Tongi was in the dark.
"I can't come out again...."
I trembled and shrunk in fear. I can't move. I was about to be eroded by the darkness that haunted my whole body.
It is neither warm nor cold.
A space blocked from all senses.
I couldn't cry, I was just scared and lonely, and Tongi was trembling.
How long have you been doing that?
How long should I keep doing that?
Do I have to endure a long time here again?
When I think about it, the darkness of despair creeps into my heart. It's filled to every corner, and you're attacked by a feeling like you're gone.
"I'm scared... I'm scared. It's scary. Master...!
Call someone who's not here because he's scared.
There shouldn't have been anything to respond to.
However,
"Mmm...."
A little groan Ugh Tonyoshi looks up happily when he hears you.
Soon the noise returned to the silent space.
You can hear the wind roaring through the trees from afar.
Tongi blinked several times.
If you look closely, the light that slightly leaked in from the gap in the wall plate makes the outline of the room appear thin and floating in the dark.
This was the barn where I always slept.
The soft, warm feeling of this shark is on Fenrir's stomach, where his husband is always riding instead of sleeping on the bed.
(It was a dream...)
Tonyoshi sighed with relief from the bottom of his heart.
It was all a dream. It was just a scary nightmare, a memory of the past.
Still, just remembering it brings back the fear that shrinks deep inside your chest. Tonyoshi shook his tiny body.
At that time, there was something moving very close. Behind my husband's back, lying face to face. He turned around.
Since his body was thin and cold, Tongi quietly approached his husband without making any noise and lay down with his back attached to his large back.
My husband's body temperature is transmitted through his back. I think my husband has a high temperature for humans. Because the heat that comes through your arm is higher when you're held by someone else than when you're held by someone else.
I was worried that if I slept again, I would be captured in that terrible memory of the past again, but I felt like I could sleep if I felt the signs of my husband like this.
If that's how I used to pee on my husband.
"Ah, that? Tongi?... What's wrong?
I feel my husband rising above my back. Tongi panicked about waking him up.
"I'm sorry."
Apologize immediately. Because I thought you might get mad.
However, my husband was still asleep after scratching his head.
"Oh, I see. Was it too dark and scary?"
I murmured so much.
And my husband came down from Fenrir's stomach,
"Wait a minute. Sure, around here...."
Start searching the floor for something by hand.
If you've been looking at what you're doing for a while,
"Ah, there it is."
My husband shouted with a pleasant voice. Then, lift something long from the floor that you grabbed in your hand.
It was like a long rod.
My husband threw the pole at the ceiling and hung it several times.
Then, a starry sky that looked like a square cut appeared in the dark ceiling.
Tonyoshi rounded his eyes and nailed them to the starry sky peeking through the skylight.
It was only after a while that I realized that I had opened the skylight for ventilation.
Cut empty.
It was a sight similar to the outside view from inside the Spirit Gun.
Glittering stars pour in. It is bright at night because the moon is rising.
"You're not scared anymore, are you?
My husband gently licked Tonyoshi's head a few times, and he went up to Fenrir again, put on a blanket on his stomach and lay down.
In the dark barn, long and thin moonlight plunges in, lighting the floor quietly.
Looking around, I could see the inside of the barn pretty clearly.
Reflecting light in it, two large, round things float.
It was Fenrir's eyes. It seems that Fenrir was observing Tongi's interaction with his husband in silence.
My husband can already hear me breathing.
This is not a world without colors.
I'm not the only one here.
I'm not alone anymore.
I was glad to think so, and Tongi rushed up to Fenrir's stomach and approached my husband.
It was supposed to stick to my back just like before, but now my husband was turning around and forced me to dive into my chest.
Still, my husband doesn't hate me, he opens his arms and puts them in the blanket he was wearing and hugs me.
With the warmth and comfort conveyed, some time the memory of nightmares completely disappeared.
All that's left is one and two gentle breaths filling the barn.
The moon's light was shining quietly.