a name called Lianzhi that day..."

"...The weather today is very good. Brother Junli was very interested and asked someone to put a guqin in the yard. He is really a talented man. He is a brilliant Tsinghua and has a peerless elegance... I must have the courage to invite him to play with me on the piano and flute. I thought about this scene countless times in my dream, but I played the flute, but he did not play the piano. Brother Junli looked at me, his eyes blurred again, as if he was looking at another person... his chest suddenly It hurts, I left quickly..."

"Who is that person named Lianzhi? Who is Brother Junli? Does he look like me? Why does Brother Junli always stare at me and whisper that name? He always looks at me with eyes as if Look at another person... he is kind to me and gentle to me because he treats me as Lianzhi..."

"Brother Junli only regarded me as a shadow, the shadow of Lianzhi, if it weren't for Lianzhi, he would never have looked at me in his life, but I am Yunxi, I am not Lianzhi, I am Yunxi, I I like red clothes, Tanxiang, and Xiaosheng..."

"...Today, Brother Junli told me who Lianzhi was. He was a son of peerless elegance. He was a young man who had a deep affection for Brother Junli. His clothes became wider and he didn't regret it, and he was haggard for Iraq. Brother Junli thought about that young man for eight full years..."

"Brother Junli asked me: Enter my lovesickness door, know that I am sad, long lovesick, long lovesickness, short lovesickness is endless, Yunxi, do you understand?..."

"I understand, I understand, I really understand... I knew it from the first sight of Brother Junli on the day I entered the mansion, Brother Junli, Yunxi had such shameless thoughts towards you..."

"...Lianzhi appeared. At the palace banquet today, I saw Lianzhi in Brother Junli's mouth. He is really a peerless young man. No wonder I missed Brother Junli like that..."

"Brother Junli looked at Master Lianzhi's eyes so gentle and gentle, so full of the friendship I dream of, but he loves Master Lianzhi, he loves Lianzhi, loves Lianzhi... If he could love me... …"

"In the carriage, Brother Junli looked sad, yes, although he found Lianzhi, Young Master Lianzhi is the prince's person, and the prince is noble, how can Brother Junli have the opportunity to compete with the prince for beauty..."

"I want to persuade Brother Junli to give up, but I can't tell. Brother Junli has such affection for Young Master Lianzhi. He has been looking for Young Master Lianzhi for eight years. If he can't be with Young Master Lianzhi, would he? I will continue to be unhappy, and I will continue to miss..."

"Perhaps I can help him... At the banquet, the prince looked at me with strange eyes. I guess he must have taken a look at me. If I go to ask the prince, maybe Brother Junli and Lord Lianzhi will have a chance... "

"...Today, when I entered the palace, I begged the prince to reward Brother Lianzhi to Brother Junli. The prince agreed, but the condition was that I had to be his man... Then, I took off my clothes, it didn’t matter, as long as Brother Junli It’s good to be able to do so. He used to only regard me as the shadow of Lord Lianzhi, but now the real Lianzhi is back, no need for the shadow..."

"But I still can't help crying. I tried very hard to bear it, but I couldn't help it. I really want to tell him that I am not a shadow of someone. Don't think of me as a shadow. Don't see others through me. Yunxi, Brother Junli, do you know? Do you know that I am Yunxi... Yunxi is pleased with you, but you don't know, and don't want to know, because you only love Lianzhi..."

"Brother Junli is getting unhappy more and more because of Lord Lianzhi, don't you worry, Brother Junli, Lord Lianzhi will be back soon, and the prince promised me that he will give Lord Lianzhi to you, and it will stop there. Your lovesickness..."

"Acacia and Acacia... Linglong dice An Hongdou, I don't know about Acacia, brother Junli, you don't know, you don't know..."

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Looking at the ink marks on the poem collection, Fu Junli saw the smile of a bright young boy in his mind. He only felt that his heart was like a knife. The boy's appearance had never been clearer in his heart.

He always thought that he was treating the boy as Lianzhi, but it was not. Maybe it was at first, but it was not later.

The boy and Lianzhi are different, even if they have the same colored eyes, the expressions blooming inside are different.

But the long-standing obsession with Lianzhi made him unable to see his heart. Every time he was attracted by the brilliance of the youth, he always told himself that it was because of the shadow of Lianzhi on his body.

But at this moment, Lianzhi was by his side, but his mind was the shadow of a young man.

"Linglong Dice An Red Bean, I don't know about Acacia, hehehehehehe, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know..."

Fu Junli chewed these words repeatedly, crying and laughing, anger and idiot.

When the hidden truth surfaced, the word Yunxi was carved into his heart...

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Gu Bai never saw Fu Junli again.

Fu Junli begged his aunt Xianfei to come into the palace to find him, and risked disrespect to hunt him in the entire palace, but he did not see Fu Junli, and Ji Changyin would not let him see.

That man was as domineering and stubborn as ever, and he couldn't wait to hide him in the golden room. Don't look at anyone. Even Du Haitang and the man ordered to be summoned into the palace instead of letting him out.

Such a powerful and domineering is really dumbfounding, if others can't stand it, but he is willing to accept it.

Because he didn't know when the next time he saw a man again, whether they would have to wait thousands of years to meet again in thousands of worlds.

As for Fu Junli, although he had never seen him again, Gu Bai could still hear about him.

I heard that after Fu Junli returned from the palace, the whole person changed, became more silent and colder.

He doesn't care about family affairs and business, either shutting himself up in the study or standing in the yard to play down. He often plays for a whole day. The melancholy and madness in his eyes is shocking.

But when he saw another young man named Lianzhi, he would calm down again, touching each other's eyes gently and affectionately.

But when the opponent accidentally smashed a jade jade flute he was carrying with him, he went crazy again and slapped the opponent's board severely, until the opponent almost got half-life.

From then on, Lianzhi did not dare to touch any of his things. Every day, she only dared to wear red clothes, smoke Tanxiang, and play the jade flute, listening to him touching his eyes and calling the name'Yunxi'...

Gu Bai went back to Fu Mansion once without telling Ji Changyin.

He saw that Fu Junli's study was full of scrolls, and the scrolls were all a teenager, and that was what Du Yunxi looked like.

The above may be panicking, or smiling, or shy, or charming, or fascinating, each scroll is endlessly lingering, endless thoughts.

Until this moment, he felt that the emotion of the original owner in his chest finally disappeared without a trace.

Du Yunxi’s wish was Fu Junli’s deep love, the lingering love, the deep love he would miss forever. He finally got it. From then on, there was only the word'Yunxi' in that person's heart...

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In this world, just like before, Gu Bai stayed by Ji Changyin's side and never left. In addition to the man's dominance, he also had his willingness.

After Ji Changyin ascended to the throne, except for his harem, there was no other concubine to favor with concubines. Courtiers played and asked him to be included in the concubine and leave the heirs, but he was always very stubborn.

After being the emperor for a few years, he abdicated and became the regent. In this way, no one would continue to play to ask him to accept his concubine and keep his heirs. The courtiers were secretly alarmed.

Gu Bai couldn't deny that even if this person was reborn, his shadow was engraved in his soul, enough to know his place in his heart.

Before Ji Changyin died, Gu Bai looked at the deep love in his eyes, and only felt that the heart in his chest felt sore and painful that he had never experienced before.

At this moment, he felt that he was no longer indifferent, he had a heart that could beat with flesh and blood.

The moment Ji Changyin closed his eyes, he almost had the urge to go with him. He experienced the unforgettable heart flow. He didn’t know that he had persisted in living, and living without a heartbeat. What meaning.

The mysterious master said that if he indulges in the world, he will die.

Staring at Ji Changyin, who was already breathless, Gu Bai felt that his soul seemed to be lightening, and there was a feeling that it would dissipate at any time.

At the last moment, the surrounding space was distorted, and his soul was withdrawn from his body, wrapped in a powerful force and pulled back into the starry sky...