When I went to Grandpa Will, Jill was in the corner of the room.
You don't seem to be suffering anymore. I stroked my chest down.
"Why are you here like that?
Jill turned to me slowly when I spoke.
Jill's chiseled brown bossy hair with gray eyes.
Beautiful gray eyes but staring in the dark. Looks like he's in despair.
"I'm Alicia."
Saying that to Jill doesn't respond at all. Just staring at me.
I wonder what happened. Is this a rebellion?
I wonder if there will be a period of rebellion at the age of six.
"I'm closing my heart."
"Even to Uncle Will?
"No, I don't..."
Then I'll let you open your heart to me at all costs.
Bad girls shouldn't be inferior to people.
Jill's scared of people.
That's what Grandpa Will said.
That's right, it's weirder not to be afraid of people after all that experience.
Beat me up and pretend everyone doesn't see it...... You're all weak.
People don't feel confident about abusing weak things.
True bad girls don't do that.
"Alicia should be able to open Jill's heart."
Uncle Will's words give me confidence, though they have no basis whatsoever.
But even when I open my heart, I can't speak like a Virgin, and I hate beauty. I'm in trouble.
At times like this, Mr. Liz can get along with Jill in an instant.
... If Liz can get along in an instant, I need to get along in an instant too!
Something I can't abuse if I'm inferior when I abuse Mr. Liz.
I slapped myself on both cheeks and tightened my mind.
I'll make you thirsty like a bad girl.
"Hey, Jill. Are you afraid of people? Don't make me laugh. Then why didn't you die?
Jill stares at me.
"If people are scared and not involved, shouldn't they have died? The world you're going to live in is full of people. You're gonna be in the corner of this room for the rest of your life?
Be angry with me.
I hope you don't look at me with such emotionless eyes.
"You could have died like that, couldn't you? You have such a high fever that you bleed out of your head... Unless you wanted to live, you were supposed to be dead like that, right? I did give you the pills. I brought my medicine just to my satisfaction. But you had a choice not to swallow the water with that medicine, didn't you?
Jill stares at me lightly.
Maybe I'm a genius who can piss people off after all.
"You can live because of it, but you keep running away from the scary stuff? You made your choice, didn't you?
"No..."
Jill moved her mouth small.
Yay! Finally. I'd like to show this moment to Mr. Liz.
"No? You don't look like that."
"What do you know? To the aristocracy..."
That's what Jill said as she stared at me in a great shape.
"Nah, I don't know. 'Cause the world I lived in was different."
I dared to make a foolish face and say so.
Jill turns a blind eye to me now.
"But I helped you. I'm responsible, too."
"What?"
"Jill doesn't want to live, but maybe I let him live, so if you want to die, I'll kill you."
I opened my eyes and looked at Jill.