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"...But...but..."

Following Hitomi Hoshino's words, he glanced back at the group behind him who was still talking about helping him get rid of crime not long ago. Now he is caught in collective silence, silently watching his classmates of Hitomi Hoshino.

The shame on the face of a man named Hirohiro Ikuta, who committed such an unforgivable thing as a campus kidnapping case and greedily wanted to save himself from even the slightest guilt in the next trial from the law. The color is even worse.

However, the guilt in my heart and the idea in my heart that I don't want to spend the second half of my life in prison forever are dragged by two kinds of thinking!

Ikuta Hiroho, who had fallen into a state of great guilt, couldn't help gritting his teeth!

"If I really go to jail for this this time, then I might as well die. People in their forties are going to jail. After being released from prison, in the Japanese society, in addition to being a tramp , What else can I do..."

Along with Ikuta Hirohiro himself, he narrated the cruel reality that “anyone who loses the ability to work will be regarded as useless rubbish” formed by modern Japanese society.

From Hitomi Hoshino's mouth, he learned that his prison disaster was a disaster for Hiroshi Ikuta.

The repentance on his face derived from the feeling of guilt in his heart can’t help but because of his own narration, it turned into a deep feeling like when he first entered this classroom 15 minutes ago. The color of despair.

"What can I do after I am released from prison? What else can I do besides being a tramp?

Heh~ Sure enough, as I said at the beginning, are you just trash?"

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Um... I'm sorry everyone, because of some circumstances, today's Chapter 2 may be back a little bit later than usual.

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Chapter One Hundred and Sixty Four

"What else can you do after you have finished your sentence? What else can you do besides being a tramp? Oh~ Sure enough, as I said at the beginning, are you just rubbish?"

"..."

"A rubbish not as good as a tramp~"

"...I'm not rubbish."

At first, Hirohiro Ikuta, who encountered Hitomi Hoshino's name as rubbish, had not dared to refute, but after hearing Hitomi Hoshino's second sentence, he added the word "tramp" to taunt.

Hirohiro Ikuta, who had already been described as useless by Hitomi Hoshino, couldn't help it, with a tone like a weak little daughter-in-law who often encounters domestic violence next door. Said to Hitomi Hoshino.

It’s just that after hearing his weak emphasis and resistance, he knew that he had mentioned the tramp, and the other party thought that the life after being released from prison in the future might really have to be a tramp, and he felt a little bit in his heart. Hoshino Hitomi, who made the instinctive emphasis, couldn't help but show an extremely disdainful smile on his face at the moment the other party said this, accompanied by contemptuous eyes.

"Are you looking down on homeless people? What right do you have to look down on people? People sleep in the streets and sleep in the bridge holes. They don't steal or rob them. Sometimes they are even driven by the police and other low-level government workers. But people are still relying on their own strength to survive by picking up trash and cans thrown away by others, aren't they?"

"But... but... normal people don't want to live like that... if you don't want to live like that, you can't see the future at all..."

"So you don't even have the courage to live?"

"..."

"That's why I scold you for rubbish, but also look down on you~"

Hirohiro Ikuta lowered his head amidst Hitomi Hoshino's infinitely ironic reprimand, and faced the opponent with his dignified appearance.

Our Miss Hitomi still doesn't seem to be merciful, but continues to speak with her present image full of ridicule and disdain.

"Then why are you still thinking about revenge? Still thinking about revenge against the president of the company that persecuted you? Wouldn't it be alright to just die? Even people who don't expect to get revenge against you in the future Does it make sense?

Turn me around now and face the window of the classroom behind you. Although this classroom is not very high, it is only the height of the second floor, but if you fall head down, you can still throw people on the ground first. dead.

Take a look, do you want to jump down and wave goodbye to this extremely gloomy world before you are caught by the police coming?

Turn me around, don’t hesitate to walk to the edge of the classroom window and jump upside down~You idiot~"

Hoshino Hitomi, who is not emotional, said so.

In the face of Hitomi Hoshino's bewilderment, Hirohiro Ikuta, in despair, turned around to the classroom window behind him as requested by Hitomi Hoshino.

Looking at the open window of the classroom, he hesitated for a long time. In the end, the expression on his face was extremely complicated. In the end, he complied with Hitomi Hoshino's words and passed the teachers and students who were standing in front of him looking at him. , Came to the classroom window.

Looking out the window, as Hitomi Hoshino said, the distance between the classroom on the second floor of the elementary school and the ground floor of the playground downstairs is not very high.

But at this height, if a person jumps head-down with the determination to die, he can still let the dying person and the world wave something else.

Suddenly, there seemed to be a voice in Ikuta Hiroho's heart that started to confuse him, and that voice kept urging him to jump down, just like that without hesitation.

Yes~ It is such a future in itself, and even if you successfully avenge yourself, you will not be able to return to the stable and glorious life of the past.

After committing a school kidnapping at the age of forty-two, if he didn't want to be a tramp, he would only die.

At this time, I couldn't deal with the cute and kind children in this class, and I couldn't drag these children to accompany myself to death.

Is there anything in this world worthy of no owner like him?

He~ In the end, he can only be such a loser who makes no sense to avenge the president who framed him...

but...

When a man named Hirohiro Ikuta thought of this, when he stretched his hands toward the window, when his palms tremble uncontrollably and grabbed the edge of the classroom window.

When he stepped on a chair in the classroom, he tried to stick half of his body out the window.

When he was about to keep his head down and fall to the ground, he jumped down.

"I...I can't do it..."

All life-threatening things require courage to do, and all the things that require courage follow the one-hundred-for-nothing, and then fail, and exhaust the truth of this world.

When a dying person loses the courage that arises from his heart after being dazzled by anger, when the dying person starts thinking rationally in the direction called hope.

After he gave up the brutal force that he had faced with death at the beginning, he almost didn't think about anything except death, in a short time, let him face death for the second time.

He has completely lost his identity as a suicide.

No one can suffer the huge blow of living three times in one day, and for the same reason, no one can have the ability to face two suicides in a row in one day.

This is the instinct of living beings and the nature of human beings. It is a kind of fear from the depths of the soul that all animals can derive from the heart under the existence of death.

"Do you understand where your weakness is?"

"Yes..."

"Do you know why I said you are worse than a tramp?"