How to Live as the Enemy Prince

Father.

I didn't bother to think about him.

On a day when I thought of it, I thought of it as stiff skin. I thought it was a wound that became harder when I got sick.

I have lost a lot because of him, but I have gained a lot because of him, so I was satisfied with living like this. I decided to live with that, and I lived with that. I didn't want to think about anything else and didn't try and couldn't do it.

Somewhere in this land, I knew that snake-like creature was breathing again, but he also tried not to care.

"Instant, congratulations in advance. '

He'll be out of breath soon anyway.

Whether he brought in Tensyl's healer or not, even if he didn't intervene in that matter, his condition will get worse. In the past.

But...

Maybe he really didn't know.

Maybe he didn't want to know.

- Not in the past, anyway.

That's all Arianne said.

Unfortunately, Calian understands. Without further questions, I immediately understood.

A young drop of water rolled over the cup.

Staring at it dazed.

"· · · · · · · town!"

I feel nauseous.

I couldn't tell whether I was going to vomit or shame or memory or guilt or regret, and I couldn't tell the whole thing apart, but I felt nauseous because I couldn't bear to wear my teeth.

By pretending not to see Bern's shadow, he didn't respect Chase by trying to ignore Chase's darkness like he protected Bern. How else could I have understood that straight away?

So Bern really didn't know.

Or maybe he didn't want to know.

I was never going to tell you, and I didn't want to interrupt, but things got a little weird, and I thought I should tell you. I'm sorry I put you on a pedestal.

After a long time, Arianne said, "I didn't expect it to be okay." I don't know what happened, but Arianne told Kalian whatever she wanted to keep secret.

- Something else happened to Prince Chase.

When Calian hears this, he pretends to be calm and asks:

If something bad had happened to Chase, he wouldn't have stayed at Arianne's house forever, but I couldn't help but feel anxious.

- No, nothing yet. It's the Oval Office. I'm just sleeping. I put you to sleep because I wanted to talk to you.

Callian hears this and covers his face with his hands.

While I felt like I was spinning in my head, a laughter appeared. A word of solitude flows through the ring that will not be delivered.

"Oh, I put him to sleep again."

Callian doesn't sleep when he has something to think about, and Chase doesn't sleep when he has something to think about. Chase lived with insomnia as a habit. After seeing it, Arianne raised the heat to put Chase to sleep.

The problem is that Arianne didn't have any 'slips' in her magic.

- Don't do it too often. It's bad for sleeping pills.

Did I do that before? Don't worry. I'll be in good health for a long time with the three of us.

Same answer as that one day.

Suddenly, I remember the day I came to this room, carried on Kiri's back. I had a lot of drinking days with Kiri, and every time she carried a Bern and talked about what she had come down from the spire.

The day I fell asleep forgetting the boundaries of reality and the past.

It felt just like that day, so Calian stared at the cold mint car Jan worked so hard to make. In order not to keep my eyes on anything else, I only looked at the mint leaves floating on the car and shaking.

I tried not to confuse the past with the present.

My condolences.

- Anyway, I have to finish talking before he wakes up. Earlier, you asked me why I was in a civil war, and you misunderstood.

Arianne brings back the story she originally shared, as if she were looking into Calian's thoughts.

- I sent Tailan to protect my mother and my family, not to confront you. I was able to defend myself enough, and I didn't, so I just accepted Tailan's protection, nothing else. They're not gathering any soldiers. First of all, I'm going to make sure that only one person is clean enough to give up. Without any other blood.

Give up your life, Devil.

It means that no one else has to die but that one.

- I don't know if the past was more or less than it is now, but I'm telling you right now he's an asshole. Honestly, if he pushed you away, the nobles would like it if they liked it. There's no need to rebel. There are a lot of nobles looking forward to it.

It also meant that Chase and Arianne were not thinking of starting a civil war, and that the nobles would never cause a civil war over Chase's inheritance of the crown.

- Keep explaining. I'm listening.

- We don't know that we know that you have a disease. We don't even know that we know it's time to call in Tensyl's healer. I'm just saying that the wretched man who attacked me this time had a Tensyllabic necklace, and my mother is angry with it and is keeping the Tensylvanians from entering Sacritia even stronger. I have never faced you directly. So you can't just send soldiers.

Kalian is missing.

It means you've made a good cause.

Even if that is a very private reason, it is sufficient for Marquis Lynn to harshly change his attitude toward Tensyl. I could not have doubted its true intentions if my daughter was almost in danger and the mother who had the power to prevent the same from doing the same would have reacted a little too much.

- I will not use my sword. I don't think it matters, but I do. Anyway, you're not here right now, and doing the same thing in the past means I get to take the crown without a good reason to understand myself.

In the past, I would have killed the healer who was called to the Devil to avenge Bern or protect him, but this time there is no reason.

If we intervene deeply in Devil's death even if there is no Bern to bring him out of Devil's thorny arms, Chase will only be the son who interfered with his father's treatment to take the crown.

- Even if the nobles complain about you now, no matter how wrong your methods are, intervening in your death and sitting on your throne is inevitable for me. But I know three, and I'm not the kind of person who can think of it as okay. At least when you were around, I'd give myself immunity for you, but not now.

Bringing the Devil to his death for vengeance on Bern, who is not in this world, or putting the Devil to his death for Callian, who has nothing to do with what he is now. There was no rational excuse for Chase to convince and forgive himself.

Even Bern, who hated him so much, called him his father. Even so, he chose not to put a knife to his father. Chase won't be any different.

Chase is Devil's son after all.

So, what Arianne meant was that if Chase did the same thing in the past, he would spend his whole life feeling guilty about hurting his father without justification.

- I don't want my man to find excuses to understand himself and be covered in blood for the rest of his life. I don't want to see his wisdom clouded by guilt. But three times I said I would do it. You said not to get in your way. I don't want to stop him because I understand that degradation, but I can't see him ruining it.

That sounds reasonable.

It is not normal for Chase now to rebel against the Devil because of Bern. No one will be convinced that Calian killed Devil Lan.

And Arianne was saying that she didn't want Chase to live in a state of guilt. Chase is definitely someone else than he was then. We shouldn't make excuses about things that don't exist.

- So I'll do it this time. What you've done so far has given me reason to. But I knew I couldn't do it alone. So I called for help. Honestly, I know how selfish I am right now, and I'm sorry I don't know what to say to you, but I can't help it. I'm more important to my fiancé than you are.

And Arianne adds,

I didn't want Chase to live in a state of guilt, and he had a reason to punish Devil, so he stepped up for Chase. So help me.

- You don't have to be sorry. It's not selfish.

Callian smiles slightly.

How can you call Arianne selfish?

- Tell me what you need help with.

- Tensyl's healer can't be here. I told you I'd never let you come. And you can't fight the nobles in front of you right now. I was too sick to do that. So instead of ignoring the justification she made and forcing the healer to come in, she might want to call in another healer who won't let in the justification.

Arianne stops speaking for a moment.

Glug, and about the time another drop of water flowed down the cup, it continued.

- I'm sure he'll reach out. Someone who thinks his life is more important than the world by waxing out other people's lives like candles. Because whoever it is, once they call us in and get better, they're gonna think that they can kill us all, or they can get down on their knees, and they can shut us up and cover us up in their own way. But if what the king is calling us is not Tensyl's healer, then we have no reason to stop him.

No way.

- And you know who the other healer is, not Tensyl's healer.

There was no past, there is now.

Neither Tensyl's healer nor Elf's healer. A man in desperate need of Devil's hand.

- · · · · · · Hina.

A funny smile comes from Calian's mouth, reciting that special name. Arianne, who had not heard of it, concluded a long story that she wanted to tell Kalian.

- So don't come. Whatever you do for a reason, do not come here with an excuse. Don't let that healer of yours come in here. Turn your back on the king, and this time you do it.

Arianne told Kalian what Chase would never ask her to say.

- I'm sorry, really.

Calian closes his eyes quietly and holds his breath.

I feel like the shadow of my past has become a ghost that I didn't bother to think about.

* * *

Whale crying.

"I remember wondering why. What is such a big beast that I'm so afraid to cry about?"

Yesterday he told the story of the stars falling from the sky, and today he told the whale cry that he had heard from the starry sea at night.

Why else?

"If I twist my whole body and cry, will I hear that sound? I don't know if I'll cry if I eat all my flesh. I don't know how to cry."

Suddenly, he asked if he had ever seen such a big beast. He told me that the roar of such a big beast was the saddest in the world. Keep a cup of black coffee in front of you.

I mean, why else?

I was just in my room. Why is that black guy sitting in front of a black car with his dead black eyes? Without telling me about it, I started talking about whale crying.

"I was curious about that. I didn't get on the boat to get close, but I made it to the high cliffs. I've seen the moon shining so far before."

Callian raises his slightly retracted hand to the height of my eyes, and very slowly moves up and down to mimic something moving forward.

"Just, you know, slowly climbing up and down the water. I was breathing and swimming. It was so peaceful that I wondered if it was really that beast who was crying."

He was not the man who once led a horse from the basement of Heicia's palace to Plants. So now Calian just sits there and tells his story. Knowing that, Plants was sitting across from him, listening to the story.

Without asking me why he did it again, or what happened to him, or what happened to his face.

"If I didn't keep my mouth shut and keep my eyes open, I couldn't hear it, so I couldn't see it clearly. So I almost lived without knowing whale crying. There was a day when I thought it was good to know that the still beast cried so much that I felt so alone with him."

Callian looks down at the untouched coffee and looks back at Plants.

"I heard it here again a long time ago."

Plants just slowly closes his eyes once and opens.

Khalian didn't look for a specific answer, he said.

"Because I remembered that day, I was fortunate to hear whale crying again. I'm glad I didn't know better. But I heard it again a little farther today."

I know what I don't need to see.

Plants also knows that the giant sea beast, who is always at peace, has to come out of the water to breathe. I know that I have to go through the contradiction of head over water to live, even though I can't go on living out of the water.

"Should I be thankful this time, or should I just pass on and regret not hearing anything from the beginning? Or maybe I should just grumble at my ears now that I understand that sound. I don't know about that."

So maybe Plants and Chase were right to make a whale cry. Or maybe I'm just a Calianite who comes up here and breathes poison that I can't swallow or spit.

Instead of telling them what the answer was, Plants just said the same thing yesterday.

"Eat and go."

If you think with that smart head, you don't know the answer, so if you do anything, just fill your head with hunger and go, like yesterday.

After staring at such plants for a long time, Kalian bows his head and laughs.

"He wants to eat again."

I didn't know what was in that hungry mind. I just kept laughing because I thought I was really hungry.

Now I can't bark, and I'm like, "Did you just say hi to me?" Ignoring my green eyes.