I Favor the Villainess

"What do you want me to do?

On the morning of the day when the College was about to begin, Lady Claire and I were visiting Lady Yu of the Royal Palace.

If it were meant to be, it would take time to offer to see the prince in the designated procedure and to be accepted.

It's rather exceptional when you're in college.

However, this time, the interview was immediately fulfilled because the application was made via Lily for the special reason that "there is a cure that can be used for Yu's illness".

On the face of it, it was an interview with Claire in the position of a "doctor" who might be able to solve Yu's problem.

As I went about solving the problems between you and Misha, I wanted to confirm the will of you first.

I was able to listen to Misha to some extent, but hearsay is often passed on in a distorted manner.

I wanted to hear straight away what you think of yourself.

"There's no choice, Master Yu."

I offered to pay people because I wanted to hear what was not abominable about you, but I didn't want to be alone with you just to be involved in the whole royal palace either.

I know it means a watchman, but Chancellor Suras is present.

I guess this guy's busy too, so you don't have to come.

As always, my impression of Master Suras sucks.

Master Larsus turned to us and continued.

Is that Mr. Thorus?

"I'm sorry to hear that, too, but I'd have trouble if you hadn't been a prince. It's not the size of an individual's will anymore."

"I know what you think, Master Suras. Of course, I know that, and I know this Ray."

Claire took comfortably the words of Lord Sarace that our inquiry was an unspeakable one.

"But then again, if you know what you really think, you can't follow up on your feelings even after all the masculinity has been achieved."

If we continue to be unable to do so, we need to prepare ourselves well in advance, Master Claire tells Master Suras.

I always think that Master Claire is amazingly sensible in this kind of public place.

The usual arrogant wagamama lady figure has no shadow or shape.

The figure of Lady Claire as the perfect warrant is here.

"I mean, you guys want to hear what Yu really means for the care of your feelings, regardless of which way you fix Yu's gender?

"It's on your left."

Hmmm......, and Master Suras put his hand on his chin as he thought.

In doing so, Master Suras looks very beautiful.

The creation of a silver hair and a cold, neat face with red eyes similar to Lily's has a wide range of female fans inside and outside the royal palace.

Even the popular vote by the players in the game should have been pretty high.

Just as common men are vulnerable to beauty, so are common women, after all, vulnerable to handsome men.

Dear Claire, there is nothing that sounds like anything to me.

"I think Claire and the others have a point, Master Yu"

"Then don't hesitate to say it, okay?

It seemed that the concession made by Suras, the watchman, made Yu decide to reveal his feelings.

"As for me... I figured if I could go back, I'd go back to being a woman."

"Dear Yu......"

"Don't look like that, Sarace. I have no choice but to keep being a man. But, you know, there's nothing I can do about my feelings."

Yu said with regret to Sir Saras, who brings up the expression of concern.

"I can barely maintain my physical and mental balance because I can still return to my body once a month, on a full moon day. I don't think you'll be able to stay just fine once this is completely fixed to a man's body."

Master Yu didn't break his usual princely look until he got tired of it, but I thought the words now contained indisputable authenticity.

In my previous life, I was a homosexual myself and interacted with various types of sexual minorities.

Some of them suffered from gender disharmony, but such people also wore heterosexual clothing and took hormonal drugs to stabilize their psyche.

Of course, those methods will not be a fundamental solution.

Even with the medical skills of Japan in the twenty-first century, it was impossible to completely transform the body born as a certain gender into the opposite sex.

Still, even if it was symptomatic, the methods described above were indispensable for those suffering from gender discord.

I think it's wrong to assume that symptomatic therapy doesn't make sense because it doesn't heal.

"Claire, Ray, is there any way to solve this?

Master Suras asks us.

"Can you give Ray permission to speak?"

"I don't mind. I am more fruitful than my name."

"Thank you very much. Ray."

"Yes, there are two ways"

"Let's hear it."

When I heard there was, Master Suras came up with himself.

"One is to keep it that way,"

"... so that hasn't solved anything?

"I think the best way to reconcile the royal palace that wants Yu to be a man with Yu's desire to be a woman is now"

"... another way?

Master Suras urged ahead with a slightly discouraged appearance.

"The other way... is to make you a woman"

"... were you listening to me? We don't have that option anymore."

"On the face of it, I will abolish you"

"... what are you going to say, you"

I overlap words.

"We have to continue to treat Master Yu as a prince of inheritance, which makes the conversation more difficult. If you let Yu go of his temper, you won't mind which way Yu's body is."

"Are you asking me to expose the shame of the royal palace?

"It's not. After being abandoned, Master Yu will announce that he has become ill and will go to the monastery. I will put on some of your side service and ask you to spend some time there. There are some limitations on your scope of action, but you should be able to solve everything that concerns your body."

"Do you know what you're talking about?

Master Suras' pitiful voice flies.

Would I have stepped in too much?

"Is that... telling me to live a life of solitary confinement in a convent?

"Basically, yes, but it's not claustrophobic. That could really happen in the beginning, but if you stretch your hair and apply makeup, it should also be possible to go outside as a high-ranking nun. Fortunately, you look very feminine."

I'm not even going to say that living in solitary confinement is the solution, etc.

Some inconvenience will be tolerated.

"How to do it with Ray and fix your body as a man?

"I don't know you."

"... because I say there is a way to solve the problem, I gave you special permission to look at it with Master Yu, and this doesn't make any sense"

Oh, boy. Dear Sarace, drop your shoulder.

No, it's not.

"Dear Sir Suras, Shouldn't we call it a resolution that you will be able to live with your original gender?

"You shouldn't. Because the will of the royal palace is to let you live as a man until you are tired."

"Even though there are two other heirs to the throne?

"Okay, Ray-Taylor. You're simply saying that obsolescence is inherently a punishment imposed on a royal family who has committed a serious sin, isn't it? We can't let that happen to you."

"I think it would be more of a punishment for you to continue in your current state"

I ate down.

"... a little, that's too much language. Whatever Claire is, there's no need for you, a civilian, to speak to the dark side of the royal palace."

"Are you willing to let Master Leishe wipe his outrageous ass for life, even though Master Yu has no sin whatsoever"

"The sight is over. Stand back."

"Dear Sir Suras!

"... Ray, I'm glad you feel. But there are things in the world that can't be helped."

That said, Master Yu, who smiled at me, was going to disappear now.

More than a decade of being forced to live as a man keeps you from choosing from Yours to live as a woman.

"That's it, Ray. Thank you, Sir Yu, Sir Suras."

"Think there will be no next time in this matter"

"... Yes, sir."

I was still full of what I wanted to say, but I made sure Claire dragged me out of the sight with you.

When I went outside, it was starting to rain.

I just left the royal palace, and the two of us wait for the carriage to pick me up.

"... Ray... you..."

"Does Master Claire think that's fine!?

I said somewhat lightly because Lady Claire had called out in such a frightened voice.

The rain foot gets a little stronger.

"I don't think that's a good idea. But as Yu said, there's nothing the world can do about it."

"Is that what Lady Claire says? Was it just pre-construction that you said you didn't want to escape from your ideals into reality?"

"... how long have you been great enough to slap your mouth like that"

"It doesn't matter if it's great or not. But Master Yu, if you can't save a single one, it's another dream to try to save all the civilians."

"Ray!"

In the tone of Lady Claire's strong blame, I returned to me.

Shit, I overstated it.

"... sorry"

"What are you getting hot about? I don't think so, do I?

"Misaki was. She... no, he was forced to spend time with another gender"

It's a story from a previous life.

Misaki was born as a woman and was a child who wanted to be a man.

"I still didn't get the understanding around me just like you did this time, and as a result of continuing to impose... I killed myself"

I lay my eyes down so I could not see, but I could hear Lady Claire breathing.

"He didn't die because he couldn't hear his wishes. My wish died because I couldn't stand the trouble around me."

"... that's... that's hard"

Misaki has been spilling a lot since she joined me in the search for a cock.

How could I not have been born with the gender of my heart?

Why do we have to put up with what others naturally enjoy?

If I was a man, I could have been with Kosaki.

I tried to help him to the best of my ability, but in the end, it wasn't enough to heal his wounds.

"In Misaki's case, there was no solution. Because he wasn't otherwise heterosexual. But Master Yu has the right solution. Yet..."

"That's enough. Welcome."

With that said, Master Claire hugged me.

I couldn't wait to get to Master Claire.

"I still remember. At the funeral, she leads to Misaki's coffin and she cries."

"Yes."

"Yet the world... even Misaki's parents blamed him. Misaki shouldn't have been weak, Misaki's suffering is more wrong."

"Yes."

"Never repeat that again. It's too late to die, really."

"Right."

I wasn't crying.

But Master Claire was gentle as if she were going to abandon a grumpy baby, hugging me forever and ever.

At some point, the rain was so shabby that it annihilated our voices.

Until the carriage arrived, Lady Claire kept hugging me.

The rain never stopped that day.